Chapter: 7

It had been a few weeks since the ordeal with James and Bella had been recovering well. We were still living with the Cullens to care for her the best way possible and the fact that Esme would not let us leave any way because she was so happy to see me once more even if my eyes were blazing blood red.

Many times I'd have to run into her room that Esme had given her because she had a night mare and then I'd stay with her for the rest of the night with her curled into my side as I'd hum her, her lullaby and then she would sleep soundly muttering in her sleep as she usually did.

Bella had first been slightly intimidated by the family of vampires but soon she was smiling and laughing along with Emmet and the others. She would be in the kitchen helping Esme make her food.

"All right time for bed Bella," I said as she gave a big yawn when she was playing a game with Emmet.

"Can't I have 5 more minutes?"

"No Bella you can barely keep your eyes open now."

She pouted but nodded all the same and reached up to give Emmet a hug, "night Em."

"Goodnight bells sweet dreams," Emmet said smiling down at her and hugged her too.

I picked her up and took her to say goodnight to the others. When we were in her room and she was all tucked in she looked at me and asked, " Edwaarrrd?"

"Yes?"

"Why do you and the mean people have red eyes but all the Cul-len's have gold?" she ask reaching up to touch my face looking deeply into my eyes.

I knew that this question was going to come though I was not sure as to when that she would ask and I had been afraid of this moment for awhile. What could I say "well you see Bella I'm a vampire and I kill human and then drink their blood but don't worry though the Cullen's are vampires too they only drink animal blood," yeah I'm sure that would go down well.

The others all became very still and I heard their nervousness in their thoughts as Jasper felt me become nerves and sent calming waves towards me.

"Um.. Well you see Bella. We have different life styles..."

"When you go out at night? is fat what you mean?"

"Yeah. They don't go out at night like I do."

"What do you do at night?"

"I make sure that bad people are never going to hurt anyone ever again." I guess that was the only way that I could really explain it to her without it sounding like I'm a monster which I am; but would that not be better if she did not want to be near me? Would it not be better if I found a good human home for her so she would be away from me?

So you're like a...hero; like in the story books you read to me?"

"Kind of... How about you get some sleep,"

"Ok. Night edwaard. I love you."

"I love you too" I said as she closed her eyes.

I stayed there in her room all night watching her sleep but also thinking. Thinking wether it would be better for her if I give her to a good family so they can adopt her. She would be away from all this. She would not be in danger of dying every time that I came into the room; she would be safe.

I heard Alice come in to the room and sit beside me. 'It won't work.' Her thoughts said simply and then she showed me a vision.

'Bella and I were walking up to the steps of an orphanage though it was very well looked after and it was big and had grand archways. I was sure that she would have loving care here until she would find a good home. I looked down to Bella and she was crying.

"Please edwaard I don't want to go! Please don't leave me!" her cries broke my heart. Yet I kept going into the building.

"I'm sorry Bella but it's the only way to keep you safe."

"I don't care! I just want to stay wif you! Don't make me go!"

"I'm sorry" I said repeatedly as they carried her screaming form away from me as her called out to me; begging me to take her back. And I almost broke there wanting to carry her away once again.'

Then Alice showed me another

'it was of me my eye were the blackest of black showing I had not hunted in a very long time. My face showed no emotion, it was like I was not there; not body was there.'

Alice looked to me 'Edward giving her a way would be a big mistake'

"But she would forget me in time. Her human memory would forget..."

"I don't think it will. You are the most important person in her life. If she loses you then it will all go down from there. I just know it. Please Edward doesn't destroy this little girl's life just because you think of yourself a monster because she doesn't. She thinks you her angle that saved her and that you are her family. You are like her big brother so act like it. Big brothers are supposed to protect their sisters not hurt them."

"Even if it means that their big brothers at any time could kill them if he loses his control for just a moment?"

"She's been with you for months. You've shone her side that if any human saw they would be running in the opposite direction and what does she do she goes up and hugs you. She knows you're different; she knows all of us are different and yet she loves us too."

"Her instincts are backwards so would it not be better that I do the right thing and push her away to make her safe?"

"Or maybe she was meant to be with us..."

"What like fate? Alice the future can change..."

"But something's are set in stone not all things but there are things that will happen. It might happen a different way but if will happen.""What do you mean?"

"I believe that you were destined to meet Bella. And if it was not at that moment when you found her then it would have been some time in the future."

"Do you know how crazy you sound right now?"

"Please just think about it cause if you leave her it's not just you that's going to suffer."

Then Alice left me sitting on Bella's bed looking at her beautiful innocent face. I did as Alice asked and thought about what she said. I can't leave Bella especially if leaving her would cause her pain.

But that's all I know so what ever may come I will stay with Bella.

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