Bittersweet Emotions

Chapter Seven

Tokyo, Japan
August 3, 2006

Sesshoumaru glanced into his rearview mirror and glanced back to the road when he saw that Rin had yet to change her position. Judging from her steadied intake of air, and her slacked emotion upon her face, he guessed that she had fallen asleep. He sighed some and put his focus on the road. He didn't want to end up getting in a crash, especially with Rin in the car.

He scowled. He did it again. His younger self was breaking through, little by little. It drove him nuts. He growled gently before he, once again, looked into the mirror. She had shifted, her front now facing him again. He raised an eyebrow as he watched her lips move. Did little Rin speak in her sleep? He smirked deviously. That may be entertaining someday. But for now, he hadn't the time for childish fancies. He needed to get back home.

He was surprised to have drove past her while he was on his way to Kagome's. Instead, he just turned around and parked; he wasn't going to leave her sleeping there where some random male could kidnap her and do Kami-knows-what with her. He wouldn't allow another filthy man's touch to soil her flesh. He refused to be so foolish again.

"Nngh...Se...shou...?"

His glance went back into the mirror as he looked at the slowly awakening Rin. He raised an eyebrow at her before looking back on the road, turning off the highway. He waited for her to speak, knowing that she rarely simply called his name just because. Maybe in their past relationship, she might have. But things had changed. They had to.

Rin yawned and pushed herself off the warm fuzzy seat and rubbed her eye some in tiredness. She looked at him lazily and leaned forward, not fully aware of her actions. She crawled over the passenger seat and allowed herself to fall into it, grunting slightly as she hit. She closed her eyes again and allowed her head to rest on the back of the seat.

Sesshoumaru, all the while, had watched her with wide shocked eyes. Had she seriously done that while he was driving? Was she mad? He rolled his eyes as she went back to resting and grumbled. He made a right and pulled in through the gates of his home. He drove up the driveway and stopped in his garage. He got out and went over to Rin's side of the car and opened it, catching her before her slackened body fell onto the ground. He narrowed his eyes some.

'This woman is testing my patience. First she runs away, then she has the nerve to stop me from giving that man a good deserved death. Afterwards, she climbed over my carseat...this woman is just pure trouble. I need to get rid of her...but father would throw a fit. As would the hanyou. And I don't need that type of pressure right now...damn it...'

Sesshoumaru sighed as he stared at his doorway. He skillfully managed to balance Rin in his arms and unlock the door without awakening her and walked in, closing it behind him. He walked upstairs and to her door, looking down at the lock. He blinked slowly before getting a wicked idea. He glanced down at Rin's sleeping form and chuckled before he turned around and headed towards his own room instead.

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New York, America
June 15, 2002

Rin sighed as she set away her diary, finished with another day of writing. She looked out the large window that decorated her room and smiled some. The beauty was breath-taking, just like Sesshoumaru. She frowned and rolled over on her bed, now staring at the ceiling. She missed him. She knew that she had left for the sake of Kagome, but she wasn't sure how long she would be able to keep it up. She needed to get her mind off of him. If she didn't, then she might end up going back...

She jumped in fright when a sudden loud ring echoed through her empty home and leapt up, running over to the phone. She quickly picked it up. "H-hello? This is Mitsugawa, Rin..." She muttered, wondering who on Earth would be calling her.

"Rin? Hey! It's me!"

She blinked, immediately recognizing the strong, yet stubborn voice on the other end. She grinned immediately. "InuYasha-kun! How are you? Is everything alright? How's Sesshoumaru? Is he okay? Is your father okay? What about Kagome-chan? And Izayoi?" Rin immediately began to splutter out questions everywhere and blushed as the voice on the other end began to laugh.

"That's not funny, Inu-kun..." She muttered. InuYasha finished his laughing session before tsk'ing at her.

"Rin, Rin, Rin..."

She paled. Three name. Something bad happened...

"Well, long story short, everyone except for the Ice Prince is fine. I told you that you should have informed him..." InuYasha said. Rin groaned and allowed her shoulders to sag. She hadn't meant to hurt him...

"InuYasha, I--"

"Don't worry Rin. I'll tell him."

Rin smiled softly. "Arigatou, Inu-kun. I have an interview to get to though, and I have to get ready..."

InuYasha's voice sounded slightly surprised. "You've got a job application already? Wow, looks like Little Rin isn't so Little anymore, ne? Well, don't let me hold you up." He chuckled again before they said their goodbye's and both hung up. Rin leaned against her wall and sighed happily. To talk to InuYasha again felt good. He was the only one she could actually trust about this entire moving thing...

"Oh no! I'm late! Onigumo-sama will be upset!" Rin squeaked out as she saw the time. She immediately began to run through the small apartment, grabbing the things that she would need to get ready before she leapt into the shower. Ten minutes later, she was rushing back out, struggling to get the brush and hairdryer through her hair as she ran through the apartment in attempt to dry it quicker.

Afterwards, she quickly put her clothes on, double-checking herself in the bathroom mirror. Once she was satisfied with her look, she grabbed her keys and quickly made her way out of the door.

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Tokyo, Japan

InuYasha walked through the hallway, wondering if Sesshoumaru was currently even home. Though he was the new businessman for his father's company, InuTaishou still refused to allow Sesshoumaru to move to a different house as of yet. InuYasha only half-liked that decision. He didn't like it because, well, Sesshoumaru would still be here. He liked it, however, because he could continue torturing his bastard of an older brother.

"Hey! Sesshoumaru, you here at all?" InuYasha called out, giving up on walking after his brother. When he received no response, he turned around, smirking slightly. "Guess I can't give you Rin's message then...!" He said in an abnormally loud voice, using the news as bait to get his older brother to respond. When he heard a door immediately fly open, he knew he had caught his fish.

When he was thrown against the wall, he definitely knew that Sesshoumaru still cared.

"What did you say, half-breed?" Sesshoumaru's dangerously toned voice growled out. InuYasha, seeming to be unaffected by the threat, simply stared his brother down.

"Keh. Let me go, you uptight ass. Otherwise, you're not gonna hear how Rin is." InuYasha smirked. As long as he had information about Rin on his side, he was invincible towards Sesshoumaru and any attack he may throw at him. Sesshoumaru scowled and reluctantly released InuYasha, not liking the fact that his younger half-brother knew his weakness. He scowled and turned around, walking away. InuYasha, making sure that his brother wasn't looking, winced and coughed some as he got the sudden wind of air flowing through his pipe before following after.

"Keh. You're never gonna change, are you? So when're you planning to go chase her? I'm surprised you didn't the moment you found out the news." InuYasha said, not really worried about what harm his elder brother would bring him. For many years now, Sesshoumaru's been threatening his life, and still has yet to even kill him...or anything close. Sure, he's been put in the hospital before, but that sure as Hell wasn't by Sesshoumaru. He snickered some, imagining father's reaction at the mere thought of Sesshoumaru putting him in the hospital. If Sesshoumaru wanted to keep the title, he couldn't hurt his dear younger brother...

InuYasha was snapped out of his thoughts by a swift knock on the head by Sesshoumaru. He growled and glared up at the obviously annoyed demon. "I will not follow after her. It was her choice to leave, and it will be respected. I chase after no one." He narrowed his eyes down at his younger brother and walked into his room, slamming the door behind him before the hanyou had a chance to follow after.

He sighed and went over to his bed, allowing his body to just fall upon it. He didn't bother moving from his position, thoughts wandering through his mind.

'Should I go after her? Is InuYasha right...? No. Hanyou's are never right...and yet...is this some kind of test? Rin isn't the type to pull such a trick. Not unless she was forced to. I know why she left...but I don't understand why she felt no need to tell me. Perhaps speaking to Kagome wouldn't be wise, though her younger brothers may be worried...'

He sighed in annoyance and rolled over, staring up at his ceiling as his hair lay sprawled across the sheets. What should he do...? His emotions and his mind were confusing him. One told him to go after her...the other told him not to, that if she left, it was her own choice; that he shouldn't interfere. Besides, perhaps she would be happier now that he wasn't involved in her life, constantly looking over her shoulder for Kagome. He sighed.

'Maybe she is better off without me...'

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Tokyo, Japan
August 3, 2006

Kagome sighed and bent over the desk, too troubled to concentrate on her work. Sesshoumaru had denied her. For the first time since Rin left for New York. She knew of their relationship, even knew before she saw it. That day...when she found them together...was simply the proof that she needed. It had shattered her heart to see them together, but she found herself able to get over it soon enough. But she was still bound to Sesshoumaru; not by emotion, but by physical desire.

'InuYasha knows about my affairs...he won't touch me anymore. It gets frustrating after a while...especially since he accused me the first time simply because I was speaking to Sesshoumaru! I didn't even officially start having an affair until a month after the accusations!'

Kagome scowled as she threw the pen she held across the room. InuYasha was gone - again. She sighed and stood up, rubbing her forehead before she wandered over to the empty, cold bed. She slowly sat down on it and layed back, feeling a strong sense of loneliness. She didn't want Sesshoumaru. But InuYasha just refused to see that. She rolled over to her side and stared at the window. Her hand trailed down and she covered her stomach, frowning some as she closed her eyes.

"I won't let anyone hurt you..." She whispered. She had to find out who the father was. She was starting to fear the worst...

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InuYasha set down the shot glass for the fifth time. The alcohol wasn't affecting him yet, but it would soon enough if he continued. Sometimes, it would be a good factor; but in this current moment, it was a bad thing. Ever since he found her with his brother again, he'd been drinking. He'd been drowning himself in the pleasure of the warm sensation that would overcome him, of the fuzz that covered his memories. He just wanted to forget everything.

"Hey there, you okay?"

His eyes narrowed and he stared up at the bartender. Of course the idiot would question if he was okay. If he was okay, would he be here? Would he be drinking? Would he have been at this same bar for the past few months? Humans could be so dense sometimes, he couldn't even believe that he was half. Sesshoumaru could say all he wanted, fact was, InuYasha was far more intelligent that some of these so-called "masterminds".

"Of course. I'm just here drinking for no reason and enjoying the fact that I wake up the next day, remembering absolutely nothing." InuYasha said in a serious tone, waiting for the bartender to fill his glass once again. Once the action was completed, he gulped it down immediately. The man simply watched him.

"So...you're saying that you're a drunky?"

InuYasha twitched. His claws itched to dislodge this man's head from his shoulders. Could he be so dense to actually believe the statement that he spoke? Of course, he was simply a bartender. Someone who spent his entire life listening to the saddened stories of others. Wasn't that the main deal for the man? To listen to others? InuYasha growled.

"No. The reason why I'm drinking isn't any of your business, and I'd appreciate it if you left me alone now. Just because others will talk to you after downing five drinks, doesn't mean I will." He said. The man backed off some and InuYasha sighed, going back to his blissful state of mind.

"...Sesshoumaru...I swear I'm going to kill you..." He seethed, downing the next drink.

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Sesshoumaru frowned and glanced away from his lap to the woman that had shifted in his bed once again. This was the dozenth time she'd moved within the past ten minutes. He stood up, wandering over to her. He stared down at her, noting how the sheets were bunched up in her arms and between her legs. His eyes stayed locked inbetween her legs for a few moments before he turned away and and walked to his door. His sight drew to his bedside table and he stared at the small black booklet. He glanced back at Rin before walking over, picking up the book.

He sat down on the edge of the bed, opening the book, noting that Rin's body had now fallen against his from his sitting. He ignored her and turned the pages until he found where he had left off. He sighed some and set himself, readying himself for what was to come.

April 9, 2001

Wow, sorry for not writing in a while. There's so much I must tell you in so little time! I've gotten a part-time job! And it's in a Flowery Store. I've always wanted a garden of my own. But dreams can come true, right? I'm rambling! There's something, or rather, someone I need to tell you about! His name is Sesshoumaru, Kagome-chan is going out with him...but he's so cute! Kagome's really lucky to have found him...I'm jealous of her. I wish that someone would love me, too...

He frowned. That wasn't the reaction he was expecting. It was a reaction nonetheless. He closed his eyes for a moment before once again, Rin shifted. He opened his eyes and glanced at her, eyes widening some as he felt her wrap her arms around his waist and settle her head in his lap. He growled, feeling the strong urge to throw her off of him. He frowned. He knew how females were with their personal belongings, and he wasn't going to dare in waking her up, especially after all this time she hasn't had it. He flipped the page in the small book, allowing the woman to (regretably) remain sleeping on him.

April 11, 2001

I've noticed something strange happening with InuYasha-kun. Ever since Kagome got with Sesshoumaru, he's been avoiding the both of them as if they were some kind of plague! Does InuYasha-kun like Kagome-chan? I have no room to talk though...Sesshoumaru is attractive, but I can't help but feel a pang of jealousy when I see him and Kagome-chan with each other like that...maybe it's him...maybe it's just because I desire the same thing...I guess I'll never know.

Sesshoumaru lofted a brow at the entry, and scoffed before closing it, setting it onto his bedside table before he glanced down at Rin's still sleeping figure. He unconsciously ran his claws along her soft brown locks of hair and leaned back against his bedpost, his eyes focused on the wall on the other end of the room. Her diary was growing interesting. Though he still doubted any true entertainment would come from it...perhaps he could use it against her? He smirked.

'Using a girls greatest secrets against her...what an idea...perhaps if I continue reading through her little book, I'll eventually find something interesting. And if it's interesting enough...I'll even bother bringing up the subject with her...'

He chuckled and looked down to her, his eyes narrowing at his hand before he immediately stopped it. He drew his hand back and easily picked her up, careful not to wake her, before setting her on the other side of the bed. He settled the sheets over her, staring at her for a moment before he too, undressed and lay down. He closed his eyes, a single thought coming to his mind before he drifted to sleep.

'Maybe I'll even discover...why she left me all those years ago...'

Author's Note: Okay, I had this chapter posted once already, but unfortunately, it didn't quite go through all the way. Hopefully it does this time. -grins- Arigatou, DCoD-chan! Thank you for telling me that it didn't work!

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