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A/N: I've decided that I don't really know when the date will be. I got a review that said I shouldn't rush it, and it makes sense not to. It will be soon, but not as soon as I said in the last chapter.

"I feel like I'm all alone
All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold
I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you
I don't think you'd understand
'Cause no one understands."

Take Me Away: Avril Lavigne

Chapter 7: Chats and Realizations

Lily woke up to find the sun shinning into her dorm. She hated the sun, at this moment. I was always shinning, even on the worst days of people's lives. It had no consideration for the people on earth who were suffering.

"I'm going to get pissed off at everything today, aren't I?" Lily asked herself.

When she was ready to face the world, most importantly face James, she walked down the stairs. Lily walked down to the Great Hall, excepting to find it empty, since it was still early on a Sunday. But there were a few people up, mostly from Ravenclaw and Hufflepuff, but there were two from Gryffindor and one of them was James. Lily worked up all her Gryffindor courage, if she had any, and walked over the James and sat next to him.

They sat in silence, as if James didn't even notice Lily was next to him.

"Hey James," Lily said after a minute of silence.

She got no reply.

"I see your eating today, that's an improvement from yesterday," Lily said again trying to get James to talk to her.

"Do you have a point in talking to me, because you're starting to annoy me," James said snapping at Lily.

"I have to talk to you," Lily said.

James just looked at her with eyes that said she should tell him here. She noticed something else in his eyes, as she gazed into them; they were filled with hurt. Tears almost came to her eyes, to see him like this, but she held them back.

"Perhaps somewhere we could be alone." Lily said.

"Fine," James said getting up from his seat and walking out of the Great Hall, with Lily on his heals. He was walking so fast that before she knew it, they were in front of the Head's common room. James said the password and the two walked in.

"So, speak." James said, as he sat down opposite to where Lily was heading to sit.

'May be this was a bad idea,' Lily thought, 'he's already pissed as it is.'

"Say something or I am leaving," James said, he voice starting to rise.

"You know the…um…encounter you had with Snape yesterday?" Lily asked.

"How did you know about that…I didn't tell anyone?" James asked, still annoyed.

"Um…I…I told him to do it." Lily said looking at her hands in her lap.

"What!" James yelled getting up from his seat and putting his face close to Lily's.

"I'm sorry, that's what I came to say. If I had known…"

"You told him to fight me! What kind of a person goes around causing fights to happen in these halls?" James yelled, starting to move around the room.

"Look, I'm sorry. If I knew your parents had died the same day, I would have called it off." Lily said, tears coming to her eyes.

"You know Lily, I think we both changed during the summer. I changed for the better and you for the worse." James said, bringing his voice down to its normal level.

"What do you mean?" Lily asked, although not really wanting to know the answer.

"I've tried to grow up and stop all the fighting and hexing in the hallways, but you. You are stooping to a level I never thought I would see you do. You're acting like me, the old me." James said, partially yelling.

"And how is that so bad?" Lily asked, half-yelling back, "It worked for you for six years!"

"I don't like that side of me, nor do I like that side of you. I look up to you Lily." James said, looking into her eyes.

Lily didn't know what to say. He looked up to her; she never expected that.

"I have to go," James half-yelled leaving the Head's common room before Lily had a chance to respond.

When he left Lily burst into tears and ran from the room, the room reminded her of him. She ran to her tree.

She sat there, silently crying, for who knows how long; she had no sense of time. Then, she felt a hand on her shoulder.

"James?" Lily silently asked.

"No," Remus said, sitting down with her on the ground.

"How did you know I was here?" Lily asked, tears still streaming down her cheeks.

"Some boy named, Robert from our house said you looked sad. He said he couldn't find any of your close friends, so he came to me." Remus said, putting an arm around her shoulders.

Robert, Lily tutored him in Charms. He was a Gryffindor third year.

"Oh," Lily said, half glad that someone had come to comfort her, half upset that she was wasting Remus' time when he should be with James.

"What's the matter Lily, I've never seen you cry this much? Did something happen?" Remus asked.

"Nothing with Voldemort, just other things." Lily said, clinging to Remus.

"James?" Remus asked.

Lily didn't answer him, "I guess I picked the right answer then." Remus said, half smiling.

Lily just nodded her head that was resting on his shoulder.

"What happened with you guys?" Remus asked, releasing her from his grip.

Lily then told him the whole story; from when she asked Snape to fight, to when she tried to apologize to James. As she told the story, more tears fell from her eyes.

"I just feel so…so…guilty."

"James is just stressed right now. He is doing his best to handle his parents' death. He is doing a lot better then I thought he would." Remus said.

"Where is he now? Is he with someone? Please don't tell me you guys left him all alone." Lily questioned.

"Of course not, he's with Sirius. The only reason he wasn't with him this morning was because James wanted some time alone." Remus said.

"You all were up that early?" Lily asked.

"We didn't get much sleep." Remus answered.

"So now, he is even in a worse situation, because…because of me." Lily said, the tears starting to come back to her.

"Don't go blaming yourself, although you could have picked a better day to tell him." Remus said.

"I know. Do you think he will ever forgive me?" Lily asked.

"He will, in his own time. He needs time to heal. But he will forgive you, probably sooner then if anyone else had done that to him." Remus said looking into her eyes.

"Why?" Lily asked.

"James has liked you since fifth year and if he really likes you, he'll forget about what you did. Someone just can't forget someone they love that quickly." Remus said.

Lily didn't say anything back to him, but she quickly broke eye contact with him.

"Now, what do we say, you come back up the castle. I know two girls who are worried sick about you. First you disappear all day yesterday, and now you're gone today." Remus said standing up and reaching for Lily's hand, to help her up.

"Remus, can you do me a favor?" Lily asked, still sitting on the ground.

"Depends?" Remus asked with a smile

"Can you tell the girls that I don't feel well. I just need to be alone right now." Lily said.

"You sure?" Remus asked.

"Yea," Lily said.

"Alright then, but if your not in the Great Hall for dinner, I will come look for you." Remus said, trying to smile.

"Thanks," Lily said standing up and hugging Remus.

"No problem," Remus said, ruffling up her hair a bit with his left hand

"Why are you so easy to talk to Remus?" she asked, as she tried to put her hair back in place.

"I don't know, but everyone tells me that." Remus answered, "Well, I'll see you at or after dinner."

"All right, thanks again." Lily said sitting back down on the ground, as she watched him walk away.

She was alone again, but the emptiness that filled her yesterday wasn't there. She felt a warm feeling inside her because she knew people cared about her. She couldn't help but give a small smile. The smile quickly faded away when she remembered what she and Remus had been talking about. The whole time she was worried about James. James, she hadn't called him Potter ever since the incident with Snape. What was this sudden change in names and feelings toward James?

Lily was suddenly having feelings for her worst enemy. She felt confused and lost; she had no idea what she should do. She thought about this the whole day, until Remus came and got her after dinner.

The two went to the kitchen; somewhere Lily had never been, so Lily could eat. They didn't speak much to each other, just random things that came to the minds of teenagers. Remus then let her off at the base of her staircase, but not before giving her a hug before they departed.

Lily then went straight to bed, still thinking about James. As she lay on her bed, Lily could only make one rational explanation for why she felt for James, she liked James Potter. What a coincidence, just when he starts to hate her, she falls for him.

A/N: Another short chapter, sorry. But hey, I updated two days in a row…w00t to that! Next chapter may be up soon, maybe tomorrow or over the weekend, depends on how much of a mood I am in for writing.

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