Hey, sorry lovely readers that I haven't updated in sooooooooo long, I've been busy with school stuff and yer, I wont bore you with it. :D

Anyways, I'm also sorry about the last chapter being so short and that I left you hanging with that cliffy for so long.

So to ease your building curiosity here's the next chapter.

Jasper's POV

"Where have you been?!" Emmett whispered very urgently to me, though we both knew that everyone in the house would be bale to hear him. I stared blankly at him, I had expected him to hit me or scream at me for kissing Bella, but seeing as though he seemed oblivious to that fact I decided to tell half truths.

"I was with Bella, I took her to work but half way there she told me she didn't want to go anymore so I had to turn around and take her home. Why?" I asked innocently.

Emmett rolled his eyes at me. Did he know I was lying?

"No, I knew you were with Bella, you're always with her now, hey, why is that?" He asked, but quickly waved his hands in front of himself, dismissing his own question. "What I meant was: 'where were you, because you haven't been answering your phone.' Alice has been chucking fits for about 30 minutes now! You gotta help me dude. I can't handle this." Emmett walked over to the couch and sunk down into it, hanging his head over the back of it.

"What's she so upset about? She seemed fine this morning." I asked, curiosity getting the better of me. I walked over to Emmett and sat on the arm rest of the chair.

"Yeah, she was fine this morning, that's until she tried to see where some grizzlies were for me to hunt and couldn't see anything. She says she can see small patches of things but she can't see the big picture," he pulled his head forward and looked at me, "she's really frustrated, please go talk to her, for all our sakes."

I got up hesitantly and started walking towards the stairs, very slowly. I looked over my shoulder and said "thanks, Em," and was about to continue walking when Emmett saw the hesitance on my face and said "oh yes man, be afraid, be very afraid." That just made what I had to do worse. I had to go up stairs and comfort my wife who had no idea that I was in love with Bella and that I kissed her, and would expect me to still love her and most likely kiss her too.

This was going to be awkward.

I reached the top of the stairs on the second level of the house and was met by Alice standing in the hall. Anger, frustration, anxiety, sadness, and a lot more emotions were playing on her face and inside her; sad and angry emotions. I couldn't help imagine her face if I were to tell her what had happened between me and Bella and quickly shook my head in an attempt to rid myself of the thought along with a shudder.

I walked up to her and hesitantly pulled her into my arms. She simply stood there for a few moments before holding me back, burying her face in my chest. I put my hand on the small of her back and rested my check on the top of her hair—not the hardest thing to do considering her height—and we simply just stood there.

She seemed to calm down a little in my embrace, which made me feel extremely guilty. How could I do this to her? My wife? Poor, little defenseless—well, not so defenseless—Alice, who had always been there for me, who had showed me this life and taught me how to be happy, how?

She looked up at me, straight into my eyes, I prayed they didn't show the guilt that I was feeling in them, and whispered "I love you Jasper," and placed her head back on my chest.

I was right… this was very much as awkward as I'd imagined it to be. Probably more so.

Bella's POV

After I got out of the shower and dried off—after staying in there for almost an hour—I wrapped the towel around me and walked into my extremely small bedroom. The how water had finally managed to relax me a bit, but as soon as the water was off and I was out the tension and confusion engulfed me once again.

I hung my head back and groaned. This whole situation was so fucked up! I knew that Jasper knew this as well, but the knowledge didn't fix anything, just made it worse.

The saying: "What they don't know can't hurt them" is extremely overrated. It's the choice that you have to make on whether to decide to hurt them or not. Things associated with that saying usually just means more trouble for you. Sometimes it's better to just get it out there and over with, sometimes, it does no good at all. And sometimes… it just makes your head hurt trying to decide.

Like now.

I sat down on my bed, still with only the towel on, and just sat. Time seemed to stop as I stared at my wall. Nothing ran through my mind. Absolutely nothing. I just sat, stared and breathed, that was the extent of my function.

By the time I finally snapped out of my trance it could have been either seconds, minutes or hours that I was motionless, and when I stood up to finally get dressed my cramped legs told me that it hadn't been either of the first two.

I stumbled over to my small closet and pulled out a dry pair of dark flare jeans and a white singlet. I pulled on some underwear and had just got my jeans on when I heard a noise at my window. My heart immediately flew, that was the way Edward had use to get into my room, but then the memory that he was dead registered and my heart broke once again.

I looked up and over to my window and sitting on the edge of it was jasper. He wasn't staring at my face, he was looking at my body, I remembered that I had only a bra and jeans on and I had an odd moment of déjà vu, thinking back to the bathroom incident. Had that only been this morning? I asked myself. I pulled myself back to the present and clicked my fingers to get his attention back to my face.

He looked up at me with lust, confusion and that other emotion that I couldn't place before, but now it hit me, Edward use to have it in his eyes too when he looked at me.

Love.

I no, I no, it's so short, but hey, at least I aint giving you a cliffhanger this time. Lol. But I still want you to continue to read.

Again, sorry that I haven't updated in so long and that this is barely anything, but stuff is hectic. I do promise to find time… no, to make time to write this for you guys.

Anyways, thanks for all the encouragement, especially you Swiss Miss, without you guys, there's no reason to write.

I love all of you. Ilyy.

-Alarni. xx.