Disclaimer: I do not own Viewfinder, Yamane-sensei does.

Warnings: Angst.

Pairings: Asami/Akihito

Chapters: 7/?

Summary: Sequel to Past. After the confession, everything seems fine. Asami and Akihito know they are trap into each other. What happens when a force comes to take them on? Will they be strong enough to stay together?

Notes: Thanks for all the comments/reviews for this story. Here is Asami's reaction and I hope you enjoy it. Please tell me what you think.

Chapter Seven:

Asami stood there, frozen on the spot. He was sure he would have Akihito tell him if he was going to stay or leave him for good. He never thought Akihito would say he wanted a child. Also, what did that mean? Did it mean Akihito was leaving him to find a woman to be with? Did Akihito find someone to be with? Was that even possible in one day? Could it have been a past fling that he got a hold of now, and wants to be with her? His heart was pounding in his chest and it was breaking. He didn't want to lose his lover. His hands balled into fists. He growled, "Excuse me."

"I want a family." Akihito answered as he stood up. Walking to his lover, he continued, "When I used Saho, she mentioned a family. At the time, I didn't want one. I thought that I would have time to have a family later on in life. Now, I'm ready. I want a family." He watched his lover closely. He tilted his head as he saw those golden eyes narrow. What was wrong? Why would Asami be upset about him wanting a family?

Asami took a deep breathe and asked coldly, "Who is she?" He wanted to know who stole his lover away from him. He won't allow it. Akihito belonged by his side. He needed the other. He needed that void filled. To be honest with himself, he has felt lonely for six years and since he had Akihito in his life, he didn't want to lose that warmth again.

"She?" Akihito questioned confused by Asami's words. Walking to the other, he slid his hand down the tan face. He stared into those eyes, trying to read them, but they were closed off. He whispered, "Can't you talk to me? I want a family with you, Ryuuichi."

Asami stood there shock. It was the second time that night that his lover surprised him. He pulled back from the warmth of his lover. He went to his bar and poured himself a drink of whiskey even though he had a few at the club. He drowned it in one go. It burned his throat but made him calm. He pulled out a cigarette and lit it. Without turning around to face his lover, he finally responded, "No."

Akihito stood there, frozen. Did he hear right? His heart was clinching again. He asked, "What?" He walked toward his lover. He had to know what Asami said before was right.

Turning around to face his lover, Asami said coldly, "No way." Akihito took another step toward him until he was in front of him. He stared coldly down at his lover. He couldn't do it again. He couldn't afford to lose another family by the hands of his world. Just keeping Akihito by him was dangerous. Bringing a child into their relationship would be too much of a risk. He refused to go through that pain again. He swore never to feel that way again.

Akihito refused to back down. It wasn't him to back down. What he did before, running away from Asami wasn't him. He sneered, "Why the hell not?" He wanted a family and he wanted one with the person who held his heart. He wanted a family with Asami.

"Think, Akihito. My life cannot afford a child." Asami growled as he poured himself another drink. He inhaled the cigarette and blew grey smoke out.

Akihito hissed, "You are a wealthy man. You can damn well afford a child." His lover sighed and he knew he didn't understand. As he was pushed onto the chair, he glared at the other. He just wanted a family with the older man. Why couldn't Asami see that? What was so wrong with that?

Asami stared into those eyes to see a strong fire in them. At least that didn't die. Putting his cigarette out and taking a slip of the whiskey, Asami explained, "Akihito, my world is full of danger. My life is at risk everyday. Who do you think my enemies will attack to bring me down? Having you in my life is a risk already." He hoped he made his point. He didn't think he was ready to reveal he couldn't do it again. He couldn't handle losing another family by his world.

Akihito stared into those golden eyes. He heard everything Asami said but he got the real reason. He rose from his chair and hugged the older man. When he felt Asami tense, he whispered, "I know it is hard for you. It must have been horrible back then. I am even surprised that you kept me around as long as you have. But the man I got trapped into never ran away in fear. He stood up and fought with all his might, refusing to back down in fear. Everyone fears you. You do not fear them." He let those words sink in and lifted his head to look into those wonderful golden eyes. Running a finger across those teasing lips that made him go crazy, he continued, "I wish to have a family with the one who holds my heart, who I'm trapped into. I know you are trap in me too. We are trapped into each other, bond together. Ryuuichi stop running away. It isn't you."

Asami glanced down at his lover. No, he couldn't do it. He wasn't going to no matter how much his lover wanted it. He pulled away from the embrace and told his finally word, "No." He moved to his bedroom, stripping his work clothes, ready to take a nice long relaxing shower. He knew his lover followed inside. He refused to meet those pleading hazel eyes. He threw his shirt into the basket.

Wrapping his arms around the strong body, Akihito mumbled against Asami's back, "I'm not giving up. You just can't walk away and think that I will bend to your will." When he was pushed back, he growled, "We are having this discussion no matter what you do. We can have a child and raise him or her well. You can have a guard following us everywhere."

"Like that works with you so well. Twice you have escaped my guard. Once when you faked you death. Second when you ran to help your friend." Asami snapped as he undid his pants. He wasn't about to give into his Akihito's demands. He had to think for their safety. It was better if there was no danger for either of them. He thought it was best if Akihito left but he couldn't give up the boy. He was truly trapped in Akihito.

Akihito flinched by the older man's words. His past can never go away. He knew that now. He had to face it and be strong. He replied back, "My past came to haunt me and now I know I have to face it. Can you face your past? Can you over come it?" He knew was playing with fire. He knew that the moment he was shoved against the wall with golden eyes narrowing at him. He refused to back down. He wanted to be with Asami forever and have a family with the man. There was no turning back now. He thought what it would be like having a family with the yakuza and it made butterflies fly in his stomach. It made him feel happy thinking about it. While he was home, holding Ikki, he thought about it. Those few hours, holding a baby made him want one of his own. Sadly, that wasn't possible unless he left Asami. No one could every replace the yakuza in his heart and he thought that wasn't right for anyone. Then, he realized he could adopt.

"You know nothing about what I went through when I lost Hako and Kai." Asami sneered slamming his hands on either side of Akihito's head, trapping the boy between him and the wall. How dare the boy say something that he knew nothing about?

"I would know if you would just talk to me!" Akihito yelled. He pushed onto Asami's chest, trying to create space for himself. When the older man refused to move an inch, he hissed, "I love you. There will never be anyone else who could take your place in my heart, but I want a family. A family with the person I truly love. What the hell is so wrong with that?"

"You and the child could be killed! I won't go through that again! I refuse to walk home to find your body and the child's body lying there lifeless like I did with Hako and Kai!" Asami shouted. It was truly the first time he raised his voice that high towards his lover. He always had control over his emotions, but something about Akihito brought those emotions forward. Hazel eyes widened and he realized what he said. He pulled away and walked into the bathroom, slamming the door. He revealed what had happened six years ago. He was the one who found his family dead.

Akihito slid to the floor, shocked by what he heard. He closed his eyes, feeling tears ready to fall. It wasn't his pain he was ready to sob for but the pain his lover went through six years ago. He wrapped his arms around his legs and pulled his legs close to his chest. Asami was the one who found his family dead. For that reason, Asami refused to have another family. He let his tears fall from the pain he felt for Asami and the pain for not having a family of his own. Yes, he could leave Asami and find a nice woman to be with. Sadly, that wouldn't be right. He would never love another like he loves Asami.

In the shower, Asami let the water run down his toned body. He felt his heart pound in his chest, clinching painful. He remembered the site before his eyes those six years ago.

He headed to his apartment, going up the stairs. Kirishima and Suoh were following him, relieve the other two guards in front of his apartment. When he got to the floor, he smelled the odor of blood. Pulling out his gun, he noticed his two guards do the same. All he wanted to do was get inside to make sure Hako and Kai were safe. But he had to be careful. Someone could still be there. He stepped around the corner to see his two guards dead. He motioned for Kirishima and Suoh to check them. He opened the door to notice all the lights were off. Once he stepped inside, he heard glass cracking under his shoe. His heart was racing wildly and breaking. He called, 'Hako, Kai.' No one answered. He flicked the light on and screamed. He never screamed before, but what was before his eyes made every fiber freeze and break. In the living room laid his wife holding onto their son. He dropped the gun and raced to their side. Checking their pulse, he let out another scream. Tears ran down his face. He was breaking apart. Everything was crumbling before his eyes.

Kirishima raced inside and almost turned his head to throw up. He had to remain strong for his boss. Stepping over the broken glass, he spoke, 'Asami-sama?'

Not releasing his wife and son's dead bodies, Asami growled, 'I will make them pay. Blood will rain in the underworld.' It was his silent promise to his family.

Asami awoke from that memory. He can't even shed tears for it anymore. He closed himself up after that, swearing to let no one else in. If he did, he would feel pain again. Then, Akihito ran into his life and got trapped into the boy. He could admit Akihito held his heart like Hako did. The only difference was Akihito had a stronger fire in his eyes than Hako. He stepped out of the shower, wrapping a towel around his waist. He entered the bedroom to see his lover curled against the wall sobbing. He asked, "Does it hurt you that much that I do not wish for a child to be part of our lives?"

Akihito snapped his head up, showing tears in his eyes. He stood up quickly and hugged the older man. He laid his head against the toned wet chest. He listened to Asami's heart beat. He whispered, "I didn't know."

Asami knew what his boy was talking about. So, his lover was crying for his pain. He pulled back and mumbled, "I do not need your pity." He dried himself off, putting his night clothes on. He felt Akihito hug him from behind. He sighed. He asked, "Do you really want a child or is this a way to bond us together for good?"

Akihito leaned his head against the strong back. He always felt safe around the older man. It was like no one could touch him. He heard the question and pulled away. Sitting on the edge of the bed, watching his lover light up a cigarette, he explained, "While I was holding my cousin's son Ikki. I realized I always wanted a family of my own. At first I thought it would impossible since I couldn't leave you. Then I thought maybe adopt." He gave a sad look at his lover. He didn't want to give up having a family with the yakuza. It would be perfect. He knew that Asami and he would make good parents.

Blowing grey smoke out of his mouth, Asami replied, "The answer is no." He went to the bed and lay down. Putting the cigarette out in the ashtray on the night stand, he asked, "Are you staying?"

Akihito glanced to his lover. Would anything change the man's mind? He sighed sadly and stood up. He undressed and put night clothes on. He knew golden eyes were watching him carefully. Asami knew he would not give it up. He lay next to the yakuza and spoke, "We would make great parents."

"No."

"I can be a stay home parent. I won't do anything dangerous and I will follow your orders."

"As nice as that sounds, the answer is still no."

"I understand why you don't want to but we will have a guard following us everywhere and they could stand guard outside the penthouse."

Sighing loudly, Asami revealed, "I had two guards protecting my wife and son. They were killed before my family was murdered. The answer is no, Akihito and drop it." He had to make his boy understand it wasn't worth the risk. Alone, he couldn't handle it again.

Akihito rolled over, away from his lover and snorted. He closed his eyes. Tomorrow was a new day to work on Asami. He just had to think about how to go about it. He still had to grab his stuff from his parents and talk to Kou and Takato. He wondered if they forgave him. He wasn't really with it after Saho killed herself. He sighed sadly. He knew he couldn't run from his past. This time he will stand up and meet his fate without fear. He knew that his place was beside Asami's side. He slid closer to the warmth and closed his eyes.

Asami rubbed his head, feeling a headache coming. He knew very well that his lover didn't give up. This topic was going to come again. When, he didn't know. He pulled the covers over him and his lover. Sweeping some brown locks out of Akihito's face, he watched warmly as Akihito shifted closer to him. He wrapped his arm around the boy and pulled him close, so Akihito's back was leaning against his chest. He didn't feel like this since Hako was in his life. He couldn't do it again. He was already attached to Akihito and it was possible his enemies to go after the boy. He knew his boy would fight tooth and nail to survive. Having a child was different. He wanted to keep his lover happy but having a family he couldn't do. He closed his eyes, holding his lover close to his body. It felt nice to have the other with him again.

Akihito was awake, enjoying the warmth. Most of the time, Asami didn't show him this side. All he saw was what everyone else saw. He didn't like that. He was Asami's lover and should have the right to see the other side of the yakuza. He opened his eyes, staring at the wall. His heart was clinching because Asami didn't want a family. Yes, he understood why the older man didn't want to. He wished there was some way to change Asami's mind. He curled closer to the man if that was possible. He was tired and needed to think of way to gain a family with the older man.

The next day, Asami went to the kitchen, making breakfast. After a few minutes of making coffee, he saw his lover come into the room in his boxers. He teased, "It is a good thing I do not have company. No one is allowed to see you like that but me." He had to change the topic before it started. Akihito glared at him but sat down. His lover didn't say a word. It meant his lover was upset with him. He set the food down and took his seat. He began eating, ignoring the glares sent his way. He wasn't going to talk about adopting with his boy. The discussion was over.

Akihito ate his food, while sending glares toward his lover. He finally spoke, "Ryuuichi…"

"Do not even bring up the topic. It is over. The answer will remain no." Asami cut the boy off and stood up. He didn't feel like eating any more. He tossed his food in the trash. Grabbing his suit jacket, he ordered, "Do not lose Suoh at all. He will follow you everywhere."

Akihito was ready to argue but his lover left without letting him have a word. He sighed sadly. He could understand why the older man didn't want a family. It still made him depressed. He could leave and find a nice woman to be with. Shaking his head, he mumbled, "That will never work. I love Ryuuichi too much."

"Talking to yourself, Takaba-kun is not a good sign." Suoh spoke from the door way. The boy turned and glared at him.

"You know Ryuuichi won't be pleased that you are seeing me almost naked." Akihito replied as he smirked.

Not fazed at all, Suoh retorted, "That would work if Asami-sama didn't know I am straight and happily married."

Akihito huffed and stood up to get ready for the day. As he stomped to the bedroom, he slammed the door. As he stripped, he went into the bathroom. Going into the shower, he leaned against the wall. He wasn't all right. He was depressed. The conversation or what he got from Asami was horrible. He slid down the wall, wrapping his arms around his knees. Tears fell mixed with the falling water. It hurt to think he would never have a family like he dreamed to have when he was a child. He found the person he wants to be with forever, but it was impossible to have a family with. Why did fate throw him this curve ball? The first sob broke free and he couldn't hold them back. He felt the pain of not having his own child and the pain his lover suffered with his family's death. He wanted his heart to stop breaking apart. He would never hear a child's first word. He will never see the child take its first step. He will never have the warmth of holding a child as it feel asleep. His body shook as his sob wracked his body. He had to get a hold of himself but he couldn't. Why did it have to be so hard? Thirty minutes later, he walked out the bedroom like nothing was wrong. He glared at Suoh but kept his mouth shut. Suoh raised an eyebrow but didn't say anything. He had to do things today. Hopefully Kou and Takato forgave him and they can still be friends.

In the limo, Asami ended his phone call and sighed. His business was annoying. He saw Kirishima glance back. He demanded, "Speak what is on your mind."

Kirishima kept his eyes on the road, battling himself whether to speak or not. He heard what happened last night. Well, he didn't get the entire conversation but enough to know what happened. His boss was upset today and he was sure the boy was even more upset. He debated if he should speak his mind or not. This was his boss he was talking about. Men were killed for less by this man.

Losing his patience, Asami snapped, "What is it, Kirishima?" He didn't have time trying to figure out what Kirishima wanted to say. He wanted his man to say it right away and get over it.

Kirishima sighed. There was no way to avoid the conversation. He didn't want to have the wrath of his boss on him. He mentioned, "It was not hard to hear what happened between you and Takaba-kun."

"What about it?" Asami hissed. He didn't like where this conversation was turning. Kirishima knew better than to bring up the topic about Hako and Kai. He closed that topic up long ago and it was better left in the past.

Kirishima turning the car, spoke, "I think you are being too hard on yourself and Takaba-kun, sir."

"Mind your own business and never bring this topic up again. Do I make myself clear?" Asami sneered as he rubbed his temples.

"Yes, sir." Kirishima replied and kept his mouth shut.

A few streets away, Akihito walked down the side walk with Suoh shadowing him. It was annoying but he should get used to it. Asami wasn't going to let him out of his sight again. It was a price to pay for staying by the yakuza's side. As he turned the corner, he ran into someone, falling onto his behind. Suoh quickly walked to him and he shoved the hand away. He could stand up himself. He wasn't pitiful. Standing up, he looked to see it was Kou he ran into. Jumping over to the other boy, he shouted, "Kou!"

"Aki!" Kou shouted back. He hugged his friend. It looked like the woman killing herself didn't do that much damage to the other boy. He pulled back and asked, "Are you all right? That chick was crazy."

"Sadly I made her that way, but yeah I'm fine. I needed some time alone." Akihito explained with a sad smile.

"You back with that guy?" Kou asked. Akihito nodded his head and pulled his friend's arm and spoke, "Good I ran into you. I need some help."

"What is it?"

"Well I am working at this orphanage, cleaning." Kou explained.

Rolling his eyes, Akihito mumbled, "I don't want to clean places, Kou." Kou smiled at him and kept pulling him down the street. He knew there was a small orphanage coming up. He remembered it when he played the part of being a photographer. It was said some wealthy person supported the orphanage, but no one knew who. One of the bosses he worked as a photographer for wanted him to find out and take pictures of the person, but no one knew anything about said person. He got the hint that the people who ran the orphanage knew but refused to say anything. He spent a few nights staking out the place but there weren't any visitors that looked the part. As they walked there, he sighed sadly. This might have been a place where he could have adopted a child. He didn't want to be reminded of the fact that he would never have a family of his own. Once they got inside the gates, children flocked to them, grabbing their arms, and trying to make them play with them. Kou ran inside and left him alone. He started to play tag with them, running around in circles, pretending he couldn't catch them. He felt happiness but also sadness. He was happy that he was making these poor children have some happiness. He pretended to trip and groaned, "Wow, you are so fast, making me trip over my own shoes."

One little boy around the age of six ran to him and tried to help Akihito up. He laughed, "You are so funny. Are you here to adopt?"

Suoh stood by the gates, feeling nervous but not showing anything on his face. He heard his phone ring and sighed. Answering it on the third ring, "Yes, boss."

"Where is he?"

"Well…"

"Do not tell me you lost him again."

"No boss. Well, he ran into one of his friends and his friend dragged him to the orphanage in the city."

"The small one?"

"Yes."

"I'll be there in a little while."

Suoh gulped down the lump in his throat. He knew what Asami meant. He also heard the conversation last night. Akihito wanted a child. This might give him ideas about it. As he saw Akihito walk inside being lead by a little kid pulling by the arm, he followed like ordered. He was not to let Akihito out of his sight.

Akihito laughed as he was pulled inside. The small boy took him to the nursery. Kneeling down, he asked, "Why did you bring me here?"

"You look like you want a baby." The boy said as he ran away, smiling.

Akihito leaned up and looked inside. There was one baby crying. He noticed no one was around. He felt bad for the baby. Walking inside, he picked up the infant and was surprised that it was a baby girl, stopped crying immediately. He smiled down sweetly and whispered softly, "You were just crying for attention, weren't you, cute one?"