Tris POV
I stand in the training room, shocked. Did he just break up with me? I don't know how long I'm standing there before my knees buckle beneath me and I'm curled up in a ball on the cold floor. The tears start and I fear that they are never going to end. I want to crawl out of my skin, and become nothing. Did he mean what he said? I thought we were okay. I thought I was safe from pain, but this is a whole different kind. It feels like someone has their hands wrapped around my neck, allowing me just enough air to stay alive. I finally doze off.
When I wake up I'm in the initiate's room. I sit up looking at the figure sleeping on the bed next to me. I feel relief. Tobias, he's come back for me.
"Tobias." I say quietly.
I rest my hand on his cheek, and that's when I jump. It's not him.
"Tris." I hear the strangers sleepy voice.
"Who are you? How did I get here?" I shout.
I quickly back away from the figure as they stand. My eyes haven't adjusted to the darkness yet. Making it impossible to make out any features.
"Tris, It's Peter. I found you in the training room, you were freezing cold. Sorry if I scared you."
Peter? Again? What does he want from me?
"Why are you doing all of this, being nice and trying to be friends. Flirting." I ask coldly.
"Well, when everyone was telling me about how I used to be, they told me how hateful I was towards you. I want to make up for it, I was cruel. I'm not that person anymore, and I don't know how I ever could have been. You're pretty, and strong. I was a fool." He replies.
I sit there, shocked, for the second time in one night. Can I forgive him? He's not who he used to be. No I can't, every time I walk past the chasm I'm reminded of his rough hands, holding me over it.
"My boyfriend left me because of you." I barely choke out the last part.
"What? He's dumb-"
"Don't, can you just leave me alone." I reply
When he doesn't move to leave, I pull my knees to my chest and hide my face in between them and my arms. I know I shouldn't be angry at Peter. I should be mad at Tobias, for abandoning me, after swearing so many times that he loves me. I could never imagine leaving someone I love.
"Tris?" I hear his voice. Tobias. I want to run, far away, but I'm frozen sitting here on the bed.
When the light comes on, I squint until my eyes adjust. Tobias face hardens when he sees Peter next to me.
"What do you want?" I spit out.
"I came to talk to you, but clearly someone else is already doing that." He says, his tone clipped.
I want him to walk over here and fold me into his arms and never let me go. I also want to tell him to get lost. I need to talk to him, even if I don't want to. I look over at Peter, hoping he will get the hint. It takes a few awkward seconds but he finally gets it and walks out of the room. I look over at Tobias who stands on the other side of the room, his arms across his chest. Blocking me out. I mirror him and keep my knees pulled tightly close to my chest.
"You wanted to talk, talk Tobias." I say.
"Why were you in here with him?" he says accusingly.
"You broke up with me not even 5 hours ago Tobias. Am I really the type of girl to go around sleeping with random people? Ones that tried to kill me not even 6 months ago, you said you wanted to talk about something, and I doubt he is what you wanted to talk about so get on with it." I say.
I see a hurt look flash across his face, before his four mask is back on.
"I wanted to apologize, and tell you I was being dumb. I don't want this to end." He says quietly.
"Tobias, you can't just say you want to break up every time you get upset. Especially when you're mad about something I can't help." I frown.
"It wasn't even about Peter. I'll admit it pissed me off, but it made me mad that I was mad about him. You don't need me being protective. You've proved time and time again that you can take care of yourself, and you've also proved multiple times you love me." He replies.
I let out a deep sigh. I don't know what time it is, but I reckon it's almost early morning, and we need to be up at 7 because the initiates come today.
"I think we need some time apart. Especially since the initiates are coming. Rules are rules, and we can't be focused on each other while we train them." I say, looking down at the ground.
"If that's what you want Tris." He says.
I hear him, rather than see him walk away. I thought if he had come down here, I would jump at the idea of staying together and letting go. Only when I saw him, all I felt was pain, and frustration. I lay back down and wrap myself up in my blankets. I feel like crying but no tears come. I eventually fall back to sleep.
Next chapter is going to be longer. I'm bringing in the initiates, and I'm open to suggestions. Names, gender, personality, appearance! I need some reviews. xoxo