Chapter 7

It is now the end of February and the reason I am writing so much lately is because that god damn history teacher is a pain in the arse my friends stay close but he has resorted in a type of picking on me making me stand in front of everyone telling me I need to grow up. Yes, I am nearly 15 but in my mind, I am still scared and I started to fear him more, but my friend gave me an idea.

Not told me or showed me but it was an idea, the pins on his chair had not worked the four flat tyres on his car did not work either nor did the dog mess I hid under his desk. However, that stunk the classroom out and I got in serious trouble for it but mom forgave me for it because she is my mom and she understands. Though now I have been suspended, I am not fully sure she will forgive me and she is due back.

Even Karen does not think I will be forgiven for this one but I wanted him to stop coming near me. Therefore, when someone told me how good this no-nails glue was and it could hold a whole bookshelf up without any problem it gave me an idea. Karen thinks I may be expelled but I am due back Monday and I am leaving to stay with Karen on Saturday morning since mom is tired her voice sounded upset when I spoke to her.

Nevertheless, she will not tell me about work Karen just said she needed some space and some time to settle herself. Anyway, the reason I have been home since Monday is, well my first morning class was history and I was going to be in that jackass's class again.

I had put up with this for over a year and I was starting to hate school. Therefore, the glue was carefully placed around the outside of the chair I also made a crisscross on the seat just in case, and the fact it blended in so nicely with the fabric was even better.

I had never laughed so much in my life he came into class and sat down after giving us our work ten minutes later, he went to get up from said chair only to end up on his back with the chair attached to his ass he screamed like a girl. I could not do anything for laughing.

Nevertheless, I could not help the comment that fell out of my mouth 'That will teach you teach' he did not see it as funny, though I did see the medics smirking as they tried to free him.

But they couldn't so off to the hospital he went but I did have to hand them the tube the glue was in and that was when Karen frogged marched me out of school and also she made a phone call to mom that was the last time Karen spoke to mom that weekend she never came home so we left I guess she was so mad at me.

The following week Karen picked me up and informed me, I would be staying with my grandmother because mom had been in an accident. That word I hate that word. Mom promised me she would come back to me in one piece, I asked if she had been shot, if she had been beaten but I wasn't getting any answers off Karen and I didn't like that.

Karen told me everything but now she would not say a word and I wanted my mommy all she would tell me is that grandma would explain everything to me. That was not the answer I was looking for.

Karen seemed upset and hurt, I guessed it was knowing mom had been hurt and she had to fly out to a meeting which she had tried for over eight hours to get out of going to and she had said she didn't know how long it would be until she was back home. I did not like the sound of that one bit.

Karen must have spoken to my grandmother because later that week I was told. Not everything but what I needed to know and grandmother would explain the rest to me when I got to the hospital. She was going to send her car to come and get me something about not being able to come herself, as mom and JJ needed her.

Why would JJ need my grandmother? Karen promises me that the team has not hurt her but I think they have. I have not seen my mommy in nearly two weeks now and this scares me I want Karen with me but she has to go and she will not be back for a few months and I do not want her to go!

The car came and collected me from Karen's I was relieved to see they had sent Hannah to get me, being alone in a car with a man even if I know them scares me.

Grandmother took my hand as soon as I arrived everyone looked sad and worried and that scared me all the more I wanted my mommy I needed to see her to make sure she was okay.

I knocked on the door softly as I walked in JJ was laying on the bed with mommy when I entered though she soon moved saying she will leave us alone, she gave me a sad smile before closing the door behind her.

I was scared I would hurt mom but she asked for a cuddle and looking at her sad lifeless eyes, I could not say no. She will not tell me what happened and if I am honest, I do not think I would cope. I have to go back with grandmother now and stay with her until mommy is out of hospital. Mom told me that JJ had not left her side since they found her.

I really hate that word but I know why my mom told me and I know why she said it because I now know JJ would not hurt my mom. Nevertheless, that does not mean she will not hurt me!

She wasn't with the team when it happened I see the marks on her and I know what has made them but I will not treat her any other way than I always have, because mommy never treated me different she doesn't need to tell me she has been raped because her eyes tell me everything and she knows I know.

I leave with my grandma and the nightmares start again.

I want to go home I want my mommy I don't want to go back to school I want Karen I want and need my family I need my mom to be okay I can't lose her.

Karen eased my mind slightly, JJ is going home with mommy so I know she is safe and okay and Karen said she would talk to mom about school and moving back home. I wonder if JJ knows mommy tried to take her own life.

On the other hand, does she know I tried to end mine. I want to trust her and I feel I need to trust her. Mommy said she feels safe with JJ and I know there is more to it. Because her eyes soften when she is around her. However, she is still guarded.

Mom comes home soon and I have to stay with grandmother a while longer mom has agreed about me coming back home full time but not right away so grandma has said I can be home schooled and when Karen gets back I can stay with her while mom heals but I want to be near my mom.