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Chapter 7: Explain please?

Sesshomaru made his way around the castle looking for his alleged soon-to-be-mate. Thankful he had very strong sense of smell otherwise he wouldn't ever have found her. She was sitting in the garden hidden behind the tall lavender with a sleeping Rin in her lap. She was humming softly while she rocked the girl gently in her arms. She looked so peaceful that Sesshomaru almost didn't want to intrude...almost. He allowed his presence to be known by doing the cliche thing to do, ahem. Kagome's head spun around and faced Sesshomaru. She unconsciously blushed; after all she did say she was going to be his mate. She knew why Sesshomaru had come and she found no use prolonging it; so she placed the child on a bed of lavender and followed him inside.

They found a peaceful balcony to relax on, although both were far from relaxed. Sesshomaru noticed how nervous Kagome was. He slipped his arm around her and held her closer to him. He didn't know why he did it, it was just a mere reflex. Kagome calmed down a little and once she was mostly comfortable Kagome spoke.

"Ok, I know why you brought me here...and...um...I just wanted to say it was just a slip of the tongue. I'm sorry if I put you in an awkward position. I mean you never want to be mated to a weak human. I'm only here to be Rin's mother." Kagome's expression became very melancholy and her voice barely audible. "I'm ok with that really. I mean I was just a shard detector for InuYasha. It'd be unfair if I asked anything more of you." Sesshomaru who had remained silent the entire time she spoke, had finally had enough. He grabbed her and kissed her vigorously on her lips making her loose her breath.

"What do you mean it was just the slip of the tongue? Do you not wish to be this Sesshomaru's mate? You say one thing and mean the other! You nigens are so confusing! Just say one thing and mean it. It isn't that difficult." Sesshomaru stood facing away from her, staring into the forest. Kagome, still shaken from what he had said, stood and placed her hand on his shoulder.

"What do you want me to do? Do you want me just to say you have to make me your mate? Its kinda hard when you don't let me know what you want." Kagome just stared at the moon. She knew he was looking at her, but he remained quite.

"I...I cannot say what I want this has to be completely your decision. I will do whatever you wish for." She couldn't help it. Kagome giggled at Sesshomaru's stutter. He was completely confused as to why she was laughing, but it made him smile softly. Once Kagome finally caught her breath, she smiled and placed her hand on his cheek and kissed him.

"Is that answer enough?" She smiled at him as he placed his arms around her waist and continued the kiss. They stood there in the moonlight embracing each other in complete serenity.

Meanwhile, standing beneath the tree tops, InuYasha watched as his object of desire made out with his brother of all people. He was disgusted. "Kagome, how could you? Your love must be cheap if you can go for anyone. But that doesn't matter. Soon you will be in my arms again. After all, Kikyo won't let me have fun anymore so you can be her substitute." InuYasha laughed at his plans and then when back to the local village to wait out his plan.

Sesshomaru led Kagome into his room again. The couple was far too happy and "in the moment" to just let this night go to waste. He threw her onto the bed as she giggled, then silenced by his lips. His corse hands running all over her body while hers kneaded his chest. His sensual, passionate kisses left her lips and were now making their way down her neck towards her breasts. Her breath hitched when he was entertaining his mouth with one of her perky nipples. Hey hands went to his back as she massaged his muscles. Unfortunately, Sesshomaru just had to open his mouth.

"You'd have to be my mate anyways." He said with his hoarse voice. "After all, if the other lords found out you were pregnant..." He stopped mid sentence when he realized what he said. Kagome's muscles tightened and her eyes got wide.

"I...I'm what?" Kagome said fear evident in her voice.

"Nothing as of right now..." Sesshomaru said trying not to trip over his words.

"No I could've sworn you said I was...pregnant." Kagome got more and more hasty at getting an answer from him. Sesshomaru sighed and faced Kagome very sternly as he answered her.

"Kagome...you were pregnant after the first time. You are no longer pregnant though. You lost the baby." Sesshomaru made sure he left out the part of it being completely his fault. He didn't want her to hate him. He would tell her eventually, but not until after they were mated. Kagome just stood there teary eyed as she stared at Sesshomaru.

"I...I was pregnant. I was carrying your pup? But I let it die..." Tears overflowed as she silently mourned for the lost of a child she never knew she was carrying. And as Sesshomaru was comforting her, he couldn't help but feel a tinge of guilt. 'I'm sorry, Kagome.'