LOOOOOOOOOOONG CHAPTER (8K+ words)
Hey guys! Snow storms have been pretty bad here so I haven't been able to upload this chapter. It really was heart wrenching for me to type out. Hope the last chapter didn't confuse you too much. This should clear stuff up a bit.
Disclaimer: I do not own the absolutely magnificent Ed Edd n Eddy. {{Also smut this chapter! /marked with xxx/}}
Two songs mentioned in this chapter are: Ecstasy - ATB & Rosemary - Deftones.
No beta, all mistakes are mine ~
Kevin POV
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Kevin pulled the blanket up over his head more, the loud pounding at the door awakening him from his sleep. He grumbled, hearing Phillip opening the main door and screaming immediately happening. He sighed even harder, throwing the blanket off of his head and groaning loudly. The screaming became louder and closer to his room door. He looked over, seeing the man he shared his room with snoring happily. Reluctantly he sat up, his feet heavily thumping as he scratched a bare chest.
"Phillip what the fuck gives?!" Kevin groaned loudly. Instead he was greeted with a not so friendly response from the last person he expected.
"KEVIN BARR! YOU FUCKING PRICK!"
The redhead felt a big glob of spit hit him on the forehead, his eyes shooting open as he wiped the glob away. He saw a frantic Phillip holding back an incredibly squirming Coco. The small tanned boy was screaming profanities, his usually neatly made-up white hair a mess, and the thick eyeliner streaming down his face from the amount of tears he had apparently cried. "Coco stop it, you don't know what you're getting yourself into," Phillip tried to plead.
"Like hell I will!"
"Phil what is that idiot even doing here?" he wiped his hand disgustedly onto his sleep shorts and gritted his teeth.
"Don't act like you don't know Kevin! Tell me where Edd is!"
"Edd?" he looked to him room mate who just shrugged and sat the smaller boy down.
"Yes Edd!"
Kevin looked at the two, trying to take in the words. Edd was... missing? But how? The kid never left anywhere without leaving a note or a text. It had always been part of his OCD regimen. It didn't make any sense.
"Kevin! For christ's sake, the least you could do is pay attention!"
He shook his head, running a hand through messy red locks and looked at the small man before him. He crossed his arm, leaning on the door pane. "I am paying attention. You said Edd was missing, but how do you know that? The kid is too OCD to not let anybody know where he is at all times. Have you checked all the classrooms? The coffee shop? Desmond's dorm?" Coco just replied by wiping his face clean and sighed. "Yes of course I have! I checked everywhere before I came here. Do you really think I would come to you for a first response? Desmond is gone too. He room is completely cleaned out. Just," he pinched the bridge of his nose," please believe me. When I went back to the room this morning everything had been put back into place. Every little single thing. Which I didn't think was out of the norm for somebody like him... but then I tried to call him and it said his phone had been turned off. Turned the fuck off Kevin. Tell me how that makes any sense?"
Edd POV
The warm breeze hit his face and he opened his eyes. The image was blurred, and he rubbed his eyes, his hands feeling bare. He looked down to see the gloves removed and his light blue shoes from his childhood on his feet. In the background he could hear an old song he had almost forgotten about blaring along with the laughter of childhood friends emitting in great quantities. A small hand reached out and clasped Edd's, taking his attention as he looked at the highlighter green sleeve. "Hey dork, did you hear what I said?" Edd flinched at the voice and looked up at a red faced Kevin.
"I'm sorry Kevin, I seemed to have lost my train of thought. Would you repeat what you had said?"
Kevin frowned, gulping in nervousness and gripping Edd's tight. "I... I said I like you too.. dork."
/./././././././
Edd was thrown onto the ground hard. He let out a yelp of pain and looked down at the pool of blood beside him. A throbbing pain came from his arm. He slowly lifted it, seeing the obvious break to his left wrist, bruises and bloody knuckles littering his arms, the black dress shirt covering him tattered for an unknown reason.
"I told you to leave my boyfriend alone!" he heard Kevin screaming and turned his head to see two teenagers quarelling, both incredibly beat looking. 'Peach Creek High Presents the Fall Formal' hung on a banner in big orange letters. Kids could be heard in the background close to the school. For some reason though Kevin, Edd, and... he squinted. It was Phil. Kevin's long time best friend. Except. From the looks of it they were from college aged. So why was Edd remembering this? This wasn't even the way this memory had happened. Kevin was the one who had hurt Edd that night, not Phil. It's was the first night that they had.. they had messed around. This was a memory he would never be able to forget. Yet it seemed that he was. Kevin had called Edd his boyfriend, yet the memory he had of this night recalled other. So what was going on?
Edd watched in horror as the two teens took jabs at one another, screaming for help until two authority figures came over and broke the fight up, pulling the growling men from one another. Kevin looked at him, his blooded face in a crooked smile as he mouthed the words 'I love you' and was taken off. Edd could hear the ambulance coming as he clutched his arm for dear life. His heart pounded in his chest. Kevin? Telling me that he loved me at the fall formal? God I need to stop drinking before I go to bed.
/./././././././
"Hey Edd, what do you want to eat?" Kevin grinned at him. The obvious signs of the fight not long before still lingered on his face. His lip was split on the left side, with a blackened eye to accompany it. He reached a hand across, grabbing Edd's hand on the table. Edd looked down, seeing a local Peach Creek burger joint's menu opened in front of him. His left arm was wrapped and in a bright green sling. Just like Kevin's shirt... he noted, and stared over at the hand covering his. Kevin's knuckles were scabbed over and heavily bruised.
"So what'll it be?"
The ravenette looked up at Nazz, seeing the girl smile and hold onto the little notepad, tapping her pencil against it. "I'll have the usual, and uh..,"Kevin looked at Edd for a moment and then back up at the blonde," Edd will have the veggie burger." Nazz nodded and gave a little be right up before exiting to the next table.
Edd immediately looked at Kevin and squinted his eyes hard. "Kevin what in the world are you doing?! Nazz just saw us!"
Kevin raised an orange brow and sipped at his Coke," yeah so?"
"So? Kevin that's your girlfriend!"
"Woah woah woah Edd. Are you not feeling well again?" he picked up his hand from Edd's and placed it on the pale forehead to check his temperature.
Edd shook away from his hand, causing Kevin to give him a pained expression.
"What? Am I not allowed to touch my boyfriend in public anymore? Didn't realize we were 13 again." There it was again. The thing that hadn't fit. Kevin had called Edd his boyfriend again. Never in his nineteen years of life had Kevin once called what they had anything close to a relationship. So why now? Edd looked to the window, getting a view of his reflection. Other than the broken nose and bruises he could tell he was in middle school attire. The maroon shirt giving away the obvious. Ugh, how dreadful.
"Here you go boys!" Nazz sang happily and plopped their plates down. Kevin gave Edd a worried expression and hesitantly picked up his burger, thanking the girl. Edd looked down at his plate. This was a meal he knew he was going to enjoy, except that it was never a meal he had enjoyed with Kevin. It was something cheap he would eat with the two other Eds. Well, that was before Kevin had chased them away on his sixteenth birthday.
"Kevin how old am I?"
"You're fifteen Edd, what's with all these weird questions? We seriously can leave it you aren't feeling alright. I know Phil messed you up pretty bad."
/./././././././
"Surprise!" Everybody yelled and jumped as the light flicked on. Edd looked around in shock. All of his old friends from the cul-de-sac stood around him in a circle with party hats on. In big red letters "Happy 17th Birthday Edd" screamed out on a banner in the old living room at his parent's house. A warm hand pressed on his shoulder and he jumped. Edd turned to see a teal haired man smiling at him.
"Hey Double Cutie, happy birthday. I know Kev has been planning this for a while. Try enjoying yourself for me? I know what happened with Phil was pretty traumatic, but don't worry... none of us think any different of you. Even with your new features," the man nodded and walked into the bustling crowd.
Edd raised a brow and quickly spotted Kevin, making his way to him. Kevin smiled, waving Nazz away before wrapping an arm around the smaller teen. "Hey babe, how did everything go today? Your hand looks better." Kevin set down his drink and used his free hand to take Edd's left, holding it up. The ravenette's eye widen. Instead of the fleshy hand he was used to, a stiff looking metal prosthetic was in place of it. He quickly looked up at Kevin.
"Kevin. Kevin what happened to my hand?"
Before Kevin could answer, Ed waddled up to him, running in place with excitement as he helf up a poorly wrapped present with a big pink bow. "Oh open it up Double D! Oh please! Ed worked hard to get this for you!"
Edd was taken aback as the shorter blue haired teen came in behind him, hands in pockets as always with his front long hair slicked back," just open the damn thing Edd, lumpy has been bugging me all day about this." he rolled his eyes, giving his signature groan of annoyance.
Kevin smiled, nudging him as he took the tiny present and opened it up, two metal silver tags staring at him. One imprented with an M and the other a F. Edd smiled, Kevin pulling them out and putting them around his neck," why thank you Ed. I really do like them. But I have to ask, what do they stand for?"
"For mother and father Double D! Don't you remember? You told Eddy and I we were like your parents because-"
"What moron over here is trying to say is that since you don't have your parents anymore we thought we would both chip in for these. We both know how the last couple of years have been on you after Phil and the deaths. We were lucky enough to have them made with some of the ashes from the urns or whatnot."
Edd turned them around, seeing the signature grey ash in the back of them. My parents are.. dead? Oh dear. It was true, that was one thing that for some reason hadn't changed in the delusions that Edd had. In all reality his parents had passed away shortly after he had confessed his love for Kevin when he was just a child. For some reason he thought things might have been different in this delusion. The only remnants he had of a mother and father back at Peach Creek were the sticky notes he had constantly recycled and moved around to remind himself of what his parents would have wanted. He had been alone most of his life, but it seemed this side of him had his parents for at least around seventeen years.
"Phil?"
All three of them looked at him nervously as if the subject was going to kill them to talk about.
"Yeah Edd, Phil. Don't you remember?" Kevin asked quietly.
Edd hesitated before he shook his head no," I get hazy sometimes.. remember?" he lied, but had remembered Kevin mentioning that he felt sick often in his last 'memory'. "Would you please enlighten me on my hand, parents, and Phil?"
The two other Eds looked at Kevin but he just shrugged and wrapped an arm around Edd, taking him to the couches away from the biggest part of the party. The redhead sighed and swallowed hard, looking away for a long moment and then back with a worried expression on his face," well.. I guess where to start? I really wish your memory was better.. some of this is very. Terrible." he squeaked out," your parents passed soon after the fall formal incident. They were involved in a plane accident on their way to America. Luckily they had saved money over the years for you to be able to go to college and live comfortably afterwards. Don't you remember us looking at schools last month? Oh Edd..." Kevin reached out, stroking a cheek that whined with pain. He recoiled his hand, his eyes pleading," right. Sorry. I forgot the scar still hurts. Uh... Phil, yeah. He had been expelled after the formal and kept trying to get to you for the last four years, and well." Kevin lifted Edd's metal hand," all we really know is that he was trying to, uhm.. to take advantage of you as payback for dating me." Kevin's face became pained and his voice becoming shaking," you fought back though, or else you wouldn't be here with us right now. That's how you lost your hand. He had you tied up for a few weeks before anybody thought to look at his house, since he moved towns and all, ya know?" Kevin looked at Edd for a response but didn't receive anything. It was a lot for the teen to take in," well, er, I guess by the time they found you most of your left arm was too far gone to save. After the previous injures four years ago your arm was pretty weak and this left your body without a way to really heal it. You were pretty down for a while about it and didn't really talk to anybody except me. I was the one who convinced you to go out and get the prosthetic so you would start living life like you wanted."
Edd didn't know what to say. He could only stare, before taking his fleshy arm and pulling Kevin in for a big sloppy kiss. He knew it wasn't real but he didn't want to give this up. According to his delusional version of Kevin the man had been with him for at least eight years. Through thick and thin. Kevin was the one to pull away, giving him a worried expression," Edd," he whispered as lowly as he could embarrassment clearly showing," I told you I'm not ready for something physical.. I know it's your birthday, but I'm not ready."
Edd furrowed his brows, pulling away in confusion. What was Kevin talking about? What he knew to be the actual truth was that Kevin had received Edd's V-card years previous. "Wait so, I'm seventeen and you're almost eighteen and we've been dating for, uh.."
"Officially five years." Five, why only five if it had been eight since they had both confessed? Anyways, this wasn't his biggest worry. He had never dated the actual Kevin in the first place.
"Yeah, five years... and we," Edd looked around, leaning in and whispering," we haven't had sex or anything?"
Kevin blushed a bright red, laying back against the love seat and folding his arms over his chest in a pouting motion," no. We haven't done anything. I'm just not ready. I know you have been for a while but I just can't force myself to feel ready Edd." he got a pleading frown from the jock. Edd placed his metal hand over Kevin's, giving a gapped tooth grin.
"Kevin I am relieved you feel that way. I love you."
/./././././././
"I still can't believe you wanted to do this Edd, I told you that we didn't have to get matching ones," Kevin smiled and stood behind Edd in the mirror of the tattoo parlor," besides. Don't you already have enough?"
Edd looked down at the fresh pain in his hip bone, smiling to see a calligraphy styled 'K' adorning the porcelain skin. Better than a self made scar any day. Too bad it isn't real. 'Don't you already have enough?' rang in his head and he quickly searched his body over, seeing the once metal arm was nowhere to be seen and instead only half of his upper arm that had managed to be saved was left. The skin on it had been completely covered in black ink to the point where he would have never known he possessed two limbs if he hadn't looked hard enough. He held up the blackened arm and studied it. Kevin held up a hand, pulling his arm back and placing a kiss on the shoulder. "It doesn't make you any less of a person Edd. I still love you, we all do."
Edd looked down at the shorter man, a Peach Creek letter man jacket hung around his arms. "Do you mean it?"
"That I love you? Of course I do Edd, I have ever since the first time that I said it," he interlaced his finger's with Edd's," l will always love you Edd. I wouldn't have gotten this if I didn't." The ginger held up a wrist, a piece of transparent plastic wrap clung to it, with a dark 'E' showing through.
"Good," Edd tugged on his wrist and brought him closer for a passionate kiss, Kevin pulling away as he had at Edd's seventeenth party.
"Edd! I'm still not ready," Kevin hissed and backed away, grabbing Edd's red shirt and helping him put it on over his black skinny jeans.
"I understand Kevin," he reached out his hand after being helped to put on a thichk black hooded sweatshirt and his dogs tags. "Just as long as I get to be your.. first this time."
"This time? What the hell are you talking about? I haven't had a first time?" Kevin's freckled face contorting in confusion as he tied of the left sleeve for Edd to keep it from moving around.
Edd embraced him best as he could, holding Kevin in place until the lady at the front desk cleared her throat. "Oh, right, sorry." He let go of the ginger and grabbed his hand, quickly exiting the shop and looking out at the bustling city. He recognized it as good old downtown Peach Creek. "Kevin?" he looked down at the boy who gave him a curious look at his actions in the last few minutes.
"Yeah D?"
"I'm 18, right?"
"Uh, yeah. Did you forget that it's your birthday again? I'm getting really scared how bad your memory has become babe. I think you should go back to the doctor."
Edd quickly shook his head and earned a sigh from Kevin. "Let's just go back to the hotel until dinner. Might as well enjoy the rest of the day since we got out of the parlor quicker than we thought." The ginger produced his keys, tugging Edd's hand with them until they reached a tiny parking lot around the block and Kevin hit the unlock button. The lights of a red sports car flashing in response. So he had given his bike up? Maybe I shouldn't ask?..
Either way Edd got into the car and did his best to not struggle while buckling in, insisting that Kevin not help him with the metal device. The jock shook his head and turned the key, sending the engine to life. Edd gripped onto his seat belt for life. A tanned hand quickly shot over and turned the knob on the stereo up, emitting soothing music. "Relax babe, I promise you won't get hurt. It's barely a five minute drive." Edd nodded, closing his eyes and laying his head back.
"Oh hey, it's our song." Kevin happily sang and turned the stereo up, the music booming loudly with the system. Edd curiously listened in.
Have you ever noticed,
That I'm not acting as I used to do before?
Have you ever wondered,
Why I always keep on coming back for more?
What have you done to me,
I'll never be the same I'll tell you for sure,
I'll never be the same I'll tell you for sure,
I'll never be the same I'll tell you for sure,
You really are my ecstasy,
My real life fantasy,
My real life fantasy,
I wonder who chose this song? He opened his eyes and looked over to see Kevin happily singing along with the song, Edd could tell by his body language that he was getting more and more into the song.
Not that I'm complaining,
A more beautiful vision - I have never seen
If you don't mind me saying,
A lifelong ambition to fulfill my dream
What have you done to me,
I'll never be the same I'll tell you for sure
I'll never be the same I'll tell you for sure
I'll never be the same I'll tell you for sure
You really are my ecstasy,
My real life fantasy, oh yeah
Edd found it incredibly cute that Kevin was getting so into something. Who he saw Kevin as now was definitely a breather from the Kevin he knew to be true and way less loving and affectionate than the Kevin this version of him had apparently an infatuation with. Edd gripped the seat belt harder. If he had met this Kevin would he have also fallen in love with him?
You really are my ecstasy,
My real life fantasy, oh yeah,
(There can be no other While we still have each other)
(There can be no other,
While we still have each other)
You really are my ecstasy,
(There can be no other,
While we still have each other)
My real life fantasy, oh yeah
The song finished out and Kevin reached over to turn the volume down, noticing that Edd had been staring at him. His face turned bright red and he gripped onto the wheel, trying to his his face. "Jesus dweeb, you know it embarrasses me when you watch me do that."
"I'm sorry Kevin, you're just so.. handsome when you get into it," Edd smirked, giving the sentence an underlying meaning. It was true that even though he didn't know how this Kevin had looked in the situation, but he did know how... how the Kevin he knew would look in the situation. Even if it had never been romantic, Edd couldn't dent that it had been attractive to him.
"Oh my god Edd! Have you been looking in my window again?"
The ravenette busted into laughter, covering his stomach with his arm and looking out the window as they pulled into their hotel. Kevin parked and helped the tall man out of the car, locking it quickly. Kevin looked at him and shook his head, giving the silent treatment as they made their way into the lobby and up the elevator to their room. Kevin pulled out the key card and silently swiped it, a beep opening the door. Strange, it sounds a lot like the campus alert tone... Edd shook his head and entered in after Kevin. Kevin sighed as the door closed and plopped down onto one of the double beds.
"Kevin?"
"Yeah D?" he sounds agitated.
"Why are there two beds? Don't you sleep with me?"
Kevin looked over at him curiously," Edd... you are the one who suggested two beds? You usually freak out and have night terrors when I sleep with you."
"I... do?"
"Edd, you seriously need to go back to the doctor. The lack of your memory scares me."
The ravenette shook his head and made his way over to the bed next to Kevin, putting his arm under his sweater in an attempt to take it off. He grunted and bit at the fabric, before it was caught in the gap of his teeth and he had to use his tongue to wiggle it out. "You know I usually help you with that Edd." Edd looked up, Kevin staring at him flushed in... anger? Or was that sadness? Edd nodded and watched as Kevin shakily reached out, tugging the black and red fabric off of his torso. The redhead looked away, biting at his lip as Edd raised a brow and asked," aren't you going to take the rest off? If we're dining I should be in optimal cleanliness."
Kevin shot a pleading face at him but went against himself and slowly removed the black pants after Edd had kicked off his boots. Kevin held onto the pants and tossed them behind them. "I think that is good enough Edd. You can do the rest yourself." Edd stared up at the redhead. He lifted his hand up and touched Kevin's cheek, making the redhead look at him. Edd gave him a sympathetic look. Kevin truly was scared to go any further with him. Had he done something to make him insecure? The cautiousness and uncertainty was something he had never been used to with the other Kevin. The Kevin he knew was a cocky bastard that would fuck almost anything with a heartbeat. He had learned that the hard way. This Kevin cared, he wanted Edd to feel okay, and Edd wanted to give him the same. He wanted to show him the love that he had felt for his Kevin. The one who he had dearly loved.
"I apologize Kevin, I didn't mean to inconvenience you."
Kevin looked him in the eyes, putting a calloused hand over Edd's and nodded, moving out of the way and quickly moving around the bathroom to put in clean towels and bottle soaps to help meat Edd's clean freak status. He sat up and walked into the bathroom, dropping his underwear and hearing a gasp. He frantically turned his head to see a red faced Kevin covering his mouth and backing up into the bathroom mirror.
"Oh uh Kevin. I'm sorry! I wasn't aware of your presence in the bathroom. I do apologize."
"Oh my god Edd! Cover yourself! Your big- I mean. Fuck. Just cover it and get in the shower already, okay?!"
"Kevin, sorry to burst that bubble of your's but I only have one hand, and unless you want to hold it for me I can't turn the shower on," Edd tried to stay serious but couldn't help the grin that formed on his face.
"I, I, Edd! But! So not choice," he groaned, and covered his face, his knees shaking. Edd sighed and walked over to the shaking boy curiously, his bare feet patting on the tiled floor. This Kevin still very much resembled the jock that he was used to. There was no doubt this one was still obsessed with being on a sports team or two. Yet... the personality was totally different. In no way did it resemble what Edd was used to. Sure he was used to the muscular build and jock like stature, but he wasn't used to the softness. The love that shone through with genuine care. The Kevin he knew always had a hardened expression with nothing but animosity towards Edd. This Kevin wanted nothing more than to make him happy. So was it so bad that he was enjoying the fact that the love he had buried deep down for his Kevin was suddenly back and bursting at it's seems?
"Kevin. Look at me," he stood in front of the jock. Arm extended to the wall over the jock's shoulder to block him into the bathroom corner.
The jock slowly peeled his hands away, the redness never leaving his face as his eyes shakily stared into the eyes of Eddward. To Edd he was a replication of the man he was used to be a completely alternate personality. To this Kevin he was more than anything itself. To Kevin he was a lover... a boyfriend. "Kevin are you scared to look at me?"
Kevin shook his head, placing his hands against Edd's chest.
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"Kiss me," he brought his head closer to barely leave a gap. He had no idea how long he would have in this memory, and if he could he wanted to give this Kevin the love he had always wanted to give his Kevin. "Please. I need you to Kevin. I need it.. to live. I need to feel it."
Kevin looked at him in an almost scared manner. He instantly smashed their lips together, hungrily swallowing Edd up in a daze. The raven had to remove his arm, wrapping it around Kevin's waist and pulling the smaller jock against him as he deepened the kiss. "I've missed you Kevin, I've missed the real you."
"The.. real.. me...?" Kevin managed between kisses. Edd nodded and ushered the jock over to the counter, helping him onto it with his arm. Kevin groaned in pleasure as Edd gently bit into his neck. Lucky me that I already know his spots. He licked the small earlobe, noticing a diamond stud in the cartilage, well that's new to me. Quickly Edd swallowed it, sucking at the hard skin. Kevin grabbed onto Edd's shoulders hard, his moans becoming deeper. The raven looked up, the mirror showing what he had always longed to see. Himself in control of a situation with Kevin, being able to express his affection properly.. not forcefully. He used his arm to remove the letter man and then the thin white v-neck Kevin had covering himself. The freckled man looked at him, his eyes hazy, his being vulnerable.
Edd reched into Kevin's letterman, spying the jack on the wall as he fished around on his iPhone and plugged it in, starting up music to cover the sounds. Seeing as the bathroom was located right by the door of the hotel room.
"Edd what the hell are you doing?" Kevin whined, his body starting to slowly shake as he gripped onto his pale boyfriend.
"Don't want it to sound like a murder is happening in here when things pick up do we? The other door is right there," he hitched his thumb and got a sigh of a response from Kevin. But before the redhead could retort, Edd snuck hard already undone Kevin's jeans and snaked a thumb into his pant loops. He pressed against the red head, Kevin's head gently tapping against the glass of the bathroom mirror as Edd yanked the jeans off in a swift motion.
Edd looked down at his prey, seeing the startled jock looking so vulnerable. So. So.. sexy. Edd blushed, wiping his hand across his face in embarrassment. Kevin's hand were slapped away as Edd's hand made it's way to the tight black cloth Kevin had chosen as briefs. "Edd, I." Kevin squealed as he felt the soft warm hand wrap itself inside of the cloth and around his warm shaft. Edd bit his lip and closed his eyes, resting his head onto a tanned shoulder. "Edd. I...I," Kevin attempted to say but couldn't help himself from choking as Edd slowly began to stroke him.
"You what baby?" he whispered," please tell me."
"Please I.. I can't stand denying it anymore. I want you Edd."
The swimmer stiffened his body, looking at his boyfriend for reassurance, receiving an approved nod and kissed him on the cheek. Kevin let out a shaky breath, tugging Edd's beanie from his head. Something that never had happened before. He had just used it to cover his mess of hair, but with the condition his body was in in this fantasy he could only imagine the horrors that were hidden beneath it. Kevin tossed it to the side and bit down into Edd's neck. Edd yelped, his grip tightening with each thrust. "Let me." Kevin hands traced his abdomen, lovingly tracing around the freshly inked 'K'. Soon after a hand had found it's way between Edd's legs. Yet another action that had him almost buckling his knees as he became shaky. He felt his eyes going shut, his stroking Kevin becoming faster as his desire grew. This was it. He was getting what he had wanted from Kevin in a sexual manner. To touch and be touched without disgust and violence afterwards.
"Edd.. please. Let's. Let's move to the bed. This is an awful place for us to have our first times," Kevin begged, running his hands through Edd's silken raven locks.
Kevin moved from the counter, leading the way to their bedroom. He closed the curtains and shut the light off. Edd was quick to follow, searching his black jeans for his wallet.
"Edd," Kevin said soothingly, holding up a small see through bottle and foil wrapper. Edd grinned and slowly made his way over to the bed from earlier. "Prepared I see Kevin." he planted a longing kiss on the fictional man. "Mmm, I knew it was going to happen tonight."
"Oh," he planted another kiss, causing Kevin to fall back onto the bed, completely exposed in the light of the tiny plug in coming from the hallway. "How is that?"
"You just," Kevin moaned loudly, bucking into the air as Edd sucked onto his toned hips making the swimmer laugh," been forgetting me more and more Edd. I uh," he squealed again feeling a warm tongue lick the already whetted tip of his cock," wanted to give you something you would have no excuse to forget. I want you to remember me when you go to school," another squeal, the raven slowly kissing at Kevin's thighs making it a point to tease him," I want you to remember who we are. That's why I've been holding out so long Edd. I wanted to make this moment a special one, not just another... uhn, another time!" The athlete squealed out as Edd placed lubricated fingers inside of him as preparation, slowly working them in and out.
"Does it hurt Kevin?"
The redhead tensed as he made a 'come here' motion with his fingers. Edd looked up at him curiously, his muscled abs extremely tensed as he made it again, Kevin eliciting an ear shattering scream. "Oh there it is," Edd grinned making notice of the location of Kevin's sweet spot. He put more pressure, the redhead practically tearing at the bed sheets.
"Please Edd, don't you're going to make me-!"
Edd slowed his paced, retracting his hand and wiping it onto the bed sheets in an attempt to rid himself from the germs he knew existed elsewhere. Maybe I shouldn't think about that, he gritted his teeth and looked down at his creation. Kevin's hands gripped the sheets hard enough his knuckled were white, his face was so red you could swear he had been choked. Edd's heart stopped, taking in what exactly was about to happen. He was no longer with the abusive jock of the real world. He was with a fragile man that loved him and was about to give himself to the one he had called his love. Edd was expected to make this a memorable moment, and he would be damned if he did any less. Quickly he motioned for Kevin to move over and lay beside him. Kevin didn't waste any time as he climbed on top of his boyfriend. Edd looked at him in surprise, resting his hand on top of Kevin's fire locks. He tugged gently, the red head closing his eyes and gasping in response. "Do you like that?" Kevin nodded.
"Good," he chuckled and repeatedly ran his long fingers through the shortened spiked of fire emitting from Kevin. "You're such a handsome man Kevin, I can't believe you would ever think a wretched soul like me could be fit to love somebody as pure and beautiful as you are."
"Don't say those things, Edd. I know Phil messed you up, but it has only made YOU more handsome. You've always been the same boyfriend to me, always the same Edd. If I didn't care about or love or how you felt don't you think I would have given this moment to somebody else? Like... Nazz?" the redhead gave him a look that said he knew how Edd was about to act, and he was right. Edd grit his teeth, a nasty habit he had picked up from the Kevin he knew was real. He had always been jealous of what Nazz and Kevin had, and he guessed the Edd this Kevin knew had felt the same way if not more strongly about it. "That's what I thought. Now shut up and make love to me already. I didn't think there would be this much talking involved or else I would have waited longer. Or would you like me to-"
"Shut up Kevin," Edd growled, tugging those red locks hard until he had Kevin's mouth swallowed into his, causing the redhead to drool as Edd suckled on his tongue, grabbing at his rear hard. "Before I turn this into a less loving and more territorial experience." In truth, it would never be that kind of experience with Edd. Coco was the only one who had let Edd have free roam to touch him and it had never been a rough experience. Edd just couldn't do it. No matter how angry Kevin could make him. "That's more like it shark bait," Kevin retorted with a chuckle. So I still swim? Hm.. interesting. Edd let out a feral growl, biting onto the soft pink lips in front of him. Kevin fished around beside him, trying to make it less noticeable as he grabbed the foil wrapper and sat it on Edd's chest ever-so-gently. Not, it was more like a you-better-fucking-use-this motion in which Edd was more than happy to abide by. He flipped the cap on the lube and wet his fingers again, slowly sliding his hand beneath Kevin to ready him yet again. If this was truly his first time it was going to take more than just one time to ready him for what was about to come.
"F-Fuck Edd," Kevin half said, half moaned out. "Jesus, you almost have me there already, this isn't fair. I demand... I demand that you have sex with me this instant Eddward Marion Vincent!" Kevin screeched and Edd just blushed," such a deamn Kevin Barr, and here today you acted as if a simple kiss would kill you from embarrassment." The gap showed in his teeth as he ripped the foil and gently tugged it onto himself, making sure to ass lube for a 'safer ride' he had said to Kevin. He held the redhead up with his only hand, gently laying the boy down onto the lubed tip. "Please.. please be careful," Kevin stuttered as he held his death grip onto Edd's shoulders, his face buried in the raven locks. Edd nudged his nose into Kevin's cheek, hearing him grunt in pain as Edd slowly but surely penetrated the innocence Kevin had desperately wanted him to take. "Fuck, Edd! It hurts like hell!" Kevin whined, tearing up against Edd's shoulder.
He sighed, stopping as Kevin took him down to the base," Kevin I promise it will be alright. You just need to relax, or else you won't enjoy it." Kevin nodded, taking deep breathes before giving Edd the go to start moving slowly in which he did. He held tightly onto Kevin's back, making sure that his thrusts weren't too rough. After a few minutes Kevin joined in and began moving his hips with Edd's motions, moans escaping his mouth. Edd gripped tighter, his nails threatening to break flesh as Kevin said," it's okay Edd, you can go faster." "Please Kevin... please tell me if I.. uhn, I.. fuck. If I hurt you Kevin."
"Shut up dork, and, and... and fuck, just go faster please? I've waited six years for this shit, and I want it now."
"Language, Kevin."
"Even during sex you are a prude. I shouldn't expect any less from you."
"No you shouldn't," Edd panted and dug his nails into Kevin's flesh. He wailed out in a mix of pain and pleasure, Edd thrust deeply inside of him, hitting his sweet spot over and over. Kevin feeling himself get closer and closer to the edge with each thrust. He dug into Edd's shoulder, shoving his teeth down hard and biting until the ravenette bucked wildly into him. "Kevin cease your actions unless you want me to cum already!" Kevin just responded with a growl, Edd reaching down to stroke his partner's length. By this time Kevin had driven Edd to the point of no return. The trail of love marks Kevin was leaving on his collar bone area made him want to bruise the boy even more.
"Fucking, goddammit Edd!" Kevin yelled, his body convulsing as he released himself onto Edd's newly inked hips, Edd quickly following behind. The raven grabbed Kevin's lips as he pulled out, pinning him into the tightest kiss of his life. It hadn't been much, but it was more than what his Kevin had ever given him.
"I love you Kevin," he whispered into his boyfriend's ear, hearing no response. After a long pause, Edd pulled his partner away, seeing a distraught Kevin desperately wiping away tears from his eyes. "Kevin what's wrong?"
"It's just..." he looked away, pulling himself from atop Edd," It's just I'm so scared Edd. I'm so scared you'll forget me. Forget this moment that we just shared. It scared me that almost every year since the party when we were 9 you've just.. gone blank. Almost like you had just come from another world. And you forget me too, and things we've done. I feel like I'm losing you Edd and I hate it. I hate that it happens, and I hate that Phil just made it worse. It's gone from every year or two to almost every month it's just like you literally lose yourself and I don't know what to do. You're going to a different college than me, and I won't be there to remind you anymore of who we are and what we've done in the past." Kevin stopped speaking and Edd pulled him close, cooeing into his ear.
"Don't ever think that Kevin. I would never in a million years forget you or what we've been through. Kevin, look at me," he tugged on the redhead's arm but it still took a good five minutes before the redhead turned, his face dry but tear trails still visible. "Kevin you are way too handsome of a man to cry on a night like this. I'm still here and I always will be. I promise Kevin that no matter what... no matter what I will come back for you. You hold me together." It wasn't entirely a lie. The Kevin he had in his life had always managed to keep him glued, he hadn't had a choice otherwise. This Kevin had made him want to stay together. He had no idea how long he would be spending with him but it was definitely taking a toll on his heart and awakening new feelings.
"Shut up dork, don't call me that," Kevin teased and stood from the bed, wiping a hand on his stomach," oh shit, gross. We need to shower, and stat. Your germ freakness is rubbing off on me," he looked down at himself and then back up," quite literally."
Edd covered his mouth and laughed, taking the offer of the shower. It was the most quiet shower he had ever experienced. Most of the time was spent holding onto one another and laughing when soap would be splashed onto the other's face. Kevin had always made sure to stay right next to Edd. Afterwards Edd took the pleasure in ordering and paying for room service. Even if he only possessed one arm in this lifetime he still somehow had managed to force feed Kevin and himself.
Kevin didn't let Edd lift a finger when it came to the clean up. "It's your birthday babe, remember? Just relax." That crooked, almost underbitten smile came out. Edd huffed, pouting and taking Kevin's phone to find a playlist to sleep to. He was never fond of sleeping in strange places, and he was more than positive he would have one hell of a time trying to sleep if he were to do it in the silence here. Kevin took the phone from his hands, startling Edd. "Here, I think this will be better for tonight."
Edd pouted even more, shuffling beneath the sheets and shutting off the lights as Kevin plugged his phone into the jack, the mellow tunes playing over the speakers. Kevin nestled himself into Edd. A calloused hand wrapped into Edd's exposed raven locks. "Edd?"
"Hm?"
"Please promise me that you won't forget me."
"Of course Kevin. How could I ever forget you? I know that you say I have had quite a bad memory over the last few years, but... I can promise that there is absolutely no way I could every forget somebody as special as you."
"Say it Edd!"
"Say what Kevin?"
"Say that you promise!"
"Fine, Kevin!" he snaked his hand beneath the redhead's cheek and turned him to look straight into those green eyes. Those deep, dark, green.. shit Edd, get yourself together! This is all your imagination. "I promise Kevin that I could never forget somebody who has made such a huge impact on my life. you are the only person I have and ever will be in love with, you've.. you've taught me what it was like to love Kevin, and how to love again, after..." shit I need to cover myself," everything that happened. All I ever needed was you Kevin. I love you, and I promise you that I would never be able to forget you."
At first nothing happened. Kevin stared at him and stayed quiet. Edd began to pain, feeling as if he had somehow spent too much time in this memory of his and messed things up.. even if he was more than positive it would never be a real thing. Kevin's sob broke him from his trance, Edd kissing him gently and embracing him as best as his abilities would allow. Kevin smashed his head onto Edd's weak chest, sobbing greatly as Edd rubbed his back and hummed along with the songs that played. Eventually Kevin quieted and his grip loosened on Edd's locks. The ginger's breathing went steady and quieted, squeaking out a final," I love you Eddward Vincent."
The pain in his chest wasn't something he had expected to feel after hearing those words. He closed his eyes and held the ginger tightly, hearing a final verse of a more than familiar song, quietly singing with it before the sleepiness overtook him and he realized once he closed his eyes he would probably not be here with Kevin, the Kevin that had made him feel love again. The Kevin that made him wonder.
Stay with me,
As we cross the empty skies,
Come sail with me,
We play in dreams,
As we cross the space and time,
Just stay with me
The feeling of sleep overwhelmed him and he could no longer fight the strange feeling as coldness and his vision turned completely black. He tried to struggle but could only cry for the love he had longed for had now been lost.. even if it was just a facade of my imagination.