A/N: Sorry i haven't updated in ageessss, my only exuse is exams :l Only a short chapter today but i promise after my exams which finish in like 2 and a bit weeks there will be loads more chapters :) xox

No one knew.

It was talked about in the town where ever I went.

"It's so horrible"

"I can't believe a bear would just attack him like that"

A bear. That's what they were told. A bear. This was about the boy who had already won the games and was preparing for another. How could anyone be so blind? Only me, Gale, My mother, Haymich and Cinna knew the truth, and Snow of course.

I can't believe he's gone.

I shouldn't be mad at Gale, it was self-defence really. But I can't help it. He took away one of the most important people in my life. He hasn't spoken to me at all.

Today's the day. I wake up from another nightmare, sweat dripping from my forehead, and reach over the bed to find it's empty. Again. It always will be.

I trudge downstairs and grab some toast before making my way to the meadow. I just stand there, in the same place I stood when I saw him leave me. In the same place where I saw him die. Eventually I sit down and curl into a ball, rocking myself back and forth. Haymich comes and picks me up, no sarcasm flowing from his mouth for once. He carries me home and hands me to my mother who lays me down on the sofa.

I fall asleep again, I forget what happens in my dream but I wake up with Effie's voice, 'it's going to be a big, big day!' ringing in my ears. But no, Effie's gone as well, I made that happen. I am the reason she's not here. I am the reason Peeta's not here.

Haymich is taking Peeta's place in the games, which means we have no one to sort out our sponser gifts. We were allowed to choose one person. Cinna was chosen almost automatically.

My mother comes in with a steaming mug of hot coco, I drink it quickly not caring that it's burning my throat.

Gale and Haymich turn up at the door and I get up, knowing it's time to go. I walk into the hallway and see Gale for the first time since that day. His eyes have sunken into his head and it looks like he hasn't shaven, his mouth is turned down in a frown and his shoulders slump forward. I look away.

We leave the house silently and walk to the train station, there are cameras everywhere but I try to ignore them and just take Prim's hand. As soon as we are on the train Gale stalks off to his room and me and Prim go and sit on the sofa where the waiter brings us both large mugs of hot coco. Haymich has gone somewhere, probably to find some liquor.

As the train starts moving I think,

I still can't believe he's gone.

A/N: Again so sorry it's late... R&R :) xox