I groaned, very tiredly, as I got out of bed, to get ready for school and start this miserable day. Which I already knew would suck anyway. How couldn't it with those three knowing everything?

I didn't get much sleep last night either, because of the fear what today might bring.

With that in mind, I pulled on an old blue t-shirt, which, thankfully only had one hole in it. A black pair of sweat pants, with a hole in each knee, and finally my ragged old shoes. I have been wearing the same pair of shoes for the last year.

"Well, here goes nothing..." I thought out loud, walking out the door with my books in my arms.

Later...

On my walk to school, which was a long walk, I thought of all the different ways on how my life was about to get much worse. And I was trying and failing, to prepare myself for it. I guess I was so wrapped up in my thoughts I had not realized I was at school, until I heard a bell ring that is.

"Here goes my life...Let's see how they ruin it." I said out loud, sighing as I walked inside the school. Nothing seemed any different...Yet.

"Maybe they just hadn't gotten to school yet, to tell anyone?" I thought as I walked down the hallway to my locker. But that hopeful thought was dashed away, when I then saw them making their way down the hall, towards me.

"...Well here it comes." I muttered under my breath, sighing dreadfully. But instead of hurting me or bashing me, they just smiled at me and continued on walking down the hallway.

And that is why...I stood there awestruck. They didn't hurt me at all. Not one bit. Is this a dream? I pinched myself to make sure, and shockingly, I was awake and this was real.

"...Maybe they were being sincere yesterday..." I whispered to myself, feeling a little guilty. I treated them horribly.

I then made my way to my locker and I was just about finished putting my books in my locker, when I heard a familiar and cold voice.

"Hey Ken-dork, nice choice of clothing. Going to a hobo convention later?" Jett said through a harsh laugh. I was so not in the mood for this. Not today, Not after what happened.

"Jett, please, just leave me alone, For today, please." I asked, not even hiding the trembling my voice held. What use was it anyway? It wouldn't save me...

"Luckily for you, I am in a kind mood. But before I let you go, I got something special for you." Jett said, right before he shoved me into my locker as hard as he could. It hurt worse than when Carlos and them do it to me, but I just said nothing, knowing if I did, I would just get hurt worse.

He let me go after that and I just turned and left without a single word. I was halfway down the hall, when I realized I forgot my history book, when Jett shoved me. With that in mind, I turned around to go get it, hoping Jett was gone by now.

-Break Line-

"Don't. Ever. Touch. Him. Again." I heard Carlos voice say coldly, colder then I have ever heard him, it sent shivers up and down my spine. He had Jett pinned up against the lockers and he was right in his face.

"Why not?" Jett asked, fear in his voice as James got in his face also.

"We're the only ones allowed to mess with Kendall." James answered, right before backing away and letting Logan take his place.

"If we hear you mess with Kendall in any way ever again, you will get another one of these." Logan added, with a cold smirk on his face.

"Another one of what?" Jett sobbed out.

I watched in shock as James, Logan and Carlos each punched Jett in the stomach as hard as they could.

They then let him go and left Jett crying on the floor, walking down the hall with their heads held high. I couldn't believe what I had just seen. Now this had to be a dream...This couldn't be real. They stuck up for me. No one has ever done that for me. Ever. I felt tears falling down my face, and for the first time, they were not tears of sorrow.

They were tears of happiness. Someone actually cared about me! I decided I believed what they said yesterday, about wanting to help me.

Maybe my life was finally changing for the good...

-Break Line-

It was lunch time now, and I had decided I would thank Logan, Carlos and James for standing up for me. I was very grateful for what they did.

I approached their table where Jo, Camille, Dak and Lucy also sat at, the other most popular rich kids. I could feel all their eyes on me as I stood there, nervously, with my hands deep in my pants pockets.

"What are you doing here?" Dak spat out, looking at me disgusted.

"I came to talk to Carlos, James and Logan." I said, trying to fight the feeling to look down.

"What the hell for?" Jo questioned with nothing but annoyance on her face. I ignored her and I turned my gaze onto the people I had come to see, they had a look of curiosity on their faces, but also fear.

"I wanted to thank you guys for standing up for me against Jett." I said, smiling my first real smile in over a year.

"Is what this loser saying true?" Lucy asked turning to look at them with total shock. I saw them all three look at each other fear on their face, before they answered.

"No." James stated, rolling his eyes.

"The fag is obviously just lying." Logan added, a smirk playing on his lips.

"Yeah, why would we help a lowlife like him?" Carlos finished, sneering. I could not understand why they were doing this...I thought they wanted to help me?

"I-I am not lying. I saw you guys." I said, sadness clear in my voice.

"I think you guys should teach this loser a lesson. Unless you're going soft?" Camille said, laughing a cold, harsh laugh. What she said made me lose all color...They wouldn't do that? Would they?...

"We're not going soft!" All three of them yelled.

"Prove it." Dak said, smirking as he leaned back in his seat. I watched as the three of them got up, oh shit... I went to run, but Jo held out one of her high heeled feet, and she tripped me. I looked up and all three of them were standing over me with cold smirks, I knew what they were going to do.. They began kicking me while I was on the ground, every kick hurt worse than the one before.

"Scum." James sneered. Sending the first crack to my heart.

"Loser." Logan said, laughing coldly, sending the second crack.

"Worthless." Carlos finished, Sending the final crack. I began to cry as Dak held me up, for Logan, Carlos and James to punch me over and over again.

James went first. Punching me in the sides. I gasped for air, tasting blood in my mouth.

"We would never help someone like you." He spat.

Logan went next, hitting me in the jaw, on both sides. I could hear cracks and the pain got even worse.

"You're not worth helping." Logan sneered. I spat up some more blood, that Logan and James had caused.

Carlos went last punching me in my stomach, twice.

I choked on my blood, falling to the floor in pain.

"Who would care about someone like you? Oh that's right, no one does." Carlos said, laughing.

The entire lunchroom started laughing. I realized my first instinct had been right. I was stupid to think they cared, I shouldn't have trusted them, they probably sat the whole Jett thing up, just to trick me and I was stupid enough to fall for it. I can't believe I thought these three would care about me...

I got up once the pain went away a bit. I looked at them with tears in my eyes, but unlike earlier, these were not happy tears, but the tears of pain, the ones I was used to every day of my life.

"I- I trusted you." I told them in a pain filled whisper, right before I ran out of the lunchroom in tears.

-Break Line-

"How could I have been so dumb?" I asked myself, wiping the tears and blood away with the back of my sleeve. I was in the auditorium, alone. It was my safe haven. I was the only one who came in here by choice, hardly anyone in this school loved music.

I should have stuck with my first instinct. Like I could ever be worthy of having friends. I will never be anything more than a punching bag to them.

Life sucked. Bad.

Author Note

I do not own Big Time Rush.

Thanks to everyone who favorite and alerted the story.

Thanks to Miss-Invisible-Heartbreak, RoyalShadow, PotatoCake, Kendalls LogieBear, sunshineandgothic, dbz7000, mavk4444, KogansWolfGirl, GleeShadow, W0ND3R, Fallenangelqueen, BreakFree, ImprecantesStellam,

Also the Jett locker scene was all PotatoCakes Idea so thanks for suggesting it.