"Even if I wanted to end it, Remus, I can't. I missed that boat by a month. To end it now could kill me. Do you want that? Do you want me dead?" Lily saw Remus' eyes darken. Sirius was just looking at him, a look of pain etched along his face. Lily wondered if they even remembered she was there. She cleared her throat. The two looked at her. Yup, they forgot.

"May I speak?" Lily asked Remus. She had an idea. Remus nodded silently.

"I think no one has to know about this. People have covered this secret up for years. Raise the child like it was adopted. Forge adoption papers." She remembered a story she read, a biography of a famous wizard who found out on the day he watched his adoptive father die, that he was a child of male pregnancy.

"Oh, Lily, you make it sound so easy." Remus replied. His voice sounded both defeated and annoyed. He must have thought her so naive. "If hiding from the wizard world and ministry were that easy, then my parents could have hid the fact that I was a werewolf! It can't be done! The ministry will find out! The world will find out! It takes one person! One single, tiny person to get on your bad side and everybody knows!"

Lily was about to retort when he apparated away.

Sirius threw himself back on the couch where they were working on sewing and stared at the half made clothes. His eyes became fiery as he grabbed them and threw them into the fireplace. Lily's heart ached as she saw her friend curl up and start balling. She took out her wand, and with a silent wave took the now burnt clothes out of the fire and repaired them. With another wave of her wand she set the needle and thread to work on their own, sewing the clothes. She conjured up a basket of yarn and set that to knit a few brown and gold blankets. She sat by Sirius, now in the fetal position, his head buried, and put his head in her lap.

"Shh." Lily practically hummed the words, stroking Sirius' head. "Everything will be okay, Sirius. He's drunk and confused. That's all." She knew what it was like to be called a freak, having it called to her by her sister so many times before. One vivid time being when Dumbledore told Petunia she could not go to Hogwarts.

~x~

Lily felt a pain in her heart. She could tell her sister was upset. "... I'm sorry, Tuney, I'm sorry! Listen-maybe once I'm there-no, listen, Tuney! Maybe once I'm there, I'll be able to go to Professor Dumbledore and persuade him to change his mind!"

Petunia looked at her with anger in her eyes. Or was it jealousy? "I don't-want-to go! You think I want to go to some stupid castle and learn to be a-a... You think I want to be a-a freak?" The word freak resolved around Lily's mind as she felt as if someone was clutching her chest. "I'm not a freak. That's a horrible thing to say."

Petunia looked at her with hatred. "That's where you're going." Her voice was malicious, cold. "A special school for freaks. You and that Snape boy... weirdos, that's what you two are. It's good you're being separated from normal people." The word normal hit Lily like a brick wall, "It's for our safety!"

~x~

A voice snapped Lily out of her memories. She looked down at Sirius. "I'm sorry, Siri, I didn't catch that."

"I said thank you for trying to comfort me, but I want to be alone. James seemed upset today when I talked to him. You best be with him."

"Are you sure? I can stay. James is a big boy, he can handle himself."

"Lily, I don't want another relationship to be at risk because of me. Go to your fiancé. Please."

Lily looked down at her hand. She was still stroking Sirius' hair. She looked at her ring finger. The diamonds glistened back at her, smiling. "Alright, Siri, I'll go. But if you need anything, you know where to go. James would love to have you as well." She kissed Sirius on the forehead before getting up and throwing a handful of powder into the fireplace. When the flames roared green, she stepped inside them. "James Potter's den."

Lily was not the most graceful floo traveler. After landing smack on her face in the middle of the den, got up and dusted herself off.

"Lovely of you to make it, dear." James said. She looked to her right to see him sitting in one of the chairs by the fire. On the stand next to him were two empty bottles of firewhisky and a half a bottle of scotch. James himself was drinking coffee.

"James, you didn't drink all of this yourself, did you?" Lily said, knowing how rowdy James got when he was drunk.

"No. The half bottle of scotch and one of the bottles of firewhisky was Remus. The other bottle was only half full when I finished it off." Lily put two and two together.

"Remus was here?" She played dumb, not wanted James to change the story in fear of getting in trouble.

"Mhm," he said through a mouthful of coffee. He swallowed and put the cup down before finishing his sentence. "It was strange. He started talking about that little joke again. Asking what I would have thought if Padfoot was actually pregnant." James laughed at this thought.

"And what did you say to him?" Lily felt the blood drain from her face and a feeling of dread settle into her stomach. James got up and stirred the fire before answering.

"I told him Sirius would be a freak. I mean, we all picked on each other back in Hogwarts, so I figured Remus was vulnerable and wanted to hear me in a nostalgic way."

Lily felt the anger burst out of her. Her vision went cloudy from the rage. "SO IT'S YOUR FAUL!" She heard a voice remarkable like her own say before hearing a slap.

"Ow! Lily what the bloody hell! What are you talking about?" Another slap "STOP SODDING HITTING ME!"

She heard her voice scream agian "YOU ARE THE REASON REMUS SHOWED UP, CALLED SIRIUS A FREAK AND THEN LEFT!"

"Lily-Lily sweety! Calm down!" She could tell James was scared. She closed her eyes, took a few breaths, then as she felt the anger subside, not vanish, but subside, she opened her eyes. James was cowering, two fresh red marks from her hand and a cut from her ring on each cheek. She realized just then that she slapped him and then back handed him with her left hand. She looked down at her ring to see the diamonds shine red with blood. Realizing this, she sunk to the ground, and sobbed. The anger being replaced with remorse.

She waved her wand and the red marks and scratches vanished from his face. "I'm so sorry James. I don't know what came over me."

"Why did you just attack me!" It was James' turn to be pissed. "I did nothing wrong and you just went off on me! What do you mean Remus showed up and called Sirius a freak! I said Sirius would be a freak if he was pregnant, not in normal life!"

Lily felt the anger grow back. "You sod! He is pregnant. It hasn't been a joke! Everything about Sirius being with child has been correct!" With that, Lily opened her purse and flung the leafs Siriu had given her in James' face.

James sat down and picked up the leaf. The cover was showing a younger couple, one with hair similar in color to her own, and one with yellow blonde hair. The red head was holding a baby and both were looking at the child smiling. The leaf had golden block print across the top, reading "Male Pregnancy: The myths and the facts." James' face went from confusion to disgust in a matter of minutes. He's at delivery, she chuckled. James looked up. "What's so funny?"

"You are at delivery."

James' face twisted into anger. "Shit the baby out! This joke has gone way too far!"

Lily felt blood rush to her face. His ignorance and stupidity made her blood boil. "It's not a joke, you dolt! Would you like me to show you!"

Before he could say anything, Lily got up, grabbed him by the arm, and threw a fistful of floo powder into the fire. She stepped into the green flames with James in tow.

"SIRIUS BLACK'S LIVING ROOM" She bellowed.