"Look at me"

Haruhi had been keeping her eyes shut the entire time. Since Kaoru had removed her shirt, she had become unable to look at him. He was being gentle as promised and she could tell he was hovering directly over her. Her arms came up to cover her bra as she opened her eyes to see his. The bright hazel color seemed darker now, even after Kaoru had been polite enough to turn off all the lights she could still see them.

"Lift your back and lower your arms"Kaoru voice wasn't demanding but simply directional now. She nodded and arched her back up. She could feel his hand slip behind her back and quickly undo the snaps of her bra. It was obviously not his first time doing that by how quickly his fingers moved.

He moved her hands up to touch his hair, her eyes focused on the way his hair fell now. She understood that he was trying to distract her, to help ease her slowly through this.

"If I do something you don't like, just tug"Kaoru used her hand to tug against his hair slightly, letting her know it was okay. The last thing he wanted to do was repeat Tamakis mistake. Haruhi was trusting him.

Every movement he did was thought through as Kaoru removed the clothing from her body. He had imagined doing this for years so it was easy for him to pick what he wanted to do. Although he was surprised to see Haruhi was wearing the Hitachi brand under garments he had bought her last christmas. It fit her perfectly and he internally complimented himself on the color he picked.

When her bra came off he was careful not to touch her yet, he didn't want to start groping her too suddenly. He didn't exactly know how far she had ever gone with Tamaki, since Kyoya refused to give details, but he knew she wasn't used to being touched often. His hands rested against her pants for a moment, giving her time to register his touch before proceeding. Her fingers remained still in his hair, giving him the signal to continue.

His fingers undid the button and zipper, carefully he tugged her pants down and let Haruhi kick them off herself. Her head rested on the pillow and he could feel her fingers starting to gasp harder at his hair. Not tugging yet but she was tense.

"Haruhi"Kaoru whispered against her stomach. His hands had come to rest at the sides of her hips, his fingers hooked into the sides of her panties.

Her fingers let go of his hair a bit, letting him know she was listening

"I'll take care of you, trust me"Kaoru left a light kiss against her stomach and slowly began to slide her panties down. He moved slowly, waiting for her to give him even the slightest tug that he needed to stop. Eventually they had slipped of her legs and now rested on the floor. Her fingers moved to gently massage his hair, signaling him that she was okay.

"Haruhi we're going to change things now, okay?"Kaoru crawled up to meet her. His face inches from hers now. She opened her eyes and nodded.

"I need you to tell me when something feels good, if you don't tell me I won't know. You can still tell me to stop at anytime by tugging okay?"Kaoru placed a kiss on her forehead and Haruhi gave a shy 'yes' in response.

The first thing he did surprised her.

His lips pressed against hers gently at first, as if he was testing the waters. The only kiss they had ever shared was at the amusement park during their only date, but that kiss was very different. This one was longer as he slowly began to pull her in deeper. Kaoru placed his hand behind her head, cradling her into him. He massaged her lips with his, trying to get her into the mind set she would need to be.

The kiss seemed to last for ages, it was longer then anything she had pervious done with Tamaki and she was starting to feel warm now. When his tongue ran along her lip she understood and let him take the lead. After a few moments of their little make out session, Kaoru pulled away.

"Good?"She could practically hear the cockiness in his voice, he knew she had enjoyed that.

"Yes"Haruhi answered as she felt him slipping away from her now. His hands gently starting to trail down her body, causing her to tense.

Kaoru had a method. He would touch her with his hands, then follow it with a kiss. His fingers traced the side of her neck, followed by a trail of kisses. Slowly he made his way down her body until reaching her breasts. He had to admit, she had filled out nicely since their days at Ouran and no longer deserved to be called flat chested.

His hands were different then Tamakis had been on her body. His hands massaged her more roughly and felt much warmer. Haruhi jumped slightly when his tongue came in contact with her nipple, he rolled and nipped at it. Enjoying himself and the way Haruhi seemed to be writhing beneath him.

"Still good?"Kaoru asked as he pulled away from her. His hand still cupping her breast as she played with his hair.

"You need to tell me Ha-ru-hi"Kaoru placed a kiss against her stomach as he continued his way down. His hands came to rest on her thighs now and she seemed to be rolling out of the haze he placed her in.

"It's good. I'm good"Haruhi removed her fingers from his hair and placed them to her sides

"Haruhi what are you doing?"Kaoru questioned once her fingers had left his hair. Her tugging on him would be the easiest way for him to know she wasn't okay. Most of the blood was rushing out of his head and into his pants at this point, so his hearing wasn't the best.

"I trust you Kaoru, I know you won't hurt me"Haruhi closed her eyes and let her fingers wrap around the soft bed sheets. With a slight nod Kaoru understood. He felt a pang of pride in his chest now, Haruhi truly did trust him.

Kaoru moved himself down and lifted her legs to rest on his shoulders. His hands gently rubbed her inner thighs, making his way closer and closer. He felt Haruhi flinch under his touch when his fingers began to gently stroke her, he was pleased that she was already wet from his pervious foreplay but moved slowly.

She made no attempts to move away from him as Kaoru continued his gentle movements. He continued moving closer until her thighs came to rest on his shoulders. Although it was dark, Kaoru knew a woman's body well enough to find what he was looking for. He pressed his thumb gently against her clit and was happy when her hips raised to meet his touch.

"Are you doing okay Haruhi?"Kaoru asked but when he didn't get a response a panic set in. He pulled back his hand and sat up looking down at Haruhi. Her hands were covering her mouth and he couldn't help but think she looked adorable.

"Haruhi are you okay?"Obvious concern coated his voice as Kaoru watched her lower her hands. He was worried maybe he had pushed it too far. Her lack of response worried him.

"Y-yeah, I just..didn't want to be loud"Haruhi could see a smirk crossing his face in the dark followed by a low chuckle. She felt him scoot back down between her legs and place a gentle kiss on her thigh.

"You're adorable Haruhi"That was the only response Haruhi got before Kaoru returned to his earlier actions. She could feel his finger toying with her and the entire experience was seemingly out of this world. It was a feeling she had never experienced before and couldn't have imagined. Haruhi let out a gasp when she felt what she could only assume was his tongue dragging across her most sensitive spot. Her fingers grasped the sheets in an attempt to remain still, but with every motion of his tongue she felt herself losing control. Kaorus hand rested on her hip while the other worked on pulling back her clitoral hood to expose her to him. The tiny moans that escaped her lips only urged him to continue.

"I'm going in Haruhi"Kaoru moved his fingers to her entrance and mentally thanked Hikaru for reminding him to cut his nails the other day. He waited for Haruhis verbal response, but was pleased when she spread her legs a little wider for him, inviting him.

It felt strange but not unpleasant, was the only thought Haruhi had when she felt his finger slowly enter her. His movements were slow but seemed focused as he moved. After a few moments of his gentle thrusting she could feel his tongue returning to her clit. It brought the entire experience to another level as she felt his finger moving a bit faster. Once it had become comfortable she felt Kaoru withdraw his finger only to return it with another. Haruhi took a breath, trying to adjust to the new feeling, she felt full in a way she hadn't before and tried to concentrate on the feeling of his tongue against her.

Haruhi had lost all perception of time now, as Kaoru continued working her body, she fell into what could only be described as an ocean of pleasure. With each thrust like being hit by a wave and she was slowly drowning. The pressure that had been building was starting to feel like a giant weight on her chest and she could tell this was what everyone talked about. The famous orgasm that she had heard about was within her grasp and she was confident that Kaoru had been planning to bring her there.

An she was right, he continued his assault on her body. He could feel her tightening around him and by the way her hips bucked underneath him, he knew that she was close. It didn't take much longer until Kaoru felt her becoming undone beneath him. He slowed his fingers and watched, gentling bringing her down.

"Do you have a bit more clarity now"Kaoru removed himself from her and tossed the blanket over her body. He came to lay beside her and poked her nose to gain her attention. Upon seeing that smug look on his face, Haruhi felt her face turn red. She was sure he could see it even in the dark.

"Yes.. um.. thank you"Haruhi didn't know exactly what to say in this situation. Was she supposed to stay here with him? Or is she supposed to leave? Does she thank him or play it cool?

"Anytime Haruhi, so do you mind telling me what brought this all on?"

Haruhi let out a laugh, she could believe it. She hadn't given Kaoru any reason to help her, she hadn't explained anything, but yet he had done all this with her and brought her some clarity.

"What's so funny?"Kaoru rolled off the bed and sat beside her now. He needed a shower.

"Nothing, I'll explain everything now"

After Kaorus shower and Haruhis explanation, they sat together at the edge of Kaorus bed feeling closer then they ever had before.

"So what will you do now? I guess you're certain Tamaki isn't what you want now"Kaoru rubbed his hair with the towel and looked over to Haruhi who was brushing out her messy hair.

"Yeah I am, Tamaki and I can hopefully be friends one day but that's it. I really did enjoy my date with Mori so there might be something there"Haruhi had explain everything to Kaoru, even about her date with Mori and the kiss they had shared on her staircase. Although she could sense a hint of jealousy when they reached that part of the story.

"What about me? Am I not even an option here? Come on! I just rocked your world"Kaoru was teasing her but she could tell he was being honest. She hadn't forgotten his confession years ago but had assumed his feeling for her become platonic after all this time.

"I don't want to hurt Mori, I agreed to go to a book signing with him next week as a date"Haruhi found herself in a sticky situation now. Did Mori have feeling for her? She didn't know for sure but blowing him off to start dating Kaoru just seemed wrong.

Haruhi held a serious look on her face as she sat there trying to figure out the best way out

"I've got it, I'll just ask Mori how he feels about me. If he doesn't like me then that's it, if he does we keep dating"Haruhi said in a very matter of fact way, only for Kaoru to seem unimpressed

"Haruhi, what about how you feel? Who do you want to date?"Kaoru flicked her forehead, she could be so dense something it amazed him.

"Who do I want to date?"

Haruhi hadn't thought about it much.

After breaking up with Tamaki she was happy to just be single and live out her life.

Then after talking to Mei she just wanted to find out if she was really attracted to any of them, an it turns out Mei had been right. She did want them.

An now she knew that she was willing to go all the way, just not with Tamaki.

"I don't know, I still feel the same about all of you. Nothings changed"Haruhi shrugged which caused Kaorus heart to sink, they had just shared something very special and now she was saying nothing had changed? Alot had changed for Kaoru the moment he started kissing her, his whole world had changed and opened up.

"You really know how to hurt a guy Haruhi"Kaoru fell back against the bed and let out a sigh. He knew it wasn't likely but part of him had hoped Haruhi would say she was in love with him now or something like that. But then again she was never that mushy, he doubted she'd even notice if she loved him.

"Kaoru, I do think you're special to me"She reached out and took his hand in hers. They had gone past the level of friendship now but she didn't know exactly where they stood now. It was a weird limbo.

Kaoru smiled happily to himself, there was still hope. Rolling to sit back up he placed a kiss against her cheek which caused her to blush sweetly.

"I can live with that for now"

-Later that evening-

"Haruhi I didn't know you were planning to join us, I would have prepared the guest room" began the dinner conversation after Haruhi made her entrance with Kaoru. Hikaru was already seated nearby and seemed equally surprised by Haruhis presence.

"Don't worry about it Mister Hitachi, I have work in the morning"Haruhi commented as the maid pulled her chair out for her. She sat down and whispered a 'thank you' to the young lady who went to bring her some food.

"Work? I had heard from Yuzuha you were working out in the country side correct? Isn't there a flood?"Mister Hitachi recalled seeing the news earlier today. There was a flood at the nearby riverbank which had cut off the main road way, it wasn't supposed to last more then a day but he was certain Haruhi worked down there.

"Flood? No I hadn't heard, I'll be sure to call me boss to ask"Haruhi hadn't heard any rainfall but then again she doubted she would have been able to hear anything

"So when did you get here? I've been home all day and didn't see either of you"Hikaru pointed out, he thought it was weird he hadn't seen Kaoru all day but assumed he was off with their mother somewhere. An it was a work day so Haruhi was likely at home by now.

"I ran into Kaoru at the coffee shop near by apartment and came over"Haruhi explained, she was attempting to leave out the time she had come over.

Hikaru tapped his fork against the plate in annoyance, he knew when Haruhi was lying to him. Something about what she was telling him gave him that feeling. But unable to really accuse her of anything he answered with a simple 'oh'

They ate dinner in silence before Haruhi excused herself to call her boss quickly. Mister Hitachi was the next to leave, stating he would need to get back to the office and was going to stop by to visit their mother. Leaving Hikaru and Kaoru alone at the table

"Tell me what happened"Hikaru was getting annoyed now by Kaorus silence. He hadn't said anything all dinner and was avoiding eye contact.

"I don't know what you're talking about"Kaoru continued to eat his meal in silence, he was hungrier then usual and was starting to wonder what was taking Haruhi so long to come back.

"You know what I'm talking about, why did you bring her over and not tell me?"

Kaoru stopped eating and put his fork down, this wasn't exactly his issue to tell so he didn't feel comfortable talking to Hikaru about it. If Haruhi wanted Hikaru to know then she would tell him herself

"We were just hanging out, it's not like I was hiding her from you"Kaoru wasn't lying exactly, he wasn't hiding Haruhi as much as he was hiding what they were doing

"Kaoru can I talk to you for a minute"Haruhi came back into the room holding her cell phone. Kaoru stood up and walked over, Haruhi handed him the phone and went to sit back down with Hikaru who looked pissed off now.

Haruhi returned to eating, now noticing how upset Hikaru was or the tension that was in the room

"So is he your favorite now"It wasn't much of a question, it was more Hikaru stating what he felt. Haruhi placed her fork down and looked over to the now clearly angry Hikaru. He wasn't looking at her and just pushed things around on his plate

"You know I don't pick favorites between you two, if this is about the phone it's because Mori wanted to talk to him"Haruhi couldn't understand what was setting Hikaru off right now. He had settled down alot in recent years and rarely acted like a child anymore. Right now it looked like he was about to throw a tantrum.

"Whatever, I'm done eating"Hikaru said nothing else before leaving the room

-With Mori-

Mori sat in his room, he had only recently returned home from talking with Hunny and decided to give Haruhi a call. He thought about texting her assumed a call would be faster.

He was surprised to hear she was at the Hitachis but something wasn't sitting right with him.

He had asked if she would like a ride home, her response was that she would be staying the night

It seemed odd

Haruhi normally would refuse to spend the night there

That's when he asked to speak to Kaoru

"Hey Mori, what's up?"

"Is something wrong with Haruhi? Is she is some sort of trouble"Mori couldn't help but think of reasons why Haruhi would be staying there. Perhaps she was in need of protection, or couldn't return home for some reason

"No she's fine but I think you and her need to have a talk"

"About?"Mori felt his suspicions were correct now, something was off

"About her feelings for you and your feelings for her. Not to be mean Mori, but do you even like Haruhi like that?"

"Without Hunnys influence"Kaoru added that last point to make Mori question himself

It took a moment for Mori to answer

"I'm not sure, I believe that is the point of dating"Mori could sense a bit of hostility in Kaorus voice, something he was unfamiliar with

"Normally you start dating when you already like someone"

"I do like Haruhi as a friend, the best partners start as friends"Mori answered in a slightly more defensive tone

"Well you should talk to her about it, she'll be staying here tonight so maybe tomorrow you can see her"

"Bye Mori"Kaoru was quick to hangup leaving Mori unable to respond in time

Mori placed his phone down and closed his eyes. He felt in desperate need of meditation now. Moving swiftly throughout the house he found his way to the meditation and sat down.

He would begin the process of self questioning

Searching for his feeling

-At the Hitachi Mansion-

"Maybe you should go talk to him"Kaoru sat with Haruhi in his bedroom. Haruhi wouldn't have work tomorrow due to the flooding of the near by river bank so she had asked to stay over. Of course she was more then welcome and after talking to Ranka it was set.

Kaoru had attempted to go apologize for being rude to Hikaru after dinner but was only given the silence treatment

"What should I tell him?"Haruhi had felt bad for always leaving Hikaru out, he was never the first one she went too and always seemed to find out from someone else.

"What you told me, maybe he can help you too"Kaoru gave a suggestive wink at that last part, only to get a glare in return. Haruhi knew she had to talk to him, it wasn't right to keep things from him and maybe he could help her out. Her feelings weren't as foggy as before Kaoru helped her but she still felt unsure.

Kaoru wished Haruhi good luck and gave her a kiss on the cheek. Something she normally wouldn't have let him do but after everything they had done today, it seemed like nothing.

Haruhi made her way down the hall till she reached Hikarus room, she was always able to tell it was his room by the crack in the door on the bottom right. That's where he always kicked it whenever he was upset.

"Hikaru can I come in?"Haruhi knocked her hand against the door and waited for him to answer. When nothing came from his room she tried knocking again.

10 minutes passed by and no answer

'I guess he's really that upset'Haruhi resigned to the fact Hikaru was angry with her and wouldn't likely talk to her again tonight.

She walked down the hallway into the guest bedroom and crawled into bed. Kaoru had offered her his bed, but right now she wanted to be alone with her thoughts.

Hikaru

He had changed since high school but still got under her skin at times

He was rude

He was handsome

He was inconsiderate

He was sweet

He was irrational

He was irresistible

A groan of annoyance escaped Haruhis mouth as she covered her face with the pillow before tossing it aside. Now that she found herself thinking about him, she could practically hear his voice in her head.

She pictured him on the balcony with her, that day she had turned him down. His hair was a beautiful chestnut color, his eyes were that perfect shade of hazel, his arms were strong when they wrapped around her to dance.

Part of her began to wonder if his arms were as toned as Kaorus, if he kissed like him, if he did other things like him. Before Haruhi could realize it she had begun the process of a fantasy. She could see Hikaru in her mind, without his attitude he was sweet and kind to her. Yet still so different then Kaoru.

It was then she remembered what Kaoru had asked her earlier about pleasing herself.

'What did Kaoru do again?'Haruhi found herself sitting up on the bed and stripping down to her underwear like she had seen in a rated R movie before. She couldn't help but think this was weird, doing this in her best friends house. But while her mind was running with fantasies of Hikaru she wanted to try.

She found her self trying to imitate Kaorus earlier motions with her own hands. She remembered Kaorus motions and found herself gently probing herself, trying to each that same level of ecstasy Kaoru had given her.

But her mind was somewhere else, she was thinking of Hikaru. Trying to explore her feelings for him.

The more the thought about him, the easier the process became as she found herself enjoy the feeling of her fingers inside of herself. Imagining that they were Hikarus instead.

"Hi-Hikaru"She felt the urge to call his name as she could feel herself coming closer to that wonderful bliss Kaoru had introduced her too.

His name continued to escape her lips in a whimper as Haruhi found herself becoming undone and wondering why she hadn't tried that before. While it was wonderful, it wasn't as satisfying as when Kaoru had assisted her earlier.

'I can't believe I did that'Haruhi thought as she opened her eyes and stared at the ceiling. She continued to breath and calm herself until she felt it

The bed shifting with weight being add

Haruhi nearly flew off the bed in shock as she quickly sat up and looked towards the direction of the weight

She felt her heart drop

"That was a much nicer apology then normal"Hikarus voice had taken on a tone that hadn't been heard before, it was darker, deeper, and for some reason made her blush. She quickly pulled the blanket over to cover herself and opened her mouth to yell at him, but nothing came out.

"Wh-What are you doing here!?"Haruhi didn't know what to say, she was embarrassed. Caught in the act by her best friend, her best friend who had no doubt heard her whimpering his name. She began to wonder how she hadn't heard the door opening, no she was sure the door was locked, she was certain of it.

"The bathroom in my room has a broken shower, so I was using this one. You came in as I was about to leave so I hid"Hikaru explained as he moved to scoot closer to her. His hand coming to touch her leg through the blanket.

The bathroom! It had been dark with an open door when Haruhi came in but she didn't think anything of it, she had just assumed the maid had left it open and never thought to check. But the bathroom was positioned directly across from the bed, meaning he had likely stood there and watched her the entire time.

"So tell me Ha-ru-hi"She hated when he said her name like that, it made her feel funny. It made her feel like she wanted him.

Haruhi closed her eyes as she felt him moving closer, she couldn't deny what happened. He clearly knew what she had been thinking about.

It was when she felt his warm breath at her ear that she twitched. He whispered in perhaps the most seductive voice she had ever heard from him.

"Would you like my help"