This chapter was a bitch to write, I must have re written it about ten times. I wanted it to be perfect and I still don't know if I'm happy with it. Anyway I hope you enjoy it. Please review.

ALEX POV

Falling. Slow. Silence. I was in a trance; I couldn't register anything, not even the tarmac that was inevitably coming for me. I closed my eyes and braced for the impact but it didn't come.

All of a sudden there was a rush. Everything sped up. Strong arms held me but shortly I felt their absence again. My head hit the hard concrete and for moment I was motionless. But I was quickly snapped out of my static state when I saw Mitchie. I rushed over to her and a look of horror falls over my face. I don't know what to do, I just look at her. Her lips twitch upwards in what looks like an attempted smile and then she is gone. Her eyes close and she lays motionless.

I sit next to her hospital bed. Her parents had just left to go to the cafeteria and get some food. They asked if id like to join them but I told them I wasn't hungry. I was full, full with torment and distress. I also don't think that I would be able to take the guilt of looking them in the eyes and knowing. Knowing that it was because of me that she was here, lying deathly still. I reached out my hand and it was met with a comforting warmth as I grazed my knuckles over hers. I grabbed her hand and willed her to hold it back. But she didn't. A wave of pure despair washed over me and I finally let the tears that I had been holding back escape. A straggled whimper breaks free from my lips and I rest my forehead against her hand.

I should have told you. I was supposed to tell you.

I love you too.

It felt right. I say it out loud. It feels comfortable, my lips wrap around each word perfectly and I've never been more sure of anything in my life. Why couldn't I be so sure earlier? What trick was God playing? Why did it take seeing you lie lifeless on the road after just saving my life to realize that I loved you too? Why? I find my self cursing the God that I had not to long ago been praying too. How could I not have known? I look at her now. Her dark hair cascades perfectly past her shoulders and slightly curls at the end. My eyes scrutinize her every feature. Her tanned complexion, the slight bump of her nose. The spray of light freckles that she always hated but I loved. Finally they land on her pink, plump lips. A surge of yearning grips me and I lean in. I hover of her and one of my tears lands on her cheek, I lightly wipe it off and then ever so slightly press my lips against hers. I never imagined that they would be this soft, this inviting. I know its silly but I half expected her to kiss me back. I imagine her hands in my hair, pulling me closer. I pull back and picture her eyes staring back at me, brown and warm. Put she doesn't and they don't. Why couldn't I have told her?

"Mitch?" I say as I walk up the stairs, we were way past the point in our friendship where I had to knock on the door. I knew her parents wouldn't be back from work yet and Mitchie never locks her front door, even if she is home alone.

I hear her talking to someone and recognize, as I get closer that that someone is Caitlyn. I decide to wait outside her bedroom door, not meaning to eavesdrop but my curious nature getting the better of me. "I know that this whole Alex thing is hard" Alex thing? "I think that you should tell her you love her" My brain doesn't register the next words. "Love her"? She loves me? What? I decided to make myself known, my curious nature getting the better of me… again.

"You…you love me?" I can't help but stutter, I knew Mitchie liked me, it was obvious, but that's just it. I knew she liked me not loved!. Suddenly the room doesn't feel big enough for all three of us. Well two of us. Caitlyn must have left, I was too lost in thought to notice anything. "Lex..I…I" her struggling attempt to speak drags me from my thought bubble and back into reality. I need to know if it's true. "Well do you?" My voice comes out strange, almost weak. She's still just staring blankly at me. I need to know if it's true. I don't know what comes over me but something inside me demands to hear the words from her. "Damn it Mitch, tell me!" she looks down and I barley hear her whisper, "yes, yes I love you" my mouth falls open and I feel my eyes widen. I can't help it. She loves me? Why? For how long? So many questions swam around in my head. "I'm sorry," She says looking me in the eyes. For some reason I feel something inside me tingle as she looks at me. I need to leave, now. I need some time to think. I need some time away from her. I start to walk away but stop just before the door. I turn around and look at her once more "I'm sorry too" I say, not 100% sure what I was really sorry for. I'm sorry you love me? I'm sorry for leaving now? I'm sorry I have no idea what this feeling is that I'm feeling right now is? I don't know! It was the first thing that came to my mind, my jumbled, messed up mind. I turn back round and exit as quickly as I can.

Why couldn't I have known then? How easily I could of said "I love you too" and walk up to her, place my hands on her hips, stare deeply into her chocolate eyes and capture her lips in a soft, sweet kiss. What if she doesn't wake up, what if the last thing I ever said to her was "I'm sorry too" At least I know what I'm sorry for now. I'm sorry that you love me because if you didn't love me you wouldn't have saved me. You wouldn't be lying in hospital struggling for life while I sit here selfishly breathing. It should be me laying in that bed not you, so I guess I really am sorry too.

So yea, Alex loves Mitchie yay haha. Mixed feelings on how this chapter came out anyway thank you all for the reviews, follows and favorites they really do make me happy. Oh and happy new years everyone! Thank you.