I woke up that evening without remembering having fallen asleep. Images of Santana and I together flashed before my eyes. I opened my eyes to see the beautiful Latina lying next to me still naked and asleep. I guess we wore each other out with our intense lady loving. I slid my arms around her trying not to wake her and I nuzzled my face into her neck. I wanted to go back to sleep and cuddle with her forever. Unfortunately, I heard my phone buzzing on the nightstand next to the bed. I reluctantly pulled away from Santana and grabbed my phone heading into the bathroom to answer.
"Hi Mom." I breathed into the phone after shutting the bathroom door behind me.
"Hi sweetie, sorry I missed your call. I was at work and I just got home. How's Sandusky?" She replied. I smiled thinking of the only experiences I've had so far in the city and they all involved Santana.
"Mom… it's amazing. I haven't seen much but… I met someone and I think I'm falling in love. I know it's only been a day but I just can't help the way I feel." I admitted. I had always been open with my Mom, I told her everything. She knew about all the boys and the girls that I'd dated back home.
"Really?! That's amazing. Who is this special someone you're talking about? Is it someone you work with?" She asked sounding excited.
"Her name is Santana. She's smart and beautiful and funny and just amazing in every way. I can't even explain the way she makes me feel when I'm around her it's like she's the only thing in the world." I explained. I could tell she was smiling on the other end because her breath hitched and she was silent for a moment.
"I'm happy for you honey, I hope everything works out for the best." She said. I smiled into the phone because my Mom was the best. She was so supportive of me and always wanted me to be happy.
"She's actually asleep in the other room so I'm going to let you go, I'll call you soon Mom I love you." I said.
"I love you too babygirl." She said and we hung up. I quietly made my way back into the other room and Santana was sitting on my bed fully clothed. I was still naked walking around and didn't mind one bit.
"Hi." I said sitting down on the bed. She turned towards me and smiled softly.
"Hey. I woke up and you weren't here… it kind of freaked me out." She admitted. I smiled at her and took her lips into my own. She kissed me back but it was hesitant and stiff unlike before. She was holding back and I was instantly worried that she regretted what we had done earlier.
"I was on the phone with my Mom. Is everything okay?" I said with questioning eyes. She forced a smile and I felt my heart crack.
"Yeah, everything's fine. But I need to go. I have some things I need to take care of." She said getting up off the bed and walking towards the door. I watched as she walked out my door and shut it behind her feeling my heart shatter inside my chest. I wanted to ask her to stay. I wanted to stop her but I couldn't find the strength. I couldn't even breathe, I couldn't believe this was happening.
I was so confused, one minute we were naked wrapped up in one another and the next minute she's closed off and leaving without any real explanation. I felt tears stinging my eyes and my throat was scratchy and dry. I didn't want to cry. I didn't want this to be happening. I had pushed things too far. I should have just listened to her and not pushed her into something she ended up regretting.
I curled up into a ball on my bed and I let the tears flow through me. My body shook with every sob and I clutched at the sheets I'd just been sprawled across with Santana. I cried myself back to sleep and I didn't dream of anything.
I woke up later that evening to darkness surrounding me and I felt empty. I checked my phone and it was already eight o'clock. I had a few texts but none of them were from Santana.
From Lucy Q: How did it go with your perfect woman? –Q
From Rachel: Quinn informed me you met someone and I cannot wait to hear all about her. –Rachel Berry
To Lucy Q: Quinn she left. We had amazing, mind blowing sex and fell asleep naked and then I went to the bathroom to answer the phone for my Mom. When I came back into the room she was awake and dressed and I don't know why. :[ -B
To Rachel: Ugh. I don't want to talk about it Rachel. It's nothing. I thought it was something but I was wrong. –B
Before I could set my phone down Quinn was calling me. I didn't want to answer but I knew that she would just call back if I didn't.
"Hello Quinn." I said.
"Brittany, what happened?" She asked sounding concerned. I decided it was best if I started from the beginning. I told her everything from the minute I met Santana when I fell into her on my way to my apartment. I told her about the party and the kiss and about breakfast this morning. She listened quietly saying things here and there to show me that she was still with me.
"I'm sorry Brittany. I can tell you really like this girl. It seems like she has a lot of boundaries built up around her and maybe she was freaked out because she really feels something for you too. Give her some time and she'll come around. She's probably scared to let you in; maybe she's been hurt in the past." Quinn explained. She always knew how to make me feel better.
"Maybe you're right Quinn. I just, I feel horrible. I feel like it's all my fault. I should have just listened to her and given her time to open up to me but I couldn't control my horse moans." I replied.
"Hormones." Quinn said.
"That's what I said Quinn." I replied frustrated with her correction.
"It's okay Brittany. It's not your fault. It's obvious that she wanted it to happen just as badly as you did or it wouldn't have happened. Just give it time. It will all work out the way it's supposed to, that's a little thing we call fate." She said. How was Quinn so smart? No wonder she went to Yale. She was back home for the summer and I really wished I could spend time with her while she was so close.
"When are you coming to visit? I miss you and I am not that far away. It's only two hours and you can stay in my apartment. I'm pretty sure the couch has a pull out bed." I said changing the subject.
"I miss you too. I figured you might want to wait like a week or something so that way you can really miss me and get your new job started and have all these exciting cool places to show me." She said laughing into the phone.
"I'm just really lonely right now with this whole Santana situation. I guess I can wait a week." I admitted. She sighed into the phone.
"We can skype anytime you want B. You're not alone, you'll always have Rachel and I." Quinn said.
"Thanks Quinn. I'll let you go. I'm going to go for a run and clear my head." I replied.
"Okay, night bumblebee. I'll talk to you soon. Keep your head up." She said before hanging up the phone. I put on some sweatpants and a sweatshirt before grabbing my iPod and heading out the door. I secretly hoped to see Santana in the hallway but there was no sign of her. I didn't bother using the elevator and went straight for the stairs.
Running was relaxing for me, it took my mind off of any problems I was having and helped me clear my mind. I ran and ran until I couldn't breathe and my lungs were screaming at me to head back home. I was gone for over and hour before I got back to my apartment and took my third shower of the day. I was exhausted after today's events even after my naps. I laid down in my bed and drifted to sleep.
The next morning I woke up to the loud ringing of my cell phone on my night stand.
"Hello." I groaned into the phone half asleep.
"Ms. Pierce. I expect to see you at rehearsal this afternoon at 1 pm sharp." I recognized the voice on the other end as none other than Jesse St. James, my new boss.
"Okay sir, I'll see you there. Thank you for the opportunity to join you this summer." I said before we hung up the phone. I looked at the time and groaned once again when I saw that it was only 8:30 am. I tried to close my eyes and fall back asleep but I knew it wasn't happening. Without thinking twice I picked my phone back up and opened a blank message to Santana.
To Santana: Hi. -B
Once again, hi was all I could think to say. I laid in bed for minutes that felt like hours before getting a response.
From Santana: Good morning. -S
To Santana: Want to get breakfast before we have rehearsal later? –B
From Santana: Sorry, can't. I'll see you there tho. –S
I wasn't going to push any further. I knew she was avoiding me because of what happened between us yesterday. I wasn't going to let her go that easily but I wasn't going to pry either. I would find my way into this girls heart even if it takes everything I am to get there.
I got out of bed and headed down the block to the diner Santana had taken me to yesterday for breakfast. When I got there I saw Sam and Puck sitting at a table together eating breakfast.
"Hey Brittany. Come join us." Sam said smiling that huge grin of his. I decided it'd be better than eating alone so I took the seat next to Sam.
"Damn girl, what vampire have you been hanging out with?" Puck said pointing to my neck.
"I don't know any vampires, but it would be so awesome if I could meet the cullen family." I admitted not knowing what he meant by that.
"That's a huge ass hickey on your neck girl." Puck revealed as he poked at the tender flesh. Great, I thought, a reminder of Santana and our sexy afternoon delight. He smiled wider as my face turned glum and a frown appeared.
"Okay, looks like you don't want to talk about it." He caught my drift and dropped the subject. I could tell by Sam's face that he was jealous that the marks weren't from his unusually large lips.
"So do you work today?" I asked trying to change the subject.
"Yes, we both work at noon. Sam's running the raptor and yours truly is doing the announcements for the riders." Puck said smiling and pointing at himself.
"What're you doing for your job?" Sam asked curiously.
"Santana got me a spot in luminosity, I'll be dancing." I replied.
"That's awesome. I'm so coming to one of your shows. It's gonna be amazing no doubt." Sam said nudging me as my waffles arrived at the table.
"I sure hope so. My first rehearsal is today and I'm so nervous I could poop out a chicken." I replied and chuckled slightly.
"You'll do great, I know it." Sam said smiling at me.
"Alright Bro, I got some errands to do before heading to work let's blow this joint." Puck said standing up from the table as I was eating my waffle.
"It was good seeing you Brittany, hopefully I'll see you later." Sam said as he got up and followed Puck to the door.
I was sitting alone in a diner eating breakfast by myself, wishing Santana were here.