Natalia was back in the healing halls again but not for an injury. She was she had missed her time twice and was experiencing very painful cramps. The head healer walked back in with some herbs. I'm sorry to inform you my lady but I believe you are in the beginning stages of a miscarriage. The heal said sadly. Natalia was stunned. She couldn't even say anything. Here are some herbs to help with the pain. If the baby doesn't pass in the next few days. Come back and see me. The healer said as she handed her the herbs. Thank you she said softly and took the herbs oh and menial please don't tell anyone. She said I wouldn't dream of it my dear i know who's child you carried inside you. My lady if I may say one thing many of the serving staff and I as well wish it was you standing and sitting beside our Lord Elrond and not the nasty elleth. She doesn't deserve a Ellon like him. You would have made an amazing Lady of Imaldris. The healer said softly. Thank you for your kind words and thank everyone else. I should go rest. Natalia left the stall and began to walk out of the halls. She stopped when she heard the familiar voice of Lady Celebrian. Oh elrond isn't amazing soon we will have another child. I hope it's a girl this time. Celebrian said excitedly yes my love it is amazing she heard elrond reply. Natalia could see through a cracked of the curtain and watched as elrond kissed Celebrian. She quickly left before they saw her. She arrived back in her room. She closed the door and locked it. She slumped down to the floor and began to sob deep cries of pain and heartbreak for the hundredth time. She then felt a surging pain in the pit of her stomach. She silently screamed as she felt the unborn life being flushed from her womb.

For three days she stayed in her room as she laid in pain on her bed. Every hour she would have to change her personal cloths soaked with blood. Finally on the fourth day it had stopped. She had a meal sent to her room. She ate in silence. She was alone now. Celebrian had figured out that she was the woman that elrond had been with while she was gone and had made an effort to make her life miserable. She wasn't aloud to be in the same room as elrond or her sons. It killed her to be cut off from everyone. Later that day Natalia fell to the ground in her room and prayed to the Valar to show her what to do and what she was meant to do here if it wasn't to be with elrond. She prayed for them to take her pain away. She was crying through her entire prayer finally she fell asleep to tired of crying and praying to not wake up.

A few hours later Natalia woke up suddenly. She had dreamed of a woman in white. She had told her that she had to go to Lolthrien if she wanted to find her calling in her life here in Middle earth. She would have to complete her calling before she could have true peace and happiness.

Natalia got up and went to her wardrobe. She took out a leather rucksack. She laid out three pairs of leggings and tunics. Her leather riding boots, gauntlets armor. She then went to her trunk, she took out her sword, her two double short swords, and her bow and arrows. She then snuck down to the kitchens and found some lembas bread, dried fruit and meat. She wrapped them up in a cloth. She picked up a waterskin and brought it back to her room. She then began packing her bag with her clothes and food. Her sketchbook and charcoal, two extra hair ties and a cloak. The last items she put in her bag was her bracelet a ring and two necklaces that elrond had given her.

She then dressed in a clean tunic and leggings. She put on her boots and and a armor and weapons. Once she was fully dressed she sat down at her desk and wrote a letter to Elladan and Elrohir telling them of how much she loved them like her own sons. How she was sorry she had to leave but it was for the best. And that she would see them again sometime. She asked only one thing and that was to not go looking for her after they had read theses because she would be far to gone. She sealed them then wrote a letter to elrond saying about the same as the twins but was a little more intimate. She then got up and blew out the candle. She looked around her room one more time before she picked up her bag and waterskin and closed the door. She quietly made her way to the twins room and slipped their letters under their door. Then went to Elrond's study and placed his on his desk. She quickly left. She got to the stables no one was there. Which she was happy for. She got Nightingale out of her stall and put her saddle on. She then strapped on her bag, waterskin, and sword. She mounted Nightingale and urged her forward. Run quickly my Nightingale run for lolthrien. She whispered in her ear. The horse shook it's head in understanding. Then took off quickly. She looked back one more time then continued on.

Elrond was awakened suddenly he looked beside him. Celebrian was sleeping beside him. He got up and ready for the day. He went to his study. He noticed a letter sitting on his desk. He picked it up and opened it and read it.

My Dear Love Elrond,

By the time you read this I will be miles away from Imaldris. I have decided to leave. The pain and hurt has become unbearable and I feared if I stayed I would surely fade from grief. Please don't try and find me. All you need to know is that I have and will always love you. I have gone to a place where I can find some peace and purpose in my life here. It is clear to me now that we are not meant to be. I hope your marriage flourishes with the new addition to you family coming. I want you to move on from what we had. Don't linger on what could have been. You will always be in my heart where ever my life's journey takes me. I love you. Goodbye for now.

Love Natalia

Elrond dropped the letter in shock. He ran from his study to Natalia's room. He threw the door open. He bed was made but her wardrobe was open and her trunk where she kept her swords was empty. He collapsed onto her bed and sat in shock. She was gone forever. He would never see her smile or her sweet voice. Elrond heard two pairs of footsteps walk in. He didn't bother to look up he knew it was his sons. Ada she's really gone isn't she Elrohir asked softly. He just nodded I'm sorry father Elladan said as he placed his hand on Elrond's shoulder. He closed his eyes. Please leave I need to be alone. Let all servants know that this wing is not to be used anymore. Yes father Elladan replied they left him and closed the door. He walked around the room. He saw a bottle sitting on her dressing table he opened it. Her scent came rushing into his senses. He breathed it in. He then closed the bottle he put it in his pocket. He opened her jewlery box he saw that the pieces he had given her was missing. He closed it. He looked over to the table next to her bed he saw some herbs. He walked over and picked it up. He examined them. He dropped when he realized that these were the herbs that were given to woman who misscarried. A stab of pain shot through his heart. She had suffered the loss of their child alone. While he and his wife were expecting theirs. The guilt drove deep into his heart. He went to her wardrobe. And took out one of her scarves that she had made she would wear it in her hair. She had told him it was a hairstyle in her world. A people called gypsies would wear them. She had once showed him one of their dances it was very erotic. He laid on her bed and thought of that night. He closed his eyes.

Elrond walked into Natalia's room late after everyone had gone to bed. He was met with the sight of Natalia dressed in a sheer skirt that had slots at the sides and a half shirt that showed off her curved waist. She was dancing with her hips. She had her eyes closed and there was a graceful smile on her lips. She had her tied up in the scarf. He watched in do fascination as she moved her body to her own music that was obviously in her mind. The dance was graceful and erotic at the same time. Once she had stopped he had clapped. She looked up in fright. Oh by the Valar elrond don't do that. She exclaimed do what my love. I have no idea of what you speak of. He replied with a teasing smile. You know what. Don't try and play coy. She replied I'm sorry my dear but I didn't want to interrupt that very a alluring dance. He replied as he pulled her into his arms. She laughed. He loved when she laughed it sounded as smooth as a water. He kissed her you know I would like to see what other dances you can do in this. He said as he ran his fingers through her skirt and stroked her bare thigh. She blushed I can show you if you will sit down on the bed and no touching till I'm done. She danced for him once more when she had stopped he had pulled her onto the bed and did a dance in the bed until the morning.

Elrond opened his eyes he hadn't realized tears were falling from his eyes until one fell down his face and hit his hair. He got up and put the scarf in his pocket with her perfume bottle. He closed her trunk and wardrobe. He went to the door and looked back one last time. He left and locked the door. From that moment elrond had become numb and empty in his heart the only love he had was for his sons. And the child that would be born. He went back to his study and put the two item in the locked drawer of his desk.

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