Ok now I was not going to continue this as you all know, but thanks to so many reviews saying to continue it I decided I couldn't give up. IRONY! Well please enjoy I will keep writing but updates will still be taking long because I am working two jobs, so please be patient, thank you so much for doing so in the past, you are all the bomb, thanks so much.
And I can't say it enough…to those of you who write bad reviews GET A LIFE… its called fanFICTION not fanNONFICTION. Ok so the characters are out of character…so what don't point it out, move on with your life. To be fair I did warn you and say it was going to be an alternative universe, so that is sort of self explanatory on how the characters may/WILL change.
By the way I didn't choose to stop production of this story due to the bad reviews. I have received many bad reviews in the past, this I am used to. I chose to stop production because of the Navy, which reminds me, if for any reason I just disappear and don't return…that's why. Sorry. Come on people, those who know me know I can take criticism and those who don't know me…well trust me I can take it. ok I'm also working two jobs so updating this story will take awhile.
I should have this done before I go into the Navy, I can't however promise the same for Mr. and Mrs. Spooky Mulder, however I promise to continue with that as a soon as I get back. I most likely don't ship out until next Spring I haven't gotten my date yet.
Once Mulder had returned to her side with the pizza in hand, Scully felt an instant sense of warmness and security. As he got up to fetch some paper plates, napkins and sodas for them to drink she began to realize just how much this had come to scare her. She shouldn't feel like this around him, she shouldn't feel as if her world would end without him, yet she did. Her heart raced a thousand beats per minute when his arm accidentally brushed up against her thigh and she jumped slightly at the contact.
"Sorry." He quickly apologized, knowing any wrong move could have her curdled up like a child once again and this was something he wanted to avoid.
"It's ok." She whispered taking the plate of pizza he handing her along with a can of diet coke.
They sat watching TV in silence while eating, Scully sat next to Mulder her head rested softly on his chest and Mulder's arm came around her shoulders and hugged her close. For the first time in a long time Scully felt safe and loved, she only felt guilty it wasn't with the man she had promised her heart too, but then again that was his loss.
"How's your neck?" Mulder asked after what felt like an eternity of silence.
"It's ok." She whispered lifting her head to look up at him. When they locked eyes she couldn't help but smile, her world felt right. Her heart felt less heavy.
"Scully." He whispered her name softly as he lowered his head to meet her lips for the second time that day, but he stopped just millimeters away from her face, leaving her the decision to move forward to turn away.
Scully smiled softly and forgot all about the pain and hate in her life and made new memories filled with happiness, love and joy by moving forward and pressing her lips to Mulder's and kissing him. Their lips moved together softly at first, Mulder was careful as to where he moved around her bruised face and where he touched, trying to be as delicate as possible. They shifted on the couch so that now Scully was lying on her back and Mulder was above her.
"Ouch!" Scully cried out as her entire body bucked upward and into Mulder's, causing him to stop his actions in an instant and examine her.
"Are you alright?" He asked frantically worry in his eyes. Scully had to keep form laughing because she knew he was honestly worried about her.
"I'm fine; the remote was just driven into my back." She said reaching behind her to grab the offended object and turn the TV off, but in so doing she accidentally turned the radio on as well. "I'll leave it." Scully said as the sound of a guitar could be heard playing followed by the soft steady background of drums.
"Are you sure you're ok?" Mulder asked and got his answer when Scully pulled his back down on top of her and continued to kiss him. As Mulder's hand delicately made its way under Scully's shirt, careful as to where he touched, he was not surprised when she let out a soft cry and moved away.
"I'm sorry." He quickly apologized.
"No, it's me. I want this, really I do." She said smiling up at him as her hand cupped his cheek. "Some habits die hard."
"I would never hurt you, never."
"I know."
"If you don't want to go through with any of this, or if you want to stop, just say so." He said. Scully leaned up and kissed him, soon the lyrics to the song played out from the speakers.
Take a look at this broken heart,
Can't you see it's falling apart?
Piece by piece it's tried to be saved
But the road to healing is still left unpaved
Black and blue from the pain
Tears have mixed with the rain
Spirit broken, bones crushed,
Fear emerging, emotions rushed,
"Mulder." Scully breathed softly, but it came out as more of a beg as she gently tugged on his shirt. She wanted this, she needed this. The feel of being loved of being wanted and needed in return and not just being used for person satisfaction for a few minutes before leaving off to the bar.
I thought he was the one,
My stars, my moon, my sun,
But like a devil in disguise,
He won my heart with nothing but lies,
Save me from this cruel life
Rescue me from this strife,
Make it better with a kiss,
Show me the world I have missed,
Save me from the monsters that I fear,
Take me in your arms and hold me near,
Take away the hurt the has been inflicted upon my being,
Make it disappear with a kiss; sight unseen.
She felt as Mulder placed soft kisses along her collarbone, the whole time he was careful of the cut that resided there. She gave off a soft moan and allowed her self to remember the last time she had felt so much love from just a kiss, but came up blank. Her life was filled with darkness, and hate. Yet here in this moment a man offered her light and love with something so simple.
"Something wrong?" Mulder asked softly. Scully felt different looking him in the eyes here in this moment she felt as if she could give him anything. She shook her head no and kissed his lips softly, she could definitely get used to that.
Mend the pieces of the shattered soul,
For now healing can take its toll,
Someone finally understands,
And has taken the maiden's hands
Whisper words of love and truth,
Tell her beneath the scars she holds beauty and youth,
Fragile is the broken soul, messy is the bleeding heart,
Yet they are meant to clean and mend from the start,
"I love you." Mulder said softly into her ear as he lifted up her shirt. He looked down at her bruised body and felt her take in a deep breath and hold it. When he looked at her face he found tears falling from her tightly closed eyes, he lightly touched her face and softly kissed her lips. "You're beautiful."
"How can you say that?" She asked after letting out a shaky breath. Her tears were now falling freely and she looked down to her stomach that was covered in bruises. "I'm all beat up."
"So you've been hurt. I told you I'll kill him, but you are still beautiful, and don't you ever let anybody tell you anything different, not even yourself." Scully smiled through her tears and kissed him.
That night for the first time in the longest time Scully made love to someone she really cared about…to somebody she loved. Though there had been a few times where they had to stop because Scully was scared of Mulder to touch her or Mulder had placed his hand over a spot too sensitive, in the end it was all worth it.
Kiss away the pain; make it hurt a little less,
Stop the nightmares; help me to get a little rest,
Hold me close as I sleep,
Wake me up if you hear me weep.
Save me from this cruel life
Rescue me from this strife,
Make it better with a kiss,
Show me the things I have missed,
Save me from the monsters that hide under my bed,
Take away the things he placed in my head,
Take the step forward for I'm too scared to move,
Stop me from running and show that I have something to prove,
Mulder looked up to the sleeping woman laying on his chest. He hadn't seen her so happy in the longest time, she was actually smiling in her sleep, he kissed her forehead tenderly before covering them both with a blanket and falling asleep himself.
The next morning Scully woke up feeling the best she had in years, looking down she smiled to herself as she saw a sleeping Mulder beneath her and the memory of the previous night came back to her. She had a smile plastered on her face and love in her heart, she placed a kiss on his chest and moved to the bathroom, but not to shower, to look at herself in the mirror and make sure that everything was real.
Gasping for air under my own overwhelming emotions,
You grabbing my handing and pulled me free of the commotion,
Saving me from drowning in the sea of fear and pain,
Saving me from slowly going insane,
He stole what wasn't his and didn't bother to ask,
But when you overpower a woman it's an easy task,
You, on the other hand, came to me gentle and warm,
Making love and restoring my faith in something I thought was torn,
Upon opening his eyes, Mulder found the room empty and shot up from the couch. He searched the room and found his shirt gone from the chair on the other side of the coffee table. He quickly got up and changed into his pants before searching the apartment for her. When he reached her bedroom he heard noises coming from her bathroom and found her looking in the mirror, a large smile on her slightly blue and black face.
I no longer have to cover my face in make up to hide the bruises,
Nor do I have to continue to make up the most absurdist excuses,
For like child crying for its mother in the middle of the night,
I found myself wanting to be saved and full of fright.
Mulder walked in and wrapped his arms around her waist from behind and pulled her close while placing a kiss in her hair. She gave off a small giggle and winced slightly when he grabbed her in the wrong place, he quickly apologized and together they looked at themselves in the mirror.
"We just go together." Mulder said.
"Yeah, we do, don't we?" Scully asked softly trying to look past her beat up face and see the real her. Truly they did belong together, her mother was right. Now if only she could get rid of Jason.
"Don't worry, We'll think of something." He said as if reading her mind, she nodded her head and turned in his embrace to hug him close.
Ok that was that, also the italics was my poem, the one that inspired this story. Hoped you liked it, I'll try to update it soon.
F.B.I.-For Being Informed on December 2 the new X-Files movie, I Want To Believe will be released on DVD. FINALLY!!!!