A/N- sorry, i felt like updating, and i have 3 stories on the go. So im updating as often as i can. Please review :) i love the reviews i really do it means so much! THANK YOU! *hugs* This chapter is (mostly) from Tracys view. WARNING SUICIDE MENTIONED IN THIS CHAPTER.

Tracy POV

I ran out the door, my heart smashing against my rib cage, my crying was uncontrollable. I diverted to the bathroom. I heard Mike calling after me, but if im honest, i really couldn't stop running. I slammed the door behind me, my hands fiddling with the eys, i was panicing i couldnt lock the door, eventually i managed to. I sank down against the door, tears streaming down my face. I could hear Mike calling my name, firstly trying to calm me down. He mostly just talked to me. I couldn't reply, my mouth wouldn't make the words. All that came out were barley auidoable noises.
'My father raped me' that was the only thing that echoed in my head. I couldn't make it stop.

Then. I saw the knife.

I remembered how the pain dissepeared as soon as i slid that razor across my arm. I was desperate. I grabbed the knife, and put it to my arm, continously i slid it across my arm. Cut after cut. It didn't work.
The thoughts rushed through my head like some sort of rollercoaster.

Your father raped you

You are a slut

your worthless

your stupid

i reached for a pair of scissors. The razor was to small. I put it to my stomach and let the scissors sink into my skin. I cried out in pain, i heard Mike calling my name his voice getting louder, i could see him battling with the door, the handle twisting but not letting him in. I looked at my wound, it was a lot deeper, i began to feel dizzy. I put my hand on the wall for support, then i stepped away, i felt faint, the last thing i saw was my bloody handprint on the wall. I fell to floor. Then everything was black.

Everyone POV

Mike finally managed to get the door open. This was after using a hammer to smash the lock off. The door swung open, to see Tracy lying in a pool of her blood.

"DONT LET THE KIDS IN! CALL CAM! NOW!" He shouted after Gina, his heart raced, he never imagined this would happen, he reached into his pocket, got his phone and called an ambulance.

GINA POV

I did what Mike said instantly, i got all the kids to stay in the living room, the crowded me with questions, i told them that Mike would explain later.

Mike was terrified, tears were like a waterfall from his eyes, he was aching and his hands were shaking. As i called Cam i could hear him talking to Tracy while putting pressure on her wound

"Come on Tracy, don't go.. please stay with me!" He cried "Your tough Tracy Beaker, don't give up now come on"
He started to reminscine about 'The old days'

"Remember when you ate that worm? and you won Justines room?" he gave a small laugh. It was heartbreaking

"Remember when you sold my gutair and then i got you back by the old 'slam the door in face' trick, haha!"

"All the tricks you did on Elaine the Pain, when you covered me in flour, come on kiddo ple- please stay with me.." He burst into tears once again

I called Cam, she was petrified

"Wait she what?" Cam answered.

"She tried to kill herself, Mike has called an ambulance, come here now." Thats when Cam hung up.

I had to talk to the kids, the atmosphere in there was so depressing.

"Is- is Tracy okay? What's going on?" Lily was the first to speak up.

"She needs to go to hospital, Mike is with her now.." I explained

"But what happened?" Liam asked.

Gosh, how could i tell the kids this?

"She had an accident, im afraid its fatal.."

"Be honest. We know about Tracy. For once stop lying to us!" Tyler exclaimed.

"She... she tr- she tried to kill herself.. she found out that the man who raped her was her father..." Gina said, the kids were in shock

"Is she gonn- gonna be okay? Will she die.." Tee asked

"I don't know yet babes, but I think its slim chance. It depends on her injuries." I sat with the kids until the ambulance came, i hadn't even realised Cam arrived. She had gone straight with Mike. It was silent until the ambulance left. Until Harry spoke.

"Jeff hopes Tracy will be okay" Harry whispered. But it was so quiet that everyone heard. Carmen hugged Harry tightly.

A/N- dramatic i know. please review hope you enjoyed :)