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We all stared at Joe in complete shock and judging by the look on his face he was just as surprised as everyone else by what happened. He was just sitting staring at his hand almost like he was trying to magically fix the glass again.
I offered to clean up Joes hand and we had barely left the room before the parents were talking again, Ash and Kevin were kissing again and Nick was just looking down.
We walked upstairs together in silence and then told Joe to go sit in the bathroom while I got some tweezers from my room. When I walked back into the bathroom I saw Joe sitting on the edge of the bath looking down at his hand. He looked so miserable and vulnerable that I couldn't stop myself running over and giving him a hug. I must have taken him by surprise because it was quite a while before he responded.
I pulled back a bit and looked down at him and slowly he raised his head and our eyes met. There was a feeling inside me that I couldn't describe but subconsciously I started leaning down towards Joe. I managed to stop myself before Joe noticed anything. At least that's what I hoped
"So let's sort out your hand." I said taking a seat next to him on the bath and picking up his hand.
As I was picking out the glass from Joes hand I decided to ask how and more importantly why he did it.
"So what happened down there?" I said while gesturing at his hand.
"I just held it a little too tightly," I raised an eyebrow at him to show I wasn't buying his story "seriously."
"Fine whatever you say" I said shaking my head as I cleaned up all the blood on his hands.
When I had finished with Joes hand I was still holding it and we both looked up and our eyes met again. I felt myself leaning in but I also noticed that Joe was leaning in as well. We were barely an inch apart when suddenly Nick burst through the door. Which I am quite glad about as I should have just left it well enough alone.
"Hey Joe is your hand ok?" He said barely noticing how close we were. I was too shocked at by what had almost happened between Joe and me.
"Yeah I will alright" Joe said as I got up to walk the door "hey Em where you going."
"I am just going to ... I will be in ... yeah" I said walking out the door. What the hell was that I never had moments like that what was happening to me?
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I was pacing up and down in the room still trying to work out why I couldn't talk before after the moment with Joe. Then I heard the door open and saw Ash walk in sit on the bed.
"Hey Ash what you doing in here?" I said stopping pacing and turning to look at her.
"I came to see what the deal was with you and Joe."
"It's a long story." I said sighing.
"Well I have all night." She said tucking her feet underneath her in order to get comfy indicating she wouldn't be leaving for a while.
"Are you sure you can be away from Kevin that long?" I asked hoping she would stay because I really wanted to talk to someone and sort out everything that I didn't understand.
"It's alright I got Kevin working on Joe," She said while I rolled my eyes, when did they become that couple who felt that their relationship was so perfect that they should help others with theirs. I am glad she came to talk to me but half of me wishes she had just left well enough alone.
"Now start at the beginning and when you get to the end" she paused for a minute as if trying to work out how to end her sentence "stop," I raised an eyebrow at her but she ignored me and gestured for me to continue.
"Well ever since I got here Joe has been acting weird around me he can barely finish a sentence around me anymore. Then he punched Rob when we kissed ..."
"Wait a minute you kissed one of Joes friends, are you completely stupid?" she said in mock shock because she know what I was like.
"Please leave your questions until the end, now where was I. Right Joe punched Rob and then we got into a massive argument and we never fight and that's when I got lost in the woods that night," she nodded along with my story so I continued "then the look he gave me and Nick when we caught us kissing ..."
"Whoa Nick as well?" I turned and gave her a look "Right sorry questions at the end."
"Yeah he looked at me like he was disappointed in me and it hurt me so much and I don't know why because I never care what people think of me," I paused because I could feel my eyes welling up and I couldn't explain why "and then when I was cleaning his hand I almost kissed him and I felt this feeling inside me which I have been getting a lot around him recently and I don't know why and it scares me." I was full blown crying by the end of it and I felt so pathetic I didn't cry it was just something I would never do.
I couldn't stop myself from crying and what made it so much worse was that I didn't even know why I was. I felt myself slowly sink to the floor and then I felt Ash's arms wrap around me and I leant into her.
She rubbed my hair while trying to soothe me and get me to stop crying and it worked every time.
"God Ash I am so pathetic what is wrong with me."
"Shhh honey you're not pathetic you're just in ..." she stopped when she heard the door open.
"Just came in to tell you" my mother stopped midsentence when she saw me crying in Ash's arms "God Em you can't handle not having the attention all on you for one minute can you." She said looking at me with disgust.
"Mum now is not the time." Ash said in a stern voice that I had never heard her use on our mother before.
"Sure sure" she said with a dismissive hand wave "I just came to say we are going out tonight so it will just be you kids tonight if you can pull yourself together."
"Mum go now." Ash said in the same voice while pointing to the door. Mum just shook her head and walked out the door.
"Thanks for that Ash" I said hugging her and what she had done for me caused me to cry even harder.
"It's alright honey." She said kissing me on the top of my head. "Now you were saying."
"Ash I don't understand why I feel this way but what makes it worse is I can't even explain what I am feeling" I said feeling a fresh batch of tears threatening to fall.
"Em I understand why you feel this way because four years ago I was in your exact same position."
"You were?" I said looking up at her hoping she could shed some light on the situation.
"I remember when I first realised I was in love with Kev ..."
"Whoa in love," I said getting up and out of her arms "I'm not in love with Joe." I said starting to get angry.
"Em calm down, I know this is hard for you to accept but you're in love with him."
"No I'm not! I don't do love Ash that's your deal okay. It's probably just because Joe is hot and I know he's off limits and I am used to getting what I want." I felt tears pouring down my face when I heard what I had just said I realised how ridiculous that sounds but love. Could that really be why I was feeling like this? Unfortunately yes.
"Em it's okay," she said getting up and walking over to me and wrapping her arms around me "you don't have to accept this now but pretty soon it will be too late and you will have missed out on any chance you have with Joe and that will haunt you forever so please think about what I have said okay?" She said while guiding me over to the bed. I lay down on the bed and she curled up next to me despite the fact there was another bed on the other side of the room, not that I was complaining.
"So what are Nick's marks out of ten?" she asked changing the subject. I giggled at her question despite the fact I had tears pouring down my face. It was something we always did after I had a date with a guy.
"Seven defiantly" I said smiling.
"That's pretty high for you Em."
"I know I am surprised too. So what about Kevin's mark out of ten?"
"Hmmm" she said pretending to think about it "Twenty at the least" she said with a dreamy smile on her face.
"You are so cheesy you now that right."
"It's just Kevin he makes me feel so ..." she stopped midsentence as a shiver just took over her body then she just giggled.
"I love you Ash"
"I love you too Em" she said then kissed me on the head and shortly after I fell asleep.
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I woke up and saw that Ash had spent the night in the bed with me and I felt so happy inside. I pulled her into a big massive bear hug which woke her up.
"Morning Em how are you feeling?"
"I'm fine, thanks for last night it really helped." I said giving her an extra squeeze.
"What are sisters for" she said while squeezing me back "anyway I've got to get up because me and Kevin are going out is that okay?"
"Yeah don't worry about it I am fine"
"Alright," she said walking towards the door then glancing back "but think about what I said last night because I think eventually you will find its true." When she left the room I pulled my legs up under my chin and just couldn't stop thinking about Joe and what Ash had said. I still haven't come to terms with what she said.
I sat like that just thinking for about half an hour before Joe came in the room. I felt the fuzzy feeling inside me and then I felt myself shiver all over. Damn Ashley!
"Hey Em do you want to go out shopping with me today?" he said with a smile which made my heart melt. Why am I feeling this way?
"Yeah sure sound like fun I will just get dressed and we can leave."
"Ok cool see you later" he said walking to the door.
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The whole time we were shopping I couldn't stop thinking about what Ash had said to me. For so long I had believed that I would never fall in love it just wasn't me and then suddenly Joe is making me doubt everything I ever thought.
I was so deep in thought that I didn't notice Joe talking to me.
"Sorry what were you saying?"
"I was asking if you liked this bracelet." It was a simple bracelet with charms hanging off of it, it was a really nice bracelet if only I hadn't spent all my money before I came.
"Yeah I really like it's a shame I don't have any money to buy it" I said still staring at the bracelet.
"Who said anything about you buying it?" he said picking it up and walking up to the till to pay for it.
"Joe you really don't have to buy this for me." I said but secretly I was happy about it.
"Don't worry about it Em." He said while handing over the money to the man behind the till.
He took my hand and walked over to the fountain and sat down. He didn't let go of my hand after we sat down just reached into the bag and got the bracelet out and carefully put it on my wrist.
"Thanks so much Joe" I said looking down mostly at the fact he hadn't let go of my hand and inside I felt very happy inside. We both looked up at the same time and our eyes met and once again we were both leaning in.
"Hey Joe," a voice said ruining our moment "oh and Emily." My name was said with so much disgust it could have only belonged to.
"Hey Dani."
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