Why The Hell Is It Always Me

Chapter Five: Adolescents By Incubus

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I'm feeling out of bounds, out of bounds
I'm running out of time, out of time
I know there's no such thing as either of them
But its doesn't make me feel any better

A/N:-

Previously on Why The Hell Is It Always Me

I smiled at the memory, I didn't even realize I was crying until a cold hand was wiping my tears away form my cheeks. I looked up to see him looking curiously at his finger where my tears where. I looked into his eyes not able to resist the pull I move my face closer and closed my eyes.

Leah's POV:

'What hell are you doing!' My subconscious yelled at me ' He's a bloodsucker remember a leach your natural born enemy you can't do this' I shook my head to clear it and pulled my head back to look into his eyes again. But than again what was wrong with trying to find someone that looked me even though it would be forced. Did I really want to spend the rest of my life alone while everyone while everyone else get's there happy endings?

'No!' That wasn't going to happen ever.

" What are these salty substances called young one?" Marcus said examining it

I mumbled something and got up off the grass and started walking back to the bloodsucker's house. Marcus didn't say much to me as we began our walk back. Could I really do this? Let me myself be happy for the first time after Sam? I kept thinking of the effects this could have on me. What would my dad think ? or my mom a frown made its way on my face as I kept thinking about it , to be or not to be?

' The hell with it than damn it! just kiss ,him fuck against the trees if you have too we're going to happy damn it we fucking deserve it for the shit we've been though' I had came to a stop and and looked over my shoulder and saw him walking a few feet behind me. He had a small smile on his lips looking up at the sky and taking in the forest..

I looked away and kept walking, smelling the leeches stench I knew I was close to the house. I looked up into the light sky thinking of my dad watching down over me but me not being able to see him back. The cool night air brushed along my skin making a shiver down my spine breathing in the fresh air.

" How long are you staying here?" I asked not turning around know he would hear me anyways. The leafs crunched under my feet but I could hear his light foot steps not to far behind.

" Just to make sure the child is not a threat to our world then we will take out leave." he said My heart gave a painful squeeze just thinking about being away from him.

" Oh" I said not want to giving my emotions away. I walked up the steps not bothering to knock on the door anymore its not like they didn't know I was coming back. I could smell Esme cooking for us again. I didn't mind mama leech she was always taking care of Seth when we came over here for dinner sometimes, she had that mother vibe that made me want to stay longer.

" Hello Leah" Esme said standing over the stove, the smell that was coming out of the pots made my stomach rumble.

I nodded my head at her as I made a bee line for my brother.

I took a seat next to him and Jacob on the other side of me.

"Its going to be ok Lee" he said running his fingers threw my hair.

Some how I didn't believe it this time. To many things have been happening that I don't have any control over. Sam, the things with school , the pack, and now and imprint that turns out to be a leech.

I just wanted some fucking peace 'Fate' could at least give me a fucking break

"mmm" I said Esme calling everyone in for the food Jacob being the first one to run to the food like it was going to disappear.

" It smells great in here Esme thanks" Seth said taking scoops of spaghetti on his plate. Things wouldn't be the same anymore more so than ever.

" Why thank you Seth , Leah why don't you go ahead and eat and I'll go talk to carlise about your mom and the burial." I nodded my head and thanks and begin to dig in. as soon as the food touched my tongue it felt like I haven't eaten in forever. Taking my plate to the sink i rinsed it off and put it away.

" Hey so I'm going to be going to bed now I'm... just really tired and have a lot on my mind right now i'll see you guys tomorrow morning" Yells of good nights where heard through out of the house.

taking a quick shower I slipped on some shorts and a tank top and climbed into bed falling a sleep almost instantly

ok so i know i know i havent been updating but with school and such i really don't have time to do it much but get a few typed words in every now and than. ANYWHOOO! i know this is short but i really did want to rap this u. :D next ch. i was thinkning of doing a Esme and Carlisle POV? O.o. what do you think send me a review to let me now. :) trying to update my stories this week and HAPPY ST. PATRICKS DAY EVERYONE ! :)