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Sitting by his bed with Meredith, she kept thinking about what happened. How she ran in and took control. How she watched her in awe of how amazing Meredith was. Taking control. Taking his life in her own hands. Fighting for the man she loved. Something clicked with Ellis at that moment. She realized truly how special Meredith was. She reached over and took her hand. Meredith looked up at her. "I'm proud of you Meredith. I've never been so proud of you. I don't know how long I will be here for, but I had to let you know how much you mean to me." Meredith's eyes filled with tears. She had finally gotten the approval she yearned for her whole life. She knew her mother wouldn't remember it tomorrow but that's not what mattered. What mattered was now she knew.
Izzie and the others walked in, "How are you?" she asked Meredith. Meredith didn't reply. She just watched him sleep. "You were amazing Meredith. Your first time solo was not only brain surgery, but brain surgery on Derek, of all people." Meredith wasn't listening to Izzie, just focused all her attention on Derek, willing him to open his eyes. Izzie noticed Meredith's face and how focused she was, "He will be fine Mere. Once he wakes up, he will tell you, everything's going to be okay."
Meredith finally looked up at her. "If he ever wakes up." She shifted her focus back to Derek right as she saw his eyes begin to flutter. Her heart skipped a beat and all of Meredith's friends gathered around his bed. His eyes fluttered again, this time they opened. Wide striking blue eyes darted around the room, looking at the faces that looked back at him. He reached his hand up to the bandage on his head. Confused, he focused on Meredith. "Are you my doctor?"
Meredith froze, "Derek, its me, its Meredith," Her voice quivered as she spoke. He searched her face trying to figure out why she was calling him Derek, instead of Dr. Shephard. "It's me sweetie, Meredith. Your wife." He jerked his head and pierced her soul with his eyes, "You're not my wife! Where is Addison?"
That was when she lost it. He didn't remember. She botched his surgery, causing him to lose partial memory. It was her fault he didn't know who she was. It was her fault he thought he was still married to Addison. She had sealed her own fate when she burst into the OR to save the man she loved. She dropped his hand and fled. She ran down the hallway where she bumped into none other than, Addison.
She couldnt handle this. Not right now. Addison called out to her, "Meredith, how is Derek? How was the surgery?" Meredith never slowed down. She never even looked back. The tears were flowing freely now and even though he wasnt doing it on purpose, he was breaking her. Again. She stopped when she reached the parking lot, stopping to let the rain beat down on her face. She was trapped. Trapped in a dark room with no where to go. She felt clausterphobic. She felt as tho she could die, then and there. A hand touched her shoulder. She turned expecting to see George or maybe Izzie. When she turned around, Addison held her arms out to hold her.
She fell into Addison's arms, not really caring who it was or why she cared so much. She needed comfort, a friend, a shoulder to lean on. If this meant it was Addie who was going to be that person, so be it. Addie stroked her hair and cradled her like a child. "Shhh, Meredith, it will be okay. Richard told me what happened. I'm so sorry. This isn't your fault. It's mine. I should have let him go when I realized how much he loved you. I shouldn't have stayed in Seattle. I'm sorry Meredith. Im sorry I stole so much of your time with him. So many memories that could have been prevented." By now, Addie was crying with Meredith. They were bonding.
Back in Derek's room. "Where is my WIFE? What am i doing in SEATTLE? How did I get to Seattle? We live in Manhatten!" Derek was furious. No one was giving him the answers he wanted to hear. Finally, Mark walked in. "Finally! Someone who will tell me what's going on! Mark, buddy, what's going on here and why are we in Seattle?" Mark, a bit taken aback, had NO idea why Derek was being so civil with him He looked questionably at Dr. Webber. "Mark?"
Dr. Webber motioned for Mark to meet him in the hall. Mark nodded and slowly backed out the door. Dr. Webber explained to Mark that Derek was having a touch of amnesia. He didnt know he and Addison were divorced. He has NO recollection of Meredith. He still thinks he lives in Manhatten." Mark nodded, trying to take it all in. Everyone had finally gotten what they wanted, the loves of their lives, and this happens. Mark sighed, walked back into Derek's room, about to crush him for the second time in his life.