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When You Look Me In The Eyes
"How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.
When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright"
The next morning I found myself sprinting as fast as I could to Richard's house. I can't believe I fell asleep at Josh's house. We were just lying on the floor watching a movie. It's not like it was intentional.
I rounded the corner expecting to see blue lights flashing from the cop cars, and my mom crying, blowing her nose in a tissue, as she told the officer when she last saw me. I expected to see Richard comforting her letting her sob in his chest, but no. There was nothing. No police cars. No sobbing mother. No comforting Richard. Nothing but Richard's tomato red convertible parked in the driveway meaning they were home. A tumbleweed rolling by would perfect this moment it was so deserted. Did they not notice I was gone? Or did they realize it but just not care? Either scenario hurt. Hurt badly.
I walked in the door looking for my mom or Richard. I went past the living room to the kitchen to see my mom pigging out on a Fig Newton.
Kendra looked up seeing by the counter. "Hey sweetie," she said taking another bite and then a sip of her lip stained diet Dr. Pepper.
"Do you know where I've been?" I asked her hoping she at least noticed my absence last night.
"What are you talking about?" she asked confused placing her drink and Fig Newton on the counter.
"You didn't even know I was gone all night did you!" I yelled accusingly getting really angry at her obliviousness. I know our relationship is rocky but you would think she would at least notice when I was missing.
"Lower your voice," she said back sniping, placing her right hand on the counter and her left one on her hip.
"Why should I? Maybe if I yelled all the time you would realize I exist!" I yelled back my hand clenching and unclenching at my sides.
"That is no way to speak to you mother," she said back sternly.
I felt my anger building up from my toes to my head. "What mother? A mother would actually pay attention to their only child. A mother wouldn't always leave, leaving their child to fend for herself. A mother wouldn't come home multiple times completely wasted taking out all her troubles on her kid. A mother would notice when their child didn't come home last night!" I yelled back tears forming in my eyes blurring my vision.
My mom was taken a back for second at what I said but completely recovered in a few seconds. "Maybe if you didn't live in that shell of yours and actually give an effort to support me and Richard then I would notice you. All you do is coup up in that little room of yours with barely a word to me," she yelled back coming out of her smooth state, crossing her arms across her chest.
"You don't have a good track record with guys. So why get close to some rich cheese ball. When like all the other guys, you will drive them away!" I shot back tears flowing freely now down my cheeks.
"I will not hear anymore of this. I'm going out with Richard," she finally said her voice going back to its normal softness, and then turning to leave.
I just stood there in the same position with tears still falling down my cheeks. I put my face in both of my hands leaning against the counter. I then heard a beep signaling I had a new voice message. I picked it up putting it to my ear to listen. Hey Block. So my dad has drug me away for the day for who knows what. I'm so sorry, but I will make it up to you tonight so be ready Block. I sighed disappointingly. One of the days when I really need him he's gone. At least I will be with him tonight and out of this house. What does he have planned anyways? Oh well, I guess I will find out later. I decided to call Josh because I really didn't want to be alone.
"Hey Block!" he said on the other line.
"Hey," I said trying to sound upbeat, but he saw right through it. It's almost scary how well all of them knew me.
"What's wrong?" Josh asked concerned.
"Do you think you can come over? Derrick is gone for the day and I really need someone right now," I said unable to stop the sniff that soon followed.
"Of course. Kemp will be with me though. Is that ok?" he asked.
"Yeah that's fine," I said resting my head in my hand that wasn't holding the phone.
"Alright. Be there in five," he said before hanging up. I stood there for a minute before going upstairs to get out of these clothes and into something more comfortable.
Josh stuck to his word arriving in exactly five minutes. "You okay Block?" Kemp asked worriedly taking I my tear stained face. I tried to stop crying, but the tears just kept coming to where I was starting to sob. They both practically ran over to me engulfing me in a hug.
"What happened?" Josh asked wiping a tear that was rolling down my cheek. I told them everything. From my mom not noticing me gone to the end of our fight. We were now sitting on the couch, and Josh and Kemp had their arms tightly around me with Josh wiping my tears and Kemp rubbing my arm in a soothing motion.
"I'm sorry. You mom cares about you. Don't doubt that," Josh said trying to make me feel better.
"Yeah and don't think no one notices you because trust me you don't go unnoticed," Kemp said smiling.
"Thanks guys. It means a lot that you came," I said smiling tightly at both of them.
"You know what we should do?" Josh asked smiling at me.
"What?" I asked confused about where he was going with this.
"How about we get your guitar and let our feelings out," Josh said smiling getting up. Kemp chuckled under his breath.
"What?" Josh asked a little annoyed at Kemp's outburst.
"Nothing Dr. Fruity," Kemp said chuckling. I kept my lips sealed trying not to bust out laughing.
"What?" Josh said completely lost, not catching on to Kemp's joke.
"What do you mean fruity McFruity pants?" Kemp said laughing. I couldn't hold it in any longer and busted out laughing.
Josh looked at Kemp and me as we held our stomachs and couldn't stop laughing. Then it hit him what it meant.
"Very mature Kemp," Josh said narrowing his eyes. Kemp just kept laughing like he didn't hear what Josh said. Josh then picked up a pillow that was on the couch and pegged Kemp, hitting him straight in the face.
Kemp turned to look at Josh, his mouth open in the shape of a O. "You did not just do that," Kemp said still shocked.
"Do what?" Josh said back innocently. "Oh, you mean this?" Josh said throwing another pillow, smacking Kemp on the side of the head. I giggled quietly seeing Kemp's expression about the second hit. Kemp, hearing me giggle, turned to me narrowing his eyes playfully. "Think that's funny?" Kemp said raising his eyebrows. I widened my eyes innocently quickly shaking my head.
"Good, because if you did then I would have done this," Kemp said picking up a pillow and smacking it in my face. Kemp laughed at my shocked expression.
"Yeah and if you did that I would have done this," I said picking up the pillow throwing it at Kemp, but Kemp ducked causing it to hit Josh square in the face. Kemp and I busted out laughing.
"Oh it's on," Josh said before he started firing pillows straight at me, and then we all started hitting each other right and left. At the end we had ended up on the ground holding our stomachs laughing.
I picked up my buzzing phone to see Derrick calling. "Hey Block. I'm so sorry about today, but I can make it up to you in about ten minutes if you're in," he said on the other line. Josh and Kemp started making kissing noises and poking me incessantly.
"Uh… sure," is said back slapping Josh and Kemp's hands mouthing them to stop. "See you in ten," he said back before hanging up.
I shut my phone before turning to Josh and Kemp who were staring at me intently. "Was that really necessary?" I asked crossing my arms.
They both laughed saying yes. I rolled my eyes. "Well I got to get ready. Derrick's going to be here in ten minutes," I said standing up brushing off my black running shorts. I started walking up the stairs and turn around to see Josh and Kemp following.
"Guys. I kind of need to do this alone," I said with one hand the doorknob to my room.
"We want to help you pick out what to wear," Josh said smiling.
"Yeah. We want to make you look hot for this surprise date," Kemp said smiling widely. I rolled my eyes, "you guys are freaks." They followed me in my room and going straight to my closet.
"How can one person have this many clothes?" Josh asked stunned by my rows of clothes.
"Someone is a shopoholic," Kemp teased picking out a pair of dark wash skinny jeans. Josh picked out a navy floral patterned cami with a lace detailing at neckline and an empire waist, and silver metallic leather flats to go with it.
"Alright. What do you think?" Josh asked pleased with their selection. "Little freaked out but it's good. Thanks guys," I said surprised by their taste in clothes.
"No problem. We will go and let you get changed," Kemp said smiling and then him and Josh turning to leave. I quickly changed and ran a brush through my hair. I looked in the mirror in horror at my tear stained face. Ugh I look like a mess. I quickly put on some foundation, eyeliner, and mascara before turning to leave my room.
Right when I walked down the stairs there was a knock on the door. I ran to answer it with Josh and Kemp at my heels. I opened the door to see Derrick Harrington smiling down at me. I felt my knees go weak looking at him. Even though its been only part of a day I've missed him so much. He looked completely breathtaking in dark wash Diesel jeans and a green button down collared shirt that made his mint green eyes pop.
"Hey Block," Derrick said smiling widely. He then looked past me at Josh and Kemp. "Hey guys," Derrick said with a bit of confusion. "Hey D," they both said before walking past him to leave. "Bye D. Bye Block," they said before they were out of sight.
"What were they doing here?" Derrick asked as I shut the door and followed him out. "Oh they were here to just hang out," I said smiling. "Oh ok sweet," he said nodding. I then looked at the driveway to see a black motorcycle. "We riding on that?" I asked confused and stunned. "Yes we are," Derrick replied excited.
"But you don't have a motorcycle license or anything," I said getting nervous. I'm not much of a rule breaker, and I have a fear of motorcycles. Derrick saw my expression and out his arm around my shoulder squeezing me tightly.
"It's ok Block don't be scared. I have driven this since I was eight. No worries," Derrick said smiling at me. "But still," I said still not entirely convinced.
"Come on Block. Take a walk on the wild side," Derrick said back. "Not something that wild though," I said back turning to face him. "Please, for me?" Derrick said putting his hands together and giving a puppy dogface. I sighed giving up.
"Ok. I would only do this for you though," I said turning to walk towards the motorcycle. Derrick smiled excitedly and grabbed my face pulling me into a kiss. I could feel my heart accelerating even before our lips touched, and when they did I felt myself tingling shooting up from my toes. I grabbed his shirt pulling him closer. He then put his hands in my hair still holding me in place. I felt my knees going weak and a blush creep up to my cheeks. When he finally pulled away I felt my face beat red. This is embarrassing. I probably look like a ripe tomato.
Derrick smiled his famous crooked smile, "I've been waiting to do that all day," he said. I just nodded unable to find my voice.
"Where are we going?" I asked my arms tightly wound around his waist as he drove down the street. "You'll see," he said pulling up to the boardwalk.
He parked his motorcycle and we walked around the boardwalk. We rode some rides and got mint chocolate chip ice cream cones. After a couple hours it was close to sunset and we were got ready to leave.
"I have a place to show you," he said handing me a helmet and hopping on the motorcycle. "Where is it?" I asked intrigued. "It's a surprise," he said taking off down the road. After about ten minutes we were parked at my house.
"The place is my house?" I asked confused. Why are we here?
"No. We are going to walk there. It's only a few minutes from here," he said getting off and getting my helmet laying them on the seat. We then walked for a few minutes and Derrick stopped and turned to face me. He pulled out a red bandana holding it in front of my face.
"You need to be blindfolded the rest of the way," he said to me. " Derrick please no," I said pleading. Knowing me I will fall flat on my face not being able to see where I'm going.
"Please. I want it to be a surprise, and I won't let you fall or anything. Promise," he said pleading making the puppy dogface again. "The things I do for you," I said back shaking my head. He smiled brightly and leaned down to kiss me. He broke away saying thanks and putting the blindfold around my eyes. Then there was darkness.
"Can you see?" he asked from somewhere in front of me. "Nope," I said back. I felt his arm wrap around me with his hand clasped tightly to mine as he led me. He then turned around and put both of his hands on my shoulders.
"Ok you can take off the blindfold," he said standing in front of me. He moved out of the way when I took off the blindfold so I can see what it was. I stared in awe at the grassy cliff that looked out on the sparkling ocean. It was so beautiful.
"How do you find these places," I asked amazed.
Derrick shrugged. "I don't know. I just like to ride around and find places like this. You like it?" he asked before taking my hand and leading me to where he had a blanket and straw picnic basket set up.
"Yeah it's beautiful," I said unable to take my eyes off the view. "Yeah it is. You know you look beautiful too," he said looking at me smiling.
"Cheesy much?" I said smiling.
"I know but it's true," he said running his hand through my hair. I felt my hands sweating and my infamous blush creep to my cheeks. He then leaned down to give me a passionate kiss. This was hands down the best kiss with our first a close second. I felt like I could just melt right here in his arms. He broke away smiling, "lets eat."
The food was endless. From different sandwiches to chocolate deserts. Derrick had really thought of everything. We just sat their eating and talking. I had told him what happened today and he really had made me feel better. Derrick always had been good at that. Even the worst of situations, Derrick was always like my sun. I could always count on him.
"So I have something to give to you," he said after we finished eating. He pulled out a rectangular black box out of the picnic basket. He handed it to me telling me to open it. I opened the box to find a small gold antique key hanging on a small gold chain. It was so pretty. I picked the necklace up holding it between my fingers.
"It's the key to my heart, and now you have it," Derrick said smiling as he watched me. I smiled widely, tears forming in my eyes. Usually saying that would sound really cheesy, but it only made my heart swell.
"It's beautiful," I finally said when I was able to find my voice again. "I'll never take it off," I said smiling at him. He smiled back widely, "Promise?" he asked still smiling.
"Promise," I said back matching his smile. I looked down at my neck seeing the heart shaped necklace my grandma gave me as a gift. I have never taken if off since I have gotten it. I looked at it for a minute and then took it off holding it in my palm.
"My grandma gave me this necklace when I was five telling me it was my heart," I said smiling at the memory, but tears still starting forming in my eyes, "I want you to have it so you can always have my heart," I said to him.
"Massie I can't take that from you," Derrick said shaking his head.
"No I want you to have it," I said taking his hand and putting it there. He smiled at me and then at the necklace. He then fastened it around his neck.
" You don't have to wear it you know," I said smiling.
"I know, but I want to," He said looking down at the heart that was now laying against his chest, "I'll never take it off."
I smiled gazing into his eyes. He then took the necklace he gave me and fastened it around my neck.
"There. Now we both have something of each others," he said tucking my hair behind my ear. He then leaned in for a passionate kiss. Now this is officially the best kiss. It was the perfect ending to a perfect day. We then broke away not breaking our gaze.
"Massie," Derrick said using my first name. "Yeah?" I replied.
Instead of replying he leaned in and kissed me. I was completely caught off guard, but got into it quickly. I broke away looking at him waiting for what he wanted to tell me.
"You know you can tell me anything," I said realizing he wasn't going to say anything. He just looked down at our hands that were entwined in front of us.
"I love you," he finally said still not looking up. I just sat there in shock. He loves me?! Yes I have strong feelings for him, but with everything I have gone through and seen love always ends bad. My mom and dad said they loved each other and my dad left. Every guy my mom gets involved with says they love her, but soon after they are gone.
"Massie?" Derrick said breaking me out of my thoughts.
"Sorry," I said my mind still scattered. "I uh I have to go," I said quickly and standing up.
"Massie. What's going on?" Derrick said confused standing up facing me.
"I just…" I said unable to finish the sentence putting my face in my hands.
"You don't have to say it back. I know you don't believe in it. I just wanted to let you know how I feel about you," Derrick said smiling softly wiping the tears rolling down my cheeks with his thumb.
"I'm sorry. I do have strong feelings for you. It's just with past experiences it has always ended badly," I said looking down at my shoes.
Derrick put his hand under my chin lifting my head up so that he could look in my eyes. "It's ok. Seriously," he said brushing my hair out of my face.
"Thanks," I said back unable to meet his gaze.
"Well it's getting late so we should probably head back," Derrick said putting an arm around me.
"Ok," was all I said before we started walking back. The whole walk we barely spoke a word. I mean I feel strongly for him. Maybe I do love him, but I don't want Derrick to run away. I could tell he was a little hurt at how I reacted. I didn't mean to. I was just caught off guard. We finally reached my house and he kissed me goodnight before leaving. I just stood there at the door watching him as he walked down the street before I went in. Right when I got in I went straight up to my room locking my door. I sat there for what seems like forever thinking about Derrick loving me. He wouldn't leave me right? I sat there for a few minutes thinking about it realizing I need to talk to Derrick. I took out my phone texting Derrick to meet me at the beach in front of my house. He texted back ok and I walked out.
I was looking out at the ocean when I heard Derrick coming up. I turned around smiling tightly at him.
"Hey," I said clasping my hands together in front of me. "What's up?" he asked returning the small smile.
"I just didn't want you to think I don't care about you," I said with tears forming in my eyes, "I just don't want you to leave me," I said with tears now flowing down my cheeks.
He quickly engulfed me in a hug stroking my hair. "Massie," he said breaking away so that he could look in my eyes. "I will never leave you. Did you honestly think I would?" he asked wiping my tears away.
"I don't I just I don't know," I said unable to form a complete sentence.
"Massie I love you. I will never leave you. I promise you that," he said hugging me again. I just nodded in his chest.
"And you don't have to say it back. You can take all the time you need okay," he said looking at me.
"Ok," I said breaking away from the hug.
"Ok well we should probably get some sleep, but I'll see you tomorrow," he said taking my hand as we walked up towards my house. He then kissed me softly on the lips saying bye and walking back to his house.
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