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Last Resort, First Relief

Jackson did a quick two-tap knock and came in. He closed the door behind him and rushed over to Miley. He pulled her into a tight hug. Miley wasn't sure what to do so she just hugged him back awkwardly. He pulled back but kept his hands on her shoulders. Miley was surprised to see unshed tears in his eyes. She had never seen him cry, not even when their mom died. At the funeral he jammed his hands in his pocket and bent his head so his hair covered his face. After, when they got home, he got so mad that he punched through a window and busted up his hand on glass. He gripped her shoulders tightly and shook her a bit.

"Don't you EVER scare me like that again Miley, you hear me? God, do you know how close we were to losing you?! The doctors weren't even sure if you were going to make it through the night!" Jackson said, his voice wavering with emotion. "Don't ever make me go through a night wondering if you're dead or alive, I don't think I'd be able to take it! I NEVER want to have to go through life not having a sister anymore." Miley was shocked. Before this she had never know that Jackson cared about her so much. She realized she was crying too as she felt a tear make its way down her cheek and drip off onto her arm. She didn't know what else to do so she pulled Jackson into another tight hug. "Pease don't ever leave me Miley," He whispered to her.

"Don't worry Jackson, I'm not going anywhere, not now, not ever," She whispered back to him.

"Good, cause I don't know what'd I do without you," He admitted. He pulled away from the hug gently. He chuckled. "Look at us, crying like a bunch of babies," He said as he wiped a tear away from Miley's cheek. Miley smiled as he pulled up a chair and sat down. He sniffed and wiped the rest of his tears away. "Listen, Miles, I'm sorry," He said. She blinked.

"For what?" He sighed.

"For trying to blame you for what went on between Lilly and Jake. It's not your fault, I was just mad that someone would actually kiss Lilly when I was going out with her." Miley understood.

"It's okay Jackson, but I wanna get your opinion on it, who kissed who?" She asked

"Jake. Jake kissed Lilly," He answered. Miley nodded. Just then she remembered something Jackson said a litlle bit ago. Do you know how close we were to losing you? How close was she?

"J-Jackson?" He nodded his head once. "H-how...close was I...to...to d-dying?" She stammered.

"I'm not sure, but close enough that even the doctors weren't sure if you were going to make it through the night..." He trailed off. Again, Miley was shocked. She was seriously that close to being dead? She had never thought she'd get that far...had she?

"Wow...that's scary..." She said. Jackson nodded.

"Imagine how scary it was for me to find you bleeding on the bathroom floor. That was seriously the most terrifying experience of my life," He said. She looked down.

"I'm sorry," She said.

"You don't have to be sorry, just promise me it'll never happen again," Jackson said sincerly. Miley looked him straight in the eye.

"I promise, never again," She said honestly. She never wanted to repeat this experience again.

"W-why did you do it?" Jackson asked in a low, shakey voice. Miley sighed and laid back down. What should she say? She didn't want to go through the whole explaining thing but then again Jackson was her brother and the person who saved her, he deserved to know. Miley just didn't want to tell him. She didn't want to tell him the whole truth behind the story. Would he be better off not knowing? One look at him told her that he needed to know. Otherwise he'd be confused and every time he would look at her he would think of why she had done it.

"To be short...I was depressed, seriously depressed," She answered. The look on his face tole her he wanted to know more. "Somethings just stick with you sometimes, you know?" She said. Jackson looked down at his hand where a jagged line ran across his knuckles from years ago when he had punched through a window. He nodded.

"I know." He said.

"Yeah, well, when yours went away fast enough mine stayed with me and I guess it's still with me," Miley said. Jackson looked at her sadly.

"So you coped with it by cutting yourself?" He asked. She nodded slowly. "I don't understand how that can help." She sighed.

"I didn't expect you would. I don't think anyone can understand it unless they've done it themselves. It's hard to describe but once it happened the first time it got addictive, like a drug or something. It felt like the world was caving in on me and that was the only thing that could help me out," She admitted.

"Did you ever try talking to someone? You know I would've listened or Dad. Heck, anyone would've sat down and just talked with you. That's much better than resorting to a sharp object," Jackson said.

"I know that now but I guess it's too late." Jackson looked down at her arms. He stood up.

"Can I see?" He asked tentatively. She nodded. He walked over to her and picked up her right arm. He winced at all scars and cuts. "Didn't it hurt?" He asked as he gazed at her mutilated arms. Miley looked down.

"Of course it did but that's what I wanted. I liked the pain, it distracted from everything else," She answered. He let go of her arm and sighed.

"I still just don't understand it. It's just hard to believe that my little sister would do that," Jackson said. Miley kept looking down. He was dissapointed in her but then again, she'd feel the same way if she was in his position. She sighed.

"Therapy is really going to suck..." She said, "but it could help at least." Jackson nodded even though she still wasn't looking at him. There was a knock at the door and both turned to look at it.

"Other people would like to see her too you know," They heard Lilly's voice from the other side. Jackson and Miley looked at each other and a slow smile spread on Miley's face.

"Then come in and don't wait around outside!" Miley yelled back cheerfully. The door opened and Lilly came running in. She basically threw herself at Miley and attacked her in a hug, which Miley returned. Jackson smiled at the two.

"I'll just be going," He said and left, closing the door behind him. The two girls pulled apart from the hug and smiled.

"How are you sister?" Lilly and Miley said at the same time. They laughed. "Seriously though, how are you doing?" Lilly asked. Miley shrugged.

"I'm fine I guess," She answered, "Just a little bit bored." Lilly nodded. Lilly bit her lower lip. She despretly wanted to tell Miley that she didn't kiss Jake, that he had kissed her but she didn't feel like it was right to just spring it on her suddenly. Miley could tell that that was what Lilly wanted to talk about so she brought it up by subtly mentioning Jake. "So, is JAke out there?" Miley asked even though she knew the answer. Again, Lilly nodded.

"Listen, Miley, I didn't do anything with Jake! He kissed me not the other way around. I was just going to give him a video tape of the football game like Mr. Diaz told me too and while I was there Jake just suddenly grabbed me and I told him to stop because, well you know why, but he didn't listen to me and he force himself on me and I didn't..." Lilly said in a fast jumble of words.

"Lilly! Lilly, LILLY!" Miley shouted. Lilly blinked.

"What?" Miley laughed.

"Slow down a bit, will ya'? Geez, you sound like video being fast forwarded," Miley said. Lilly chuckled a bit. "Ok, Lilly, I believe you completely. It's not your fault." Lilly tilted her head to the side.

"You do? You believe me?" She asked to make sure. Miley nodded.

"You're my best friend and Jake is just some guy...of course I'm going to believe you!" Lilly smiled.

"Thanks...so what're you going to do about Jake?" She asked. Miley gave her a look.

"What do ya' think? He's gonna ask for another chance and I'm not going to give it to him. If he did it once what's going to stop him from doing it a second time?" Miley said. Lilly nodded understandibly. There was a moment of silence then Miley's stomache growled loudly. Both girls looked at her stomache then at each other. They burst out laughing. "I think I need to eat something," Miley said.

"Didn't you eat breakfast?" Lilly asked.

"Only a muffin," Lilly gave her a look, "It was banana nut...? Ok, ok, I'll eat more next time but I don't really like the food here," Miley said. Lilly smiled and nodded. Lilly finally sat down on the chair and her and Miley started talking about things. Anything. They talked about anything except about the reason Miley was in the hospital in the first place and Miley was glad for that. She didn't feel like explaining herself to Lilly. It was bad enough explaining everything to her brother and dad. Lilly was practically her sister, and they considered each other sisters, and Lilly was also a very emotional person. Miley knew that if anyone would, or could, understand her it'd be Lilly but for some reason she just didn't want to talk about it to Lilly. She would eventually though, just not now.

A/N: (sniffs) The Jackson/ Miley part was so touching in the beginning. Lol. I wanted to add more to the Lilly part but I didn't know what to put...D: Up next...you guessed it, Jake! I hope you guys don't mind if next chapter is a bit shorter...or if I skip Oliver's part? I don't really know what you put for Oliver so I'm just not gonna write it...hope s'okay. Please review because so far 200hannahfan4ever002 is the only one who reviews every chapter. I'm starting to get discouraged and if no one review I'll probably discontinue this story. That's all, thanks. Also, I added a few song lines at the end of some of the other chapters, if you want to check that out.