Finn's POV
Monday came around the corner quicker than I expected. I kept thinking about what happened at the park. With Sam. And this kiss. Gosh, I can't believe it actually happened. It felt so surreal. Going to school that day made me all excited. I never get excited for school. But getting to see Sam was the best part.
I walked downstairs, my mom and Burt left early for work. They left a pink box of doughnuts on the counter. Whenever they have to work early than expected, they leave doughnuts for breakfast. I grabbed two and went to the door. Kurt had already left for his morning coffee date with Blaine. With that said, I locked up the house and drove to school.
Millions of thoughts went through my head, I wondered how Sam was dealing with this, I wanted to know if he broke up with Quinn. Sam didn't deserve her, she treats him like utter crap. It's unfair to him that he has to stick in a relationship that's clearly going downhill. I just drove through the neighborhoods until I got to school. I saw all the kids walking to school. But one looked familiar. Blonde-messy hair. It was Sam. I pulled over to the side of the road.
"You want a ride?" I asked him.
He smiled and hopped in. He lived like 10 minutes away from the school so he'd always walk to and from school. He thanked me for giving him a ride to school. It was weird. We kissed like 2 days ago. I don't want to bring it up, but I kind of do. He just probably wants to avoid an awkward situation. I just kept my eyes on the road, making sure I don't hit any of the walkers.
"I had fun this weekend", he said.
I turned to him, he had a smile on his face, "I did too man. We should go to the park again sometime".
"I'd like that", he was staring at me. I couldn't help but smile to his response.
I pulled into the school parking lot, I parked near the back building. I pulled into a spot next to a big black truck. I unbuckled my seat belt while Sam did the same. We sat there for what felt like hours to what were only a few minutes.
"Did you mean what you said….at the park", Sam asked me.
I got confused, "What do you mean?"
He looked at me, forming a small smile on those luscious lips of his, "At the park, you told me, that you uh, that you love me".
It was no secret. Yes, I was in love with Sam. I had feelings for him that I've never had with Quinn or Rachel before. When we kissed, it was a feeling like no other, a good feeling actually. His lips were softer and smoother. Maybe it was because there was no sticky lip gloss and shit spread all over them. I just stayed silent.
Before I could say anything else, he leaned in to kiss me. Surprisingly, the second kiss was better than the first. It was more passionate. I tugged onto his shirt and deepened the kiss. We broke the kiss and we just stared at each other. This uncontrollable force brought our lips back together but this time it wasn't so passionate, the kiss got sloppy, allowing him to explore my mouth with his tongue and he allowed me the same. I dreamt about making out with Sam, but in my dreams, it was never this epic…and hot.
My brain started to fill up with thoughts, why is he kissing me if he's supposedly in love with Quinn. I then started to panic about the thought of people walking around my car who might suspect something weird. The kiss, make-out session if you will, ended. Sam's hair was messy, partly my fault from messing it up so much.
"That was….nice", I tried so hard not to smile.
Sam noticed that I was trying to hide my smile. He put his hand under my chin and lifted my head up slowly. "It's okay to smile. I mean, I am", he said.
I chuckled silently, "What does all this mean man".
His smile quickly faded and his face looked so serious, "Finn, I'm not going to lie to you and say that I'm not attracted you. I am. Since the day I saw you and the Glee Club sing in the courtyard, I felt so strongly for you".
Sam was such an amazing guy. No one really understands him like I do, I don't understand how he puts up with so much crap and all the teasing about him liking Comic Books and Action Figures, most guys are secretly into that one time or another. He's just so open about it.
"You still didn't answer my question. What does all this mean for us", I asked him again.
"What do you want this to mean?" he always had to ask me questions. I just simply wanted answers.
"Sam, I don't know if I've made this clear for you, but I want to be with you, and only you. Like I said, I'm done with girls", I told him.
"I know, I know, Finn. I want to be with you too, it's just complicated, with the whole Quinn situation and shit", he replied.
I didn't like arguing with him. Whenever we fought it caused a distance in our friendship, I didn't like fighting with him but we just needed to clear the air, "Quinn?" I asked him. I needed to know what we have together is serious. Not a fling, if he really wants to be with me, he needs to prove to me that he won't lead me on. "You still want to date Quinn? Why? She's awful to you".
He had a confused look on his face. "What makes you think that I still want to be with Quinn? Have you seen our relationship Finn? It's going downhill. I plan to break up with her soon".
"Then what is so confusing then?" I'm dumb and I don't know what he's so confused about.
"What's confusing is…us…I'm just confused about all of this", Sam's voice started to break and crack. I didn't know if he was going to start crying or not. "My parents, well, let alone my dad would probably kill me if he found out I was going out with another dude".
It never really occurred to me how the whole situation of me and Sam together would affect our parents. Sure my parents are accepting of Kurt and Blaine together. I know that they would still love me even if I am gay. But Sam's parents are different.
"I want to be with you Finn. You have to believe me on that part. I want to hold hands with you, I want to kiss you and I want to cuddle with you again. You just need to give me some time, okay", Sam said in all seriousness. If time was what he needed. I allowed him that option.
I smiled, giving him one small peck on the lips, "Okay, I'll give you some time. But I don't like being played and used", I informed him, "I want to hold hands, kiss and cuddle with you too. Just let me know when you're ready", I told him.
He nodded and we got out of my car and headed towards the school building. I wasn't expecting that conversation to happen at all. Sam was honest about how he felt; he was just scared of dealing with consequences of this whole situation. A familiar voice shouted out from nowhere. SAM! We both turned to see Quinn behind us. She gave him a small kiss on the cheek and shared what was supposed to be a friendly sincere smile. But there was more to it. The 10 minute bell rang and students started walking inside the school.
"I should get to class, I'll see you guys later", Sam said, he gave Quinn and small hug and fist bumped me before he left.
It was only me and Quinn together. Like always, it was awkward. "Well, I should get going. Don't want to be late for Spanish", I said.
"Hold on a second Finn", she grabbed my arm and pulled me back into her direction. "You might think no one knows your little secret. But newsflash I do", she said.
Damn, she always knows everything. I hated that about her. But then again, what makes her think she knows I'm gay. "I don't know what you're talking about".
"Just drop it, you don't think I see you staring and drooling over him", she hushed her voice. She was nice about keeping my so-called-secret, a secret.
"I still don't know what you're talking about", I lied to her.
"DON'T ACT LIKE YOU DON'T KNOW", she was getting furious, and let's face it, and nobody likes scary Quinn. "I'm asking you as nicely as I possibly can, leave Sam, ALONE!"
She walked away acting like nothing happened. Still to this day, I don't know what I ever saw in her. I don't even understand what Sam sees in her. She's bossy, needy. Not a good quality in a girl. I walked to class, trying to forget about our confrontation. I had nothing to worry about. Right? God, I hope so.