I walk into Luke's, Conner's hand in mine and smile when I see Rory sitting at a table, we go over and I smile "hay Ror!" she smiles back with a light wave at the same time Jess runs down stairs. He stops in front of us and I smile "morning!" he nods and I can feel Connor glaring at him beside me and nudge him lightly Jess just looks at us and says to Rory "your moms upstairs with Luke, I'm not insinuating but they might be a while!" I laugh and Rory shakes her head as he smiles at me and heads out for his Jess time, meaning heal find a quite place to read and block the world out for a few hours. As he leaves I smile at Rory as we make idle chat, me and Connor are going out for the day, up to New Haven, just doing some window shopping.
When we get back to town Connor heads over to work and I smile as I pick Dexter up from the floor, and he nuzzles into my lap, Charlie walks into the room and I smile up from the TV "hey uncle Charlie!" he smiles at me and asks with a worried look "are you alright my dear, you seem tired." I smile and rub my eyes "I'm fine, just a long day." I don't tell him that Connor was overly touchy whenever a guy even glanced in my direction, I don't mind the overly protective, slightly possessive thing, actually I kind of like it, but he's making me feel like a prisoner in my own skin. The white haired man picks up some papers from the table and leaves with a smile "try to get some rest." I nod as he walks out then sigh as I look down at the Lab in my lap, his head tilted, like he's asking me a question and I stroke his ear "yeah, I'm miserable. don't tell!" me makes a little yelp and I cant help but smile.
The next day as I walk Dexter, who's pulling on his lead, I see Jess headed my way and smile to my friend "hey brainy-ack!" he smiles and nods "nice dog!" I smile back "thanks, where you going?" he points past me and say "Gilmore's, the gutters are apparently attacking people now." I laugh lightly and say "oh, well you go play hero and call me when its safe to come out, me and Dex will be in the park, hiding under a bench!" he laughs with me and says, walking backward to the Gilmore house "sounds like a plan! Later Jackie" I wave and continue with my walk.
After an hour in the park I head for something to ear, feeding Dexter half my plate at Luke's, then decide to head over to the book fair, they might have something. As I look I see Dean and Rory, a quick kiss and as she goes to leave sees me "hey Jackie, didn't think I'd see you here!" she says and I smile, trying not to say anything bitchy to Dean, I've had a good day, best not spoil it "what's that you've got?" he asks and I smile raising the book in my hand "its actually called 'Dexter' its about this blood expert for the mimi police who saw his mum get killed when he was a kid and a copper took him in, realized he had evil in him and rained him to kill murders who get away with it!" they both look at me and Dean nods "that sounds cool!" actually seeming interested. Dean smiles at his girlfriend and tells her to go and she practically runs for a section of books. We stand there awkwardly for a moment, but then Dexter starts rubbing his head on the tall boys leg "he seems to like me!" and I laugh "give him time growth spurt!" he just shakes his head with a small girl "whatever scary Mary!" and I walk past him to pay for my book.
Later at home there's a knock on the door and I open it to see a panicked Rory, who storms in and starts searching my house "Ror, why are you ripping apart my living room?" as she searches she says "I lost the bracelet Dean gave me, he made it for me and I've lost it!" I look at her as she slums down on the couch and smile "it'll turn up, everything in this town finds its way to the surface at some point!" she sighs and stands "yeah, your right. Could you have a look around and call me if you find it?" I give her a hug and nod "defiantly!" and I watch as she leaves with slump shoulders. My heart goes out to her, she seems so upset. I envy what her and Dean, I know Jess is a billion times better for her, but Dean is just so understanding and sweet…ok hold up, what was that? don't think of Dean, Rory's boyfriend, the guy you hate like that! I shake my head and sigh "weird moment!" and shut the door.
As I lay in bed that night, Connor beside me I look up at his sleeping face and I shrug out of his arms, grabbing my robe rather than his shirt to cover me and go to my window, as I look out I feel sad and lost, then look at Connor and repeat in my head 'he loves me and I love him he loves me and I love him….don't I?'