Tris.
The nurse leaves abruptly after my third feeding. I feel like an animal. Only after what I can guess was several hours did Christina come to visit me. I could tell she was shaken, but I couldn't understand what from and she was wearing the biggest coat for this time of year. She looked furious. "What the hell, do you think is so special about you? Huh? Because you're small and dainty and pretty and courageous and divergent and shit. Who cares? No-Body, not your brother, your dead mother and father or your bloody boyfriend. You know what he did to me this afternoon, he tried to sexually abuse me, he lured me into his apartment and attacked me. He said he never wanted you, he was only using you to get to me and that he purposely killed Uriah to get to me. Is that what Love is? Huh, is that what love is about because Tobias Eaton or 4 whatever you call him is a Cowardly bastard!" She spat at me, and walked away. What has he done?
Another day passed and I'm alone in my cell, thinking over Christina's talk. Tobias couldn't have done all that. He would never hurt anybody, however it does explain why he took part of the explosion. No, no my Tobias, my four couldn't have done any of that. He is perfect, she is wrong. But what if he had, what if she was telling the truth. No she can't be, but what if she is? I did kill her first real boyfriend why not destroy the relationship, I have with mine? Only once I begin to drift off to sleep I realise I am mumbling 4 and 6 over and over, slowly going crazy. I wake up and begin my new routine sit in a corner and wait for meal time. My food comes earlier than expected. "Just give me the food and leave please." I can feel her lingering in the doorway when I realise she is here, visiting me again and I know I am in danger.
It was Tobias, he comes to hug me and I hug him back and whisper, "What have you done?" He pulls away, staring me in the eye. Something happened between him and Christina, he asked about her. Oh my god, he did it, he abused her. He purposely killed Uriah, his best friends brother. I am in love with a monster.
"Can we please have a moment?" He asked to the nurse. I was stunned, I couldn't move, how could I be so blind. Nothing in my life ever works out. I make the wrong choices again, and again and again and again. "What did Christina, tell you. Whatever it is, it is a lie. Everything she has ever said has been a lie. I love you, no matter what she said to you, I love you." He pulled me into a hug but I shoved him off. I am furious with everybody in my life.
"You sexually abused her, you intended to Kill Uriah, your best friends brother and that is supposed to be love? You were using me to get to her. How could you, I trusted you, I love you! Correction, I loved you." It killed. I collapse, and I ball.
"I never abused her, I can promise you. She told me that she wanted to talk when she undressed, I threw her off and out of my apartment. I never took advantage of her, I never laid a finger on her. And Uriah, I never meant to harm him, Zeke and Uriah are brothers to me, I would never kill anyone of them. I love you, I have since the minute you appeared in that net, and I will love you until the day I die. She has held a grudge against you since Will died, that is why you are in here. That is why she guilted you into moving in with her. I would never do anything to harm our relationship. Our relationship is the single best thing in my life and I would never, ever use you under any circumstance." He wrapped his arms around me.
"I believe you." I wanted to say more but I didn't know how after everything. We laid against the wall with his arms around me. We heard a faint shout coming from outside and Christina came running in.
"What the hell is going on? Why are you with him, he abused me and took advantage of me!" It almost looked like the truth, "You are a bastard for what you did to me." I couldn't take it anymore.
"I get it, I get that you're mad at me for what I did to Will, you have every right to be mad, but you cannot keep taking it out on me and on Tobias! You are a lying scumbag and you are nothing but bad memories. So leave now! And thank you for this lovely room you got for me, it's beautiful." I shove her out of the door while the nurse stared at me in confusion. She slowly walked in.
"Is that why you are? Did she make you stay in here." the nurse asked, "Because if so then you can leave. You are no longer required in the hospital for checkups and obviously you were tricked into leaving, so you're free to go and on behalf of the hospital department, we are extremely sorry for the inconvenience." She smiled awkwardly and moved out of the way as we exited.