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Chapter 7

I stood there smiling and looking into Carlisle's eyes. We could have been standing there for minutes, hours, days, months, or even years. We were so lost in each others eyes. Then all to soon Edward burst into the room glaring. His eyes flashed to our joined hands then to Carlisle's face. Carlisle and Edward stood there glaring at each other neither one of them moving except for Carlisle who gripped my hand slightly tighter. I'm not sure what Carlisle was thinking, but whatever it was it upset Edward so much that he actually growled.

"C'mon Bella" Edward said. "I need to get you home and I wanted to finish showing you the house." He grabbed my hand pulled me away from Carlisle. At first Carlisle looked like he was going to protest, but he just let Edward pull me away from him. As soon as my hand left his I almost moaned at the loss of contact and the loss of the feeling he gave me.

"Good-bye Bella" Carlisle said. "I hope to see you soon," he said with a smile. I smiled back as Edward dragged me out of the room. It turns out the only room he had left to show me was his room. I could tell that Edward was still mad at whatever he had heard in Carlisle's mind. Although Edward smiled that crooked smile that was my favorite his topaz eyes stayed cold and hard. I tried to stay focused as Edward showed me around his room. Once again I was glad that Edward couldn't read my mind, because my mind was filled with thoughts of Carlisle. Luckily Edward didn't notice my inattentiveness. He took me home kissing me lightly before driving off promising to see me later on that night after Charlie went to sleep.

I walked into the house and started making dinner. Thankfully Charlie wasn't home yet so I was left alone with my thoughts. I knew I loved Edward, but I also loved Carlisle. I knew that me being with Edward was the most logical choice. I mean Edward is beautiful, everybody believed him to be the same age as me, he was single, and he loved me. Where as Carlisle was the most beautiful thing that ever walked the planet. But everybody believed that Carlisle was in his thirties. Carlisle was also married and I don't think someone like him could love someone like me. Even though Edward was the obvious choice I knew that I loved Carlisle more. There was this feeling I got when I was with Carlisle that I never got with Edward. It was a feeling of rightness. Whenever we touched there was a spark. And even though his touch was cool like the rest of his family it made warmth spread through out my body. I knew that loving Carlisle was wrong and I certainly didn't want to hurt Esme or Edward. But I believe that Carlisle and I were meant to be together now all I had to do was see how Carlisle felt about me and we needed to be alone when we did it.

Dinner was ready by the time Charlie got home as always dinner was quite. Charlie asked about what I did and I lied told him I just finished up my homework. I thought about what Edward had said about telling Charlie the he was my boyfriend. Before today I was ready to tell Charlie that Edward was my boyfriend, but now with the feelings I had with Carlisle I just couldn't do it. I figured I would just worry about it tomorrow. Today had been emotionally draining. So after I washed the dishes I bid Charlie good night and went to get ready for bed. When I got out of the shower Edward was already waiting on me.

"I thought you were going to wait until Charlie went to bed?" I said I wasn't really happy that Edward was already here. I was hoping to have some more alone time with my thoughts.

" I just couldn't help staying away," Edward said.

I laid down to tired to talk tonight and I felt Edward lay down beside me. As he started to hum my lullaby I closed my eyes and prayed that I didn't talk to much in my sleep. Then I drifted off with my thoughts still swarming.

The next morning when I woke up Edward was gone, but I knew he would be back as soon as Charlie was gone. So I hurried down stairs so I could see Charlie before he left. My mind had been working while I slept and had come up with a solution about what I would tell Charlie about Edward. Charlie was just getting his jacket when I made it downstairs.

"Hey dad," I said "can you hang on a sec?"

"Sure Bells" Charlie said.

"Do you remember when I asked you about the Cullens after my first day?" I asked as Charlie nodded. "Well I have become friend with a few of them and I just wanted to know if they could come over after school?" I didn't think he would say no, but it was polite to just ask.

Charlie didn't disappoint "sure Bells that's fine, I'm glad to see that your befriending them nobody really does." He gave me one of his rare smiles and a wave and he was gone. As soon as Charlie's cruiser was gone there was a knock on the door. I jumped up and opened the door and there stood Edward looking as good as he always did. I gave him a smile and he smiled back as we went off to school.

Ok something was defiantly up! On Monday morning I woke up with express intention of trying to find out how Carlisle felt about me. But to do that I had to get him alone. I thought maybe I could do that while I was over at the Cullen house, but I never got to go Edward would always just insist that we stay at my house. And if I persisted that we go to his house he would just flash that dazzling smile at me that made me forget my argument. So then I started planning to go to the hospital right after school, but even then I was thwarted not only by Edward but by Alice as well. Alice loved to go shopping and she thought since I was a girl I must love it too. So Alice would show up and beg me to go shopping. She was so excited that I didn't have the heart to tell her no.

So on Friday night as Edward left right before my dad came home I was trying to figure out how Edward and Alice always seemed to know my plans and always had something else planned. I thought for a minute then it came to me! I was so stupid! How did I not figure it out before? Alice's visions! Edward told me that they could change based on someone's decisions. Which means when I planned before hand what I was going to do Alice's vision would change and Edward would see that through her mind and he would plan something else for me to do. But why would Edward want to keep me from Carlisle? Maybe there was something to my hope maybe Carlisle did have feelings for me.

I dared to hope, but I also knew that my decision had to be split second so that Alice and Edward would be to late to stop me. So I put the plans out of my mind for the time being and just waited for a time to present itself. It turns out that I didn't have to wait long. That Saturday afternoon Edward told me that the whole family was going hunting Saturday night and they would be back late so he wouldn't be staying with me. He apologized to me, but I told him it was fine and it was I had noticed his eyes were getting darker and he needed to feed. So at around seven o' clock I heard a knock at my door and as I went to open it I was swept up in a bone crushing hug by Emmett.

"Emmett…can't….breathe." I said as he squeezed me tighter.

"Oops sorry Bella" Emmett said as he snickered slightly.

I laughed along with him. Emmett was just so happy all the time (kind of like Alice) that is was hard not to laugh when he started. "So" Emmett said "are you going to let my brother coming hunting or are you going to make him stay home with Carlisle tonight?" He laughed again.

I fought to keep my face in a neutral expression so I wouldn't betray my elation at the fact that Carlisle would be home alone tonight. I looked back at Emmett with a mock serious expression and said "Emmett I will let him go on one condition" I said. Emmett cocked an eyebrow at me and I said "you have to promise me that you will not try to kill him if he gets in the way of your hunt." The last time they had gone hunting Edward got in Emmett's way and Emmett almost tore Edward's legs off.

"I will try not to hurt Edward" Emmett said with a huge smile on his face "but I make no promises" he finished as he gave me a wink. "C'mon bro" he said to Edward "say good-bye to your girl and lets get going." Emmett gave me a small hug and then ran out into the night.

Edward came up caressed my face and kissed me softly and then followed his brother out into the night. I waited five minutes to make sure he was gone and then I ran to my truck and took off to the Cullen house. I sped toward the house something I never do, but I knew that if Alice saw me going to their house Edward see it too and I knew he would try to stop me. When I got there I stayed in my truck for a few minutes to collect myself and to also gather up my courage to ask Carlisle how he feels about me. I got out of my truck and walked to the front door.

I took a beep breath and then knocked. Not even two seconds later the door opened and there was Carlisle in a pair of dark blue jeans and a regular black t shirt. I had never seen Carlisle is casual clothes and it made him look like the twenty-three year old he physically was. I looked at Carlisle's face and while he was surprised at my visit his wide smile also told me he was happy I was here.

"Bella please come in" he said wrapping me in a hug. Once again I felt the warmth spread through me and an electric current ran through me. As he released me he said "Edward and the others are not here they went on a hunt."

"I know" I said. "I came because I need to ask you a question and we needed to be alone."

"Ok" he said as he lead me to the couch in the living room and sat down "what is it you need to ask me."

I sat down beside him and started fidgeting unsure of how to ask "um….uh"

"Bella" Carlisle said "you can ask me anything and I will always answer you truthfully and will never judge you, because of what you ask."

I looked into his golden eyes and saw complete sincerity in his gaze and that gave me the courage to finally ask him. " I was wondering what or how you feel about me?" I said and looked anywhere but at him.

I heard him give a big sigh then he said "Bella look at me." I stayed still not willing to look at him. "Bella please look at me" he repeated. I looked up into his eyes. "Bella" he said "I told you I would be truthful and I will keep my word, but first I must ask you a question. Will you answer my question before you allow me to answer yours?"

I was confused, but I nodded. "Ok" Carlisle started as he took a breath. "Did Edward ever tell you about vampire mates?"

"Yes" I said "he told me about it a few days ago."

"What did he tell you?" Carlisle asked.

"Well he said that it was rare for vampires to find their true mates, but your family was lucky. Because Alice had found Jasper, Rosalie had found Emmett, you had found Esme, and he had found me."

"Anything else?" Carlisle asked.

"Yes" I said "Edward told me that when a vampire finds a mate they have this need to be around that person. There is a pull that both of them feel. He told me that's what he feels when he is around me."

"Do you feel the same way?" Carlisle asked worry slipping into his voice.

"No" I said. "Not around him. I asked him if we were mates why didn't I feel it and he said that it was because I wasn't a vampire."

Carlisle ran a hand through his hair and said quietly "that lying little….." he trailed off taking a few deep breaths to compose himself before he turned to me. "Edward lied to you Bella. Whether you were vampire or human you would feel it. It is true the feeling would be stronger if you were a vampire, but even as a human you would be able to feel it. He also lied about another thing."

"What?" I said.

"It is true that Alice and Jasper are mates as are Rosalie and Emmett" he said. "However, myself and Esme have never been mates."

Hope leaped into my chest as Carlisle said these words. He continued saying "Esme and I love each other but only as you would love a brother or a sister. We only put up a charade of being married. In fact" Carlisle continued with a smile "Esme is in Alaska visiting what we call our cousins, but who are actually other vegetarian vampires. While there she came across a young man who was dying and she found the strength to change him. When the young man Jason awoke he saw Esme and they both felt the mating pull." He smiled a small wistful smile.

We sat in silence for a few minutes. I was trying to sort through everything he had said. Then he broke the silence by saying "now Bella I believe you asked me a question and now I intend to answer and remember what I tell you is the truth."

I nodded ready to hear what ever he had to say whether it be good or bad. Carlisle cleared his throat grabbed both of my hands in his and said "Bella I love you I love you more than anything or anyone. I never knew I could feel a love like this. The force of it is so strong all you would have to do is say the word and I would move heaven and earth if you wanted me too. I love you and I will never stop and I believe in my soul that we are mates."

He stopped there I guess waiting for a response. I couldn't move or say anything. The only thing I could think was oh my god he LOVES me I wasn't imaging it. He does feel the same way I feel. This glorious man LOVES ME! Carlisle took my silence the wrong way.

"Oh my god" he said. "Why did I say that? I should have just kept my mouth shut. Bella I'm sorry I knew that it was to good to be true." He started mumbling under his breath so low that I couldn't understand what he was saying.

"Carlisle….Carlisle" I said trying to get attention so I could tell him how I felt but he was so focused on his ranting he didn't hear me. So I figured the best way to get his attention was to show him how I felt. I pulled his face to mine and pressed my lips to his kissing him. The shock coursed through me again once our lips touched. His eyes widened in shock then they closed as he responded to the kiss. Our lips molded together like they were made for each other. I felt the tip of his cold tongue trace my bottom lip asking for entrance and I gave it to him. When I needed air Carlisle pulled back smiled at me and brushed a strand of hair back form my face and said "I take it you feel the same way?"

I laughed and said "what do you think?" Carlisle smiled as crushed his lips to mine again. My hands went to tangle in Carlisle's golden hair as he cupped my face in both of his hands then dropped them to my waist. Kissing Carlisle was so different than kissing Edward. When ever I kissed Edward he was so careful, so restrained, so afraid and I never got to participate. They never made me feel so loved and so cherished. Carlisle kissing me made me feel that way. When Carlisle kissed me the kiss was so passionate, he wasn't afraid of hurting me and he let me kiss him back. We kept kissing so wrapped up in each other we didn't hear the others approaching. We only broke apart when we heard a growl and a voice roar out "WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON HERE?"

AN: ok there is chapter 7! Did ya love it? Hate it? Please leave me a review and let me know oh and if you want to see this chapter in Carlisle's POV let me know in a review.

AN2: if any of you guys are Pretty Little Liars fans I wrote a Ezra and Aria story called A Crime of Passion so if you guys would I would love if you would check it out! Thanks!