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Chapter Seven
Doctor Gruber could tell by the way that Joey was sitting that he was a little less tense then he was at their last session and he was glad to see that. "Tell me how've you been since our last session?" The doctor asked him.
Joey told him all that had happened and when he told him about how everyone made him feel as if he were part of their family, the doctor smiled to himself. As Joey related all that had been happening, the doctor could tell that he was holding something back. "Joey what's on your mind?"
Joey then took a deep breath and he said "I want to tell you what happened to me since my mother and sister left, but it's so damn hard to talk about. My father turned into some kind of monster and I didn't know what to do? He would have his good days and then well the bad days were like facing some kind of maniac. He would accuse me of making my mother leave and then he would start hitting and kicking me. Some days that's all he'd do, but other days well you could say that I went through a living hell." Joey had to stop and wipe his eyes.
Doctor Gruber would give him some water and ask "are you alright?" Joey would close his eyes and nod his head and then he would start talking. "the really bad beating would happen when my father came home drunk. One time he tied me up and then he used an extension cord and he beat me till I blacked out. When I came to I was lying on the floor in my own blood and he was passed out on the chair. I would get up carefully so not to wake him up, go to the bathroom and get cleaned up. Then I would leave and go through the back alleys so that no one would see me and hang out at the park till I knew that he had gone to work."
Doctor Gruber sat there trying not to show him how upset he was at what that bastard had did to him. Joey then said "the rapes started when he got really frustrated with how things were going at work and he couldn't afford to pay a hooker, so he used me instead. The first time he raped me I thought that my body was going to rip apart, and all he did was laugh as he was grunting and shoving himself in and out of me. I wanted to die that day. When he was through, he just went to his room and left me lying there in blood and semen. I could hear him laughing and saying that I was one of the best queers that he had ever screwed. I wanted to die that day. It only got worse. Every time he forced himself into me he had to tie me up because I would try to fight him, but he was to strong. I wanted to take something an kill him with it, but I never did. I was just to frightened of him, some people would say that I was a chicken, but they didn't have their fathers raping and beating them." Joey couldn't go on, he started crying and shaking so badly that Doctor Gruber thought that he would shake apart. He went to Joey and he told him. "Listen what you've been through no one would accuse you of being a chicken, they'd say that you were only trying to survive what that monster was doing to you."
Joey dried his eyes and then he took a deep breath and he asked "was my father right when he called me a queer?"
Gruber wanted to have that man in his grip because he would of loved to castrate him with his own hands for what he had done to this poor kid. "Listen, your father was a very sick and mentally sick person. I don't mean that he wasn't guilty for what he did to you, but that sometimes when people are that sick they do and say things that they'd normally wouldn't. Your father was a very abusive man and he only wanted to dominate you and make you believe that you were the reason that your mother and sister left, when the real reason was himself. He couldn't stand thinking that they left because of him, so he took out his anger on the only person that he could hurt, and that was you."
Then Joey asked he doctor a question that blew him away "would what my father did to me make me have feelings for another guy?"
Doctor Gruber closed his eyes for a second and then he told Joey "no, listen what he did was the most horrific act anyone could do to another person. But what he did wouldn't make you have feelings for another man. Joey if you're having feelings for another guy then that's really alright. You're not sick or perverted if you do. But please make sure what your feelings are before you decide to get into any relationship with someone else. You've come a long way in trying to discover why your father did what he did to you, but you have a long way to go before you find all the answers to your questions, so please take your time, and find out what you're really feeling before you go any further."
Joey thanked the doctor for listening and talking to him and then he left the Office and made another appointment for next week. Joey went to the bathroom to wash his face and as he looked at himself in the mirror he wondered if he could really have feelings for Seto, or was he only imaging them? He then left the Office and walked to the park to think.
As the limo was taking Seto back home, he too was wondering about his feelings for Joey. Sure he liked him, liked him a lot, but did he love him? How would he know for sure what his feeling were for Joey? They both were in an emotional quandary, wondering what to do?
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Chapter Eight Coming Up...