I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT.

Thank god, I thought to myself as the final bell sounded. I was so looking forward to this weekend, just me and Jasper. Alone. I am a little worried about what Jasper might be expecting to happen between us. I know he would never push me into anything that I am not ready for but I know he would like to take our relationship to that next level. I just don't know if I am ready yet. Don't get my wrong, I would love nothing more than to share that with him but after what happened between Edward and I, the one and only time we tried to do it, I just don't know. And that was something I was planning on talking to Jasper about this weekend.

When I got to Jasper's car out in the parking lot he was already standing there waiting for me.

"Thank god that day is over." I said as I walked up to him and gave him a hug.

"Long day?" He asked as he placed a light kiss on my cheek.

"Not really, just looking forward to this weekend with you."

"Have you got something big planed that I don't know about?" He asked jokingly as we got into his car.

"Not at all, I am spending it relaxing and doing nothing. How about you?"

"I don't know, I thought I might head to Vegas, hook up with some girls, spend some money like I do most weekends."

"Lucky you I have to spend it with my boyfriend hanging around." I was trying so hard not to laugh but his next statement did me in.

"I heard he was a bit of an ass. I also heard that he tries to suck the life out of everyone he meets."

He could be so playful at times and he looked so cute when he was doing it. We didn't say anything else to each other until we got inside my place and I broke the silence,

"Jasper?"

"Yes, Bella."

"Do you mind if we have a bit of a talk tonight? I need to tell you about something." I still didn't how I was going to tell him about what happened between Edward and me.

"Okay, have I done something wrong or has something happened." I could hear the worry in his voice and I could also feel the panic rolling off of him.

"Jasper. Stop panicking you're killing me. I can't handle it." I said a bit out of breath, his emotions really were taking a lot out of me. I fell to the floor trying to suck in as much air as possible.

"God Bella, I'm so sorry. Are you okay?' He said as he dropped to the floor next to me.

"I will be." Was all I could get out.

"I'm going to go calm down, I'll be back in a few minutes."

"No. Stay. Please."

I could feel him calming down already and I was starting to feel better. I didn't want him to feel like he couldn't show his emotions around me, but that felt like hell. I knew if he left he wouldn't stop thinking about what had just happened and I needed him to see that I was okay. He picked me up and placed me on his lap as he sat down on the lounge.

"Bella, I am so sorry. I didn't realise how strongly I was projecting. Are you sure you will be okay?"

"I am fine. I am almost back to my normal self. I'm sure you can hear my heart, it's slowing down. I didn't mean to worry you like that. Are you okay?"

"I'm fine. I didn't mean to do that. It just over took me. Alice said nearly the exact same words to me the day they left and you kind of freaked me out, sorry."

"Come on let's go up to my room and relax on the bed. I think I need to take a nap, you kind of made my tired and not in a good way." I said as I got up of his lap and stumbled to the stairs. As I reached the stairs I felt Jasper's arm around me and then I was been picked up. The next thing I knew he was placing me on the bed.

"What was that for?"

"It's the least I can do considering it's my fault you're so worn out. Do you want me to get you anything….water, food?"

"Jasper the only thing I want you to do right now is get on this bed with me, hold me and relax….please."

Without another word he was by my side with his arms wrapped so tightly around me I thought he would snap me.

"Jasper….baby came you loosen your hold on me just a little, I need air."

"I don't know what is wrong with me today. Maybe I should just go. I keep hurting you."

"You are NOT going anywhere until I say so. Do you understand me? I'm not hurt I'm fine." I said as I put my head on his chest. I really must have been exhausted, no soon had Jasper started to run his fingers through my hair I could feel sleep start to take over me.

I don't know how long I slept; I could feel Jasper stroking my cheek and whispering in my ear that it was time to wake up that Charlie would be home soon. I slowly opened my eyes and my heart skipped a beat, I was looking into the most beautiful pair of eyes I had ever seen.

"Hey beautiful. Did you have a good sleep?" He said softly as he looked in to my eyes. Nether of us could look away from the other.

"I did." I responded as my lips found his. Too quickly he pulled away and said we had to stop before Charlie got home and found us like this.

Jasper stayed in my room as I went down stairs to get a glass of water and something quick to eat. As I sat down at the table to eat I heard Charlie pull up in the driveway. He walked through the door with pizza in his hand for his dinner. I couldn't wait for him to finish eating, I knew once he had he would be off to bed, he had a couple of big days ahead of him and he wouldn't get much sleep at the station. He always tried to sleep as much as possible the night before his double shifts.

As soon as I heard Charlie's door close I ran up the stairs back to my man. He was sitting at my desk reading a book when I walked through the door.

"Baby, can you come sit with me on the bed?" He did so without looking at me. His head leaning back against the wall. I crawled over to him and placed myself between his legs with my back leaning against his chest. It was going to be easier to tell him what I had to say if I couldn't see his face. I took a deep breath and started,

"I need you to know about something that happened between Edward and me." I said as I closed my eyes. "A few months before he left we tried….god why is this so hard for me to say? Wetriedtohavesex." I said in one long word.

"Okay. What do you mean by you 'tried'? Do you want to tell me about it?"

I nodded my head to answer him and he put his arms around me pulling me in closer to him.

"We had been talking about trying for a few days, I told him about how I was going to be in some pain and that there would be some bleeding but not much. He said he knew all that and that he would be able to handle it. But when it came time….when he was fully inside me, he looked at my face and saw the amount of pain I was in and then he saw my tears….he pulled out and jumped off the bed to get dressed, then just took off. I felt so humiliated, so rejected, I cried for hours. And then when he didn't come back that night I thought it must have been something I did that made him take off. When he came by the next day he could hardly look at me, he didn't want to talk about it and I needed to. I needed to know if it was something I did or if it was just that it was too much for him but he wouldn't talk to me." I said as I wiped the tears away that had started to fall.

Jasper stayed silent holding me until I had stopped crying, then he turned me so I was facing him and said,

"I promise you, that when we are ready to go to that next level in our relationship, I will not leave you no matter what happens. I know that our first time together will still be painful for you and I will take it as slow as I can. I won't back away from you unless you tell me to. Ok."

"Ok." I said as he placed a kiss on the top of my head.

"I was worried that you might be expecting something to happen this weekend. I just don't know if I am ready to yet. Is that ok?"

"Baby, listen to me. I am not expecting anything to happen, if it did that would be wonderful but we are not going to do anything that you're not ready for. I don't care if I have to wait years for you, I will. I love you Bella and I am not going anywhere."

Oh. My. God. Did he just say he loves me? I must have been hearing things.

He must have be feeling some kind of confusion coming off me, because he placed his hand in either side of my face and looked me straight in the eyes and said,

"Yes I said I love you and I really do, I mean it. You are my whole life. I have loved you for what seems to be forever. I haven't said it before now because I didn't think you were ready to hear it."

It was in that moment that I truly knew that I loved him too.

"Thank you for waiting until now to say it, I really don't think I was ready to hear it before now." I said then gave him a kiss, then continued,

"That first night you came to me, I couldn't really understand why you were there and I really didn't care all I knew was that I didn't want you to leave. When you held me for the first time it was so comfortable, it felt like I belonged there, like I should have been there all along. You brought me back to life and for that I will always be grateful. When Edward left it was like I had this whole in me that I thought would never go away but you quickly filled it with the happiness you made me feel. I never thought that I would feel that happy again but now, I am even happier. I have never been this happy in my life and it's all because of you. For that I say thank you and I love you to."

The rest of the night was spent kissing and cuddling until I fell asleep safe in Jasper's arms.

A/N: I know a lot of you want this chapter to be their weekend alone, sorry but I think Bella needed to have this conversation with him to make her realise that she was in love with him and no longer felt anything for Edward.

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