Chapter Seven

Trying To Carry On.2

"Oh god," I heard myself say, as his hands glided along my back and down to stop just above my bikini bottoms. He pulled me closer, my stomach meeting his. I felt his legs brush against mine. The heat coming from him was unbelievable, had he gotten hotter than before?

His hands felt strong against my back, firm, pulling me hard up against him and I was grateful for it. The contact made my skin tingle, I felt his breath against my neck as I squeezed my eyes shut. I could be dreaming it felt so good... my bikini felt so thin between us, it hardly held in place against the current of the water. I felt Jacob's boxers brush against my hip, they were almost as hot as the rest of him but not quite.

Jacob made a strange noise against my neck just before he tore his body from mine suddenly and pushed himself away from me. The waves of cold water hit me like ice. I wrapped my arms around myself protectively, trying to block out some of the cold. Why had he pulled away?

I looked at him and he just turned away, deep in thought. He didn't even look at me, avoiding facing me at all costs. His mind was clearly elsewhere...I sighed, annoyed that I had thought about nothing else but him touching me and he had clearly a lot on his mind.

We just floated there a moment, his back to me, hiding any facial expression. I should say something...my mind was blank...I tried desperately to think of something, anything would do...

A sharp howl suddenly brought my attention to the shore. I could just about make out Embry waving his hands in the air frantically.

"What's the matter with him?" I asked, Jacob looked just as confused as I did, he seemed to have forgotten what he was so focused on a moment ago.

"I'm not sure." He murmured, squinting his eyes to get a better look. "We better get to shore and find out."

"Okay." I murmured, starting to swim for the shore, keen to get my body moving as the ice cold water surrounded me, causing my hands to start to shake.

I felt a large hand grab my arm and pull me back. I turned, looking confused. Jacob looked serious, his eyes dark. They were normally brown, why were they so dark?

"What is it?" I asked, keen to keep moving.

"It'll be faster if I swim." He said, watching my face. I looked at him confused, what did he mean? That was what I was doing! "...And you hold onto me."

I couldn't stop my eyes from widening. I didn't want to be that close to him again... That was a lie. I did, I know I did. I shouldn't though. I really shouldn't get that close to him...

"Come on," he murmured, pulling me easily through the water and pulling me behind him. He placed the arm he was holding over his shoulder. Understanding what he wanted me to do, I wrapped both arms around his neck and pulled myself closer to him. I could feel the heat radiating off him, it was making me heat up. My shivering subsiding slowly.

"You ready?" He murmured, I nodded, focusing hard on not touching him more than I needed to. If I moved much closer my breasts would be hard against his back...my mouth dried up suddenly at the thought. "If you're nodding I can't see you."

"I'm ready." I murmured, cringing at my own dirty thoughts. He would probably think I was some kind of whore if he knew what I had been thinking...

"Here." Jacob pulled my arms forwards quickly, slamming my chest against his back with a thud. I gasped, I was right up against him now, I was sure he could feel my breath against his neck. "You'll fall off unless you hold on tight." He murmured, gently turning his head towards me. I could see the hard line of his jaw, girls would kill for cheek bones like those.

His arms started moving suddenly, I tightened my grip around him as he moved us through the water. He was right, I never would of stayed on if I wasn't clinging to him like some desperate groupie. He made it back to the shore in next to no time at all. I found it best just to keep my eyes shut most of the way, the water bounced off him like he was some sort of fish and it seemed to glide off him to hit me square in the face.

He was such an elegant swimmer and I was...not. I sighed, as he reached a point where I could touch the floor and I took the opportunity to move away from him. I pushed the water out of my face, my hair an absolute mess. I brushed it to one side and tried to flatten it unsuccessfully. I sighed, feeling like an idiot, my cheeks heating up.

"Embry, what's the matter?" Yelled Jacob, I nearly tripped coming out of the water then, I didn't realise he was stood so close to me. I turned my head slightly to look at him, he was right next to me! I wrapped my arms around my chest, feeling the ice water shiver off me, I kept my eyes down. Not wanting to see the looks on their face of my shivering white body. I was almost glowing I was so white. Yup, my nipples were hard again, I hated the timing. They stood out painfully through my bikini. I was so glad Quil wasn't here.

"It's Bella," said Quil as we reached the edge of the water. He was dressed in a pair of khaki shorts, had he been home and gotten changed already?...

"Bella?" Murmured Jacob, my stomach sunk through the floor as I suddenly realised who they were talking about. It was that girl; the one Jacob was in love with. My stomach twisted unpleasantly. "What about her?" He asked, I kept my eyes hard on the floor, feeling suddenly out of place. I sighed realising I hadn't felt like that all afternoon, the outsider feeling soon returned to me. I was stupid rubbing myself against Jacob in the water when...when he was with Bella. That she was who he really loved...my throat was closing up. It felt like I had swallowed razor blades.

"She's..." Started Embry, but he trailed off causing me to look up. I regretted it immediately, both boys were staring at me. Why were they staring at me like that? I hadn't made one noise, surely they couldn't see my face before because I was looking down. I hadn't shown what I was thinking...had I?

"Azalea," Jacob murmured, looking panicked. I stared at him waiting for him to continue. I felt horrified, did he know what I was thinking? Did he know... He reached a large tanned hand out towards me and grabbed my arm again. He pulled me hard against him, his grip on my arm tight. I bumped against him and he moved elegantly, pulling me behind him. I gasped horrified as I realised what they had been staring at, what had been stood behind me...a giant grey wolf.

It was bigger than any wolf I had ever seen. It was at least six foot, I panicked pulling against Jacob's firm grip on my arm holding me in place. It had dark blue piercing eyes it's matted fur standing out, it didn't look fluffy or cuddly. It looked absolutely terrifying. Only one word pierced through my head as I stared at it...'RUN'.

"Paul!" snapped Jacob, a noise came from deep in his throat, a growl, his grip tightening on my arm, he barely noticed me thrashing against him. I pulled and hit against his grip, I had to get away from that monster. It would kill all three of us. "What the hell are you doing here?" Jacob was starting to shake, the muscles on his chests and arms bulging like something was fighting to get out beneath them.

"Jacob!" cried Embry, grabbing Jacob's hand that was restraining me. Jacob turned and looked at me in horror as he released my hand so quickly I lost my footing and fell hard against the sand.

His whole face drained as he saw me clutch the arm he had been holding. I couldn't feel anything, it was numb but it felt like something was wrong with it. I didn't care, I had to get away from that wolf. I clambered back against the sand, looking around frantically for my bag and towel and most importantly the keys for Briarwood's car so I could get away.

I saw them further down the beach and struggled to get to my feet my legs moving as quickly as possible as I ran towards my things. All the crowds from earlier had completely disappeared. There wasn't one person around. I panicked feeling a sob rise up my throat. I ran harder as I heard someone running after me. Suddenly two hot hands grabbed me, I cried out as I struggled against them panicking. I screamed as loud as I possibly could, struggling against the arms holding me.

"STOP!" shouted a deep voice, over my scream. "You're safe. It's okay." I stopped mid-scream as I realised who was holding me, as I stopped struggling and the arms released me gently. I turned and saw Jacob looking pale and distraught in front of me. I looked down and over at where the wolf had been stood. Instead there were just two boys, Embry and another.

Shame washed over me as I realised that it was a wolf from their pack. Of course it was, I felt so stupid. Why hadn't I realised that? I looked back to Jacob realising that he was a wolf too. He looked like that when he transformed. Exactly like that. Confusion washed over me, he had called himself a monster when he told me everything. I didn't think anything of it at the time but was he right?...I didn't think it would look like that. That HE would look like that. I thought he would be sort of...cute in a way. I felt dread wash over me. He had been right...he was a monster.

I looked at him, he looked so normal standing there. He looked almost small, his head was hung and he looked so...grave. Like he had just done something terrible.

"Is..." He started, his eyes pleading as his looked at me, "I'm so sorry. Is your arm...did I hurt you?" My eyes widened as looked down at my arm, it was red and quite swollen. I flinched as I instinctively moved my fingers over the red mark to check for damage. Pain shot through my arm. He took a step away from me, his face contorting as if he was in pain. "You were right to be afraid of me."

"What?" I asked, looking back over at where the boys stood, they were moving towards us. I didn't want to to be near the one that had just changed from a wolf. I stepped away from them. I had to get out of here. And get my head together, was Jacob a monster? I looked back at him, he didn't look like one. I didn't feel afraid of him at all. But then he was a wolf too, and he had called himself a monster...I'm so confused!

"Jacob!" Yelled Embry, fast approaching us.

"I've got to go," said Jacob, his eyes fixed on my hurt arm.

"You're going to her aren't you?" I asked, knowing the answer already, waves of emotion rushing through me painfully. His eyes met mine then, his face contorting in pain, did he feel the same pain I felt?

"Please," he begged, his eyes looking desperate, "I made a promise to her..."

"Forget it." I snapped, picturing him running into her open arms. It made me feel sick, the thought of them together. I couldn't stand it, it hurt me. More than I can say, the thought of him touching her...I turned away then and stomped down the beach, I heard him call after me but I didn't stop. I had to get out. I knew I was acting childish but I couldn't handle the thought of him with her. I grabbed my stuff and rushed back to the car, pulling my dry clothes over my wet bikini. I sat down in the drivers seat and took a several deep breaths to calm down. I caught a glimpse of myself in the rear view mirror. My hair was wet and matted, sitting roughly on one side of my head, some of it stuck to my skin and cheek. My face was flushed red and blotchy, the cold from the water had made me paler than I realised. My neck was white in comparison to my face. My eyes were wide and startled, I looked like I had been given the fright of my life.

I cringed, I didn't blame Jacob for going to that girl. Why would he want to be with me, I looked a sight. I sighed, looking down at my arm I noticed a large red mark on the arm that Jacob had been holding before. I hadn't even felt it, I ran my fingers along the redness. It was swollen, I sighed again, Jacob was just trying to reassure me. I shouldn't of pushed so hard against him, that was stupid.

I was going to have fun explaining this one to Briarwood...

A/N: I just wanted to say a big thank you to everyone who has favourited and followed this story so far. It's fab to know that people enjoy it! Please review if you have any comments of suggestions.

Just so you know, this story is only meant to entertain and pay tribute to the AMAZING Stephanie Meyer and her beautiful character; Jacob Black. I love him so! I do not own any of the amazing twilight stories.

Also, please forgive Azalea for being confused and thinking that Jacob is a monster. She's had lot to deal with over the last few months. I promise she'll come to her senses soon! Xxx