Chapter 6

Rosalie's POV

Previously:

„Esme, I don't want to talk about this with you.."

„I'm your mother!"

„No, you're not! You're my adoptive mother! Esme, gotta go. Bye."

„Rosal-„ the line went dead. I sighed and looked at them. They looked thoughtful and then Bella spoke,

„I'm not Edward's girlfriend."

Present, Seattle,

I stared at her in shock, her words echoing in my head.

I'm not Edward's girlfriend..

Her face was calm, her eyes showing determination. There wasn't a trace of heartbreak, so I guessed she's over him since we came back. But, still, I needed my answers,

„What?" Jasper was faster than me, and his face matched my own,

„I'm not Edward's girlfriend. We didn't exist since my birthday. When Alice came, it just happened that I was in a wrong place in a wrong time." I didn't understand.

„What?" was Jasper's eloquent reply. I rolled my eyes. Geez, dude, your brain on a vacation? Jasper glared at me as he sensed my amusement. Well, he said something at least.

Bella sighed, and looked into the distance.

„Since Edward left me, I wasn't the same. I was catatonic for months, and I woke up just when my dad told me he would call Renee. I didn't want to go to my mum. I didn't want to be aburden. So I started to live. For Charlie's sake, not mine. I hung out with my friends, ate, slept walked, talked only when necessery. I was a machine." She stopped to take a deep breath, and I rubbed her back in a soothing manner. She smiled weakly at me and continued,

„Then, I started spending time with Jacob. He was my sun; my anchor. But the days were fine, and I managed to ignore the gaping hole in my chest, the burning pain disappearing almost completely. But as the night fell, the flames returned and my chest started to tighten. After a few weeks living like that, I wanted to start over. I started thinking thoroughly about my life, about Edward. I started thinking about my freaking head, and the reason why he can't read it. That's when I felt it."

„The Shield?" Emmett asked. Bella smiled and nodded,

„Yes. It felt like a stretchable wall, stretching from one corner of my mind to another. On the days I wasn't with Jake and during my painful and lonely nights, I started to train myself to control it. I managed; I am able to stretch it, and I can even cover the full city.."

„How do you know that?" Jasper asked suspiciously. Bella looked at him, and her dazed off eyes focused, landing on his, her face softing as her voice,

„I feel them. I feel all those people moving in it, touching it, their breath tickling it. I can feel their minds trying to compose themselves, thinking hard, getting through pain, betrayal and sorrow. The people who felt like this were the ones I never thought they actually lived. Especially since the day Harry Clearwater died. Leah and her brother Seth were devastated. Leah was feeling so much hatred, so much anger, so much pain..." Her voice started fading as she shuddered, closing her eyes for a brief moment.

Isabella's POV

When I opened my eyes I met their worried gazes, and I took a shaky breath, and explaining them the day I saved Leah.

-Flashback-

I was running through the rain, not in the mood to drive my slow Chevy, my eyes narrowing in attempt to see through the thick haze of big raindrops as they tickled my face. The trees and the green grass was flowing around me, the lower tree branches hitting my face occasionaly. Hang on Leah. I'm coming.

Finally, the trees dissapeared, showing a little house on the horizon, and a tall shilouette standing, staring high in the sky, searching for something. I came to the end of the wood, and yelled at the top of my lungs,

„Leah!" the dark shilouette turned towards me, and I could feel the frown on her face. I ran towards her and when I was a few meters away from her, she spoke,

„What do you want Leech lover?" I was panting, but I answered her question,

„Saving you." She laughed. Her laugh was muffeld by the rain, but it pierced through my heart, my soul. Don't be like this, Leah. Let me help you. I prayed in my mind, at the moment praying to everything what's holy that she understands me.

„Saving me from who?"

„From yourself." She snorted,

„Yeah, yeah. I don't believe in your shit." She turned around to leave, but she stopped dead in her tracks when I finally said,

„Don't do this to yourself Leah! Don't let tha anger swallow you; fight against the pain and the hatred you feel. You don't want..." she turned to face me, sneering,

„I don't want what?" I took a deep breath again and answered calmly,

„You're going to destroy your life, Leah. The only chance to find happiness. But with your constant anger and bitterness, you're going to phase, and with that, you'll become the first female werewolf and the freak of the pack."

„H-how?" she stuttered,

„Leah all the anger will consume you wholely and you will sucumb into the haze you won't even notice when it starts running through your veins like poison. If you allow it to possess you, you will never be happy. You won't have a proper husband, you won't have children. Your life will evolve around phasing and protecting others. Please Leah, let me help you." Leah was now sobbing, as her tears flow freely down her cheeks. She lunched herself at me and I held her as she cried.

„It hurts so much, Bella. I lost Sam. My cousin, my best friend took him away from me! I was so angry, so hurt, betrayed. I couldn't look into their faces without the wish to kill them, burn them like they burned my heart and danced on my ashes. And now, my dad died. My mother is all alone with my brother and me. She's constantly crying, and I feel so guilty. I don't want to be a werewolf." She sobbed. I tightend my grip on her and whispered,

„I'll help you Leah. If there's one thing I learnt living with vampires, is that the problems should be solved together, and not doing it on your own and without speaking to another. I learnt the hard way, Leah. I wn't let it happen again." She looked into my eyes and said softly, so softly I barely heard her,

„Thank you."

-End of Flashback-

After I finished, Rosalie's eyes were glistening with venom, and the boys were quiet.

„That was so generous from you Bella. I always knew you were selfless. Well, not in the same way now." Jasper murmured the last part. I chuckeld lightly and nodded my head.

„I know. Nothing will be the same again, guys. It's time for changes." I said dreamily, and after everybody nodded I sighed.

I sigh of pure content and happiness.

I finally found people who would understand me, listen to me, and help me solve my problems. Not like Edward did. I scanned everybody, Rose, Emmett and Jasper.

They all were prepared to help me through my problems. Rose was nicer, Emmett was being...well Emmett and with Jasper..I felt whole.

I felt like my heart just grew bigger, my lungs brighter and my eyes suddenly became aware of everything. Like I gained his vampiric senses. I was shamelessly staring at Jasper, trying to see what caused my emotions towards him to blossom, and when it dawned on me, I was shocked and happy at the same time.

I am in love with Jasper Hale.

It may seem sudden, but during my time with the Cullens, I would find myself craving his presence, to just sulk into his calming atmophere and drown in his eyes. His eyes were golden, but they held a mixture of red and blue beneath the golden haze. They were absolutely stunning.

When we were in Phoenix when Mr. 'Do everything-in-a-rush-to-prevent-Bella-speaking-her -mind' put me there while he was somewhere in Canada, I was going insane from the worry. Not for myself. Not for Renee. Not for him. Not for the Cullens.

Just for a particular one. A blonde vampire with colorful eyes and a moody personality. That was the first time when I truly felt my emotions. But, that was he time when I liked Alice, so I couldn't destroy her life.

When Jasper was lunging for me on my birthday party, underneath the fear and absolute confusion I felt, I was feeling a strange craving feeling, creeping up my spine, telling me to jump in his arms. But, Fuckward pushed me into a fucking glass table.

When they left, my heart ached for months for a lost Cullen my heart lusted for. Jasper. I wanted him, like air.

And I will get him.

I swear to God, this time, Pixie won't stop me.

Jasper's POV

Bella's emotions were quiet interesting. They went from content to happiness, to sadness, grief, pain, lonliness, lust and love.

Love?

I could feel her gaze on my back while we drew home, and I knew these emotions were sent to me.

But why?

I glanced through the mirror to see her melting chocolate eyes gazing into mine, and while I expected for her to turn scarlet and turn away, she kept my gaze and held it, not caring that I actually stared right back at her. Then she blinked, and the magic dissappeard.

I turned back to looking in front of me, while I tried to decipher her emtions.

I wasn't actually sure why was I so protective, and caring to Bella. Sure, she was a part of the family, although in not a very good kind, like a fifth wheel, like a sort of undercover enemy, but still, I really love-

Wait a minute. Did I just wanted to say I love her?

Yup, I did.

Surprisingly, I didn't want to take it back.

I knew that I love Bella.

The strange pull I felt was constantly dragging me to her. And I won't fight it.

Because mates never fight their instincts.

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