AN SO I realise that some of the characters in this are a little OOC and Charlie is that, I am basing his character a bit on my Dads who like Charlie in the books has trouble communicating his actions and you never truly understand what he may be thinking. In this Charlies reaction is much like my father's when a member of my family was raped I won't say any more due to spoilers I hope you are enjoying this story as much as I enjoy writing it. Warning this chapter has Bella describing what happened not in huge detail but still some may find it upsetting.

Bella POV

I was once again sitting on the sofa staring at my hands Charlie knew everything and by everything he knew what had happened and what the Cullen's were. This scared me more than him knowing what happened because this knowledge put him in danger. I heard the car and I heard his somewhat clumsy footfalls on the porch the door opened and this time I heard them enter. Looking up I saw the pain he was in and felt utterly guilty, I had wanted to protect him from it I didn't want him to be in pain alongside me I didn't want that for anyone, well maybe I wanted Edward to feel some pain I was still incredibly angry at him.

"I'm sorry daddy" I almost cried and Charlie surprised us all when without a word he came over sat down next to me and pulled me into a slightly awkward hug. I tensed at first but quickly relaxed into it breaking down in tears. I could remember each hug from Charlie that actually meant something the first was the night Renee had taken me away from him when he had held me close at the age of 3 and told me no matter what he would always be my father and that if I ever needed anything he would be there and the other time was when I was twelve and my Grandmother Dyer had passed away he had flown out and he had held me close a bit like he was now telling me everything would be ok and him saying it made it seem like it would be and eventually it was.

"Shush baby girl you have nothing to be sorry for" He soothed stroking my hair I was still muttering apologies between the sobs but somehow it was getting easier to breath because my father who never seemed to know what to say normally always knew what to say when it really mattered and although each of the Cullen's bar Edward as I had yet to allow him to speak to me had told me it wasn't my fault and I had nothing to apologise for my father saying it made me believe it at least in those moments. He didn't let go until I pulled away which was at least twenty minutes later he didn't move away he put his hand to my cheek and wiped away a few tears that were still falling.

Edwards POV

I watched as Bella's father comforted her and was jealous of it, Jasper glared at me and I soon pushed that feeling away when Bella had pulled away there was a new light in her eyes something that had been missing there was hope there now.

'I'll kill them' Charlie's thoughts had never been so clear as the moment he was staring at Bella's blue face Alice's guard slipped and I saw her vision it was Jasper Emmet and Charlie towering over two heaps on the ground I wondered why I wasn't there surely I had some right to deal with the two who had hurt Bella so badly although Bella had made it quite clear my rights were limited.

'we'll talk' Alice answered before quickly guarding her thoughts once more I gave her a quick nod and focused back on the situation. We spoke for hours about everything why we left what we were the dangers Charlie was in just by knowing he didn't care about that his only thoughts were what he could do to help Bella.

"Dad you should go home and get some sleep" Bella finally said looking relieved but when she met her father's eyes she knew he wasn't finished

"Not just yet Bella I need to know some things first I want you to tell me what happened" Bella gulped and looked to everyone at first I thought she was looking for help but then I realised they were all moving to leave Hell no I was not leaving. I didn't get a choice Jasper and Emmet dragged me from the room I was going to fight when Carlisle's thoughts told me not to that I had caused enough trouble and I hung my head in shame as with a quick movement I had wiggled out of Emmet and Jaspers hold and left.

Bella POV

I watched as Edward was dragged to the door he looked ready to fight when he looked at Carlisle whatever he was thinking made Edward pull out of Jasper and Emmets hold and leave of his own free will all I hoped is that it wasn't the last time I would see him.

"Ok" I finally said Carlisle was the only one to stay he went into the kitchen and got us both a drink Charlie ignored his why I used mine to keep my hands busy I still felt so unclean. "I split from the group they wanted to go see a movie and I didn't so I decided to go to the book store then come home…" I paused and took a sip of my drink and Charlie urged me on "I saw my truck I was less than twenty feet from it when hand went over my mouth and pulled me backwards into the ally way." I looked down at my drink unable to look at Charlie "I tried to fight them off I really did but there was two of them and they were so strong they hit me a few times in the head and I was dazed slightly when they… when they removed my jeans it hurt more than anything I have ever felt they took it in turns and when they were done they beat me and then just left me there on the ground naked." My hands shook and Charlie's hand appeared and took the mug so I wouldn't spill the hot contents all over me, we were all silent for a moment when Charlie finally spoke.

"Why didn't you tell me?" His voice spoke of the pain he was in this time I managed to look up into his eyes

"I didn't want to hurt you." Tears streamed down my face

"And what killing yourself wouldn't?" there was a slight anger in his voice which I understood but his eyes told me that yeas he was hurt and angry that I hadn't told him and that I was willing to end my life instead but his eyes still told me he understood.

"I just felt so unclean and worthless I thought you would be better off without me" It was an understatement of what I had been feeling what I was still feeling but I couldn't tell him just how much I wanted to die how in truth the thought about how he would handle it was barely a thought to tell him just how truly selfish it was.

"Oh Bella" he took my hand in his and it comforted me.

"Charlie may I ask how you knew that Bella had tried to kill herself" Carlisle asked

"Well I told you I saw you enter my house you obviously didn't have time to open the window so something was happening also when I left the draw I left the gun in was open when I got back it was closed and when I checked the gun it was loaded" Charlie told us "It didn't take much to add it all together."

"I am so sorry dad" he gave me a sad smile and I returned it.

"Listen Bella I know that everything is complicated not just with what's happened to you but with what the Cullen's are I know what you being in love with Edward means and kid I've got to tell you I don't know how I feel about that," he paused "I want you to make me a promise ok I want you to tell me before you go off and I lose you ok I want a proper goodbye and I don't want it soon I also want you to promise that if you start to feel like the only way out is to end your life that you will come and talk to me to anyone ok" I nodded

"I will dad as for me leaving" I put air quotes around the word "nothing is set in stone" I didn't want to tell him that if Edward choose to stay with me I would become like the Cullen's I didn't want Charlie to think he could intervene with it by warning Edward away. After another twenty minutes Charlie decided it was time to go and I realised it was nearly midnight.

"You want to stay here don't you?" It was a statement more than a question but still I nodded "Ok then I'll come by tomorrow to check on you…" I was about to argue when he stopped me "Don't argue Bella" I smiled and nodded it a final hug Charlie left and I waited it was time to get Edwards answer.

Edward POV

I was sitting In the meadow I could no longer call it mine and I didn't know if it was still ours so the meadow is the best I could do it had lost its beauty to me and I knew why without Bella there was no Beauty left for me to see. 'Edward I need to talk to you' Alice's thoughts intruded I few seconds later she appeared at the edge of the field. Her thoughts once again became guarded.

"Alice why are you blocking me" I asked my tone a little harsh her eyes flashed with anger and she stormed towards me she stopped in front of me her hands balled up into fists.

"Because Edward I made a promise to Bella not to show you what I saw and unfortunately I am having trouble not thinking about it." Her body shook as she fell to her knees dry sobbing "I saw it happen I watched what they did to her and there was nothing I could do because it had already happened" I looked at Alice shocked realising that not only had Bella been through a trauma but so had Alice to be forced to watch someone you love be hurt in such a manner I pulled Alice into a hug as she sobbed.

"I am so sorry Alice I made the biggest mistake of my entire existence and you and Bella are paying the price I am so sorry and I will never stop saying it" Alice sobbed for a while longer but eventually pulled away in slightly better spirits

"You are an idiot" She stated

"I nodded"

"And you are going to buy me a car I know just what I want" I saw the car in her mind and chuckled her troubles forgotten at least for a few minutes I nodded and she smiled but it didn't last "I can't stop seeing it" she looked down "things keep sending me back Carlisle thinks it might be a vampire version of PTSD" she chuckled darkly "I know it will stop I have seen myself happy again with Jasper smiling but right now…" She shook her head "I keep getting visions of them even now I know where they are"

"Alice why am I not with Emmet and Jasper instead of Charlie." I asked she looked into my eyes

"Bella asked me to guard my thoughts so you wouldn't see…" I closed my eyes

"It makes sense she wouldn't want me to hear it from them" Alice nodded "Charlie is set on killing them he will tell Bella in a few days Jasper and Emmet will go with him"

"Alice? Will Bella forgive me?" I asked knowing I had already chosen to stay meant she might be able to see.

"I see you two smiling and happy together so I think so but I think you have a lot of making up to do" I nodded in agreement "anyway lets go get the others Charlie is leaving in a few minutes and we can go back Bella wants her answer" she stood offering me her hand and I took it, It was time for me to tell Bella.

AN ok so one little issue is Bella saying how selfish her actions were just to clarify she sees now how her actions were selfish at the time she thought it was the best thing for everyone. I pulled on my own experience a little. I bet you didn't see that it would be Charlie with Jasper and Emmet like I said using my own experience my dad didn't kill the person who hurt my family member but he wanted to so i thought in this Charlie could get to do it. I don't know how many more Chapters there will be next one Bella and Edward talk and then i might do a time jump with a chapter to explain whats happened I want to get to what i have planned. Hope you enjoyed it