No, you don't know the one

Who dreams of you at night

"Come on then"

He still had one hand cupped round me face and I leaned into it, pressing me cheek into his hand, then he took it away, turned round and started opening the car door on his side. Why the fuck he wanted us to go somewhere I'd hadn't got a scoobie, it seemed to me to be a very bad move to be going anywhere at all, what the hell was wrong with just stopping where we were for a bit even though it was a bit public, or even staying in the car and finding somewhere more private to park?

"Where we going?"

"We're going to get something to eat, remember? I don't want you to starve"

"I'm not hungry any more" He must of heard me as he got out of the car and came round to my side, but the bugger was grinning all over his face as though something were really funny and I just wanted to stamp me foot or slap him or some'ing "And stop bleeding laughing at me"

"I'm not laughing at you" He still had the same huge grin on his face as he leaned over and undid me seat belt, then put his hands out to lift me down the bleeding massive drop from the car to the ground "I'm just happy, okay? And you will be hungry later, so let's go and get something to eat"

-OG-

"How's Sam?"

"He's fine"

"And your Mum?"

"She's fine as well, and my Dad, he's fine, too and the weather's fine, just in case you were going to ask"

"Are you taking the piss?"

"Would I?"

"Yeah"

"Sorry, I'm only teasing you" I smiled at her and took a deep breath before I said any more "And before you ask, I've haven't got a fucking clue how my ex-wife is, because we're not married anymore. It was obviously very important to you, about Rebecca I mean, but my divorce has come through now so all that is ancient history and I can't tell you how glad I am" I paused for a minute then added "and how much I've missed you"

"I've really missed you too" She grinned at me, God, she has got the most beautiful eyes and a gorgeous smile "Actually I don't care anymore, whether you're still married or not, I mean"

"Oh shit, now she bloody tells me" Actually it was probably better that I didn't know before, I'm not sure what I would have done if I had known "What are you going to do with your leave if you are not going to go home?"

"Why?"

"Sorry, you don't have to tell me, I just wondered that's all"

She sounded a bit suspicious about what my motives were in asking, but I was just a bit curious, well, that and the fact that I was going to ask her if she wanted to spend a few days with me somewhere, but I thought I should make sure first that she hadn't got any pre-existing plans in place that I would be doing my best to fuck up if I asked her.

"Sorry, didn't mean to sound all shitty, I were going to stay in a Travelodge for a few days, have a bit of time off before I start Crookham, you know, get a bit of a break from the army and bloody soldiers, and especially from them bossy bleeding Ruperts"

"I see ….. and does that include this bossy bleeding Rupert or would you like to go somewhere with me instead? I've got a few days leave, but only if you want to Molly, I won't mind if you'd rather not"

Why I was lying I don't know, of course I'd mind if she didn't want to, but I also knew that I didn't want to put pressure on her. She hadn't been expecting to see me today and I'd probably gone far too far already when I'd told her that I love her, although judging from what went on a little while ago in the car park I think she's far from indifferent herself. Even so, it was much too early for me to be saying things like that, even if I've been thinking about it for months.

"Course it don't include you, I'd love to go somewhere with you, where shall we go?"

"Well, we can see if they've got a room here while we decide where we want to go, it's a pretty decent hotel I believe"

"They're not expecting us are they?"

"No, we'll ask and if they haven't got a room they'll just tell us to piss off and we'll think again, we'll find somewhere else"

For a minute she'd sounded very doubtful so she obviously wondered whether this was what I'd had planned all along, and I don't blame her, that was exactly what it had sounded like, as if I'd always intended to whisk her off to some hotel room for the afternoon. To be fair, it probably wasn't that far from the truth, but not in the way she suspected or the way it had sounded.

Yes, I do want to be with her, and yes, I do want to make love to her, maybe a bit too much and I can't pretend that that's not true, anyway she's probably already got that message from what went on in the car park just now, I don't think she could have missed it, but I meant what I said when I told her that I love her and when I said I wanted to be with her, I didn't mean that I just wanted to take her to bed for an afternoon.

We nearly didn't make it into the hotel at all even to eat, the minute I helped her out of her side of the car I had to pull her into a hug because I needed to put the smile back on her face, and then I couldn't not kiss her, so we'd ended up clinging to each other, leaning against the side of my car in the middle of the car park, both of us still wearing full dress uniform and risking breaking every bloody rule in the book. I knew people were walking past us going in and out of the place, because I was aware of them looking as they walked by, but it didn't matter as much as just holding her and kissing her, even if we were providing entertainment for anyone who was interested enough to look.

I slowly became conscious that we did need to make a move, either into the hotel to eat and calm down a bit or to get back in the car and go somewhere far more private. Like Molly, I wasn't sure that I was hungry any more; in fact I wasn't sure I'd be able to eat anything because other things now seemed to be far more important. I didn't think that getting back in the car would solve anything either, it wasn't the most comfortable place in the world and things were starting to get more than a bit heated. Leaning against my car in a hotel car park in broad daylight definitely wasn't the way I wanted this to be, not to mention that it was incredibly public with people walking past every couple of minutes, so that even if we got back in and the car got nicely steamed up anyone who was curious enough to look in would get a ringside view.

-OG-

He said about staying in the hotel after we'd eaten lunch, although I couldn't eat that much to be honest, me stomach was full of butterflies and all churned up, so it was hard to swallow anything. I have felt like this before when I've thought about him, it used to happen sometimes when I was still cleaning his place, well quite often actually towards the end. I think Charles was feeling the same way cos he never ate much, either that or he weren't hungry, then he asked me whether I wanted to go away with him for a few days instead of staying at a bleeding Travelodge on me own, so that was a really hard choice …. NOT!

Charles went off to the Reception after we'd finished not eating our lunch and did all the talking and filling in of bits of paper and stuff cos they had got a room, and then he flashed his credit card and they didn't even raise their eyebrows at two soldiers in uniform turning up without a booking and looking for a room in the middle of Thursday afternoon, or maybe they're just used to it, we're close to Aldershot here. I stood off to one side and let him get on with it, I've never been anywhere this posh before in me life, let alone stayed anywhere like this, and I really didn't know where to look. I was so bleeding uncomfortable while I was waiting for him cos there was all these people sitting around the Reception Hall and Lounge bit drinking tea and I was sure that they was all looking at me and looking across at him, then nudging each other and smirking.

"They was all looking at me" We was in the lift going up to the room and he'd asked me what was wrong, said he was worried that I was looking down at me feet as if I were dead unhappy "They looked at me, then they looked at you and they was smirking"

"If they looked at you, it was because you're beautiful, and if they looked at me, it was because they were bloody jealous, but I didn't see anyone smirking, Molly, in fact, I didn't even notice anyone looking at us, but if they did, well, I don't give a shit. Look, we can go if you like, if you want to, we don't have to stay here if you're not happy, we can go somewhere else"

We'd got to the door of the room and suddenly it didn't matter no more what them people downstairs thought, I couldn't wait to get into that room to strip off all this bleeding army clobber. I'd felt so smart when I'd put it on this morning all ready for the parade, it had made me feel so, I dunno, proud of meself, as if I'd done really well, and now I just felt as if I looked dead unsexy. His uniform looks okay, mind I think he'd look sexy in anything, but wearing a bleeding skirt down over me knees with them sensible shoes made me feel as if I was dressed like a pensioner and I really wished that I was wearing something lacy and sexy instead of sensible white knickers, big ones as well, wouldn't you bloody know it, and a plain white sports bra.

In the end that didn't seem to matter neither, as soon as he closed the door we were back to kissing each other exactly like we had in the car park, as if we couldn't get close enough, but he didn't just start ripping me uniform off, like I wanted him to, let's face it, like I would have done if it was up to me. He went very slowly and undid all them little buttons on me shirt one by one, stopping and kissing each bit of me skin as he uncovered it, making me want to scream at him to hurry up as I started shaking all over like a bloody leaf. Somehow me skirt ended up on the floor in a heap, I think actually that it was me that undid it, let it drop and then kicked it away, same as I kicked off me shoes and ripped off the bloody horrible tights I was wearing, then he was still kissing me as he lifted me up slightly and I wrapped me legs round his waist. I could feel how hard he was and just how much he wanted me through his uniform and them bloody unsexy knickers I was wearing, as he kept on kissing me over and over so that his breathing got faster and more and more ragged as he carried on kissing me. I pulled his shirt out of the waistband of his trousers at the back and then ran me hands up and down his muscles under his shirt so that I suddenly couldn't seem to breathe properly, I had far too much breath, so that it was chugging in and out, it must have sounded as if a bleeding gale was blowing in his ear.

-OG-

Somehow she managed to end up just wearing her bra and pants and her uniform was spread all over the floor, while I was still fully dressed and as she wrapped her legs around me I knew I was going to have to slow things down a bit, while I still could, otherwise it was going to be over almost before it started and I was going to end up being very embarrassed.

"Molly, Molly, hang on a minute, sweetheart, I've got to slow down a bit"

Some tendrils of her hair had worked their way out of her braid and were now floating around her face so she put her hands up and undid whatever it was that was holding her hair back and off her shoulders, shaking it free so that I could run my hands through the long curls, and that didn't make it any easier at all for me to slow things down.

It wasn't all that long afterwards to be honest that I was lying propped up on one elbow and looking down into the most beautiful face I've ever seen, a face that I was now covering with tiny kisses and which had the most beautifully satisfied smile across it that I've ever seen, a smile that probably matched the one that I was wearing on my face.

"I love you"

"You don't know me, well not really, I mean, you only know the bit of me that used to clean up and cook for you" She was giggling "And that was me on me best behaviour"

"Was it? Shit!" I was going to say something about dreading to see her at her worst and then changed my mind, I wasn't sure she would see that as the joke it was meant to be right now "Of course I know you, we lived together for weeks and I saw you all day every day, and it was the best few weeks of my life"

"Was it? Well, I quite enjoyed it too, once you'd stopped being bleeding shitty to me that is, and why didn't you say nothing when everything went all bloody wrong?"

"I never meant to be shitty to you, and I'm sorry if I was and I thought you knew how I felt, I thought you knew that I loved you, but I should have said something, I know that now"

"Yeah you should of, although I don't know what I would of done if you had, said something to me I mean"

"Well, we're here now so let's stop worrying about things we can't change ….."

-OG-

I'm lying here in this big bed in this lovely room in this posh place and I'm watching him sleep. I've got me legs all sort of wrapped round with his and I'm watching his face while he's sleeping, a face what looks years younger with the little lines all smoothed out and his eyelashes separated into points at the corners of his eyes. His breathing is all quiet and he looks so calm and peaceful.

He says that he loves me and no-one has ever said that to me before, ever, and I'm not sure I know what it even means.

I can still remember how upset I was when I found out about him already having a wife, although I'm wondering now whether I might have over-reacted a bit, it's just that I am so used to things going to shit that I sort of couldn't believe he wouldn't just get back with her when his life got back to normal, especially the way she looks, and that I was just sort of there when he was a bit lonely and fed up. I know that the Duchess isn't gonna be too chuffed with the way things have worked out, if she finds out about it that is. Charles says she'll be okay about everything, but then he's a bloke and he'll see what he wants to see, when it comes down to it I s'pose we can all be a bit like that when we really want something.

And I want him. Well actually, I think I've got him, well, I have for the moment anyhow, and there's a bit of me, even now, that's finding that very hard to believe.

What a bloody amazing day!

-OG-

A/N: I didn't think this was going to happen today, we've had no broadband all morning, but fingers crossed ….. Thank you for the feedback for Chapter 6, I'm glad you enjoyed it; I hope you enjoy Chapter 7.

Lily has now got the idea of where she's supposed to pee, so she rushes to the back door and jumps around a bit when she wants to go, only problem is she doesn't leave herself much time so we have to be very quick or there are puddles!

She has discovered the fun of trying to electrocute herself by pulling on plug leads as she tries to get them out of the wall and then totally ignoring the sharp 'NO' when she's removed from the scene by whoever is on puppy watch, she just gives you a very old-fashioned look and goes straight back - Oh well, we'll laugh at this one day.