A/N: Hey! I'm back! So sorry, I was in my exams and didn't have much time write, hopefully it was worth it ;) but here is chapter 7! I really hope you like it. And since I have now a little more free time I'm going to rewrite the previous chapters, correct the mistakes etc. just so you know, nothing drastic. Now go on with the chapter.

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You were right. It only got worse. She only got worse and you with her.

Leekie said he doesn't know why the cure is not working, why the cells don't integrate like they were supposed to. He's lying. You know it. It's impossible that he doesn't know what's going on. He tested on her countless times, took samples and observed her from the moment she didn't wake up anymore.

Since she fell into the coma.

Three weeks ago.

Yesterday he announced that he wants to do a surgery on her, taking samples from the masses in her uterus, maybe doing more if he thinks it's necessary. He says this like it wasn't something big, nothing major that could kill her even sooner.

It's probably the way he said it to you that makes your blood boil: Obvious, like she belongs to him, like she's not a human being desperately fighting for her life. Not like this is the woman you love and who dies right in front of your eyes because of him. So you snapped, telling him to get out of the room and don't dare to come back. He's done enough already. He's the reason Cosima is like this. Bedridden, not able to open her eyes anymore, grinning and smiling at you like you're the sun of her world. Motionless, dumb and slowly withering away from you, out of your reach. She already flat lined four times this week but you always brought her back in time before you needed to fear any lasting damage for her brain, but she gets worse and weakens faster than you can find a solution for her.

You were working 24/7 for it. Doing anything, calling anyone who maybe able to help you. Aldous gave you samples of his cure, he says he just wants to help and you take them, believing him or not. you looked into her blood samples from before the treatment and after, hoping you could correct his mistakes. But he also tried to make a pass at you when you had a break down, after Cosimas left lung collapsed and you had to connect her to the breathing machine full time. You slapped him when you felt his hands on your back and feeling his breath on your neck as he tried to kiss you. You mustered all your energy you'd left for this. He apologized immediately, telling you his own fears overwhelmed him, bullshit! You screamed at him that this will never happen again. Not between you two and not when Cosima was still with you. He wasn't pleased but left you alone again. You never cursed so much before. Cosima influences you even now. Maybe more than before. As if you tried to fill the void she created.

Sarah called you. Accepting your plead to examine her. It seems that the infiltrate sequence pulled into their DNA made them sick so you need to examine someone who wasn't affected. She also would give you a blood sample from kira and a few other things you asked her for. Nobody could get close to the little girl since Sarah got her back and you could understand her need to protect her daughter. Still Sarah would come to you so you could examine her. Of course nobody at DYAD knew that. You couldn't risk that, for Sarahs sake. That's the reason you asked permission to examine Alison. As a cure attempt and sickness free, genetic identical you could check on. Leekie shared your opinion and called Alison to come in. They would take her to the institute but it would be Sarah waiting at Alisons home. The plan was perfect. They'd meet at the bathroom in the mall and change their appearance into the other, just in case somebody followed Alison. Her husband was on a business trip and her children stayed with friends. Sarah would bring a blood sample from Alison for the records and you could examine her without getting caught.

She would be there in a few minutes. You still aren't sure if you should do it here, in Cosimas room with her lying in bed, connected to all those machines but you also don't dare to leave her. Not now. Not when she's so close to... . Sarah would understand.

It was just shocking, seeing her like this on all thosemachines keeping her alive.

Jennifers fate was repeating itself before your eyes. She looked more similar to her every day. But you're determined to change her outcome. You had to.

Sarah was shocked to see Cosima like this, you could tell from the look in her eyes that she wanted to ask you about it, bombarding you with questions but she didn't dare. Not wanting to rip open wounds who barley closed and you were thankful for it. You probably would lose all your professionalism as soon as you start talking about her. So you two are there in silence. You only addressing her when necessary and Sarah does the same. The only sound was the monotone sound of Cosimas heart monitor, a steady rhythm and the only thing preventing you from screaming right now.

For the last test you have to give Sarah a small sedative and you wait now until the effects are over before you can send her home and do your tests. You won't bring her in danger by sending her home now. When she slips of her role as Alison she'll be captured by security in seconds just because she wanted to help her sister.

"How's Kira?"

"She's fine. The last weeks have been hard on her but she's smart. She'll get through this."

You nod. There's nothing left for you to say. No topic you could address which interested Sarah too. Just one and you prevent it for obvious reasons.

"How are you frenchie?"

"Fine." Is everything you say. hoping she won't force it more but it's Sarah and you know that she will never let it go.

"Okay, we'll try this again. How are you Delphine? This time without a lie, please." You smile a little, she caught you, of course. You're a terrible liar. But you also lose a little of the composure you tried to hold. The time to let it go will come but not right now, you can't allow it. But even this simple crack in your surface startles you and maybe it's the fear of what you could unleash that makes your voice snappier than Sarah deserves.

"What do you want me to say Sarah? That I'm delighted? Devastated that the woman I love is dying in front of my eyes? That it's my fault because I didn't stop her from falling into his trap or not researching harder to find a cure myself? What would be the acceptable answer for you?"

"Well, the honest one would be nice."

"Then take the devastated one." you snap. Why does she have worry about you too?

"She'll be fine." Sarah says when she notice you watching her genetic identical.

"I hope so. She has to." I don't know who I am anymore without her.

"She called me the night you called me. Before she started to drink." you're suprised and you can't hid it very well from her. You suspected her to turn to Sarah in the first place so why are you shocked that you're right now?

"She said that she'll try something new which is very likely to fall but which is her only option." She planed it, of course she planed it. Sarah just confirms what you suspected all along. Cosima wanted to anger you so you would stay away from her, maybe even leaving her. Why can't she see that you'll never leave her? And in this state of her illness she'd need to hold you away by force, which she did in a way. Now she's as far away as ever. Out of your reach and protection. You can't imagine what it would've been like if you found out later. If Leekie called you to tell you she was in a coma when you were working at home, waiting desperatly for her to come back. Your gratefull she didn't do that to you and that she changed her mind, probably even got scared of being alone then. She told Sarah that her chances were low in the first place, she knew. But you knew it too and didn't stop her either. There was this little bit of hope, this small chance that it would work and actually cure her, which other options did she really have?

"In case she's not gonna make it, I should take care of you. Make sure you're not doing anything rush." Sarah's not saying it directly but you know what she means because you can't say you haven't thought about it before. What will you do if Cosima would really leave you. Follow her? Then you think of all the broken teenagers and articles which say that killed themself because their loved one left them. You never could understand it. Always thought that the lost love must be the drop to finally decide it but not the main reason. After her last crash you found your mind wandering to easy ways to end it, briefly, but you were horrified to notice they were even there. Would those thoughts get stronger and more persistant? You weren't as strong as you always thought you were or maybe she just made you weaker. No, not weaker. Cosima just took your strength to different levels. Made you value different things in life. Stars. People, butterflies, animals, the smell of coffee in the morning, the taste of fresh croissants and marmalade when she brought it to your bed. The belles of Notre Dame, which used to wake you in your past. All those little things you took for granted and learning to treasure just now. You were sure there were thousands of things you could learn from her, but not like this. Not with her being like this and her slowly leaving you.

"She really thinks I'm not capable of anything, doesn't she?" You whisper and you notice a small tear running down your cheek, not carrying if Sarah could see it or not, she's already seen you at your worst or at least not far from it. Hiding would be pointless now. But she ignores it or at least doesn't comment it further, instead she snorts lightly.

"I think she knows you're capable of anything frenchie. That's the reason she called me to stop you." She gets up from the table, testing herself as well as you do. No disorientation, no obvious dizziness, no lost feelings in any body parts, she's ready to go and you can finally work again. She approaches you one last time, taking your hand, hesitantly before she pulls you into a fiercely hug. "I know you can do it Delphine. Don't give up on yourself, or on her. She's too bloody stubborn to give up and let DYAD win. She doesn't want to leave you so you'll have to fight for her, yeah. I know you can do this." And as fast as the hug came it was gone and Sarah left your lab without another word. Leaving you speechless with her honesty.

But you know she's right, Cosima is fighting this, for her sisters, you and herself, for your future together and she'll continue her fight until you'll find something. And if it just for seeing Leekies face when he noticed you did something he could not, she'd love that. So you start your work again and for the first time in weeks you finally feel a glimpse of hope in you.

A/N: Okay...it gets darker. I hope you still like it and think that Delphine is not out of character. Tell me what you think in a review and until next time.