Disclaimer: I don't own characters just the plot and any OC's that may suddenly appear

Disclaimer: I don't own characters just the plot and any OC's that may suddenly appear

Verse Six

Two weeks later

I will dedicate

And sacrifice my everything

For just a seconds worth

Of how my story's ending

And I wish I could move

In the direction that I take

And the choices that I make

Wont up end up all for nothing

Show me what it's for

Make me understand it

I've been crawling in the dark

Looking for the answer

Is it something more?

Then what I've been handed

I've been crawling in the dark

Looking for the answer

Help me carry on

Show me its ok to

Use my heart and not my eyes

To navigate the darkness

Will the ending be?

Ever cunning suddenly

Will I ever get to see?

The ending to my story

Show me what it's for

Make me understand it

I've been crawling in the dark

Looking for the answer

Is it something more?

Then what I've been handed

I've been crawling in the dark

Looking for the answer

How much further?

Do I have to go

And how much longer?

Till I finally know

'Cause I'm looking and

I just can't see

What's in front of me…

Ray read over the lyrics which were printed in the small booklet that came along with the Blitzkrieg CD he had borrowed from Hilary.

They were deep and profound, he could barely believe that this was the same person who he has coffee with two weeks ago.

The Kai he has coffee with had has a dry sense of humour and hadn't seemed to deep, he had been a regular guy, except for the fact that they had to leave the coffee shop early due to a crazed fan-girl.

Ray had also recently discovered the bands website which hosted pictures from concerts, interviews with various magazines, though it was stated on the homepage that this site was not as detailed as the Russian version which consisted of a lot more background information and such Ray had found this English version satisfying enough.

Name: Kai Hiwatari

Birthplace: Moscow, Russia

DOB: not stated

Sexuality: Straight, though there have been rumours of being gay…read Brooklyn for further information.

Curious Ray clicked on the link, Brooklyn, and found himself face to face with a photograph of a beautiful redhead with deep topaz coloured eyes smiling.

Underneath the picture was a caption which read, 'Brooklyn, Kai's rumored gay partner of three years. 1988-2005'.

There was also an article about him, Ray scanned it quickly, from what he could tell, and Brooklyn was a naturalist who Kai had met when he had toured Australia...The two became close friends…spent a lot of time together which started speculations of whether they were a couple…a freak fire which Brooklyn had died in, and Kai in an alcoholic binge which Kai had recently recovered from six months ago…he had been clean since.

There was also a critic's view on how after the accident Kai's music had taken a dark turn and this was just a reflection of his growing depression.

Ray sat back from the computer screen and checked the date of when the CD he had borrowed had been released, a year after Brooklyn's death…did the song he had been reading then really reflect his misery?

Kai

"So what made you want to leave the music world?"

Ray had watched as Kai drank some of his black coffee and he sighed, Ray had asked the question out of pure curiosity and now hoped he hadn't offended him.

Putting the top over the cup Kai placed the cup between his two freezing hands as he shrugged and held his cup.

"Oh c'mon you must have a reason"

"Everything just became too much, it's hard to explain"

"Oh…it must have been hard though"

"What's hard?"

"Leaving something you love, I mean I could never stop painting, it's like to stop breathing, living"

Ray felt Kai stare at him which his mahogany coloured eyes, before a smile began to crack at the corner of his mouth and he began to shake his head…he was laughing.

"You're some kind of deep sucker you know that. Modest and deep, anything else you got up your sleeve?"

Kai was laughing at Ray, Ray was dumbstruck, and why was he laughing at him?

"Hey I'm trying to be serious"

"Yeah well I'm having a hard time understanding, what would you know about it being hard to stop something you love"

Ray didn't answer; he looked down at the brown liquid in his own cup.

"Ohh c'mon Ray, don't be like that, I was just joking"

Ray quickly quirked an eyebrow, was Kai trying to say sorry?

"Look, if you really love then you should go for it, like say your art, if you wanted to land some kind of gallery show piece then you should work on and not let anyone dictate how your life is meant to be"

Ray was smiling to himself as he thought of his art and how he would soon lose it.

"What?" asked Kai as he saw that smile play at Ray's lips.

"You obviously haven't met my father then, all he wants it for me to go back to China and live there"

"So what's the problem?"

"It's not what I want, I like it here, I like the people and art and music, and I belong here, surely you know what that feels like?"

Kai is still, Ray could see how his body was suddenly tense.

"Why don't you just stay and not go back to China? Why not give up and paint there?"

Ray stared at Kai in a blank way.

"My family is traditionalist, they want me to marry and have a family, not spend all day painting portraits"

"We're not so different Ray Kon, we're more alike then you seem to realize"

Were they really as alike as he had originally thought?

Kai wasn't so sure now as he stared at the page before him, covered in random dribbles of words which seemed to make sense as he wrote them down, now as he stared at them he realized that they made very little sense at all.

He had meant to be writing an essay but was finding that harder then he realized.

Taking a new page from out his notebook Kai wrote the words down after each other and then put them together in sentences, now he was making sense.

More scribbles and new words Kai lifted himself off his bed and went to the bookcase in his room, he removed a thick book which read, 'Thesaurus', opening it up he flicked through some pages and went back to his bed.

Humming a tune in his throat Kai tapped on the page and decided that this wasn't just mindless dribble.

This was in fact a new song, something he had not seen in a long time, he wasn't sure whether the others would like it, he wasn't even sure if he did, but already he could feel the rhythm deep within his soul and he was itching to work out the music.

Sticking the pen behind an ear Kai went towards his standing guitar, he played a few notes before he sat himself down with his paper and words, and he began to work.

End of chapter…

Song at the beginning was crawling in the Dark by Hoobaskank

I know I haven't been around and I'm sorry, but it's been a hard time right now, this chapter was spontaneous and hopefully I'll get everything going again.

Thank you for being so patient…

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