It's not the feeling like when you touch a flame.
I opened my eyes to see I was lay in my bedroom. On my bed. On mine and nicks bed.
A few tears escaped my eyes and I tried to sit up then I felt a pain in my chest and winced in pain.
"Oh thank god your up" Denise said rushing in the room, a nurse following her.
I looked between them both, what's going on?
"What happened?" I asked, well croaked.
"Honey you blacked out after nick went" Denise started to explain.
Nick.
"Where's nick?" I said tears now steadily running down my face.
"he's gone to do his first show." Of course he's on tour.
"He doesn't know does he?"
"honey I'm gonna leave that between you two, but you must tell him, he rang before after you didn't answer his text and I said you went to sleep okay but the nurse needs to speak to you."
And she left, why the hell would the nurse need to speak to me?
It's not like when someone calls you a bad name
"Jessica" the nurse started.
"Yes"
"You seem to have a minor heart problem"
"what how?" oh crap. To be honest I have no idea what I'm feeling right now. It's just too confusing.
" I Recommend you come down to the hospital tomorrow morning for a check up but it isn't certain, you seem to of blacked out because you were emotionally stressed, I'll speak to Denise about the appointment"
To tell you the truth hardly any of that sunk in.
I want nick.
"Hospital?." I croaked. "Yes, but not to worry just for a few tests they shouldn't take to long"
"Okay Thanks For you Help" and away she went.
I pulled myself up slowly and gingerly stood up shaking a bit, I finally got steady and I began to walk out the room I made it down stairs and onto the couch resulting in me feeling rather dizzy.
"Hey, you okay?" Denise said walking in with Frankie, who ran and put his arms around me.
"Never been better" I laughed as I hugged frank.
"I thought you was going to die" Frankie said letting go of me.
"Frankie don't say things like that" Denise said.
"Don't worry its fine," I said looking at Denise, "Don't worry tank I'm not going anywhere"
"you guys don't have to stay you know?" I said.
"Don't be daft, we're going to stay the night just to make sure everything's okay."
"Thanks I really appreciate it." I smiled. "Have you guys seen my phone"
"yeah here it is" Denise said handing me the phone from the side.
"Thanks, I'm gonna go to bed for a while" I said and once again began the journey back upstairs.
"Okay I'll call you down for dinner"
It's not like the hurt when you slip and fall down
I curled up on my bed and began to text nick,
Hey babe,
I miss you loads too.
Have fun
Love you
X
I couldn't tell him yet not now he was on tour and it wasn't even certain.
I felt my phone vibrate and it was a call from nick, and swallowed back my tears and clicked answer.
Hey
Heyy.
You okay?
I'm doing okay, you?
I miss you.
I miss you too tears now spilling slowly out of my eyes
We'll be okay
Promise?
Pinkie promise. I sniffled
Babe are you crying?
No, yeah. I said letting myself now sob.
Please don't, we can do this it's just three tiny weeks until you see us in New York
Okay now regaining my sanity.
So anything interesting happened yet? I may have a heart problem.
Nope how about there?
Nothing, oh Joe tried to fly but that's it.
Ha, say hi to the guys for me.
Will do, babe I have to go now.
I love you
Love you too
Bye
See you.
You hang up.
No you hang up
After 3
1
2
3
No it's not like any of these I found
I took a few breaths and placed down the phone. I went to lean back and again I felt a sharp pain in my chest. I set my self down slowly and lay on nicks side just breathing in his scent.
Half a day gone, 22 and a half to go.
It kind of hurts like a paper cut so sweet, Never even feel the slash so deep.
It seems so heartache only it hurts, like a paper cut the pain goes worse.
The pain goes worse.