I brush a stray hair from your face, kissing the temple softly. I do not wish any more pain on you than I am worth. I rub the knuckles of your small hand gently, in comforting gesture, though I know you are still fast asleep.
Why do I cause you so much pain when I do not mean to? Or I arrive too late?
A knock on the door turns my attention as I see Lord Elrond enter the room.
"Vedui," he greets in our native tongue.
I return the gesture.
"Something troubling you young elf?" he asked, staring at my hand over yours.
"Something is my lord," I said, lowering my eyes, "I fear history is about to repeat itself..."
"History?" The former elf lord said questioningly, "you mean your past is reoccurring before your eyes."
"Exactly," I say with a sigh, "Now I'm worried...This is exactly what happened before I left before the fellowship. Even before Gollum's escape..."
"No one blames you for that young prince," Elrond said, "Even us elves can't be perfect all the time..."
I smile at that.
"However, this is serious..." He said, his eyebrows knitting into a serious frown.
"I know, my lord. Should I let things play out or should I intervene?"
"I'm afraid you already have intervened from coming out of The Hall of Mandos as your former self. It is her reincarnated spirit that has captured your heart and calls out to be reunited. Though the physical body doesn't realize it."
My hand reached up to my neck where once a precious jewel rested. A magical jewel that could grant two wishes. One had already been spent for mine and my love's souls to be forever bonded...
The other I never knew if it made through before my entrance to the Hall of Mandos. I had hoped I would meet you inside, but I could not find you anywhere. I asked everyone I met, but had never found you. I met up with Boromir; the former fellowship; and friends we met along the way. Most were there, except the ring bearer himself since he was still in the Grey Havens with his uncle and my kindred folk. Only Aragorn & Haldir of Lorion knew of the person I searched for all this time. They did not see her here when they arrived. I was started to be frightened that she was a wandering spirit of Arda, but an oracle told me otherwise. You had been reincarnated to a developing fetus as we speak. Time follows differently than in the Halls than in Arda.
I asked the gate guardian if I could go as myself, only a year before so I could get used to the modern period. He agreed, saying that the wish upon the precious jewel came through; but not a year before since controlling time was nearly impossible. I agreed and was transported to a strange land. It was not my original home of Mirkwood...or even Arda...
I have lived here now for some time...watching you secretly as you grew. First steps...first birthday...though I signed the presents anonymously, you loved them dearly. I was like a secret friend to you, though I ran when you turn in my direction. I was not going to be revealed to you so soon. Until now...
True, many a time I wanted to reveal myself to you. Like when you mostly need a friend for comfort, but I could not, knowing that then was not the right time.
Until now...
The time is drawing near for time to be repeated. I only hope that I will not lose you again...
My love...