Alice answered. "I saw myself leaving. And not….coming back." For that one instant, I was awakened out of my pain and into a new surge of it when I heard the words "I'm leaving." One thing was sure in my life now: I had to hold onto the things that I loved or they would leave me.
Alice dropped her head into her hands. It was probably from embarrassment. "I saw myself leaving you. You guys. I was alone. Escaping danger when I could, but leaving you guys to deal with it alone." Alice's words reminded me of when she left when the Volturi were going after Renesmee. She had left because of the danger, but, she also knew what was to come, and she went to find something that would help prevent it from happening.
"When did you see this, Alice? This is important." It was hard to get the words out. The pain in my chest was not going away and with every word I said it intensified.
Alice seemed to sense how hard it was to get my words out. She wanted to answer, but there was something holding her back. Holding her back from helping herself.
"During the meeting. When I walked out. Esme came, but she didn't help." I knew when Alice walked out that she had seen something and it was bothering her. It was gnawing on her insides and messing with her head.
"Alice, I can't help you. It's for you to decide. You can stop yourself leaving, and stay. But, if you want to leave, you can."
Alice nodded but then she frowned. "You mean you wouldn't care if I left?" Her eyes were full of betrayal.
This would have stabbed at my insides, but I was already falling apart.
"Alice, of course I would care if you left. I wouldn't want you to leave."
"Then why would you let me go?" Alice asked in a confused voice.
"Because, you have your own life, and you have the right to life it. I wouldn't want you holding back from what you wanted to do because of me. Living with the fact that I stopped you from being happy would surpass the pain I would experience. seeing you go. I would much rather see you happy then in pain."
Alice looked at me with a smile. "Bella, I don't deserve you." She wrapped her arms around me.
"Alice, let's get this straight. You do deserve me, and I'm the one who doesn't deserve you." Alice frowned and then smiled. At least she appeared to not be in the action of being swallowed by pain.
It was quiet for a little bit. Our happy talk to each other was forgotten as I asked Alice a question.
"Alice, what did you actually see.? Was that all you saw?"
Alice gulped. She either didn't want to tell me something or she wasn't expecting this. After all, she was being jolted from the relieving happiness into a fresh new passion of pain. I didn't want to cause her unnecessary pain, but I needed to know what she had seen because that would be the only way I would be able to help her.
I shook my head. "I'm sorry, Alice. You don't need to tell me. I just need to know, because.." I refused to let myself say the words. I knew the words were true, but a part of me still was hanging onto to the fact that nothing was going to happen and it made it much more real when I didn't have to say them.
Alice nodded in understanding. "Bella, you need to know. It's okay."
"Thanks." I managed to say.
I looked at Alice waiting for her to start. She looked around the meadow and in the sky as if she was looking for something. I knew what she was doing. She was making sure there wasn't anyone or anything else out there except for her and me. I started to shake. Whatever she wanted to tell me was only meant to be heard by me, meaning, it was serious. I just didn't know how serious.
Alice looked at me after she took her eyes off the last group of trees surrounding the meadow. She laid down on the grass, her hands behind her head, and I laid down next to her. The wind brought the rain with it, and it hit our bodies hard, but it bounced off. After all, our skin was like granite.
"It was when Carlisle started talking about them that I started to see…things. I wanted to tell everybody what I was seeing, but everyone was so caught up in what Carlisle was saying, I didn't get the chance. But Edward saw, and that was why he was edgy." Alice stopped and waited for the right words. "Anyways, as I was scanning through your future and some of the stocks I do daily, I came across-" Alice started taking in sharp breaths.-" Renesmee. You weren't around, and Renesmee was in a dark place. A place that hadn't be inhabited for what seem like a century. I saw her looking around and walking in circles, not knowing what to do, or what she could do." Alice stopped. It sounded a lot like me when Edward was gone. I didn't know what to do, and there was no one there to help me. Renesmee was lonely, and for some reason, she was in a dark place, wandering and going nowhere.
"What was she wearing?" I asked involuntarily. When someone I loved was in trouble, I automatically became a robot. It was the only way to numb myself of the pain and to keep myself from jumping off a cliff and into the ocean of insanity.
Alice closed her eyes looking for the answer. A few seconds later, she raised her eyebrows in surprise. "Her pajamas. A pink cami, and yellow sweats with the word, "Love" imprinted on the left side of her leg."
Alice looked at me for my reaction. "Her pajamas?" I asked.
Alice nodded.
"But, what? Why would she be wearing pajamas at….." Before I could finish my sentence, I understood.
"At night," I said in a horror filled voice.
"Yes. When nobody is watching. I don't why, but…" Alice closed her eyes and scanned the future. My body was frozen as a statue on the wet grass. I couldn't move if I wanted to. Renesmee would be captured at night, when no one was watching. That means that something would get in the way so Edward and I couldn't be watching her. This added so much stress and pain to my already crumpling body that when Alice shook me I didn't answer.
"Bella!" Alice yelled in a horror filled voice. "Listen, she's in a ally of some sort."
I jerked up. "An ally?" I asked with disbelief. At least it wasn't at the beach or anything where she could fall off one of the cliffs into the water and meet her death. I wasn't the only one who was uncoordinated in this family.
"I'm not sure, but it's dark and dirty. And, she doesn't know what to do. If she doesn't make a choice soon, she…." Alice closed her eyes and didn't finish the sentence. I couldn't believe she left me hanging like that. I needed to know. She had know idea how much pain this was causing me each time she paused.
"Alice, tell me now. What is Renesmee going to do if she doesn't make a choice soon?" I said this in a serious voice that surprised me.
Alice took a deep breath before she answered. "Before she could make that choice there was a wind that carried the essence of fear. Renesmee started to sense the fear, and she turned around and around making sure no one was behind her. Then, she sees for the first time in her life 3 black cloaks walking towards her. She looks around for a way to escape, but she finds none. " Alice looked at me with fear.
The Volturi. A pain stronger than what I was feeling streaked through my chest. My daughter was facing the Volturi, and I wasn't there to protect her or make her feel safe. Like Edward had done to me.
I wrapped my arms around my torso and got off the ground. I sat up, and rocked back and forth, somehow wanting to ease the pain. I never did. This new pain ripped through the parts of me that I had thought were already consumed and crumpling with pain. I wasn't there to protect my daughter. I wasn't there to make her feel safe. She was alone. Alone with them. I refused to let myself say the word again. It brought along a deluge of memories that would have added to the pile of pain waiting to run its course.
Alice sensed my distress and wrapped her arms around me. I was worried that I would fall apart with her in front of me again, but, I reminded myself that it hadn't even happened yet, and it helped. But the fact that I wasn't there protecting my daughter still tore at me .
"Bella, I'm so sorry. This is so much for you to take in at once. Do you want me to stop?"
I so wanted her to stop so I could actually start to bear the pain, but, I knew that I couldn't handle falling apart like this several times. It would do more damage in intervals then at once. A clean break.
"No, continue," I insisted.
"Bella, are you sure.? You don't need to know all at once. I can't imagine how this is feeling for you." What Alice was offering was so appealing, that I again had to remind myself what would happen if I stopped.
"Alice, continue."
Alice looked at me with concern but then continued. "The Volturi approach her. She looks at them puzzlingly and the Volturi get a kick out of this. Renesmee….tries to run in the opposite direction, but they were too fast." Alice looked at me wondering if she should continue. As hard it was hearing about this, it was also relieving that I actually knew what was going to happen instead of wondering if they were going to kill her. After all, if she was going there, it was either because they wanted her for something, or they were holding her as ransom. Either way, it was like she was being killed. She would be gone, and that was as worst as her dying. Her being forced into their evil plans would be worse than death. It would be heartbreaking and agonizing for her and as well as me, as us, wishing that we could trade places with her. But couldn't.
I looked at Alice and I didn't need her to continue. I already knew what was going to happen. At least at that moment. That was all we knew. How she was going to disappear. We didn't know what she was going to do, or where she was going to go. We were clueless. We knew approximately where and when it was going to start, but we didn't know what would happen after that. There was a gap, and I knew the Volturi were trying to do everything that they could do to make sure that gap wasn't filled. They wanted her. My daughter. My life.
"I'm sorry, Bella. I can sketch it out for you, if you wish. It would give you a better insight of what…that place looks like." Alice brought me out of the thoughts that were starting to consume me.
I totally ignored Alice's question and asked another. I knew Edward knew about this, but I wanted to make sure. If he didn't know, I would run to the cottage and go get him.
"Alice, does Edward, and Carlisle know?" I waited for Alice to answer the question. She waited a minute before she answered. During that minute, I wondered if I should run to the cottage to go tell Edward now because Alice was hesitating and that meant she was thinking something over, and not knowing if she should tell it to me or not.
"No," Alice answered simply as a gust of wind blew through her hair.
"No?" I asked in a surprised yet angry voice. "Why?" I asked again.
"Because, Bella, I feel like you have the first right to know. After all, you carried Renesmee and you are the most attached to her. And, I also thought you would rather, ….you know, by me. And not in front of him, or anyone else." She knew that I was going to fall apart, and for my sake and Edward's she wanted me to do it alone, or at least by her. She knew that when I fell apart I totally gave up my mind and let the pain control me. She knew that from when Edward was gone. She knew how tattered I was. She knew how hard it was to watch me, knowing that she couldn't help.
I couldn't respond. I just nodded.
"Don't worry. Bella, after I'm done, I'm going to go tell Carlisle and the rest of the family. I thought you should go tell Edward. But, I think I know by now, he already knows." That eliminated one thing I needed to do when I got to the cottage. I wasn't planning to talk about this a lot. Every time I either mentioned it or thought about it, I knew the pain would double and start a new passion and frenzy of pain in my chest. I didn't want to fall apart twice. No matter how much I knew it would happen and how much it would hurt, I refused to register this thought in my mind.
"Is that it?" I asked in a hopeful voice. "Are you done with that part of the vision?"
"Yes," she answered softly. "But, there's others. If you want to hear about them."
I wanted to encourage Alice to speak her mind, but I also didn't want to hear about anymore of the visions. They were all too painful, but I had to get over it. If I got over the pain first, it would be easier to live instead of waiting for it and wondering how much it would hurt and how long it would last. Painful anticipation wasn't what you would call enjoyable.
"I want to hear about them," I said in a voice that I hoped didn't show how painful this conversation was for me.
Alice looked at me doubly but then started. "After Renesmee disappeared, I was too scared and surprised to listen to Carlisle or look into the future anymore. I was afraid I would see something I didn't want to see. So, I concentrated on the stock market and some of the global disasters coming. But, I couldn't escape the visions. As I was scanning Florida's hurricane schedule, I came across something that I had never seen before and didn't expect to see. I saw myself, alone, somewhere. I saw myself in your cottage, and writing a note. A goodbye note." Alice's voice was starting to get closed. "I tried to stop the vision, but I couldn't. I was stuck in that vision and I was watching myself doing something. I knew it had something to do with leaving, but I didn't know I was the one who would be doing it. As I looked at myself even more closely, I saw the look on my face. It reminded me of when I left you for South America hoping I could stop the Volturi from killing Renesmee. I was sad, lonely, heartbroken and betrayed. And I knew at that instant, when I looked at myself writing the letter, I was sealing my heart away, Bella. I knew that I was writing the note to you because I knew you would be the only one who would understand why I left and where I was going. I didn't want anyone else to get involved, but you. I knew you would be the only one who would understand." What Alice said would have brought tears to my eyes if I was capable of making them. Alice was sealing her heart away. To me. Another heart being sealed away for me. Why was I so special that it seemed like everywhere I went, people were leaving and I was the only one they trusted and love? There was something wrong with that. I wasn't perfect. Not at all. I had been heartbroken, I wasn't clean, so why were people entrusting me with their perfectly, unbroken hearts?
"Thank you, Alice. I hope I do understand you. But, you saw yourself heartbroken and betrayed?" This would have added more pain to what I was already feeling, but I could handle it. After all, there was already pain rushing through my veins racing towards my heart to break it once again. I didn't need anymore little stabs of pain that would eventually build up to a heartbreak and outburst. I just didn't want that to happen right now. Alice was telling me things that would be very important for the future and essentially the present.
"Yes, I saw myself in a heartbroken state. As I was sitting at the table, I saw myself writing with a look of pain and betrayal. I scanned the future and the present to see what would cause some thing, but, I came out empty. I know it would appear eventually, but, to be honest, I don't want to know. If it comes at one moment, I won't be anticipating it and it would cause less pain, but, before I could escape from myself and the visions, the vision changed. As I was sealing the letter and placing it where I knew you would find it, I saw myself wondering if I really should go through with what I was going to do. But, I didn't have time to change my mind. I walked to the door, looked over my shoulder at the house and the pictures of myself with Carlisle and the family, and I felt like…" Alice stopped to look for the right words. "I was betraying you now. But, I knew, you were thankful for the time I had with you, and I was glad for all the years I had with the Cullens. I turned my head around, and took in a deep breath. I walked out the door, leaving my family, leaving my shelter, leaving my life. But, I knew at that moment, that I was doing this for a good reason, and that leaving my old life would bring me to a new one, and I knew that I would find another family to live with, but, I knew no body could ever be like the Cullens. With that," Alice choked over her words. I knew she was telling me what she thought she thought at that time. It made it all the more emotional. Alice saw herself leaving her life, but the most heartbreaking of it, was that she didn't want to leave, but she knew she had too. She also knew that she would find another family whom would love her, but she was certain that there wouldn't be any other family like the Cullens. Alice was sure of it, and I was too.
"With that, I left the house and my life." Alice said as she looked to the ground. She didn't want to leave, but something was forcing her to do it, and I had some idea of what it was, but I wasn't positive that was the motive for her departing.
Alice took her eyes off me and didn't put them back on my bewildered face to see my reaction of the vision. I wanted Alice to suffer in silence, but, I wanted to know if she knew where she was going to go after she left. Wherever it was, I wanted to know so I could check in with her from time to time, and I wanted to make sure the vampires were hospitable and cordial, and they wouldn't reverse her way of life and make her into the vampire she was supposed to be.
"Alice," I said gently. "Where are you going?" Alice didn't look up when I asked her this. She continued to play with the locks of swaying grass and flowers. But, she did respond.
"That was when the vision ended as abruptly as it started. I tried to see the rest of it, but I didn't want to. I knew that wherever it was, it would break my heart knowing I was better off living here. But, I knew, that that was my home now, and there was no use of remembering the past. But, I refused to register that thought. As long as I would live, I would never forget the past, even the most painful memories would stay implicated in my head forever. I don't want to lose you guys. I don't want to lose myself."
I nodded. I knew what she was feeling. She didn't want to forget all the wonderful and painful times she had experienced. Either way, they reminded her of us, her life, and I guess, herself. She didn't want to lose herself, and forget about all the times she had with the Cullens. It was what I wanted to do with the most precious memories of my human life. I didn't want to forget them, even though they could have been so much better, there was something about them that you wanted to remember. I wanted to remember in generations and centuries to come about my father, my mother, my human family, and Jacob. I wanted to remember why, when, and how I first saw Edward. I wanted to remember the nights I slept in his arms and chest and the first time we kissed. The first time we saw each other, and the first time we realized we were stupid enough to fall in love. I wanted to remember this meadow. The meadow that was the center of our love. The meadow that I would remember the most. I was positive in a few decades the meadow would be covered completely with leaves and high grass, but, I was positive, there would be no weeds. The meadow where I first felt that Edward loved me, just me, not for my body or anything else. He said that I was the most important thing in his life now. The most important thing ever….
I was awaken from my memories when something in the back of my head reminded me that this talk wasn't about me, and there was someone next to me hurting and waiting for me to say something. I quickly thought of something to say that would be innocent enough to hide that I was stuck in the fantasies of Edward and I.
"Alice, are you going to leave?" That was the most important question now. Even though it was extremely heartbreaking asking this question, it was very important. Everything else centered around that one question that would change her life and as well as mine.
I was worried when Alice didn't lift her head to answer. I was afraid that something I said hurt her, but, she lifted her head before I reached over to touch her hand.
Alice looked at me with bewilderment and confusion. I could only guess what she was feeling.
" I don't know," she finally answered. "I don't know what to do. I'm afraid if I make one choice, someone won't like it, and my family tie with that person would be cut. I'm afraid."
"Alice, you do not need to be afraid of what your decision is. Don't care about anyone else. I want you to do what will be the best for you. I don't care if anyone else likes it, or if it hurts us. As long as you are doing what you think will be the best for you, it will always be fine. Rosalie, Emmett and Edward won't get mad. You don't need to be afraid. Just because you can see the future and we are losing you, doesn't mean we won't be able to live. And, if they are mad, I swear they'll be the first to get what I think of them."
" I know, Bella. I know. I just want to leave you guys in a state that would make my departing more bearable."
"So, you are leaving." I said in a voice almost inaudible.
"Bella, as of my visions, I guess I am. But, I'll do my best to make sure that doesn't happen, along with Renesmee. I just don't think I'll be able to not leave. With the visitors and the Volturi, and now this, I don't think I'll be able to keep a straight head. I might need to leave for some other reason. I just-" Alice took in a breath- " can't do it all." What Alice said gave me a thought. Was she leaving with Jasper? She had to. If you really found your soul mate, you couldn't leave them, no matter what the situation may be. But, maybe, Jasper had something to do with this. I knew that I shouldn't be going around making wrong assumptions, but, I felt that Jasper was playing a role in all of this. He wasn't the main character, he was one of a few, but he was definitely the most dominant character in whom mattered the most.
"Alice, Jasper?" I knew that was all it took for her to understand. Alice swallowed and forced her eyes on me. She wanted to answer, but she didn't know if she could.
"I didn't see him." I was surprised even though I was expecting this. She hadn't seen Jasper because of two possibilities. One of them I so wanted to believe, but I couldn't pretend that the other one didn't exist and was the most possible outcome of this whole situation. One, Jasper wasn't present for that part of the writing. But, wouldn't he have if he was going to say goodbye? And second, Jasper really did something to Alice, and she needed to leave, or Jasper left her, and Alice found no need stay with us anymore. It was because of Jasper she went to the Cullens, and once he was gone, there was no ties holding her to this family. No ties except me. And I wasn't the most sturdy tie. I have been ripped and torn apart, scattered in pieces many times and stitched up. I wasn't reliable. You never knew when something or someone would come around and cut that tie in half. She was safe if she didn't rely on me.
I nodded. "Alice, have you seen any other vision having to do with this one? Or, have you seen Jasper in one of your recent visions? Maybe they will show him and why you haven't seen him."
"I haven't seen any recent visions, but, Jasper, he might have been waiting outside. He didn't feel the need to say goodbye for some reason. Either way, there is something wrong if he's not in my visions."
"What do you mean, "Not in you visions?" Is there something wrong when he's not in them?" I looked at Alice and saw she was staring at me with such intensity that it surprised me when I looked at up. She really was telling me the secrets that have been burdening her for years, and she really needed to pour them out. There was too many that she could hold back. Just like a full dam and a new rainfall, her wall was breaking and the secrets were being poured out and consuming anyone in sight. And I had the honor to be the only one around.
Alice sensed to get what I was asking. "Usually, when I am going to make a life changing decision, he's usually in them. But, in this one, nothing. Only me." By the sound of her voice I sensed that she was really alone, and even her mate has left her.
"Really? Why do you think that is?" Alice didn't immediately answer. I was glad she was thinking it over. If she knew this answers at the top of her head, it meant she had thought about them before, and if she had, that meant the more time she had been alone think about this things?
"Because, he's apart of the decision and so am I, so, it would only be natural if he got a say or part in the decision, or vision." Something suddenly came to my mind. If Jasper wasn't in the vision, it meant the vision wasn't a life changing decision, or, it might as well have meant that the decision didn't apply to Jasper, or he had left her. Either way, the vision was the vision, and there was no way of changing that.
"Alice, I think, the vision might not have been what you think it was." I waited patiently for Alice's reaction and for her to comprehend what I was saying.
"What do you mean the vision might have been a different thing from what I thought it was. Of course it was, I saw myself writing a goodbye letter to you!" Alice looked at me with betrayal.
"So, it could have been something else." I wasn't sure if I was right anymore. It really seemed like Alice was going to leave.
"No, Bella. Did you see my face? I wouldn't have been that devastated for anything else than me leaving you, or for someone I thought meant to the world to me had just left me. I know I'm going to leave." I didn't want to fight any more. I knew I wasn't going to win. Let Alice think what she wants to think, and I can do the same. I shouldn't be fighting with her. If she really was going to leave, I didn't want to spend the minute time I had with her fighting. That was something Rosalie would do.
" Okay, Alice. I'm not going to fight with you. If you really are going to leave, I want the time we still have with each other to be the best. You believe what you want to believe, after all, you can see the future, and I'll believe what I want to believe." Alice's surprised and angry face uplifted and she smiled.
"Thank you, Bella. For everything." Alice scooted over to me and put her arms around my torso holding my broken body together for me. I put my hand on the arms hugging me.
"I'm sorry, Bella." Alice whispered into my ear as she arched her head. "Sorry for everything."
I didn't respond. She knew, or at least I hoped, that she knew I was welcome for everything, and she probably knew I would go off saying I would do anything for her and she deserves more than what I'm doing. Figures.
"Alice, please tell me that was all you saw."
"Don't worry, it was, but-"
"But what," I said interrupting her.
"But I'm probably going to see something more soon and I'm not going to want to see it. But I'm going to because I know it will mean a lot to you if you knew." I gave out a sigh of relief.
We stayed silent for a little bit, and the pain that I was able to bear for a few minutes came back. It hit me so hard, it blew the breath out of me. Alice seemed to sense it, and she let go of me. She backed up, and she knew I was going to break down, and she didn't want to be in the middle of it. It was funny how everything came all at once. I suddenly remembered Renesmee, and Alice, and how I would probably never see them again. It was to hard to comprehend. All I could understand was that I was going to lose two of the most important people in my life and I would probably never see them again. It was enough to comprehend for the pain to attack and for me to suddenly be consumed by darkness. It was more painful that anything else I had even experienced. As strong as I was being a vampire, I still couldn't resist the pain. There really was nothing to hang on too. I was slipping off the edge of a cliff with the ocean under it, and my fingers were gently slipping off one by one. I was only being held in place by one finger. Edward. He was strong enough to hold up the rest of my body forever. And I knew it.
I drifted into the darkness only comprehending the pressure of that one finger. Suddenly, I could feel that finger slipping. The finger I thought would hold me up forever. I wanted to reach out for him, and say no, but I knew I would slip. But, I reached out for him. I was going to slip anyway. I knew I was slipping, but my mind wasn't concentrating on that. Suddenly, my last hold on the earth slipped, and I was left spiraling through the cold, dark air.
He let me go. My life. It was letting its other half slip. It was as simple as that but as painful as being cut apart piece by piece with an ax. The one I thought would make me live was letting me go. Letting. Me. Go.
I would have been completely consumed if I couldn't feel the arms around me and the urgent voice calling my name. "Bella, honey. Bella?"
Then another voice, " Alice, what happened?"
Alice answered. "I told her."
"Told her what," Edward said urgently.
"I was going to have her tell you, but, I figured you were listening."
I suddenly remembered where I was and I wasn't actually slipping off the cliff. But I might as well have been.
I wanted to open my eyes, but they were too heavy. I didn't want to, but before I could stop it, I was falling. Falling through the air. There was relief for one second. I was free of worry as I was spiraling through the air. I was free and there was nothing stopping me, but the cold, freezing water under me. I wanted to fall into the water, to feel the rush of the cool water after spiraling through the air, but, as my fantasy was about to come true, I felt a hand. A hand that caught me before I fell. I knew that hand even if I were blind. It was Edward's. It was cool, smooth, and meant for me. I urgently grabbed it thankful that I didn't fall. It was too real. I couldn't be able to feel this hand if this was a dream.
I quickly jerked up from the position I was on the ground and opened my eyes. To my surprise, I had been dreaming. Not exactly dreaming as if sleeping, but day dreaming. And, there in front of me, was Edward.
Edward breathed a sigh of relief. "Bella, are you okay," he said urgently through breaths of relief. I was confused. I didn't know why I slipped like that, and I knew that I was fine physically, but mentally and emotionally, that was a whole different ballgame. I knew he meant emotionally more than physically, and I wanted to tell the truth. But, I knew he would freak out and feel like it was his fault. Anyways, he would find out I was hurting eventually.
"Yah, I'm fine," I said in a voice that I hoped didn't give me away. "I just feel..a little weird." I quickly stood up, but lost my balance as I placed my right foot on the ground. Edward and Alice caught me before I could fall.
Edward led me by my elbows to a rock on the side of the meadow. "Bella, there's something wrong, and you are not okay."
I didn't answer. I let Alice do all the talking.
Edward sighed and sat down where I was sitting. He wiped the tangled hair out of my face and put it to one side on the left side of my shoulder. He then looked over at Alice on the other side of the meadow. I could tell by the expression on her face she wished she could do something.
"Alice, what happened?"
"Don't you know?" Alice said in an annoyed voice. "You're the freak of nature who can read minds."
"Actually, I don't," Edward answered in a matter of fact voice. "I said I would let you tell Bella first, and I didn't want to go back on my word. You know me better than that."
"I sure do," Alice said in a bored voice.
"Alice, just tell me."
"I don't think I can explain that to you unless I tell you something."
"What?" Edward said confusingly.
"Edward, I saw something," Alice in a voice like she was confessing. "And, I couldn't handle dealing with it myself. I needed Bella's help."
Edward's face was expressionless. "Saw what." He said in a tone of disbelief and seriousness.
Alice looked at me with worry. I nodded my head urging her to go on. "Volturi and Renesmee." We both looked at Edward expecting his reaction.
After registering the thought in his head Edward jumped up angrily. "I knew it! We need to get Renesmee home now. I can't believe I let her get away like that."
"Wait," Alice said as Edward was pulling me off the rock.
"Wait for what?" Edward said in an annoyed and angry voice. "We don't have time. We need to get Renesmee home as soon as possible. The Volturi might make their attack in Italy because they know we are not there to protect her."
Alice didn't argue. She just got up, and stayed frozen in that same position. She usually was the one to take on thrilling and life changing situations like this, but I understood what she was feeling. She needed time. Time to be away from everyone else and everything my existence had inflicted on her. I nodded my head as Edward lead me out of the meadow. Alice moved as if she were saying sorry and I instantly felt like I was leaving her once again. But, I agreed with Edward. We needed to get Renesmee home as soon as possible. But, I didn't want to leave Alice, and I hoped that I would come back in time to save her from herself. But like all situations it seemed, you had to leave one important thing in your life to save another.