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"Waiting for the Storm"

Dean felt the angel collapse in his arms. He shivered lightly as sticky blood coated the front of his jacket. Castiel's grip had loosened on his shoulder and Dean could feel the torn skin of his shoulder bleeding lightly. Dean quickly set down the angel as a Leviathan came his way. He barely had time to get his mind used to the real world as a blade whistled past his ear. A cold hand gripped his neck and Dean fought to regain his breath. Dean fell to his knees and was about to collapse when he felt soapy water soak through his shirt.

"Take that you ugly idgit!"

"Thanks Bobby!" Dean gasped as he felt air fill up his lungs once more. "I thought I was a goner!"

Bobby tossed him a long bladed knife that he nearly missed. "Don't thank me until we make sure we aren't going to be dead in the next minute dumb ass!"

Dean nodded as he hurried over and cut the head off of a Leviathan that stood over his brother. "Sammy, are you alright?"

"Yeah man, I'm good." Sam gripped his older brother's hand and let him pull him to his feet. Sam picked up his knife from the floor as he grappled with yet another slimy monster.

Dean ripped his knife through another neck and noticed a monster slinking towards Castiel's limp form. "Oh no you don't you son of a bitch!" Dean rushed over and nearly felt his heart stop in relief when he saw the angel's blue eyes open slightly. "Cas!" Look out CAS-" a cold blade went through Dean's stomach and he felt shockwaves shoot through his body. Pain lazily took a back seat as he gazed down at the tear in his midsection.

"Dean!" Sam tried to get away from the Leviathans he was fighting but his brother was too far away. Bobby nearly got his head taken off as he looked on in horror.

The knife trailed upwards through the hunter's chest and Dean could feel the blood burbling out from the corners of his mouth. "Cas…I…" Dean swayed and his knees hit the floor. "Cas…"

Castiel struggled over to Dean as the voices screamed in his head. Blood escaped through his mouth and his brain didn't seem to be working properly. He placed a cold hand over Dean's wound and closed his eyes as the skin below his palm glowed lightly. Skin began to reknit itself and Castiel felt the last of the slippery blood on his lover's body ebb backwards.

Dean's eyes opened as he felt the gash healing. They fell on Castiel and he watched the strange light emulating off of his palm. The normally clear light was perverted with a murkier color. Dean felt something try to crawl into the almost healed wound and he gave a shout in horror.

"CAS, STOP!" The angel tugged away his hand as he stared at Dean with crazed eyes. He was frighteningly pale and Dean could tell that he was barely holding on. "Oh no you don't Cas. We aren't losing you again. Come on Cas." Dean stared into the unfocused irises. "Come on Cas!" Something slimy and black slipped over the floor and Dean stomped on it.

"What the hell was that?"

"Beats me. I have never seen anything like it." Bobby stared down at the black sludge on his floor and shook his head. "Are you alright now? I saw you get stabbed in the guts, how are you still with us?"

"It was Cas. He healed most of it." Dean winced as a light trickle of blood leaked from the still open wound. "That sludge monster tried to crawl in. Looked like something out of Fern Gully." He pushed back Castiel's hair as he watched the angel's eyes go in and out of focus.

"What's up with Cas?" Sam held a kitchen towel to his bleeding arm as Dean shook his head.

"We don't know. He's alive, but Cas is not in the building. Or at least in the right building." He watched blue eyes widen in horror as a gasp escaped his trembling mouth. "Something is really wrong with him."

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He ran through doorways but they were always quick on his heels. The thirsted for things he did not understand and would not give. Doors slammed behind him as he hurried through a blurred world. He heard a voice shout his name but the tone was different than that of the Leviathans.

"Castiel!"

Castiel burst through the door and slammed it behind him as an afternoon sun blinded his sensitive eyes. Green grass was ruffled by a warm breeze and flowers sat in neat colorful clumps. Heaven? Castiel took a step forward and whirled to his left at the sound of a slight noise.

"There you are brother, it took you long enough!" Castiel's eyes widened when they fell on the small group of angels in front of him.

"You look good Cassie, apart from being ghostly pale and bloody."

"Are you alright Castiel?" Anna pulled her brother into her arms as he glanced wildly back and forth at Gabriel and Balthazar.

"I am unsure of the answer to your question." Castiel glanced around. "Where are we?"

"Your grapefruit. You seem to be going a little nutso bro." Gabriel smirked at the baffled look on the other angel's face.

"I…I don't understand."

Balthazar stepped forward and placed a hand on his shoulder. "You got a little greedy there Cas, when you were so obsessed with killing our dear Raphie."

"You didn't just think you glugged down human souls like a purgatory Thirst Buster did you?"

"No. I know that the Leviathans came as well. Why are you here? You are all dead."

"Thanks for the news update, better put that one on Facebook. We were stuck in there as well."

"Purgatory?" Castiel looked horrified.

"Yes Cassie. Looks like we rebellious angels got what was coming to us. You'd better keep on your toes as well or it looks like this will be your home too."

Castiel glanced down at the ground in shame. "I am sorry for what I did to you brother."

"What, for killing me? I had it coming my darling brother. Besides, we aren't here to tear you a new one."

Anna smiled. "We are here to help Cas."

"I heard Gabriel…when I was in the lake last night. He told me to get out of the water."

Gabriel looked delighted. "I told you guys that it would work, didn't I?"

Castiel nodded slowly. "Why are you helping me? None of us were really friends in the end."

"Ahh but it is not the end Cassie. You see, you are still a nuke chock full of Leviathans."

Castiel sighed. "I know."

"Jeeze, let us finish. You need to get all of those monsters back into purgatory."

Anna nodded. "Get them back through the gate Castiel."

"It's pointless. We tried that already. The gate is gone."

"Wrong. Cas, you are the gate."

Castiel looked baffled. "I am the what?"

"The gate. As long as you are milling about out here you are carrying those monsters into the water sources they need for survival. You are letting them take over the world."

Castiel swallowed. "What am I to do?"

"You will open the gate Castiel, and jump through. You cannot hold back for anything this time."

"I don't know what you mean." Castiel glanced away as a sick feeling crawled through his body.

Anna gripped his hand sympathetically. "You couldn't leave Dean. If you hadn't been so distracted you could have fought off their hold until you made it through the wall. To make everything right again, you must die."

"Open the wall Castiel. We will be waiting right here for you. Then we can have a real family reunion with a stripper cake and everything!"

Castiel smiled lightly at Gabriel but he could feel the ice in his veins. He would have to leave Dean. All this and still they would never be together. Castiel slowly made his way back through the strangely silent door without looking back. His siblings stood behind him as blackness leaked out of their eyes.

"Mother, he is coming."

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"Cas! Cas! Hang in there, come on Cas!" Castiel awoke to Dean shouting in his face and Bobby and Sam invading his personal space.

"The idgit's awake! Give him some space." Sam sat back but Dean wrapped his arms around the angel who shivered lightly.

"Are you cold baby?" Castiel nodded as he buried his face into Dean's shoulder. "You had me worried there, Cas."

Castiel smiled weakly back. "And you? You are hurt Dean. Let me help-"

"No!" Castiel looked taken aback, "I mean it's alright. Cas? Something is wrong with your grace."

Castiel looked ill. "Dean, what's wrong with me?"

"Shhh. We are going to fix you. Just hang in there for me and I will find a way to save you."

"I love you Dean." Castiel rested his forehead against the hunter's as their eyes met.

Dean felt something wet against his cheek and saw that the angel was crying. "Damn it, I am going to make sure that those shit holes never hurt you again. Cas, we are going to get through this. " Castiel nodded but felt cold inside. He slept fitfully on the couch while Bobby patched Dean up in the kitchen.

"Damn it Bobby! I'm a human and this is not a sewing circle you son of a bitch!"

"Quiet down dumb ass. Maybe this wouldn't hurt so bad if you weren't a pansy."

Castiel smiled softly as he heard them arguing. The couch dipped lightly and Castiel peeked at the younger Winchester brother. "Hey Castiel, how are you feeling?"

"Fine. I am sorry I cannot heal your arm."

"Look man, you don't have to worry. Bobby did his best work on it."

"I am sorry about what I did to you…breaking down the wall."

Sam glanced down at him. "You remember that?"

"Yes. I remember everything."

"Do you know what happened when you…died?" Sam shifted uncomfortably.

Castiel shook his head slowly. "I remembered giving back the souls and then…nothing."

Sam sighed audibly. "That means you are still short some memories. We have no idea how long you were alive after that…"

Castiel hung his head. "Again, I apologize. I wish I could be more helpful since I am at fault for everything that has happened."

"Cas. Hey. I know you didn't mean for any of that stuff to happen. I'm sure no one has forgotten that I'm the one who started the apocalypse in the first place."

"And you fixed it." Castiel looked surprised when the taller man hugged him.

"And so will you. Look man, you don't have to carry all this weight alone. We've all done some crappy things but what counts is that we pull through. Every time we are faced with something we do everything we can to stop. We're here so let us help. We haven't always been on the best of terms but I consider you my friend and I don't want you to be hurt."

"Thank you Sam…" Castiel carefully hugged him back glad to be at peace with his friend once more. "Thank you."

"Don't mention it Cas. Just hang in there for Dean, alright? He needs you." Sam walked back into the kitchen as Dean howled once more from Bobby's attempts at surgery. Cas felt horrible. He needed to leave them once more and again he was holding back information.

Dean came into the room looking a bit pale. "Man I think I would have a better chance at survival with Dr. Frankenstein. Good thing Bobby is not a doctor or he would kill anyone not as tough as me." He took a swig out of a bottle.

"Are you still in pain?" Castiel glanced up at him looking concerned.

"Nah Cas. Don't worry, I think a little lovin' from you and I will be back on my feet in no time." Dean plopped down on the couch and pulled the angel into his arms.

"You are a baby Dean."

Dean leaned over and kissed him softly. "Good. That means you get to take care of me."

"I will." Castiel looked solemnly at him.

"Damn it Cas, I love you."

"Please Dean. I-I need you tonight." The angel looked up at Dean, grief still slipping out of blue eyes.

"You don't ever have to ask baby. But are you sure you are up to anything?" Castiel leaned over and kissed him hard on the mouth. Dean didn't need to ask again.

Light shadows crossed over fair skin. Soft and flawless. Dean lay back on his pillow with a stupid grin on his face as Castiel climbed onto his lap.

"Let me see your wings Cas."

Castiel shook his head as he kissed Dean's palm lightly. "You don't want to see them."

"I already have you cute little son of a bitch, And you know what?"

"What?" Castiel tilted his head to the side curiously.

"I like them. They are beautiful Cas and you shouldn't be ashamed of them.

Castiel rested his forehead against Dean's as he gazed intensely into his eyes. "Do you mean that?"

"I sure do. Come on baby." Castiel bit his lip for a moment and nodded. Dean felt soft feathers in between his feather once more and he grinned at Castiel. He saw the way the angel looked away from him with his body stiff. "Cas, I wasn't lying."

"I believe you. I am just not used to…anyone liking them."

Dean frowned as he gently ran his hands over feathers. "Who doesn't like them? I'll kill any son of a bitch who says anything-"

Castiel smiled softly at Dean. "It doesn't matter. All that matters is that you like them."

"And I do." Dean kissed the angel softly as a few feathers remained in his palm. "Cas, I want you to promise me something."

"Of course Dean. I would hope that you know that I would do anything for you."

"Good. I want you to promise me that you will do whatever you can to survive this. I can't lose you again."

Castiel pressed his smaller hand against Dean's. "I will do what I can. But you come first."

"I didn't last night." Dean winked at Castiel and rolled his eyes when the angel didn't pick up on the joke like usual. "But seriously, I am not letting you go again. No matter what happens you are stuck with me."

Castiel smiled and planted a kiss on Dean's temple. "I wouldn't want it any other way."

He spent the night in the hunter's arms as he wondered how he could possibly leave him again. They always seemed to lose so much and gain so little. Dean needed to live. That was priority one. If Castiel could help it he hoped to be there with Dean again when the monsters could no longer feed off of his dying body and were trapped within the walls of purgatory.