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I wrote this one pretty quickly. It's kinda long and it kinda flowed out :P So it might be a mess and I might edit later...
Angst continues.. with some smuttiness sprinkled on top.
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Bo was feeling pensive sitting on her couch lost in thought. She hated that she had to leave Lauren alone at the hospital. She hated that the blond wasn't with her now. She hated… No. She was scared, that Lauren wouldn't make it. Would the other woman disappear completely, if she died or would she become a ghost and stay with Bo? Would Bo ever see Lauren again? Bo really needed to see Lauren again. Bo sighed heavily, rested her head on the back of the couch and closed her eyes willing the tears to stay away.
Bo was brought out of her gloomy thoughts, when there was four quick knocks on the door. For a fleeting moment she was excited, that it might be Lauren, but then realized she wouldn't knock. The blond would just poof in. Bo opened the door and saw not the blond who was invading her thoughts, but another blond standing in the hallway with a white wine bottle clutched in her hand.
"Hey Bo. I brought wine. We'll make a night of it?" Crystal said and pushed in without a second thought.
"Hey. But.." Bo wasn't really in the mood for company.
"I just want to get to know you a little. Is that so bad?" Crystal smiled with flirty eyes. "Oo, it looks so nice in here." She rated as she ventured deeper into Bo's apartment.
"I do like it" Bo nodded with a small smile. "This is all Lauren's doing." She gestured to the décor.
"Lauren's your ex?" Crystal asked trying to sound nonchalant, but eyed Bo intently.
"Um, no. She's.. someone important to me." Bo said softly.
"Girlfriend?" Crystal pressed. The brunette's face fell as soon as Crystal had asked the question. So this Lauren must be the girl she can't have, Crystal mused. I'll help Bo forget her. I know what she needs to snap out of her funk, the blond decided smirking a little.
"No." Bo shook her head. "Not a girlfriend."
"Okay." Crystal only commented. "Oh, you have a cat! Cute. Hey.." She crouched down to coo at Mayo, but Mayo hissed and turned his back on the woman.
"Sorry. He's a bit antisocial with strangers." Bo grinned a little. That cat was truly a little asshole, she thought affectionately. He loved Lauren with all his heart, but probably everyone else could go screw themselves in his opinion.
"Obviously." Crystal scoffed as she followed the smug looking cat saunter into the kitchen with her eyes.
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"I really like this wine. What do you think?" Crystal asked Bo.
They were sitting side by side on the sofa and Crystal leaned in a little closer to the brunette. The blond had dressed to impress. As skimpily as she had dared and she dared plenty. Miniskirt and a low-low cut top were her weapons of choice. Crystal was more than a little disappointed to notice that Bo didn't rake her eyes on her at all. She would have to go all in to get the girl.
"It's nice.. I guess." Bo said distractedly and moved away slightly. Her mind was on Lauren. She wondered how the blond was holding up alone in the hospital keeping vigil by her body.
"Nice?" Crystal huffed playfully and crossed her arms over her chest pushing her breasts up some more.
"Sorry.. It's very good." Bo corrected with small smile and took a sip from her glass. "I'm sorry, I'm not that good company tonight. I.. I had an emotionally draining day and maybe you.."
"Oh. Of course. I'll cheer you right up." Crystal smirked suggestively. "Can I use your bathroom?" She asked.
"Sure. It's right.." Bo started.
"I'll find it." Crystal cut in and got off the couch and sauntered away with extra sway of her miniskirt-clad hips.
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"Bo?" Lauren called out softly, when she appeared in the living room. Bo was sitting on the couch with Mayo tucked against her leg. She was absentmindedly petting the slumbering feline.
"Lauren?" Bo looked around surprised. "You're here." She breathed with a smile spreading to her face.
"Yeah." Lauren gave a sad little smile as she made her way closer to Bo. "Um, Bo.. We should talk." She took Bo's hand.
"Sure." Bo agreed hesitantly. I'm not gonna like this am I, she thought looking at Lauren's strained face.
"Bo! Come here. I'd like to show you.. something." Crystal cooed huskily.
"Who is that? Is that.. Crystal? You're not alone?" Lauren croaked, trying to hide her disappointment, but not succeeding too well. She glanced at the wine glasses on the coffee table, her face falling even more. "Oh. Sorry. I interrupted something.. I should.." She dropped her hold on Bo and started to back away from her.
"No. Lauren please. Please don't go! It's.. It's not what you think! She just barged in." Bo hastily explained. "She's in the bathroom."
"She's not." Lauren scoffed.
"She is.. Not?" Bo craned her neck to see to the hallway.
"No. That skank.. Sorry. Crystal's in your bedroom." Lauren said flatly. She was desperately trying to reign in her jealousy. She wanted Bo for herself.
"What? No. Why is she there?" Bo furrowed her brow in confusion.
"Bo? You coming?" Crystal's suggestive purring carried to the living room.
"Why indeed. Let's go see." Lauren snarled rolling her eyes dramatically.
"No. No. We shouldn't." Bo denied, but followed Lauren anyway leaving the sleeping cat on the sofa.
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The blond was headed to the bedroom's closed door. "I'll take a look, shall I." She pushed her head through the door.
"What are you doing?" Bo hissed.
"She's naked. Well mostly. The sheet doesn't really count." Lauren said with narrowed eyes after pulling her head back away from the bedroom.
"What?! Naked?" Bo squealed. "Why?!"
"Why? She desperately wants to get your hands on her! Her hands on you!" She hissed. Like me, she added silently.
"You sound jealous." Bo smirked despite the situation.
"I want.." Lauren stopped, when Crystal stepped out the bedroom. She had draped a sheet skimpily over her obviously naked body.
"Hey.. Don't look so shocked Bo." Crystal sighed feeling a bit deflated, when she saw Bo gawking and looking totally baffled and uninterested. The brunette looked to be in shock rather than salivating after her.
"I just.." Bo shrugged slightly glancing at Lauren.
"I'm sorry, if I'm coming on too strong.. But I just.. I hear you sometimes Bo.. You know, alone up here. And I thought we could.. Keep each other company and.. Not be so lonely?" Crystal said quietly dropping her gaze at her bare feet.
"Oh." Bo breathed, not knowing what to say.
"You should be with her." Lauren said in a gentle tone.
"What?" Bo huffed and got a raised eyebrow from Crystal.
"If you need to think it over.. Um, I'll wait in the bedroom?" Crystal suggested carefully, going in the room and shutting the door behind her.
"What do you mean?" Bo whispered sounding irritated. "Lauren?"
"Bo, us.. We won't ever work out. I'm in a coma for god's sake!" Lauren said resolutely, her hands balled to tight fists. She needed to let Bo go. "You should really give Crystal a chance. She's beautiful, interested and.. She's right there! Warm and breathing."
"But I.." Bo tried to cut in Lauren's rant.
"Bo.. I'm sorry. I should have never dragged you into this. You should just forget me." Lauren sighed defeated and flickered away.
"Lauren!" Bo called out after her. "I can't forget. I don't want to." She said quietly, rubbing her face with her hands.
"That was fast." Lauren commented dryly with a little grin despite her moroseness, when Bo found her on the roof only a few odd minutes later.
"Hmph. You know nothing happened." Bo huffed rolling her eyes. "I sent her home. I told her, I'm sorta seeing someone… Lauren, I want to be with you for.. whatever time we have." She added softly, locking her eyes with Lauren.
"Oh? I.. I'd like that." Lauren breathed feeling a hurricane of emotions swirl in her. She cleared her throat to compose herself. Tearing her eyes off Bo, her gaze swept across the roof. "I always wanted to do something with this space." She commented softly.
"Like what?" Bo was very interested, what Lauren wanted for the roof. She knew she could make it happen.
"You know like a real garden with a bench and gazebo and everything. I don't know.. I wanted something nice and peaceful." Lauren said dreamily. "Just like heaven."
"You should have everything you want." Bo whispered as her eyes tracked Lauren's profile.
The blond was lost in thought, imagining how the roof top would look like, if it had a garden. What it would be like to spend time there with.. Bo.
"This could be so beautiful." Lauren smiled and turned her gaze to Bo.
"You are beautiful." Bo murmured, moving closer to Lauren happily noting that the blond didn't step away. Instead she released a soft breath and let Bo's arms lightly circle her waist.
Bo lowered her lips to Lauren's gliding them softly against one another, making the blond's eyes flutter shut. A soft moan escaped Lauren's lips, when Bo kissed her more heatedly. Spurred on by the little sounds the blond was making, Bo slipped her tongue in Lauren's mouth. Bo tugged Lauren flush against her, tightening her arms around her waist. Lauren's hands were threading in Bo's hair. They both got lost in the kiss and the strong feelings erupting in both of them.
"That was.. Wow.." Lauren whispered, when the kiss slowly ended.
"It was." Bo smiled as the blond melted in Bo's embrace.
"Bo.. I really need to talk to you." Lauren said solemnly against Bo's shoulder after a while.
"We'll talk inside?" Bo suggested still hugging the blond in her arms tightly.
"Okay." Lauren murmured.
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"Bo, I.." Lauren started, but then fell silent.
"Just tell me, Lauren." Bo said unevenly as she sat next to the blond on the sofa. She placed her laced fingers on her lap. She anxiously waited what Lauren wanted to say. Bo knew it couldn't be anything good considering the blond's furrowed brow and nervously bouncing leg.
"I like you Bo. I mean I really like you. You're so sweet and caring. And you've helped me so much. You've been so.. awesome." Lauren rambled nervously trying to convey how much Bo meant to her. On the other hand she was really getting anxious about telling Bo the situation, but she knew Bo deserved to know that.. I could be gone any moment now, Lauren shook her head. Bo needed to know.
"I like you too Lauren. I would want us.." Bo began hopefully.
"Bo, I don't think there will never be an us. And.. And that saddens me. I wish I've met you years ago. I wish I had lived a little. I wish I hadn't been in that accident. I wish so many things.." Lauren smiled sadly. "But here we are.."
"What are saying?" Bo prodded warily. She was trying to make sense of Lauren's ramblings and her heart was aching at the forlorn look on the blond's face.
"My brother visited me today. At the hospital. He looked.. haggard and sad. All this.. has been tough on him. Doctor Rainer recommended, that I should be let go.. To stop treating me and not resuscitate anymore, if I happen to crash again. Or just turn of the ventilator and I.. I probably won't be able to breath on my own." Lauren whispered.
"What?" Bo gasped. "They can't do that! They can't!" She said vehemently.
"Dyson, my brother was.. reluctant and he said he'd think about it. He was angry, but I know if he's thinking my best interest, he'll.. He doesn't want me to suffer unnecessarily." Lauren closed her eyes for a moment.
"And?" Bo squeezed Lauren's thigh. "What does that mean?"
"They'll pull the plug Bo." Lauren swallowed and met Bo's horrified gaze.
"No." Bo breathed. "No! They can't. They can't do that! You might wake up any day now.."
"Bo, I might never.."
"No. I don't want to hear it! I'm not ready to.. let you go. We have to go see Dyson and tell him not to give up. You're still here! He can't give up! You can't give up!" Bo was unraveling. Kenzi had been right. I have fallen for a spirit. My heart is going to be in shatters, Bo realized stricken. "Please.. You can't.." She begged tears falling on her cheeks.
"Shh. It's okay.. Listen.. Bo, we'll visit Dyson tomorrow. Okay? Shh." Lauren soothed as she gathered the distraught woman in her arms.
"There must be something we can do.. You need to wake up, Lauren." Bo muttered against Lauren's neck after she'd calmed down a little.
"Maybe we'll figure something out." Lauren comforted. "But I think.." She trailed off.
"What? What are you thinking?" Bo asked softly.
"Maybe we could make a beautiful memory? Be mine for one night? Let's not think about tomorrow." Lauren whispered in Bo's hair.
"Lauren?" Bo asked, lifting her head.
"Be mine Bo. For tonight?" Lauren said softly, locking her eyes with Bo's teary ones. Bo nodded shakily and Lauren took her hand in hers and led the brunette into the bedroom.
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The bedroom was dark. Only the blue glow of the moonlight filtered through the window and cast its light in the room. Lauren stopped beside the bed and rubbed Bo's hand with her thumb. She dropped her eyes to their joined hands and sighed heavily. She was having second thoughts. Was she wrong to ask Bo this? Lauren didn't want to push Bo to do something she might be wary of.
"Are you sure about this Bo?" Lauren asked wanting to give the brunette an out. "We don't have to.."
"I want to. Lauren I.. want to." Bo murmured. "I want you so much."
Bo lifted Lauren's chin with her index finger and brushed her lips against the blond's. Lauren caught Bo's lips more firmly and grabbed a hold of the brunette's hips. Lauren felt Bo's tongue trace her lower lip until sliding in her mouth and gliding against her own. Her hands dropped to knead on Bo's ass, while Bo's hands stayed fisted in the blond mane. Both women were releasing aroused whimpers, moans and grunts. Suddenly Lauren took deep breath after separating their mouths with a wet pop and rested her forehead on Bo's shoulder.
"Why.. why are you stopping?" Bo whimpered breathily.
"Bo, let me touch you." Lauren husked out of breath as she pulled away a little. "Take off your clothes?" She commanded, but sounded questioning.
"Okay. What about your.." Bo fiddled with her jeans button and when she lifted her eyes, she noticed that Lauren was standing right there. Naked. The blond's clothes had evidently magically disappeared. Bo's eyes were raking all over that exposed enticing flesh.
"I don't know what happened.. Power of the mind I guess." Lauren shrugged.
"You're gorgeous.." Bo whispered her eyes wide and moved to grab hold of the blond, but Lauren sidestepped away.
"What are you doing?" Bo pouted unhappily. She seriously wanted to get her hands on the woman.
"Take off your clothes." Lauren commanded in an aroused tone.
"Oh. Right." Bo quickly shed her clothes on the floor. "What?" She asked a bit self-consciously, when she noticed Lauren's seemingly blank stare and slacked jaw.
"You're so.. Beautiful." Lauren sighed in awe. She sauntered closer and ghosted her fingertips from Bo's collarbone down to between her breasts. "Perfect."
"Hmm." Bo hummed and pushed her chest out hoping Lauren would touch her breasts and not just skim the sides. "Lauren.." She husked pleadingly.
"Lay down." Lauren murmured.
"You're bossy aren't you.." Bo noted in a low tone as she settled on the bed and tugged Lauren half on top of her. She sighed at Lauren's cool, soft skin making contact with her own heated flesh.
"I can be." The blond admitted smirking.
Bo was about to say how hot she found it, but the statement turned into a soft gasp as Lauren's lips encircled her pebbled nipple. Lauren's free hand was palming the brunette's other breast firmly, flicking over the straining nipple with her thumb. Bo's hand latched on the blond's arm, while the other gently clawed on Lauren's back. Bo felt like a purring cat under Lauren's touches. Lauren switched her mouth on the other breast and pushed her body on top of Bo's. The brunette's body was arching to meet the talented mouth lavishing attention on her chest. Lauren's thigh soon slipped between Bo's legs and the brunette couldn't help but grind her core against it. Her eyes fluttered shut and she could already feel her release bubbling inside her. This is what you get for being celibate - a super fast orgasm, she chastised inwardly. But soon all her thoughts escaped her.
"Lauren.." Bo croaked. "I need.. I need.." She panted with her hips moving erratically.
"No!" She protested, when Lauren pulled her thigh away from her heated core. But soon she sighed 'Oh yes', when Lauren's fingers glided along her slit and dipped inside. Lauren kissed her way down the brunette's twitching body. Lauren was in awe how responsive Bo was to her touches. With a gasp Bo's hands caught a fistful of hair in its grip and the other grabbed a tight hold of the sheet under her, when Lauren placed a gentle kiss on the small patch of hair at the apex of Bo's legs.
"Oh yes.." Fell again from Bo's lips as Lauren's mouth found her bundle of nerves, while two digits were moving leisurely inside her. "Gods.. Yes.." She panted wrapping her legs behind the blond's back.
"Don't stop.." Bo demanded teetering on the edge, Lauren's determined thrusts and licks pushing her closer and closer until she fell over with waves of pleasure quaking her body. "Lauren.. I'm.." She grunted shuddering as she clamped her thighs trapping Lauren's head between them. Her core clenched tightly on Lauren's fingers buried deep within her, when she came. Her whole body twitched and spasmed as the aftershocks ran through her. After what seemed like forever Bo's legs flopped to the side and her body relaxed in blissful state.
When Bo finally came back to her senses, Lauren was gently kissing her stomach and chest. Bo smiled with a satisfied sigh, flipped them over and eagerly began to massage Lauren's breasts. Lauren arched against her hands. It felt so good to be touched like this. To be close to someone. Be close to Bo. The brunette's wandering hand was kneading Lauren's thigh, when Lauren felt a dark jolt like she might flicker away any second. She didn't want to vanish in the middle of Bo touching her. She didn't want to leave Bo behind! Her body tingled oddly and she swore she saw a flash of her hospital room and smelled the distinctive smell of disinfectant always lingering in hospitals. She froze and held her breath, but nothing else happened. Lauren blew air between her lips. What the hell was that?
"Lauren is something wrong?" Bo eyed her in concern.
"For a moment there I.. I'm fine.. Bo, let me just hold you? Please." Lauren pleaded softly moving Bo's hand from her inner thigh to the flat of her abdomen.
"Okay." Bo said quietly respecting Lauren's wishes, despite the fact she wanted to touch the blond so much. To make her feel good. I'll make her feel good, when all this spirit stuff is behind us, the optimist in Bo decided. She took a breath and molded her body against Lauren's side and tugged the blanket on top of them. "Let's cuddle."
"Okay." Lauren sighed contently.
Lauren wrapped her arm around Bo and with the other one laced their fingers together. They were quiet just enjoying the feel of their bodies pressed together. Lauren thought Bo had already fallen asleep. She tugged a strand of hair from Bo's face behind her ear and rested her palm against Bo's cheek.
"Please just.. don't disappear on me.." Bo begged quietly breaking the silence and startling the blond slightly.
Bo snuggled even closer to Lauren's cooler body. She rested her head on the blond's chest feeling her own heart clench in desperation, when she realized the absence of a heartbeat against her ear. Lauren said nothing, she just held Bo tighter in her arms.
"You'll stay?" Bo whispered.
"Lauren?" Bo said, when the blond didn't answer.
"I'll stay." Lauren promised softly, even when she knew that it might turn out to be a promise she would be forced to break. She kissed the top of Bo's head and hoped she would still be here, when the morning came.
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A/N So a little bit of smut there, but I hope it was 'sweet' and fit the mood of the chapter. At least I tried to make it fit..
A/N Edited and added a few words! (2nd June)