Author's Notes: I'm so sorry for the long wait. I was busy with other stories, wrapping up the Farfarello arcs and stuff on top of school.

Eh, school…

So yesterday I decided I might as well get the rest of this up. After all, I wasn't letting this story sit for all these months gathering dust. No, I was writing in it. Actually, I have only one chapter left to write and I'm done, the story is that close to be complete.

7

I stay there on the kitchen floor for some time. I pinch myself every time I think I'm going to fall asleep. I think of Yuushi, of his blonde hair and his somber smile. I think of Crashers and how much fun we used to have, just living, just working. I never had that kind of fun living with Weiss. There was always some lingering stench of death that ruined everything that could've been fun.

The others in Weiss carried on well enough. Omi had been around death his entire life. I suppose he was immune as any of us could be. He was always so innocent, so trusting. It made me want to tear him apart for the trust in those eyes. I was jealous, I suppose. I was jealous of all of them, even Ken and his flock of brats. Even Yohji…

Especially Yohji…

Oh, God, Yohji…

I sigh and rest my head against the wall. He hadn't gotten the letter. I knew, somehow. He would've called. He would've demanded that I didn't do anything stupid.

Or maybe he just didn't care…

I smile.

I hope he didn't. He didn't deserve the shit I dragged him through. I hope he hates me, wishes me dead.

I close my eyes and sigh. It's been long enough. I can take another pill. I slowly find my feet and limp across my apartment to my nightstand. I reach for the bottle and knock out another piece of blue peace. I swallow and sit down on the bed, against the wall to wait.

It's been long enough.

I can hear my phone in the kitchen ringing. I almost get up to answer, but I'm tired. I stay where I am, curl around a pillow and watch the lights of my apartment fading into dark, listening to the answering machine click on, the whirr of a tape, Yohji's voice.

"Aya? Aya?!"

It's been long enough. I'm ready for the darkness.

Fin Chapter 7

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