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I've finished my exams so updates should be quicker and a bit longer, should being the operative word: D

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Sara POV:

That was probably the toughest shift of my life, not the case; that was a slam dunk but not talking to Catherine was probably one of the hardest things I've had to do as she kept trying to strike up conversation. I'm now in the parking lot and I spot Nick leaning against his car.

'Hey Sara, I'll meet you back at my place, ok?'

'Sure Nick. I can't thank you enough.'

'Anytime Sar, you know that. But I do think you need to talk to Cath.' I watch his eyes wander behind me and I turn round to see Catherine standing there. I turn back to see Nick already in his car, heading off. I open my door to get in but her voice stops me.

'SARA, WAIT.' I turn round again to see her standing just a metre away from me. 'Can we go back to ours? To talk?' I nod my head and she gives me a weak smile. She heads to her car and peels out of the parking lot, as I watch her leave. I get into my own car, following closely behind her.

Twenty minutes later, I'm standing outside our door, hesitating to go in. Even though I still have my key I find myself knocking and a few seconds later Catherine is standing there.

'You could have used your key you know.' She says as she steps to the side to let me in.

'I didn't want to,' I answer back frostily as I take a seat on the sofa and she comes to sit next to me. I can see the tears glistening in her eyes. I wait for her to talk first as she wanted to talk.

'Sara, I'm so so sorry. You have to believe me, I was just angry. Angry at Lindsay, angry at the boy that's knocked her up and I took it out on you which I shouldn't have done. It just came out in the heat of the moment. I know you would never hurt a child, I know that I do, that's what makes this so ridiculous because I didn't mean it.'

'It wasn't ridiculous to me. You meant it; I could see it in your eyes. As for taking your anger out on me, don't worry I'm used to it. But I did think we were past it, past when you would make a snide comment before we got together. I thought we were past all that.' I'm trying to stay strong because if I don't I will cave in.

'I need you here with me Sar. I need your support, I can't live without you. Work was hell for me without you talking to me. Nick didn't say a word to me in the break room. I hate it.'

'You have always had my support.' I can feel myself getting angry. 'But you threw it back in my face. I told you my deepest secret and you've supported me but then you threw it back in my face. Past lovers, yeah, I would have expected it from, and I had it from. But I thought you were different. You're the love of my life, and I thought I was yours. Obviously I was wrong.'

Tears start streaming down both of our faces and she takes my hand in hers.

'You are the love of my life, you always will be. I love you.'

'I love you too,' I whisper back as she takes my face in her hands, leans forward and puts a gentle kiss on my lips, within a few seconds its getting deeper and I pull back, 'but I can't do this. I can't go back to the way things were. I can't.' I lean back, 'It's my turn to take Lindsay to school. I better go.'

'Sara please don't do this. I love you.'

'I have too,' and in a whisper I add 'I'm sorry.' With that I head towards the door and just before I head out I hear her voice again.

'You know, I would I have said yes.' I turn back to see her playing with the ring in her lap, tears till streaming down her face. I turn away and close the door behind me, my heart shattering into tiny pieces.

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I watch as 'mini Catherine' walks towards the car. I give Nancy a quick wave who is standing at her front door as Lindsay enters the car, I give her hair a ruffle as she scowls at me.

'Hey kiddo, you ok?' I ask as I put the car into drive and make the twenty minute drive to Lindsay's school.

'I didn't know if you would be picking me up this morning, you never called back.'

'I know, and I'm sorry Linds. But work was busy and then when I did have time it was past your bedtime. I promise I will call next time.' Lindsay lets out a huge sigh.

'It's ok. So, where are you staying?' I take a glance at her to see her resting her head against the window.

'At Uncle Nick's for a few days till I find somewhere of my own. I'm sure Nick won't mind if you want to come round.'

'I don't want to bother you.' As we come to a set of lights that are red I lean over and grab Lindsay's hand.

'Kiddo, you will never be a bother to me, never. Even though your Mom and I might not be together, I'll still be here for you. Ok?' She nods her head. 'Good.'

'Sara, can I ask you something?'

'You know you can ask me anything Linds.' I turn to give her a smile as I set off again.

'Well I was looking on the Internet last night at Aunt Nancy's about pregnancy. Well in a couple of weeks apparently I'm due my 12 week scan, I was wondering if you would come with me?'

'Of course I will. What about your Mom?'

'I don't know if she'll want to come, since she is so angry at me at the moment and she doesn't want me to keep it.'

'Linds, your Mom loves you, of course she will want to come. She might be angry at the moment but she just needs time to digest it all. Just give her time, she'll come round.' I take a quick glance at Lindsay, 'so you want to keep it then?'

'Yeah I do.' She says in her firmest voice. 'It's a part of me now. Admittedly it was a big shock at first, and I know it's going to be hard what with school and everything but I want it.'

'Then I will stand by you 100.' I say as I pull up next to her school.

'Thanks Sara.' She says as she gives me a gleaming smile. 'I love you.'

'I love you too kiddo, it's my turn to pick you up today so I'll see you later.' She gives me a nod and heads out the door heading over to her friends.

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Ten minutes later I'm outside Nick's with my suitcase in my hand, figuring he's probably gone to bed I use my CSI skills to find the spare key and let myself in. I make my way quietly into the kitchen to see a note on the top.

Sara,

I have made the spare bed up for you.

Use anything you want too, and help yourself to food

And drink.

If your feeling upset and just need a hug or to talk

Just wake me. I'm here for you

Nick

I smile gently thinking what a wonderful friend he is. I make my way into the spare room, to see it all made up. Even a chocolate on the pillow, I let out a little chuckle. I put my suitcase to the side and flop on the bed, hoping I get some sleep, as in the past six months I have not slept at all without Catherine being with me or near me. I let out a sigh and grab the extra pillow to snuggle into, and let out silent tears as I cry myself to sleep.

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