Chapter 7: Inappropriate Feelings
I was sitting at the table, trying to sallow the food I was given to eat for breakfast. Kol was sitting in front of me, watching me with keen eyes. I couldn't get any sleep last night. How could I when I was forced to sleep in the same bed with the very monster I loathed and feared. Thankfully Kol didn't do anything terrible to me however the entire night he was cuddling me. He did it on purpose of course, just to make me uncomfortable. Rebekah was with us at that moment but she didn't attempt to make any conversation with me.
"I just realized that I don't really know anything about you" spoke up Kol suddenly and I didn't like it a bit what he just said. I don't want him to know anything about me.
"Took you long enough brother" commented Rebekah instantly and received a roll of eyes from Kol.
"So, you are going to answer a few questions of mine, honestly of course" said Kol however I decided to give him as many false answers as possible. It's not like he could know that I am lying to him. Kol would need to buy anything I tell him about me.
"My first question, how many siblings do you have?" asked Kol. There was nothing to lie about so I told him.
"I had only one sister." I kept the answer short and thankfully Kol accepted it.
"Did you run away from home or did your parents give you permission to come here?" asked Kol which I found strange. Why does he care?
"They let me come here." I replied.
"Well I am sure they are regretting their decision by now" quipped in Rebekah. What she said was absolutely true. My parents must be going crazy worrying about me. I haven't talked to them in three days. They must think I have disappeared as well.
"What is your favorite color?" asked Kol and I couldn't help but raise my eye brows at him. A thousand years old vampire asking me about my favorite color. Under any other circumstance the question would seem comical to me.
"Black." I said.
"Black isn't a color" stated Kol.
"According to science but in general it is." I countered immediately for no reason at all.
"You seem educated enough, good." Was Kol really checking my knowledge level? I wondered to myself and shook my head inwardly.
"What are you scared of?" Kol asked this question with serious interest.
"Nothing." I wasn't going to give him any other answer but that.
"You are lying." Kol said instantly.
"I am not." I said firmly.
"You are" said Kol confidently.
"I am not scared of anything." I said with strong tone of voice. Kol then leaned in and looked me in the eye. His eyes dilated and he said-
"Tell me the truth, what do you fear?" This time I couldn't help but answer Kol.
"Screams. My sister's screams. It still haunts me." I blurted out before I could do anything to stop myself. I knew I was compelled to answer and it angered me to no limits. Kol and Rebekah exchanged glances at my reply.
"You forgot to ask the most important question Kol" said Rebekah and attempted to dissolve the tension in the air. "Is there anyone especial missing you back home?"
"No" said Kol before I could answer. It made me frown at him with confusion. Kol looked at me and said- "You are mine. There can't be anyone else especial in your life."
"Don't ruin the fun Kol" scolded Rebekah and then she looked at me. "Tell me love, is there anyone?" My heartbeat suddenly increased. Kol would compel me to tell the truth if I lie and I had a feeling that he wouldn't react well to the truth. Therefore I decided to remain silent.
"There is someone" exclaimed Rebekah while grinning widely. Even though I had my eyes lowered I could still feel Kol's displeased eyes on me.
"Who is he?" asked Kol with stern tone of voice.
"He was my boyfriend." I said having no other choice.
"Was?" Kol picked up on the tense immediately.
"He and I broke up a few weeks ago." I answered against my will.
"Why?" asked Rebekah with interest
"I was obsessed with finding out about my sister and he wanted me to move on. It was best for us to break up but I am sure he is missing me." I answered truthfully. Like I had a choice. Right then Klaus came into the room and the interrogation stopped for the time being which I was very happy about. I didn't want them to know anymore about me. Klaus seemed to be in a happy mood.
"You are looking like a ray of sunshine this morning" said Kol to his brother and wondered- "What happened?"
"Caroline happened" answered Rebekah with a smirk. "She was our brother's date yesterday at the pageant." I couldn't help but wonder, who the hell is crazy enough to date Klaus.
"Finally some progress" said Kol with a smirk gracing his lips.
"Of course I enjoyed my time at the pageant yesterday however that's not the reason I am in a pleasant mood today" said Klaus making his siblings wonder about it.
"What else happened?" asked Rebekah with serious curiosity.
"Elena seemed to be sired to Damon" said Klaus. I didn't know what the hell that means but whatever it is, it surprised both Kol and Rebekah. I picked up the name immediately, Damon? Are they talking about the same person? Isn't he already dead?
"How do you know that?" inquired Rebekah right away.
"Apparently Elena has become Damon's lap dog. She is doing everything he is asking her to do. Elena is doing everything she can do to make Damon happy, including breaking up with Stefan" said Klaus. I couldn't help but wish that I knew what they were talking about. It seemed like an interesting topic. "It's only a matter of time now before Stefan would get more desperate to cure Elena."
"What if Damon doesn't let him?" asked Kol sounding serious about it. "We all know how much he fancies the doppelganger."
"Only time can tell whether Damon is going to be a problem or not. Though I have a feeling that he would be co-operative" said Klaus with nonchalant tone of voice.
"And if he doesn't, it would be my pleasure to kill him" said Kol and it seemed that he was imagining the murder in his mind already and enjoying it immensely.
"Apart from the hunter marks, do we have everything else that we need to find the cure?" asked Rebekah. I wondered what kind of cure were they talking about.
"We have the sword and the Bennett witch is preparing herself and I guess after learning about the sire bond Jeremy's hunter's mark would complete sooner than I expected" said Klaus more to himself than to his siblings.
"I am planning on leaving town soon. It's getting very boring over here" said Kol which left me with a panicked mind. I have my passport in the Motel room I was staying in. If Kol leaves Mystic Falls and takes me with him which he probably will then I would never be able to get out of this country even if I ever manage to escape him. My fast heartbeat was noticed immediately by the three vampires.
"Is anything wrong love?" asked Klaus looking straight at me. I shook my head right away.
"No, everything is fine." I said but I wasn't going to sit with them anymore. "I have finished eating. May I be excused?" I asked Kol and he nodded his head lightly. I could tell he was curious to know what suddenly happened to me but thankfully he didn't start to grill me with questions. I quickly walked out of the dinning room and ran upstairs. Even though Kol's bedroom wasn't exactly my favorite place to be but there was no other place I could go to calm down my nerves. I have to do something before Kol leaves town. I must.
Third Person's POV
Rebekah entered the Grill and her eyes immediately found Matt. He hasn't forgiven her yet for almost killing him and killing Elena which caused her to turn into a vampire. Rebekah was trying hard to get a genuine forgiveness from Matt. Even though he accepted the car Rebekah bought for him thanks to Stefan but Matt was nowhere near friendly with her yet. Rebekah walked over to Matt with a nice smile. He glanced at her once before going back to ignoring the original.
"I am busy right now" said Matt with unfriendly tone of voice. He was drying the glasses at the bar.
"I am not here to bother you. I just wanted to see how you are doing. I heard you moved in the Gilbert house with Jeremy" said Rebekah in a very friendly and nice way.
"Yes, I did. Thanks for your concern" said Matt quite rudely. Rebekah sighed out heavily in hopelessness. She should have left but she didn't want to. Rebekah instead ordered a drink as an excuse to stay.
"Where is Elena?" asked Rebekah wondering about the newbie vampire. Ever since she learned that Elena is sired to Damon, she can't wait to rub it in her face.
"She is with Caroline and Bonnie. They are having a girls' night-" Matt was going to warn Rebekah about going over to the Boarding house and cause trouble for the girls but he stopped suddenly.
"What the hell." Matt said out loud.
Rebekah looked at Matt and saw him looking at somewhere. She followed his gaze and found her brother Kol. He just entered the Grill with Riana. The girl looked absolutely unhappy as always. Riana was truly really helpless and could do nothing but take orders from Kol and do as he pleases. However there was something different about how Kol treats her. Rebekah noticed it clearly and wondered about it as well because it left her confused. For starter Kol hasn't started using Riana for blood and sex yet which would be a normal thing for him to do. Kol fed on Riana only once and never touched her inappropriately. Sure he likes to keep Riana close to him all the time and manhandled her plenty of times, quite roughly too but Kol didn't force her to sleep with him or compelled her to get intimidate with him. The only explanation Rebekah could think of is that Kol must want Riana to give in herself and be willing for him. However Rebekah doesn't see it happening anytime soon. Riana hates Kol which is pretty obvious. Rebekah wondered when the girl would lose her patience and retaliate against Kol or fall for him.
"What's wrong?" asked Rebekah to Matt while frowning at him with confusion.
"What is Kol doing with her?" asked Matt with concern in his voice. Rebekah was surprised because she didn't know that Matt knew Riana.
"Do you know Riana?" asked Rebekah with curiosity and interest.
"Yes, she came to Mystic Falls to search for her sister Sophia and to find out what happened to her" said Matt, his eyes glued to Kol and Riana.
"She already knows what happened to her sister" said Rebekah while sighing a little. It caused Matt to turn his attention back to the blonde original.
"What do you mean?" asked Matt with confusion.
"Riana knows about vampires and also knows that her sister was killed by a vampire" said Rebekah which increased Matt's confusion even more.
"Did Kol tell her about vampires? Why did he do that?" wondered Matt. Rebekah was more than willing to answer his questions. After all it was the first time Matt was willing talking to her.
"Apparently my brother took an interest in the girl and decided to keep her" answered Rebekah and hoped Matt wouldn't get mad at her for her brother's action.
"Did he compel Riana to be his toy?" asked Matt with hatred in his voice.
"No, but he made sure Riana never dares to disobey him" said Rebekah and Matt rolled his eyes angrily.
"Your brother is a monster" spat out Matt while glaring at Kol.
"I couldn't agree more with you" said Rebekah and really meant it. Matt looked at her again.
"Do you know who killed her sister?" asked Matt being very curious. Rebekah however lowered her face and didn't answer him right away.
"Rebekah, who killed her sister?" asked Matt once again and this time with strong tone of voice. Rebekah couldn't look at Matt and meet his eyes but she glanced at Kol for once. However it was enough to let Matt know about the culprit.
"Oh my god" gasped out Matt. "Does she know?"
"No, she doesn't" said Rebekah and she breathed out heavily. "And Kol would do anything to make sure that she never knows."
"Why?" asked Matt angrily. "It's not like he would care if she hates him. She is just a toy for him."
"On the contrary, I don't think Riana is just a toy for Kol. That's how it seems and that's what Kol says but something is different here. I can sense it. I have seen my brother playing with humans before but he never cared enough to know about them. He never bothered to learn about their liking and disliking. With Riana, he wants to know everything about her, wonders about her. I think he actually cares about her" said Rebekah and she realized that moment how correct she is.
"That doesn't make it alright for him to keep Riana hostage." Matt protested immediately.
"Of course it doesn't but no one can help Riana. Kol would never let her go."
Riana's POV
Kol was getting bored so he came to the Grill and tagged me along with him, obviously. I was thinking about every possible way to run away from Mystic Falls but every way came to a dead end where Kol found me and made me suffer the consequences for escaping him. Kol and I were at the pool table. He was playing with stranger people while I stood by idly.
"Leave the table now." Kol suddenly compelled his opponent to leave the place. He then looked at me and said-
"Play with me." Even though it sounded like Kol was asking me but I knew he was ordering me with his usual wicked kind of niceness.
"I don't know how to play." I said being honest about it.
"I will teach you" offered Kol. I knew I had no choice but to comply with his wish therefore I agreed to let him teach me how to play pool. Kol rearranged the balls again. After that he made me hold the stick. Kol took the first hit and showed me how to point at the white ball. After him, it was my turn. I bent over the table and pointed my stick at the white ball.
"Your angle isn't right" said Kol and he bent over me to right the angle of my stick. If I say I didn't feel anything I would be lying. However I was confused about what I just felt. I could have said I felt disgusted but that wouldn't be true because unlike other times my skin didn't cringe at his touch this time. I felt kind of nervous but not out of fear. I glanced at Kol from the corner of my eyes. For the first time I looked at him, really looked at him without any negative feeling such as anger, hatred, fear or disgust. And I have to admit that I found him quite attractive. Of course Kol was handsome and good looking like his siblings but I never really thought about his physique or appearance before. No wonder why many girls were ready to throw themselves at his feet yesterday at the shopping mall. If Kol wasn't such a monster I would have felt attracted to him as well but under such circumstance it would be so inappropriate of me to fantasize about my captive. But then again, if not attraction then what the hell I was feeling for him at the moment? I failed to name my feeling. Besides, I had a game to play. I took the shot and was able to drop two balls in two different holes. I unknowingly smiled at my achievement. I was successful in next couple of shots as well.
"Wow, this is very easy." I said happily not caring about the fact that Kol was standing only an inch away from me.
"That's because you are learning from the best" said Kol proudly. He was being cocky as usual.
"Actually I am a good learner." I said with a smirk, forgetting for a moment that I am talking to Kol who had kidnapped me and keeping me hostage. He was actually being very nice with me all on a sudden.
"Aren't you ungrateful?" said Kol with mirthful tone of voice and a smirk on his lips.
"Learning from the best." I said without any hesitation or thinking about it twice.
"You think I am ungrateful." Kol mockingly gasped and pretended to be very shocked. I inwardly rolled my eyes at him.
"Of course you are." I said nonchalantly. "I know you are enjoying yourself teaching me how to play pool and I know for a fact that you are not gonna thank me for it or even admit it."
"Oh please I am merely doing you a favor. There is nothing entertaining about it" said Kol rolling his eyes at me and being kind of immature. I shook my head to myself.
"Whatever you say Kol." I said but not really buying what Kol just said. I suddenly noticed how close Kol was standing to me. His face was merely an inch away from mine. I immediately grew nervous because of the closeness. His lips almost touched mine when someone called my name. I stepped away from Kol right away and looked at the person who called my name.
"Matt?" I was surprised to see him suddenly and got scared as well because Kol was glaring at him angrily which wasn't a good thing at all. What if he kills Matt?
"Riana, I didn't know you are still in town." He said completely ignoring Kol. I needed to get Matt away from Kol immediately. He probably doesn't have any idea what Kol is and what he is capable of doing.
"Yeah, I am. I decided to just stay in Mystic Falls for a couple of days before going back." I said with a forced smile and hoped that Matt would walk away before getting killed by Kol.
"Well then, I will see you around for a couple of days" said Matt and then he suddenly embraced me. I could be wrong but perhaps I heard Kol growl at us. Only I knew that Matt wasn't just hugging me. I felt him putting something in my jeans pocket. After that he simply walked away. I wondered what he put in my pocket but I couldn't take it out in front of Kol and risk losing it. Speaking of the original, I looked back at Kol and he was glaring daggers at Matt. I had to divert Kol's attention from Matt and keep him from going after the innocent soul. I did what I thought would work most effectively. I looked at Kol with fearful eyes.
"Please don't be mad at me. I swear I had no idea Matt was going to come over to talk to me. This is not my fault. Please don't punish me for it. Please." I sounded terrified and I was terrified however not for me but for Matt. I didn't want him dead because of showing concern for me. I don't want anyone's blood on my hand. Kol wrapped one arm around my waist to pull me closer to him. I let him do that.
"I am not mad at you" said Kol in my ear with husky tone of voice that made me shake a little inwardly. He sounded soft as well. Kol lightly brushed the back of his fingers against my cheek while looking deeply into my eyes.
"Yesterday I realized something. I realized that I don't like being cruel with you" said Kol and it seemed that he really meant it.
"You don't?" I asked sounding surprised and I was indeed.
"No, I don't. I like your smile more than your tears" said Kol with seriousness and I suddenly realized that I have no idea who Kol Mikaelson really is. I kept thinking of him just as a monster but perhaps there is more to him than that.
"Why?" I couldn't help but ask him. Kol thought for a moment before stepping away from me a little.
"I don't know" was his simple reply. Without saying anything Kol walked away from me. I obviously followed him and we both left the Grill. I really wanted to see what is in my pocket but didn't feel safe to do anything. I decided that I would check it once I am completely alone. The drive back to the mansion was awfully quiet. Kol got out of the car and started to walk towards the entrance door with slow pace. I didn't know what I was thinking exactly but I held Kol's hand and stopped him from walking further. He looked at me with questioning eyes. I was confused as well about my own action. And in that moment of confusion I leaned in and kissed Kol on his lips. When my lips touched his, I felt as if every fiber of my being came to life suddenly. I have kissed a boy before but I never felt anything like this. It was so different. The intensity of the touch was so much that I had to pull away and a gasp escaped my lips immediately. Kol was looking at me with unblinking eyes. I would say he was stunned but Kol was good at hiding his true feelings therefore he just stood still. But I knew he felt the same thing I felt.
"I am sorry." I said quickly. I was shocked at myself to say the least. I can't believe I kissed Kol. He was keeping me hostage for god's sake. True he wasn't starving me or keeping me tied up to a chair or torturing me physically, but Kol was still my captive. I turned around to run inside the mansion and probably lock myself in the bathroom for the rest of my life. However before I could take a step, Kol used his vampire speed and stood in front of me. He was blocking my way successfully. I didn't have the courage to look at him therefore I had my eyes lowered. My heart was pounding against my rib cage forcefully. Kol cupped my face and made me look at him. There was a moment when we simply stared at each other before Kol crushed his lips on mine. A part of me screamed at me to push him away but another dominant part inside me encouraged me to give into Kol.
I wasn't thinking of anything let alone thinking straight. Only the feelings mattered at that moment. Lips moving against each other, eyes closed in pleasure and the sound of soft moans. Those are the only things I cared about that moment. I wish I was doing everything because of compulsion. Then I would have something to blame for my wild feelings but unfortunately it was all me. What is wrong with me? Why am I enjoying this? Those questions ran through my mind for a few moments but not for long. Kol was obviously being dominant in the kiss. He didn't ask me to open my lips for him. He pushed his tongue inside my mouth and deepened the kiss more. Soon enough I ran out of air and needed to breath desperately. I pulled away from the kiss and started inhaling deep breaths. Kol however didn't let go of me. He still had his arms wrapped around me. Kol leaned near my ear and spoke up.
"Why did you kiss me?" asked Kol with low and sexy tone of voice. I thought about it for a while before answering his question.
"I don't know." It was strange really. We both didn't know what the hell we were feeling for each other.
"I don't love you." I said looking straight into Kol's eyes.
"Neither do I." Kol said confidently. I knew this for sure that whatever it was going on between me and Kol, it sure as hell wasn't love. Kol is keeping me hostage. I could never fall in love with him. And he could never love me because I am merely a human. For Kol humans are only food and objects to play with. Then what it is that is going on between us. Is it only physical attraction towards each other? But Kol must have met many beautiful girls in his eternal life. Why would he be attracted to a normal girl like me?
"This is not me. I don't kiss strangers." I said more to myself than to Kol. I completely blamed him for the changes in me.
"I am not a stranger" stated Kol right away.
"Of course you are. I don't know anything about you. And you don't know anything about me." I said feeling frustrated with my confusing feelings.
"Perhaps we want to know each other in a different way" said Kol and he brushed his thumb against my bottom lip while cupping my face. We looked into each others eyes and before I knew it, I was thrown over the bed and Kol was on top of me, kissing my neck hungrily. My nails were digging into his flesh as I tried to bring Kol closer to me. I knew what I was doing was wrong but I simply didn't care at that moment. A moan escaped my throat as Kol touched my core. I realized then that I had a long night ahead of me. A very long night indeed.