It was night time and while Takashi, Nishiki and Kohta stood watch over the truck everyone else was a sleep.

Well mostly everyone. Kaneki stayed awake holding on to Touka and Hikari fighting his sleep but soon even he fell asleep and passed out.

Point of view change to Kaneki.

I once more found myself in my own mind, a white void looking at my former human self. I then cracked my fingers as I said, "why won't you leave me alone!" I hate this former self of mine. It wanted me to die so I have no chose but to hate it.

The human me then spoke, "because I'm right and I can prove it! I found this memory."

I then found myself back in my childhood home, before I lived with my aunt at night. The home was my mother beat the shit out of me! I growled then I notice something.

It was my father walking with a four-year-old me.

The three-year-old me, "I woke you up just like you asked me to daddy!"

My father whose face was blurred as I couldn't remember it then grabbed a suit case and walked to the front door, "thanks Kaneki!" He then walked out leaving the front door leaving the four-year-old me to cry.

I teared up as I saw through the window my father drive off and leave, Me behind.

The memory buried so deep I missed it while in my coma then end and froze as I growled and cried my Kagune storming behind me as I turned to the human me!"

My former self then said, "see Mom didn't love us! Dad didn't love us and used as a tool to make his escape, Aunt didn't love us, Uncle didn't love us, our cousin didn't care about us. No one wants us so why bother living?

I then growled as I screamed, "TOUKA LOVES US! SHE NEEDS US THAT IS A REASON TO LIVE! LOVE SOMETHING MOST HUMANS DON'T SEEM TO BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND!"

I then grabbed my former self by the throat as roared. "I AM NOT HUMAN! YOU DON'T ASSIST ANYMORE! I AM GHOUL! I WANT TO LIVE!"

I then pulled the human me close making him struggle to get free as my kakuja turned on and I said, "IF YOU WANT TO DIE THEN LET ME ALLOW THAT! LEAVE ME ALONE!"

I then bite into my human's self's neck and ripped it out eating it. I then began to eat the rest of the screaming remains of my former self.

When I was finished I returned to normal and whipped my lips of my former self's blood. "So what if my parents didn't want me. I am no longer their creation. I am no longer Human. I am the centipede. I am Kaneki Ghoul! Killer and eater of any one that wants me dead. Nothing you can do will change that. So what's ever lest of my humanity leave me alone!"

I then looked at the remains of my former self now just a mass of blood. I then saw my human self's face in the blood as he said, "Why live like a monster?"

I then scoffed as I said, "ghouls are just predator's doing what they evolved to do, eat their prey. It's just mother nature. She's not a monster. The only monsters are most of humanity."

I then walked away coming back to the now frozen still memory of my father leaving me. I looked to the crying frozen in time child version of me. "I'm sorry little guy but it only gets worst from here."

The child me then unfroze and cried, "Why? Parents are supposed to love their kids! Why did mine hate me!?"

I was caught off guard for a moment and confused but I cracked my fingers as I said, "We just have shit luck! If humans didn't have bad luck they won't have any luck at all."

The child me cried, "So I have to go through all this pain because of bad luck! THAT'S NOT FAIR!"

I then looked away and kept moving, "Kid life isn't fair."

The child me then froze again!

I then kept moving I felt something about this memory I may have missed. Something important calling me to explode this buried memory. I cracked my fingers as I noticed something at the door something dropped by my bastard of a father.

I saw it was a picture I could see the image on it but the face where blurred. It was part of the memory something I couldn't understand at the time.

I knew one of the people in it was my bastard old man, and the other was some woman who was blurred but her hand was on a bump in her stomach and she had a smile.

I looked at it and cracked my fingers, as it hit me. "the bastard Didn't love mom He loved who ever that woman is! He didn't want me! He wanted the child in her stomach! He left me for another child!"

I then ripped it apart in rage, "I had another family one he loved! He disowned me for someone else."

I growled in rage and punched a wall making the memory vanish form my mind.

I then looked back to see the child me crying his hair now white like mine as he cried and said, "why did Daddy love our younger sibling and not us?" He then vanished.

I screamed in rage as he ran I don't know where I was running but I felt drawn somewhere hopefully the way out of my own mind!

I then came to another memory.

It was me at age eight sneaking around listing in on my aunt and uncle.

I looked at the memory of my aunt the woman I hated for so long because her greed over worked my mother to death, and then she didn't care about my emotional health. But Now with the knowledge of my mother beating me I've been thinking.

If Not for her greed Mom won't have died and I would have kept getting beat. My aunt saved me form physical abuse or worst! I literary may own my life to her.

Strange but true. I then cracked my fingers.

I then watched the memory.

I overheard my aunt talking to uncle, "I can't believe that bastard! I spent all that time tracking him down so he can take back his son! And he won't! He even dares to say that bastard born thanks to an arranged marriage is not his son! He has his son with him! Now I have to race a child I didn't give birth too! "

The memory version of me then Ran away crying and buried this memory.

I was crying as I cracked my finger, my younger sibling is a boy, my parents never loved each other, and my aunt cared enough to try and get me back to my dad.

The memory was frozen as I walked to my aunt's frozen form crying. "so you did care! You just didn't want to raise a kid you didn't give birth too. Which is kind of a bad thing but not the worst. I know full well some people can't care for a child that isn't their own, I took a phycology class on it."

I then cracked my fingers and broke in to insane laughter, "Funny! All my life I hate you and uncle, But the ones to hate are my own parents! Mother beat me and hated me! Father won't care for me! So you did what you had to for your family and wasn't happy about it! Well aunt I guess I will be thankful your greed killed she who beat me!"

I then walked out laughing as I came to the frozen eight-year-old me who's hair was white.

My eight-year-old self-cried, "Why does my little brother get all the love!" He then faded away, with the memory.

I then felt drawn and continued walking to the next one, "Ok what's next!" I then cracked my finger to notice a memory of a Ten-year-old me looking at news report while sneaking around.

The news report was on a reporter, "To day ghoul investigator Akira Kaneki has taken down most of the ghouls bang called the devil apes "The ten-year-old me then left, "funny he has the same name as me."

The ten-year-old having buried things too much to understand it.

The memory then froze.

I roared. "My father is a dove!" I then roared and smashed the ground making the memory shatter.

I then saw the ten-year-old me who was crying his hair now white like mine, but with two ghoulish eyes, "Why does dad want us dead?"

I then jumped up as he vanished and heard voice, voice of doves, I was back to the memories of my coma, parts I forgot thanks to the drugs pumped into my system!"

I heard a voice of a dove, "So the test shows he was truly human once! And your son Akira."

I then heard my father's voice, "My son was born to me and the woman I fell in love with, this bastard spawn I was forced to make thanks to an arranged marriage is not my son never was never will now let's see what we can learn from cutting him open!"

I then roared in rage, as the sound and memories of pain of drills saws and other blades ripping him open hit me! I screamed in pain as I said, "I WILL KILL YOU OLD MAN!"

The pain then stopped as another memory then start. It was a voice that sound a little younger than me said. "I know you don't know me but I'm sorry. I thought dad was a nice man but I read the reports he abandoned you as a child. I'm sorry Ken Kaneki! I'm sorry dad is a bastard. I'm sorry big brother."

I was crying as he listened, "I know you can't hear me but my name is Tome Kaneki I'm your little brother and I'm sorry we couldn't meet and this all happened to you. I'm sorry I even want to follow in dad's footsteps. I'm quitting the CCG. I can't go along with it knowing they would do this to their own blood."

I smiled as I fell to my knees as I heard the voice of my younger brother say, "I always want a big brother sometimes I would dream about it. I guess Part of me always knew. I'm sorry again big brother I wish Dad would have been nice enough to let both of us know the truth so we could have known each other, but I want to know before I go I love you big brother!"

I cried and smiled as I spotted my former self crying tears of blood.

The former me's eyes turned ghoul like, "NO that can't be! No one loved us! It can't be true!"

I then stood up and looked at him as his hair fade to grey and I cracked a finger, "You opened this can of buried memories thinking it would end me! Thinking it would brake me! But it didn't! It proved people did care!"

I walked to him as his hair turned white, "My aunt cared enough to try and find dad to send me to him and little brother! She just didn't want to race a kid that she didn't give birth too, yet she did it even though she didn't like it and boy did it show. Tome cared about us!"

I then grabbed my former self's neck as he slowly began fade away slowly as I said, "You lost! People do care about me! Human and ghoul, by bond and family! And if anyone can live through this mess it would be someone related to me!"

My former self then faded away completely beaten and broken. It was finally over. I was free of my humanity.

I then laughed insanely in victory, "Ow my dear little brother! I will find you and thank you for this! For freeing! And I almost hate to say it but I hope aunt Asaoka is still alive so I can thank her for killing my mother and saving me from her beatings, For Trying to get dad to take me back, for racing me even though she did it against her own will."

I then felt my other eye regrow and looked in a memory that appeared out of nowhere, both my eyes where now Kakugan I then smiled as I said "that's a nice look for me!"

I then woke up in the middle of the night I blinked both my eyes where back, I then saw Touka open her eyes and her eyes widen snapping her completely awake.

She covered her mouth to hold in a scream before she asked, "Kaneki! Your eyes!" She then grabbed something reflective and I smiled at what I saw. Just like in my dream I now had two Kakugan.

I then said, "I guess my human half really couldn't live through the new wave of repressed memories."

I spotted Touka looking pale as she asked, "what?"

I then smiled as I spoke lowly as not to wake everyone one, "well It started when I was four when my father had me wake him up so he could leave me and mother, and only gets worst from there."

To be continued.

Group status!

Survivor group name hybrid horde

members.

Kaneki, Hinami, Utu, Nishiki, Touka, Kimi, Yoriko, Hikari, Takashi, Zeke, Alice Takagi Kohta, Shizuka and Saeko.

Former members Rei(dead)

Status moving

One-eyed watch tower.

Members Skull-face and other unknown members.

Status Radio station for survivors