I DON'T OWN ANYTHING, ANYBODY, OR ANY LYRICS EVER MENTIONED EVER IN THIS FIC, UNLESS OTHERWISE STATED. ...I do keep Hyde locked in my linen closet, though. He's small, so he fits. XD Right beside the vacuum cleaner...? XDDD

(a/n) I had wanted to wait until I got some more reviews to post, buuut...I really couldn't ignore the rabid plot bunny gnawing at my arm...

Sho

I paused in my writing as a particular song came on my CD player.

I had been listening to alot of the classics lately; namely, a pair who were famous right before I was born: Gackt and Hyde. It was funny, how their lyrics seemed to be written to each other; what was even more strange was the way some of their lyrics seemed to be written for Kei and I. I grinned as I started singing along to the song currently playing. "Negai tsume wo taterareta boku~~!" (1)

He had the decency to blush as he remembered what had taken place between he and Kei just the night before. He ducked his head into the pillow, rolling around like an excited child, kicking his feet, his cries muffled in the pillow. Realizing that his lover could walk in at any moment to find him spazzing, he abruptly stopped, switching the song to stop his perverted chain of thoughts.

He smiled softly as he listened intently to the lyrics of the new song playing in the background. It was by Our Lady Peace, an old song called 'Somewhere Out There.' It was the theme song for he and Kei's first meeting and early years. He continued to smile as he fell asleep, just before Kei walked in. The blonde smiled down at him, slipping into a pair of sweat pants and a tank top before pulling up the blankets and sliding into his arms. He fell asleep to the soft music.

A child Sho snuck into the boarded up wing of the hospital where Shinji had told him not to go. He had had a bad feeling about that place, and didn't want something to happen to his little brother, even if he could be a pain in the ass. He gasped upon finding someone who looked incredibly familiar...he just couldn't place him. Feeling he was in no danger near the stranger, he giddily skipped up to the blonde. "Hiya!"

'Last time I talked to you,
You were lonely and out of place.'

He glanced in my direction, beautiful brown eyes glazed over and dead. How I hated to see anyone so distraught and saddened. I held out my open hand, and smiled as he hesitantly put his trembling hand in mine.

Time moved forward. It was later that night, well after sunset. We walked happily, -well, I was happy, anyway- through the shadows. I pulled him along by the hand, glancing through the deep blue night. I smiled up at the stars, lost to the wonders of the beautiful world of darkness.

'You were looking down on me,
lost out in space.'

You crouched down to my level, sitting back on your feet. You smiled every now and then, as if you had finally found some hope. You pointed out what few stars we could see through the smog and lights of the city, naming them as you went. I never thought one person could know so much about anything. You taught and gave me so many firsts, Kei. And this was only the first one.

'Laid underneath the stars,
Strung out and feeling great...'

We laid out the blanket I had covered you with on the ground. I plopped down, and with a sigh, you did the same.

'Watch the red-orange glow,
Watch it float away.'

We watched as the last few rays of sunlight were chased from the skies overhead. I was twelve, and we had long since found a home for ourselves. I plopped down between your legs as you stretched, making you smile. You pulled me into your arms, pressing a kiss to the top of my head affectionately before beginning a less than silent assault on my ribcage. Yes, it was the dreaded tickle attack.

'Down here in the atmosphere,
Garbage and city lights...'

I watched from my perch at the window as you drunkenly stumbled through a dark alley, tripping over your own feet every so often. I was almost sixteen, and desperately in love with you.

'Gonna save your tired soul...'

I took the stairs three steps at a time, rushing to your aid. I had seen a group of men attack you--you were not only to 'drunk' to care, but too depressed as well. I dropped to your sife, pulling you into my arms. You were covered in blood--I could tell that it wasn't just your victim's. I cradled you tenderly, wishing more than anything that I could kiss you until you saw the light.

Time blasted forward again; this time I was nineteen, and we were going on the biggest mission we had had yet. You were as ageless, feral, and unattainable as ever. Even I couldn't lay claim to you; I feared if I did, you would break or run away.

I looked at you, breathing deeply to calm myself as I took in your various features. I let my eyes run freely over your unusually uncovered body. I'd never seen you expose more skin that that on your arms and face. Tonight, however, seemed to be different. Your usual baggy slacks had been replaced with incredibly tight leather pants, that, trust me, clung in all the right places. Your long sleeve shirt was gone; in its place was the tightest shirt I had ever seen. None of my shirts even held a candle to yours. If that wasn't enough, it was cut so low that if you had been a woman, you would have been scandalized! You called my name--both the real you, and the one I was slowly undressing and deliciously molesting in my fantasy. I quietly excused myself with the explanation of needing to find some spare ammo. I went to my bedroom, the room I had dreamt of taking you in countless times, and ran to the closet, locking myself and my raging hormones inside.

'You're gonna save our lives...'

You hoisted us up, tossing us behind some crates. Toshi yelled, panicked, until he realized we were to land on a pile of bean bag chairs. I swear, I'll never understand these gangsters and their affinity with childhood toys.

We ducked down to avoid getting hit. I nearly had a heart attack as I heard a barrage of bullets being shot in your direction. I was about to jump to your aid, when I heard a garbled cry that could mean only one thing--you'd been shot, and in a place where if you were human, you'd be dying. I readied my gun, jumping over the crates to come to your aid. I aimed my gun in front of me, glancing around to find that any potential opponent had already been disposed of.

I watched, hypnotized as you drained the leader. The pure eroticism of the way you feed never ceases to amaze me. The reason I refuse to watch you feed Kei, is not because of disgust--I don't want you to find how I still lust after you with every fiber of my being. It isn't just your body or your love I want; it's the dark part in me, that yearns for you to take what should only ever be mine. I want you to bury your fangs deep within me, claim me as yours, because you're too wild for me to claim for myself. I want you to touch me, in ways I've never dreamed of being touched. I wish desperately for the violations you could commit; I want to feel your teeth glide along my skin as your tongue laps possessively at what is rightfully mine. I want to cling to your body, feel as you take me, and take me deep; deep into a world where we could stay like this, forever, never ceasing in our dance of darkness. (2)

You drop the body, licking at the last little bits that are staining your chin. I walk back behind the crate, glaring and smacking Toshi as he playfully nudged me, obviously spying my arousal. "What, seeing your little lover kicking gangster ass in that tight leather got you hot?" He said, as well as several perverted comments I made sure to get back at him for later.

I turned to find you sauntering toward me, hips a-swaying, with eyes that hid surely provacative thoughts. In a heartbeat, you were beside me, Toshi forgotten. I glared down at Toshi, and he caught the message, crawling away quickly. You brought a hand to my cheek, lips parted, tongue flicking out temptingly, with just the absolute sexiest smirk on. God, I love it when you're drunk. I shuddered with the effort of trying to keep from jumping your bones right then and there. You, however, mistook this for disgust. You lightly patted my cheek, before walking away dejectedly.

Another time skip. It was only a few weeks later. I could tell you remembered what had (or rather, hadn't) taken place that night, as you were even more distant than before. The slightest brush of skin, and all walls completely went up. I was fed up with it.

"Kei!" You turned to look at me, but you hesitated, and were too slow. By the time you realized what was going on, I had already hoisted you over my shoulder. You started thrashing about. "Calm down, Kei-chan. Calm." I playfully hit the only area I could reach; is it my fault that that area just happened to be your ass? You immediately quit thrashing, and were reduced to being a stuttering mass. I carefully gripped your waist as I carried you down the stairs. Your scent was driving me crazy. It was certainly the most pleasant torture I had ever faced.

"Sho?" Without opening the door, -yes, I was showing off, I admit it-I set you inside the car.

"Yes?"

You closed your eyes as I brushed your bangs behind your ears. "What's going on? Where are you taking me?"

I smiled down at you, caressing your cheek. "We are going for a drive, Kei-chan." You blushed slightly, finally noticing the change in how I said your name.

'Turned on the radio to find you in satellite...'

I slid into the seat, grinning discreetly as I 'accidently' slid too far, brushing against you, our faces dangerously close. You broke eye contact first, instead staring down at your hands in your lap. I pulled away, clearing my throat awkwardly as I reached for the radio dial. You refused to look anywhere but your clasped hands. I sighed. Getting us back to a comfortable level would not be easy, but I knew there was no other choice. I was still in love with you, even after you so harshly rejected me. I was never one to give up easily--you of all people should have realized that. I glanced your way. But damn, you were making it hard. (3)

'I'm waiting for the sky to fall...'

I accelerate. We're on the open road now, with no one else anywhere in sight. I could tell you were loosening up, just by the change in the air between us. You always did like these drives, didn't you?

'I'm waiting for a sign.'

I moved my hand to the stickshift, changing gears. I glanced in the review mirror, conveniently angled in such a way that I could look at you without your knowledge. (Wow, that doesn't make me sound like a pervert at all.) Our gazes met. I looked away, blushing, as I tried to slow my heartbeat. It soon stopped dead, however, as I felt your hand rest on mine. My head snapped over to look at you, eyes wide. You smiled reassuringly, squeezing my fingers with your smaller hands. All negative feelings dissapated in that moment. The moment in the warehouse was behind us, and time moved forward again.

This time, I was twenty. You were gone, and I never knew if you would be coming back. If I had truly lost you, after all that we had been through--if even you deserted me like my family did, I would have no idea what to do. Toshi and Son tried to keep me busy, but when I would finally break away from them, all I would do was brood.

'You're falling back to the me
The star that I can see.'

I made my way through the night, avoiding street lights where possible. I heard someone pray for mercy, somewhere. They obviously hadn't known that the only gods here are those of Death.

That used to be us. But I can't do it without you, Kei. I won't let myself.

'I know you're out there,
Somewhere out there.'

I leaned against the wall and gasped as I felt my heart clenching in my chest. I'd been weak since you left--so, so weak...I tried to squash the hope that someday you'd be back, but my heart...my heart wasn't let me.

'You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity.'

God, Kei. Why would you do this to me? Why would you leave? Even if you hadn't known about my feelings for you, you would have realized that your departure would break me in a way that I could never be completely together ever again.

'I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.
Hope you remember me when
you're homesick and need a change.'

I stumbled into the apartment, dropping my things to the floor. Each day I grew in despair, and the future seemed more and more desolate. "Kei. Kei..." 'Kei.' Although it hurts to remember, it's even worse when I realize I'm starting to forget. Come home...please...

'...I miss your taste...'

God, what I wouldn't give to have you with me right now....to have you in my arms. I would never let you go, Kei. Never.

'I know you'll come back someday,
On a bed of nails, I wait.'

I keep imagining you, all alone in some alleyway. What do you think about when you manage to stay awake? Do you still sleep through the hunger, or do you feed now? Do you think of me? Do you remember me? Do you even know why you left, or did you just run to be free? Do you still dream? If you dream, do you dream of me?

'I'm praying that you don't burn out,
or fade away...'

I remember nightmares, night affter night, of having you back in my arms, just for flames to engulf you, turning you to ashes before burning me to death. It never stopped until the very end. Every moment of burning, every pain of searing flesh was felt. Is this how it feels for you to be in the sun, Kei? Is it? How did you bear it on that day we met?

'And all we are is all so far.'

I've changed, and I hate it. Shinji tried to offer me his escape. In a moment of desperation, I almost accepted. Had Toshi not burst in with news that he had seen you in the south ward, I would've. I was gone in a flash, heading home, where I knew that if you wanted me, that's where you'd be waiting. I burst throught the door, saw you lying on the living room couch, one leg propped up, the other bent, your arms wrapped around your stomach. You arched an eyebrow at my disheveled appearance, murmering in your quiet way. "Hey, Sho."

(1) It's a song fic. I wouldn't ever forgive myself if I didn't throw my favorite Vanilla line in there. XD (Means something along the lines of 'Your long fingernails have got me erect.' I, however, am currently too lazy to look up the exact transation.)

(2) Hell yes, there's double meanings in that. XD Triple, even, if you look really close.

(3) That too. XD

(a/n) Relatively short, but had I not stopped there, you would have to wait awhile for me to finish it. Ohmigawsh, I'm getting the Moon Child photobook?!!! -dies- IT IS KILLING ME TO WAIT FOR IT TO ARRIVE. -impatient-

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