Previously on 'It wouldn't let you out'

Bella POV

I couldnt believe what Rose was saying but i was more than happy for her that she was able to move on! Although it made me feel violently sick that he did that to her! I could only count my blessings that he never did anything to me to that extent!

His beatings seemed like nothing compared to what she went through! I could take it! All i cared was that my big sister, my role model was back in my life! I was so so happy!!

When she asked us to forgive her i though she was insane, her asking us for forgiveness! was she mad? Of course she was forgiven, there was no doubt in my mind, i looked up to Jake and could see the same feelings in his eyes that i felt so i went ahead and spoke for the two of us!

"Of course we forgive you! How could we not! Your our sister" i said suprisingly calm, i wonder if it was Jasper controlling my emotions? I will have to ask Edward later.

Jake then spoke, "We still love you Rose!" I pulled all of us into a hug and we stood there for a good 15 minutes just being together again!

Rose then asked me about my bruises! I froze.... CRAP!

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down.

Face down in the dirt, she said,
this doesn't hurt, she said,
I finally had enough.

Bella POV

Rose and everyone else just stared at me, waiting for an answer! Why didnt they ask Jacob? He lived at the house too! ... Ugh...why did i have to have all of the bruises! Wasnt Charlie beating me to a pulp enough! Why did i have to retell it to everyone now!

Also infront of my boyfriend, brother and long lost sister! =[ this was not going to be good!

"They are nothing, i walked into a lamp post and hit my head which explains the bruises." I lied through my teeth

"Bella, you told me that you fell down stairs!" CRAP i did, didnt i...ehhhh...."And i know thats not the truth, espicially after what Rosalie just told us so please love! Tell us so we can help!" He kissed my cheek, and gave me an encouraging/comforting squeeze!

"I..I.."

"Bella, its ok! Dont worry, it honestly helps to speak about it! We can help! forget about everyone else! Just look at me! Tell me!" And thats what i did, i looked her in the eye and told her, forgetting about everyone else, even though they never left. I could still feel Edwards arms around me though! I never wanted them to leave!

"Ok, it s-started after you were taken from us Rose! You never came back from the hospital! Dad never properly told us what had happened! He had carried on drinking as he did after mum died.

Jake started drinking too! He wasnt home alot" I didnt want to say to much because he was sitting in the same room, listening to what i had to say!

"Most of the time i didnt know where he was! But Charlie couldnt control his anger, he was drunk and couldn't control his emotions so he decided to beat me! It started off with just him hitting me but it got worse!

I really dont want to go into too much detail so i will give you a brief overview of what he did! ... He hit me, slapped me, kicked me, occasionally poured scalding water over me and pushed me into walls or down the stairs a couple of times! He still does those things today but its been ok because he his away!"

"Did he ever..." Rosalie started but i knew where this was going so inturrupted her! I could see everyone tense up! Edward stiffened right up behind me! I stroked him arm, trying to relax her.

"NO! NO NO NOO NOOO! Never!" I said quickly, i could feel Edward relax slightly.

"A normal nights routine included..." I remembered my dreams of those nights...

*FLASHBACK*

He ran at me at full speed. I was too weak and weary to move.
My energy - gone. I didnt have the strength to keep fighting him, i gave up, i stopped fighting. Hoping it would be over soon!

He stormed over to me, *slap* a slap across the face

*smack* a blow to the arm

*kick* crack *kick* two to the stomach, i was also sure that crack may have been a rib

Tears had surpassed me now, I gave up, I gave up the hope of him stopping.

'It will all be over soon, he cant do this all night' I repeated to myself, over and over. Trying to find the remote ounce of comfort such words could bring, nothing was happening.

Hope was all i could do now! Hope that he would stop. He had made me loose every emotion/feeling that i once had. Happiness - gone, joy disappeared a long time ago, laughter was a thing of the past. Even anger and sadness were gone. The only thing i was left with was 'hope'. Weird i know but i remembered what my mother used to tell me..
"You can live a few weeks without food,
a few days without water,
a few minutes without air
but only seconds without hope.
Hope is indeed essential for life, for living
not just surviving or existing"

i kept repeating the last 3 lines in my head. when he was like this, i remembered these words from my mother. It was almost as if she was trying to prepare me for what i was going to face when i grew up. But no - how could she - how did she know that she was going to die, my brother was going to turn to drink and that my father, her husband was going to take his sadness, his grief and despair out on me! NO - she couldnt have known. I thought more alone this line of thought as my father, my once loving father beat me into a pulp. I didnt know what state my body was in now and didnt want to!

After a couple of more hits to the face and another few blows to the stomach, he turned and left my lying on the floor, bleeding to weak to cry! I couldn't move, he just walked away into his bedroom to get ready for bed. I could swear he mumbled "that'll teach you to be late for dinner" as he walked away but due to my semi conscious state I couldn't be sure.

I just learnt to deal with it all! It became routine!"

Rose had tears in her eyes! Jacob looked like he was going to kill somebody, Esme and Alice looked like they would be crying if they were able to and Edward had a face like thunder, but was trying to conceal it! the other boys' faces were stunned into shock just like before!

Edward got up and ran at full speed out of the house! ... CRAP!!!

Hey guys!

what you think! PLEASE PLEASE REVIEW!!
OOO where is Edward going??? i want to know your thoughts! also ANY suggestions are welcome!!! =]=]=]

remember ( =] ) or ( =[ )

thanks to all who have been reviewing! KEEP IT UP!!!

Emma xx