Blaine tried to do as Kurt ask and just let him go but he couldn't. Instead he spent the next week and a half drunk and cutting his arm up. His fellow glee club members noticed that he was withdrawing into himself but they did not know what to do to help. They knew that Blaine cheated on Kurt and the old members of new directions were mad at him for it but they also were Blaine's friend as well and did not want to see him hurting the way that he was.
Blaine didn't know but Finn had called Kurt and informed him of Blaine's spiral downfall. Kurt did not want Blaine to do this to himself but he was still angry and upset. Kurt had not intended to contact Blaine anymore but he felt responsible because he knew that the last recording he had sent was harsh.
That was why two weeks later, when Blaine arrived home, there was a new package from Kurt. Blaine had nothing else to lose so he went and played the latest cd, preparing himself for some more harsh reality of how much of a failure and slut he was.
"Finn called me and told me that you are falling apart, I know the last message I sent was a tad bit harsh. Okay it was really harsh but I was so upset and I wanted to make you hurt the way that you made me hurt. I have been falling apart over here Blaine. I need you and I want you but I can't let myself fall for you again.
Please take care of yourself and stop self hating yourself. I do not regret the time we spent together. I sent you that promise ring back because it is filled with empty promises as I said. Who knows if there will ever be a chance for you and I in the future. The only person that knows what the future holds is Time. Time will tell all. I don't have long. I am going to a company party tonight. I will talk to you later Blaine. Even though I am still extremely hurt by your actions I will always be here for you. I may not answer my phone for you but I do listen to your messages.
Again, take care and know that no matter what I will always carry you in my heart."
Blaine cried when he hear that. He knew that he was losing himself and his mind but without Kurt he just did not care. Hearing Kurt say that he still loved him and that he was in his heart made him fill with hope again.
Kurt's latest song started.
Give me one reason to stay here
And I'll turn right back around
Give me one reason to stay here
And I'll turn right back around
Because I don't want leave you lonely
But you got to make me change my mind
Kurt wanted one reason from Blaine to stay. Just one reason that was not "I love you". With all the broken promises and Blaine's I love you not meaning much he needed something. Blaine didn't know what the one reason was that he could give him.
Baby I got your number and I know that you got mine
But you know that I called you, I called too many times
You can call me baby, you can call me anytime
But you got to call me
Kurt told Blaine that he could call him and Blaine knew that Kurt meant it. Kurt was one of the most honest and truthful people that Blaine ever knew and he was starting to really see that he did not deserve Kurt.
Give me one reason to stay here
And I'll turn right back around
Give me one reason to stay here
And I'll turn right back around
Because I don't want leave you lonely
But you got to make me change my mind
Blaine needed to come up with one reason and no matter how much he racked his brain he couldn't come up with one that Kurt hadn't already heard from him.
I don't want no one to squeeze me, they might take away my life
I don't want no one to squeeze me, they might take away my life
I just want someone to hold me and right me through the night
Blaine wished that he had held Kurt the last night that they were together and never let go. Instead he laid on the opposite side of the bed while Kurt cried through the night. Hat kind of person did that. Kurt had been his best friend to start. Blaine was a lousy boyfriend and best friend.
This youthful heart can love you and give you what you need
This youthful heart can love you and give you what you need
But I'm too old to go chasing around
Wasting my precious energy
Kurt always gave Blaine what he needed. Blaine was just selfish kept wanting more and more. He knew that Kurt had left because he had told him too. Blaine was the one that told Kurt he needed to get out of Lima and then when Kurt was gone, Blaine wished he had made him stay.
Give me one reason to stay here
And I'll turn right back around
Give me one reason to stay here
And I'll turn right back around
But I don't want leave you lonely
But you got to make me change my mind
Baby just give me one reason, Give me just one reason why
Baby just give me one reason, Give me just one reason why
Because I told you that I love you
And there ain't no more to say
The song ended and Blaine sat one his bed for once, not crying, drinking or cutting. He was so deep in thought trying to figure out what the one reason was that he was going to give to Kurt. After 45 minutes of sitting there he came up with his answer. Blaine grabbed his cell phone and called Kurt's voicemail.
"I have one reason and that is because I need you. I need you to keep my grounded, I need you to keep my sanity. I need you to just be with me. With that said, I know that it is selfish and I have hurt you so badly. I have been on a downward spiral, as Finn has told you. I don't have you to save my life anymore and it is killing me knowing that it is my fault that you are not here with me anymore. I was weak and selfish and just an asshole.
I knew that you were busy but I couldn't accept not having all of your time. I know that I do not have the right to your time anymore so I am releasing you. I want you to be happy Kurt and I want you to be everything that you are going to be. You can't hold on to someone who has done you wrong the way that I have. My new reason for you to stay is friendship. We were friends before and I am hoping that if I can't have you as a boyfriend then maybe I can have you as a friend.
I love you Kurt. I love you more than I love myself but I can not be selfish with you anymore. I need to leave you be. Go out and enjoy the world Kurt. Go achieve greatness and take the world by storm. While you are doing that, know that I will be in your corner. Please don't ever forget me. I will always, always love you. I told you before that you are the love of my life and I meant it."
Blaine hung up the phone and started to cry. That had been one of the hardest things he ever had to do in his life.
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A/N- There are two songs left before the sequel. The song used was Give me on reason by Tracy Chapman. I was at my clients house and was playing the cd when I made the decision to use it.
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