Renesmees/Jacobs P.O.V.

"Selfish suits you" he commented

"Glad you think so" I said

"Hey how about I sleep over your house tonight?" I asked

"Don't you always sleep over on your birthday?" He asked me

"No point in breaking tradition" I pointed out

"Sure sure" Jacob said and I grinned at what was now his catch phrase

"Well, go get your stuff"

I raced upstairs without answering. I grabbed all I could at one time and threw it in a Louise vuitton duffle bag that I had gotten from Alice last year and race back down stairs.

"Ready" I sang in excitement

I told my parents I was leaving. Edward insisted on taking me to the border line but I argued that I would go with Jake. While we drove, I worried about Jacobs feelings for me. I needed to rein in the enthusiasm before I gave Jacob the idea that something was wrong.

"I feel like I haven't been to your house in ages" I said in amazement

"Yea it's been a while" He said pulling into the yard. The Black's house was vaguely familiar. Had it really been those longs since I've been over hear? We walked into the house and I immediately looked around for any sight of Billy.

"He's not here" he said realizing what I was doing

"Oh"

I briskly walked to Jacobs's room and threw my bag on the floor. I positioned myself comfortable on the couch while I watched Jacob rummage through the fridge.

"Hungry"

"No not really" I said

He closed the fridge and looked in my direction "How about a movie?"

"Sure" I'd do just about anything to keep the silence from raining in. He went through a couple of movies not seeing anything that sparked his interest. I was beginning to think he was never going to choose. Then he pulled out an old werewolf movie, dancing it around for me to see.

"They probably didn't get anything right" he complained

"It should be entertaining" I said cheerfully

He put in the movie and made his way next to me. He wrapped one of his arms around my shoulder, pulling me a little closer. I rested my head on his shoulder as I tried to get comfortable. We laughed at the most untrue parts of the movie. On occasion Jacob would mutter "Ridiculous". Somewhere between half way into the movie and the end, I feel asleep. I could feel Jakes arms lift me off the couch and carry me to his room.

I pried my eyes open to look at him when I felt his arms release my body

"Stay with me" I pleaded

He looked skeptical, I figured he would be. Something in his eyes changed, like he was fighting with something inside him

"I don't think that's a good idea"

I yawned, turning over so I was completely facing him "Thinking was never your strong suite"

He pushed me over in attempt to fit in his already too small bed. It didn't take long before I fell asleep.

(Jacobs P.O.V)

I waited until she fell asleep before I got up; I needed to go for a run….clear my head. I didn't bother with the front door; I rather go out the window any way. By the time I got back Nessie had changed positions, leaving no room for me. I made myself a pad on the floor, I didn't want to wake her; she looked so peaceful. I tried to relax; I was suffering from insomnia and can't afford another night of lost sleep. I was off the dream land in no time.

(Renesmees P.O.V.)

I slowly was slipping In and out of consciousness, trying to wake myself up. I felt shivers pulsate throughout my body, it was freezing in here. From the temperature I was feeling I could already tell that Jacob wasn't beside me. I glanced over to see him sprawled out on the floor and his bedroom window open, which would explain the heat deprivation.

"J-j-j ake?" My teeth were chattering as I pushed out my words, hoping they were loud enough to wake him.

"Hmmm" He said incoherently. He opened his eyes and jumped up in shock to my shivering body. He looked over to the window, slamming it shut with force that should have smashed it to pieces.

"Ness I'm so sorry, I should have made sure I shut the window" He said apologetically

"I-I-I t's o-o-ok" I chattered

"Move over" he swiftly scooted next to me and threw both his arms around me. The contrast between our skin was almost embarrassing. He was so beautiful, 'Wait what am I thinking this is Jacob I'm talking about, get that out of your head Renesemee'.He rubbed my arms trying to build up friction. I found myself lost in his dark eyes, not even blinking. He shot me a smile at my reaction, his white teeth gleaming against his russet skin. I lifted my palm to show him how we were right now.

Grinning but with questioning eyes he stared back at me

"Yea, seems like this is happening a lot"

"Yea, déjà vu" I responded. My body had already gained heat from his closeness. Yet I didn't want to tell him I was warm, I enjoyed his warm arms. 'What is happening to me?' We waited through the short silence until Jake started to feel uneasy; I could hear his heart giving a humming bird a run for its money .Afterwards we both got dressed and ready for the day. We enjoyed a quite breakfast with Billy who had returned sometime during the night. Once we were finished Jake drove me home, the car ride back felt like a form a torture, the speechless, music less silence was excruciating. We said our goodbyes and he promised me he'd be back later tonight.

As I walked in the house the only ones home were Mom, Rose, and grandma Esme. Thankfulness washed over, the fact that Edward wasn't here would make it easier to talk about my feelings. They all greeted me with heavenly sounding voices and loving smiles. I sat quietly for a moment watching the three of them. Mom was reading, Rose was examining her nails, and Esme was knitting a sweater. Ever so often they would look up from what they were do and analyze my face. I quickly decided it was time to get everything out in the open.

"Is everything ok Renesmee" My mother never really got attached my nickname, but I didn't mind; she's my mother I think it's reasonable enough that she can call me whatever she likes

"Um not really" I hesitated

"Talk to us" Esme suggested

"Maybe we can help" Rosalie said. If she could keep me fromfrom never frowning she would, it hurt her to see me unhappy. Jacob and Rosalie were kind of the same when it pertained to me.

"I can show you better than I can tell you" I said. I touched everyone's cheek so we were all on the same page. They all mouthed 'o' once they understood. Soon the three of them were laughing and commenting amongst themselves before turning their attention back to me.

"I knew this day would come" My mother mumbled to herself

"What are you talking about?" I asked

"Nessie honey does your stomach get tight when things like that happen with Jacob?" Esme quickly asked

"Kind of, why?"

Rosalie giggled, pressing her palm over her lips "You're in love with him"

"W-what?? No that's crazy, he is my best friend. I couldn't be" I stammered on and on. I thought about all the encounters we've had like the one last night, when my heart was trying to escape from my chest. I Self consciously paced my hand over it.

"Hmp tell that to your heart, it's going into a frenzy" Rosalie teased

I was so embarrassed I needed to get out of here

"Excuse me" My voice cracked. I ran upstairs to get a moment to myself. 'Human emotions are so overrated' I thought. I got to escape, I headed down to my dance room that Edward, my uncles, and Carlisle had built me once they noticed my dancing abilities. I loved having it, it was big and open it made me feel free. There were mirrors around the entire room and two walls had a dancing bar. My mother had told me stories about how she was almost killed in a room like this, the thought churned my stomach. I walked over to my IPod dock and pushed play, ahhhh Mariah Carey I could dance to her songs for the rest of eternity. I have spent most of my time in here; I didn't go to school because my parents didn't see the need. There's nothing that I could learn in school that I didn't already know, I had practically been home schooled.

I twirled to the music keeping with the beat. Spinning with each note I could sense the emotions rolling off of me. 'Sweet release'. Towards the end of the song I became at peace with myself, so at peace I must have forgot to breathe that whole time and I felt dizzy. I grabbed on to one of the bars for support lowering myself slowly to the floor.

"That was beautiful" I jumped slightly as I heard someone call from behind me. Edward.

"Edward you scared me" I said

"It was not my intention" He smiled and came to by me on the floor

"We should talk about your feelings" He hesitated

"Yea, I'm not really sure what those feelings are exactly"

"Renesmee, you are my life; I'll do whatever is best for you and I want you to know you do have a choice. You. Don't. Have to choose Jacob. Whatever you choose take it slow, go easy on your old man it's hard to accept the fact that you're growing up" He smiled sadly. Me and Edward didn't see eye to eye most of the time but that's just because he so protective. We do have our moments though, like now. I re ached up and sent him images of me climbing into his lap while he played the piano and of me falling asleep in his arms. He frowned realizing those days were long gone. If vampires could cry he would have.

"I'll always be your little girl Edward" I took hold of his hand and squeezed

"Always" He promised kissing my forehead

He quickly got up to leave me

"Hey" I called. He turned around to catch my gaze

"I love you……..dad" I said with tears in my eyes. He came back encircling me in his arms.

"I love you too" He said against my hair. Pulling back he looked at the locket my mother had given me. He put his finger over it grinning.

"More than my own life" he whispered

I put my hand over his, matching my expression.

"More than my own life" I agreed

That night I waited as patiently as I possibly could for Jacob to return as promised. My patience was starting to wear thin as I stared at the ceiling. I was startled by a loud thud so I looked up only to see Jacob grinning at my from my window.

"Hey" He said with a soft tone

When he was around sometimes I couldn't keep myself from smiling. He infected me; every time he smiled I smiled.

"Hi" I said copying his tone

He joined me on my bed and we started talking for what seemed like hours. We talked about our fun over the years, about my birthday party, and about working on my car together and taking it for a test drive. Once our conversations ceased a thought lingered in my head.

"Jake, can I ask you something?"

"Anything" he assured me

"Because I'm your imprint you have to give me whatever I want, right?"

He managed to articulate a small "Yes"

"…But within reason" He finished

"Can I ask for something without you jumping to conclusions or judging me?"

"Sure thing" he said seeming cheerful

I had to think about this because once it was done there could be no taking it back. 'Just breathe' I thought quickly.

"Kiss me" I whispered

His heart immediately picked up speed. He leaned closer and closer to me until we were resting on each other's foreheads.

"Are you sure this is what you want?" he said in slow breathes

I nodded, the closeness left me speechless. I still wasn't sure how I felt yet but I knew this was what I wanted, why not give Jake a chance?

Our lips touched slightly and I felt electric shocks going through my body. I pressed my lips to his more firmly, that made him moan against my lips. The kiss began getting more urgent as I grabbed the back of his neck to pull him closer to me. He placed his hands on my lower back trying to close what little space was left between us. I had never felt anything like this before. My head was spinning with both confusion and lust. I could feel his tongue graze my bottom lip asking for entrance which I granted, even though I had no idea what I was doing. I let out a small moan at the sensation of his tongue in my mouth. He pushed me away gently with firm hands, both of us gasping for air.

"I went too far" He stated

"No" I protested

……………"That was my first kiss" I admitted

"How was it?" he beamed

"Flawless……really something" I then leaned in to press my lips to his quickly one more time

We admired each other for a short period, confusion in both our eyes.

"I'm willing to try if you are" I gestured between the two of us

He didn't even respond, he just yanked me into his arms. I could feel him smiling against the top of my head.

"You have no idea how much I would like that"

"I can imagine" I giggled winding my arms around him to caress his back