Sam's POV

I can't believe this was happening. Seth had taken Mattie upstairs to the room and all we could hear now was her screaming. Like nails on the chalkboard screaming. To our ears it was beginning to give me a headache.

"Seth, did she fall right asleep when she hit the bed?" I asked him. His body slowly turned away from the TV and looked at me.

"She did lay down on the bed and her eyes were closing when I left Sam." He looked at his watch. "Where is Paul he should be here soon right?"

I nodded walking into the kitchen to distract myself hopefully from that noise. I walked up to Emily kissing the back of her neck. There were points when the screams went quiet and then they instantly would get louder then they were before.

Emily turned around looking at me. "What is going on up there, Sam?"

I shrugged, I didn't like it though. "Emily I don't know. But I plan on waiting for Jake and Jared to get back then maybe sending Jared up there to see what is going on. Unless Paul is here by then."

Quil and Embry walked into the house and covered their ears. "We could hear this from across the reservation Sam. Who is killing a cat in here?"

I looked at the two of them pulling Embry outside. "What do you know about your sister, is there anything that would be upsetting her this much to cause this to happen?"

He shrugged. "We didn't really talk much last night or this morning. She seemed quiet enough but that detention might have proved me wrong about some things." His glance went to the window. "Did Paul and her?"

I nodded to him. "She seems to have connected with Jared too. So I'm waiting for either of them to come home then sending the first one up there to talk to her."

We both heard the roar of Jake's truck coming into the yard. Jared hopped out running over to us looking kind of mad at me. "You didn't. How could you? You know she didn't want to talk to Embry. And what is that noise?"

I put my hand up for him to stop talking and give me a chance to say something. "First of all Jared I didn't say anything to her really, only that she should stay here because she had said that she was here and waiting for you. Well not even that I did manage to stay quiet. As for Embry he showed up here a few minutes ago because of the screaming that is going on. And the screaming is coming from her. So can you please go up and talk to her. I have no idea what is going on."

He walked in the house saying "Hey" to Emily then I heard the sound of a wooden spoon hitting skin. I laughed a little.

"Jared, stop trying to take food from Emily and Kim and find out what is going on with Mattie, please."

I heard his feet stomp up the stairs and the key turn in the lock.

Jared's POV

My hands trembled as I opened the door. The screaming has stopped for the moment and she was tossing all over the bed. I rushed over to her side not know what to think really if she did wake up I didn't know what to say. But that is what I did have to do was wake her up. I slowly reached my hand up onto her shoulder gently running it down her arm as her eyes popped open.

"Jared." Her eyes were on me as she sat up scooting herself to the corner of the bed farthest away from me. "Don't touch me." There was pure fear in her eyes, nothing but pure terror. "I … I … I … I have to go." Her body trembled more then anything else I had ever seen in my entire life. This girl was going to make it possible for all of us to calm Paul, Ya right.

"Mattie." My hands were on her arms shaking her extremely gently. "Mattie look at me please."

She shook her head never meeting my gaze. "I can't. Jared I have to go."

I shook my head at her not loosing my grip on her arms. "Mattie, what happened we could all hear you screaming? Even your brother heard you, I came up here to see if you were alright."

Her eyes shot to me. Well at least I got her attention somehow. "You all were listening to that. How could this happen?" Her arms came up trying to hit me. I did let a few of them make connection with my skin. "I can't believe you just sat there and listened to that." In one fluid motion she slipped out of my hands. "I'm leaving now." She raced down the stairs and into Paul's arms before forcing him out the door.

Mattie's POV

How could he have done that to me? Jared, I mean I know he is with Kim but he should have come up as soon as he got here. I didn't want to listen to anyone. I just had to run right now. "I'm leaving now." I am surprised how level my voice did sound if I was screaming for a while, it usually would be shakier for longer than it is right now. At least I am in Paul's arms. Once I get him outside all thoughts get scrambled in my head. "Jared he … he … he …" I couldn't finish.

I could feel Paul's arms tighten around me. This felt safe, but no matter how hard I tired my body just wouldn't relax. His hands slowly did begin to slide up and down my back very gently.

"It's alright. He is not going to hurt you right now?" He looked down at me before I could bury my head into his chest again. "Nothing is going to hurt you when you are right here in my arms."

I shook my head. I was all to tired to run anymore. But I needed to get home, they all sat in that house listening to me scream for who knows how long. "I can't stay. I have to go, Paul. I'm really sorry. Pick me up tomorrow?"

He nodded slowly. "I can come with you, just give me one second. I'll go steal some dinner from Emily."

I shook my head. I wanted some time alone. It had been only a few days since I had last had a nightmare and I needed to deal with this one at this time. I hated them and there was only one way I knew to deal with them. And that was something I never wanted anyone to see especially not Paul. "I need to be alone. Let me go, you can't protect me from everything."

His arms loosened only a bit but enough that I could get out. I turned heading for the wood and running faster when I hit them. I stopped for a second looking back towards the house and I couldn't see Paul or anyone else outside anymore. Good they did get the message to leave me alone. My feet only carried me faster towards my house, I wasn't planning on running away if that is what you think. Make no mistake I loved my now brother but this was all too much for one day for me. "I hate you and always have and forever will for what you have done to me." I screamed at the top of my lungs. That was for every time I caused myself pain for what he had done to me. Why I had to run right now. Why I had to do this to myself.

Upstairs in the house in the bathroom I found what I was looking for. I grabbed a cloth putting it into my mouth pulling up my sleeve and cutting not too deep just deep enough to cause enough pain that the pain from the nightmare would go away.

I know this seems a little terrible using one pain to get rid of another but it's like they have always said. "Your hand is hurting so I'm going to stomp on your foot. So your hand doesn't hurt now does it?"

The social workers had given me a choice about this I could come here and live on La Push with my family or I was going to be sent away because of what my parents had done to me. I didn't like to talk about it or think about it for that matter so I tended to not do that until my eyes were closed and then I couldn't control my thoughts.

This only brought back feelings of being safely in Paul's arms. Maybe I should call him I don't want to be alone right now. I just have to cover this up. I looked down at my arm the blood had stopped running and was dry now I washed it lightly wincing as it hurt the tiniest bit. I looked around, my cell was still in the house. Seth still had it in his pocket from before he took me up to that bedroom. I can't call Paul and I am way too tired to run back there.

I walked into Embry's room he had to have someone's number around here somewhere, normally I wouldn't approve of looking in his room for anything but I needed something really bad. On the screen of the computer there were numbers written down with no names beside them. I looked not recognizing any of them. I took the sticky note and went out into the kitchen dialling the first number.

"Thank you for calling Andrew's Pizza how can I help you?"

"Sorry wrong number." I said and quickly hung up. "Don't tell me these are all food places." I sighed and tried the next number.

"Hello." This was a male voice one that I didn't recognize. Then I heard in the background him yelling to someone. "Embry, why would your house be calling Quil's cell phone?"

I hung up even quicker. I was being so dumb right now. I picked up the phone again and dialled my cell number. I could tell Seth to give it to Paul.

When someone picked it up it wasn't a voice I had really remembered. Maybe only hearing it once or twice. "Mattie." I knew who it was that other guy who was there when we got to his house. That voice that seemed to be able to command Seth to do anything that he didn't want to do even if it was for the best.

"Hand my cell to Paul." I wanted to sound confident and I pulled it off mostly there was only a little squeak at the end.

"Jake is on his way over to get you. Mattie we need to talk."

"Jared is with him?" I asked worried figuring that those two were usually together.

"No Mattie he is alone. Paul will be outside waiting for you to get back alright?"

"Paul comes with him, or I don't get in the car." Now I was serious about that I didn't want to go anywhere without that boy's arms around me right now and if I was going to have to face my brother then I wanted some protection there and Paul had promised to protect me when he was around. After all that was what he had said a little while ago before I had run off on him.

There was a brief silence on the other end of the phone as if he was trying to decide something. "Paul is staying here, and Jake will pick you up if you refuse to get into the truck with him. Mattie he will be there in less than a minute so stay put and wait for him to pick you up."

Sure enough a second later Jake was at the door walking into my house.