Author's Note: Hey, I know it was a long wait for this update but the holidays rolled around and things just got really busy. Anyways, to the people who asked for a certain character to be brought back to the story, I want to tell you that I just might do so in the possible future…. (hint, hint. wink, wink) Let me know your thoughts and feelings about this if you want me to do so! REVIEW! Happy Holidays, Katslove0897
CPOV
When you think about life, you realize that no matter how hard you try, never know when something is about to happen. I had no idea that I was going to meet Jace that night at the party and I certainly didn't anticipate that I would end up falling in love. But what you need to remember is that to truly live your life, you need to learn to forgive and move on from the tribulations in your past. Jace learnt this last night.
5 hours ago
It was about 2:30 in the morning when I was woken up by the horribly annoying buzzing of my phone that was resting on my side table beside my bed. Groggily, I sat up and reached over to answer my phone.
"Hello?"
There was a pause before a broken voice answered. "C-clary?"
At the sound of his voice I instantly became awake. "Jace?... Jace, what happened?"
I could hear him as he let out a soft sob. "Clary. Please Clary I need you." He let out another sob. "Please, Clary. Please."
"I'm on my way. Just hold on. I will be right there." I ran out of my room grabbing my car keys in my hast and slammed the front door shut behind me. I drove over to his apartment in a haze of scared tears. When I finally reached his apartment, I had no idea what I was walking into. I opened the door to a dark apartment. The only source of light was the beams of moonlight that were coming in through the windows. I slowly closed the door behind me.
"Jace?" I called out. I walked around to his bedroom passing Alec's, which was empty as usual because he was practically living with Magnus now. I entered Jace's room that was strewn apart. I suddenly noticed a dark shape sitting on the floor, leaning against the side of the bed with its legs crushed against its chest. He turned his head towards me with a tear-streaked face. My heart broke just looking at him.
"Jace." I ran over to him and hugged him to my body.
He pushed my arms away and stood up to start pacing around the room. "I watched a man die today." He said not looking at me.
"Oh Jace." I said sadly. "I'm so sorry."
Jace replied brokenly, "But that's not even the worst part, Clary. He died because of me. I stood there watching this man struggle to breath and I… I froze! Everything I have ever learned went right out of my head! I knew how to save him. It's my fault. It's my fault that he's dead."
"It is Not. Your. Fault. The doctors should have been watching him." I said sternly.
"My mother was in labor with me for three days." Jace said quietly.
"Wait, what? What are you talking about? I thought we were talking about what happened at the hospital." I said confused.
Jace quickly spun to me in a fit of undeniable angry sadness. "Three days Clary! Three days she was in labor with me."
I knew in that instant that this was the story I had been waiting to hear. All of the feelings that he had been keeping inside himself for so long finally came surging back up to the surface.
"My mother was in labor with me for three days. When I finally came out, she was so weak." Jace told me distraught. He silently sat down on the side of the bed and put his head in his hands. "She had lost a lot of blood, and the doctors couldn't stop it. She died shortly after I was born. She couldn't even hold me once! Not once! She was just too weak. That picture that my dad showed you was the very last one that was ever taken of her. My mother died because of me! Because of me, Clary! It is my fault that she's dead and why that man is dead. I grew up without a mom, Clary! No child should have to go through life without a parent. No one deserves that! Now, I am the reason that man's family will grow up without him. It's my fault! It's all my fault!" He finished crying into my shoulder.
I suddenly realized that I was crying too when I grabbed his face in my hands and forced him to look at me.
"Jace, it was Not. Your. Fault. Don't you dare say that ever again. Do you understand me? Your mother died tragically, but it was Not. Your. Fault. Ok? You are the most loving person that I have ever met in my life and I love you for being who you are."
Jace looked into my eyes and replied, "Do you even know why I wanted to become a doctor Clary? I thought that if I could just save one person from leaving their families then everything would be worth it. Every year of studying and preparation. Everything. Tonight was my chance to finally prove that I could do something good and I froze! I knew how to save him and all I could do was stand there!"
"Jace, listen to me! None of this was your fault! Don't blame yourself for something that you couldn't control!"
As I watched Jace in his rawest form, when he was riddled with grief, I knew exactly what to say. "You are not alone Jace. You will never be alone. I love you. Your Dad loves you. Your friends love you. Your mother loves you. Even if she can't be here to tell you herself."
Jace looked at me with his big eyes and kissed me softly. "I love you Clary. You are everything to me."
I pulled him into my arms and slowly tugged us over to lie down in the bed. I stroked his golden blond hair and let him fall asleep in my arms.
Present Time
Still CPOV
I didn't fall back asleep after Jace. I just held him and stared up at the ceiling thinking about everything. I felt him stir beside me.
"Good morning Clary." Jace said quietly beside me.
I looked down at the love of my life beside me and smiled. "Good morning."
"I want to thank you Clary. I was in a really bad place last night, and you stayed with me through it all."
"Of course I did." I smiled at him. "Where else would I be?"
He smiled sadly and said, "My mother died on my birthday. Do you even know ho much your painting meant to me when you gave it to me?" I suddenly noticed that he had hung it on the wall right beside his bed.
A small tear escaped and rolled down my cheek. "I'm glad you liked it."
We were quiet for a moment before I said, "Jace, thank you for telling me about your mom."
"Clary, I have never felt so close to someone before. I wanted to tell you. I needed to tell you. Please, I don't want anymore secrets between us ok?"
I smiled again and replied, "Ok, Jace. I promise. No more secrets." If only I could tell him.
Author's Note: Hey sorry I know that this was a short chapter and a pretty sad one, but I just needed to get it off my chest and get the whole Jace's mother thing cleared up. Let me know what you thought and if there is anything that you want to see happen in the story. Thanks for reading! REVIEW! REVIEW! REVIEW!